The Gospel of John, the Mandaeans with Dr. James McGrath / Transcript

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James 0:00

So the answer to that question takes me back to my undergrad days. And in fact, I will tell a story that may encourage some people or may just make people say see I knew it. But my first real New Testament essay about, you know, my first real New Testament essay as an undergrad, moving into a sort of university level studies, was on the Gospel of John, and…didn't get a very good grade on it. And I remember the professor saying, “You dog-paddled in a current that needed a strong swimmer. It was about the Johannine community it was the question is about the Johannine community. And I came in from a fairly conservative evangelical sort of background and was assuming that you know, well, scholars are coming with this stuff that I should probably be Pooh poohing it and, you know, and first was unimpressed. But it forced me to crank up the other notch and, you know, get my act together. And so as a major, you know, point it wasn't just because I'm one of the people says, okay, challenge accepted right.

Seth 1:23

Welcome back to the podcast. I'm Seth. Let's do this thing. Yes, I finally did it, sometime before this aired. I don't know when I finally made that little beanie and I'm going to tell you right now it's really warm. Quite a few of you have already picked one up. It is probably by the time this episode releases too late to get one of those for the holidays. But the winter is not over. Fantastic. Go to the store and get you one, I like it, it snuggles my little bald dome anyway, I'm a little excited about it. I'm not gonna lie. But here we go.

So returning guest of the show Dr. James McGrath is back on the podcast and you're going to hear a lot of inside jokes and cross talk a bit. And a lot of that references our first conversation like Episode 10, or 14 or something like that. And so you don't necessarily need to listen to that one first. But I would highly recommend it. But do dive back into that. Listen to it a bit, because some of the laughter at the beginning, you just won't really get if you don't have that context. Not necessarily reading doesn't break the episode, but a little editor's note there. So here's what we talked about. So we talked about the gospel of john, and its importance in the Bible. We talked about ancient aliens. We talked about how to read the Bible a bit. And we also talked about us, a group of people call them in diamonds and I really hope that I'm saying that correctly. It is a love this conversation. I think it's fascinating, and I really hope that you do as well. So here we go.

Seth 3:15

Dr. James McGrath and I say that on purpose because back in the day when I was an idiot, and I still am, I remember posting your episode but the picture on your…the name on the picture that I posted of the episode of you on Facebook actually said Dr. James Butler, because I miss-understood, Butler. I don't know if you remember this or not, but I actually got

James 3:35

Yeah…

Seth 3:37

I was like, You're not the only person I did that. So I kept screwing up because I was copying and pasting on my iPhone. So I no longer make those images on my iPhone. So thank you for your forgiveness that I didn't ask for. And welcome back to the show.

James 3:49

You are hereby forgiven. Not that you needed to be. And I think it's so great that we can do things that obviously allow us to mess stuff up on our iPhones, but the sheer power of those things like was a dream. Yeah, that we had, you know, especially if we were sci fi games just a couple of decades ago. And so we're recording podcasts, disseminating things around the globe, editing images, making memes on these tiny devices that are cooler than anything that was on Star Trek back when I first started watching it.

Seth 4:21

So making memes is my favorite thing to do. I really, really enjoy it, although I stopped making memes. Because I realized I can't take that back off of the internet. And I don't want my kids to be judged upon my poor judgment. Yeah, one of these days when they decide to run for office or something like that, you know, or maybe me.

James 4:38

You don't have to put your name on all your memes.

Seth 4:42

Yeah, but if I go through the effort of making it, I just want credit, you know, just want it. Although I'm certain that whatever words I put on there, they're not mine. That's not why you came on though. So what has been new? You were one of the first handful of, I forget what episode you were, I think 11-12-10 somewhere in there. One of the first few on the show, one of my favorites as well as I listened back through it and transcribed it a few weeks ago, I really enjoyed that conversation. But what have you been up to since the last time that you were here?

James 5:12

Oh, I'm trying to think when that was it exactly what…

Seth 5:15

That was February of 2018.

James 5:20

Okay, so we've basically got about a year and a half worth of stuff happening. Yeah. And so have a number of things. I've been writing number of ongoing book projects, I can't remember which of them I even had on my radar. At that stage…we talked mostly about theology and science fiction. And of course, that something I've continued to write about, have some things forthcoming on Star Wars and Star Trek as the intersect with theology. And we'll be doing some things relate to the Bible and science fiction, black mirror and theology and things like that. I Don't just do sci fi those when it comes to pop culture, have a book contract. For a book I'll be writing together with a colleague on theology and progressive rock.

Seth 6:11

What is progressive rock? Because I feel like that's a big name for anything.

James 6:17

Yeah. So it's not to do with progressive politics or progressive theology or anything like that it's musically progressive and was a big genre, particularly in the 70s and has continued down to the present day. But if you think of bands like Genesis, Emerson Lake and Palmer, Kansas, where there was some pushing the boundaries of what rock music could be engaging with and drawing on classical jazz, other things, transgressing boundaries between genres, things like that. And it's a it's a genre that I've long loved and have a colleague who is interested in loves genre just as much and also Interested in the theological aspects, and is coming from the music side, whereas I'm coming from the religion and theology side. And so we thought we'd do something together on that.

Seth 7:10

When is that out?

James 7:11

We'd have to write it first.

Seth 7:16

I thought that how it worked was that they give you money. And then you have to write.

James 7:19

Well, this one was one where I already had some other things in the pipeline. And so I was like, Okay, this, we will put together a proposal so that we start working on it, we will submit it to a publisher to see if there's interest to so that we have encouragement to write it and then we will give ourselves enough time as we tie down the details to be able to Yeah, work on that. And then I am actually doing things on Biblical Studies, which is my old haunting ground and have not left it behind even though I started dabbling in other things and they've turned into not just side interest but full fledged research and teaching areas. But have projects related to John the Baptist, and Jesus and women that I'm working on. And one thing that is very, very near to release is the Mandaean Book of John, which is…

Seth 8:12

How do you spell that, what is that?

James 8:14

So the Mandaeans are the essentially the last surviving Gnostic group from ancient times who made it down to the present day. And they have sacred texts and dialect of Aramaic. they admire John the Baptist, not so big fans of Jesus. They have sacred texts that mentioned john the baptist and Jesus and other figures. Baptism in living water that is flowing water, right? And the Aramaic idiom is their central ritual. And they're just a fascinating group that used to get a lot of attention from New Testament scholars when they thought that maybe these folks are the background to the Gospel of John and things like that. When it became clear that you can't just plug them in and that way, then there was a downturn of interest.

And yeah, some of their sacred texts had not been translated in English in their entirety, at least not in a translation that was direct from the available manuscripts, in the original languages. And so we had a project to try and rectify that.

Seth 9:25

That sounds fascinating. And I say that because I literally hours ago wrapped a conversation on Jesus and the Dead Sea Scrolls and how the Qumran. And it dealt a lot with the Gospel of John, and John the Baptist. And so those thoughts are still in my head. Matter of fact, I may have to start asking you questions about that.

James 9:43

That sounds good.

Seth 9:44

Because I do want to talk, I do want to pick your theological brain because your voice specifically on social media, your blog, what I see you writing about, like the way that you talk about theology and Empire and indigenous people and women, and just really, there doesn't seem to be a topic that you won't talk about. Which I like because I'm the same way. And a lot of ancient, archaeological, contextual topics as it bubbles back into the Bible. Yeah. Hareetz, I think is the name of one of the websites that you post often I'm like…I'm in, you get paywalled if you don't turn on incognito mode, well, if you just turn off the cookies, they don't have a clue how many times you've been there. And hopefully, they're not listening and I won't get paywalled a different way.

But I wanted to clarify so when you recently linked back to the transcript of our first conversation, and I wanted to give some context because I feel like you did so there. I had, I guess cut something out. And to be honest, I don't remember of like “Whovian Marcionites”.

Laughter

And so for those that haven't listened to the first episode, I'll link to it somewhere in the show notes probably in the middle or the bottom. They're not long show notes. So there's only so many links, just click on one of those. And go back and listen to that, it is a great conversation, but you we chatted back and forth. You're like we need to give some context of what this means what I'm trying to say? Because we talked a bit before I hit record as podcast or want to do, which is why now I hit record from the moment that you're here. But if I need to, I can back it back in. So can you give context to kind of what was going on there? what you meant by it [and] why it matters?

James 11:20

Yeah, and actually, I'm still getting laughs, it takes a particular context to get any laughs or have people not just look at you puzzled. But in the right context, you get chuckles from this, maybe outright laughter.

So I was just guest speaking in a class at a seminary recently talking about science fiction and theology. And that's the sort of context in which people might get the joke there because you need to know Doctor Who, and you need to know theology and the history of theology and debates about the Canon and Christian Scripture.

Marcion was this famous figure in church history for listeners who may not be familiar with him who got himself sort of chased out of the church that he was involved in Rome and various things. Because he basically took a view that's surprisingly widespread, given that it's been viewed as heresy for so long in the what became orthodoxy

Seth 12:19

You mean currently, it's currently widespread?

James 12:19

It is currently widespread, yeah. Basically to say, “Yeah, well, that's the Old Testament God, but you know, we are the New Testament”. Yeah. And to hear Christians say that is is very interesting. Given that that was his view. And he was declared a heretic, of course, who gets to decide who's a heretic is also one of those interesting things we could talk about. But Marcionism is basically the view that, you know, the Old Testament, you know, the Old Testaments, God is something else not, you know, not a Christian thing.

And you get people who lead in that direction today and you get people who seem to be like, going even further than Marcy, and when did his time as well as all spectrum in between. But when I said Whovian Marcionism you know Whovian Marcionites I basically meant people for whom the whole, the whole what we might call Old Testament of Doctor Who right; so everything before it got revived with Christopher Eccleston, is we don't talk about that we don't care it's not treated like it's a whole different franchise a whole different thing.

And so was making a joke about that which obviously if you're not a Doctor Who fan and don't know the history if you're not a church history geek or something like that, and both simultaneously then this is not even going to make sense much less seem an amusing way of talking about people who forget the classic series.

Seth 13:43

What’s funny is so I when you when you posted that blog post so my pastor had messaged me and he's like, so you're written talked about on the science like what and then I read through it, I'm like, Did I do it wrong? I was like, I listened back through my that's verbatim what we said. And I didn't realize that I didn't really put any context in there. And then so I posted it in so I've got like, A private discussion group, which anybody's welcome to, as long as they answer some questions about, “Don't be a jerk, or I'll kick you out” where people can talk about faith and religion and whatnot. Like it's it's literally about 200 people. It's one of my favorite places on the internet, because it's one of the most authentic places on the internet, the least that I'm aware of, and I posted it there and a lot of people are like, I love Doctor Who. And then they all started laughing as well. They're like, but a lot of people as I'm sure you know, they begin listening to something or begin watching something and and they don't really go backwards. They just start from there and go forwards. Yeah, so they also had no context. And so when they listened to it, they're like, What happened here? I was like, nevermind, it doesn't matter. But good. Yeah, yeah, I knew the context, but that's because I was involved in the conversation. But yeah, let's dial into John. So John is your wheelhouse, right. Like if you go through like your Butler University, little bio page John is your wheelhouse. So why John?

James 14:57

So the answer to that question takes me back to my undergrad days. And in fact, I will tell a story that may encourage some people or may just make people say see I knew it. But my first real New Testament essay about, you know, my first real New Testament essay as an undergrad, moving into a sort of university level studies, was on the Gospel of John, and…didn't get a very good grade on it. And I remember the professor saying, “You dog-paddled in a current that needed a strong swimmer. It was about the Johannine community it was the question is about the Johannine community. And I came in from a fairly conservative evangelical sort of background and was assuming that you know, well, scholars are coming with this stuff that I should probably be Poo-pooing it and, you know, and first was unimpressed. But it forced me to crank up the other notch and, you know, get my act together. And so as a major, you know, point it wasn't just because I'm one of the people says, okay, challenge accepted right.

But one of the things I was coming into studies with, starting out in Bible college and then transitioning into a university degree, was the idea that these four gospels, if they're all in the New Testament, they should all basically say the same thing, right? And once you start studying John, no…John really is different, right? The language is different, the terminology, the events that are included, what's not that there's, there's lots of stuff, the structure, the kinds of you know, there's a lot that makes John stand out. And so explaining that became important to me, as an effort to both pursue something I thought was interesting academically, but also to make sense of this because it wasn't what I'd been led to believe in sort of church context.

And as I looked into it more, as my studies progressed as an undergrad, I found myself encountering two main views, both of which I found unsatisfying. One was the sort of syncretism type approach which says that as Christianity becomes less and less Jewish, Jesus becomes more and more God.

So his divinity increases as you get more and more polytheists coming in, who don't have monotheistic sensibilities, and that didn't seem persuasive to me for a number of reasons. One is that when people convert to something, oftentimes they're more adamant than anyone else is, you know, that's one of the things we believe just, yeah, so just you know, sociologically, that doesn't seem to fit, but also works like the Gospel of John are, you know, profoundly, you know, profoundly Jewish works, right.

I mean, this is Jewish Christianity, or maybe just a version of Jewish Messianism at this stage depending on how you think it relates to the development of Christianity. As a phenomenon, it's becoming distinct from Judaism. But its roots in the synagogue among Jewish people who believe Jesus was the Messiah, seem clear in terms of what it focuses on what it says language that uses things like that. And so I was unpersuaded by that approach, you know, that Morris Casey and others have taken, but a lot of conservatives were simply saying, “you just plant the other gospels, you water them for about half a century and out will sprout the Christology you find the Gospel of John”, you're just by this sort of organic process. And that didn't seem to work either. Because, I mean, Luke - Acts might be as late yet slightly earlier slightly later, but it's not, you know, it's roughly the same time period most related to the Gospel of John, and yet it has a very human Jesus doesn't have this incarnational presentation doesn't have, you know, the son of man who came down from heaven and you know, things like that.

And so, something has to explain the difference, but these two, right? Why does John take things in that direction? And so that's what ended up becoming my doctoral dissertation was coming up with a model for how John could be so different and distinct and yet continuous because John is clearly elaborating things that are there earlier, and is drawing new applications from them and is taking them in this new direction. And so there's continuity as well as creativity and finding a way to make sense of the process that led to that distinctive portrait of Jesus was something that I just cared deeply about. I wanted to make sense of this.

Seth 19:37

What is that way then? So if it's not syncretism, and if it's not a compost mulch, and a massive tomato plant of Jesus, for lack of a better metaphor, (laughter) what do you argue that it is?

James 19:48

Yeah, well, I mean, I suppose it depends on the mulch and what's being added and yeah, maybe there's maybe there's a good metaphor there's I could work with, but I think it's…I think it really is a process of what sociologists of knowledge called “legitimation“. And I, I actually use the word apologetic in my book title, my thesis title, because between apologetics and legitimation, there's very little difference. And most listeners/viewers of this podcast are probably more familiar with apologetics. where you are trying to defend your view is not apologetics. And so I'm really, really sorry that I hold these views. But yeah, comes from the Greek root of the word which has to do with defending your views rather than apologizing for them.

But in the process of making a defense of one's views, one also develops the right one finds new proof texts, one makes new connections between ideas. And in the process of defense there's also development. And that seems to me to provide a model for what's going on in the Gospel John, because we see in the background of this text, these arguments about who is Jesus? Some of those are very much rooted in the same kinds of issues that have already arisen in the Gospel of Mark even. How can this person forgive sins, healing, working on the Sabbath? Who is this guy? Who does he think he is? Isn't this blasphemy?

And the conflict about that seems to have continued and some of the answers, you know, well, here's how, you know, perform a healing, and we're good to go and carry on, that is no longer satisfactory, right? There's been some back and forth. And so John needs to find more persuasive answers both to try to persuade others to believe, but even to reinforce the beliefs that he and the group that he's writing for already hold. And so, in that process, I think, you know, we see this developments happening and so, you already have Matthew, for instance, using the language of you know, the, the pre-existence of the man, you know, language that we find in 1st Enoch, you know, in the parables of Enoch and places like that.

But in Matthew, we don't have you know, Jesus, you know, as The Son of Man who comes down from heaven, that kind of language. And so is this pre-existence in the mind of God? How literal is this? What kind of present? You know, none of that is fleshed out. Yeah, if you don't mind the Johannine pun there. Whereas John does go that direction, because we get a sense of the objections that are being raised, right? We know God spoke to Moses, this man, we don't know where he came from…comes from, right. And John's like, “Well, let me tell you“, and he draws on that and takes some of the that language more literally, and says, Well, how could that be? What would that mean? And therefore Jesus becomes one who can reveal things that no one else not even Moses could? And so I think it's that back and forth that's driving this development that explains how you still have it's still the Son of Man. It's still linked to the things we find in the other Gospels and Paul, but John is doing these distinctive things with it.

Seth 22:52

You said something earlier that when you went into undergrad, or maybe with grad, one of the one of the grads that you came from a conservative background. Do you feel like that's an inherent? I want to be very careful not to pigeonhole people. Because a lot of people are perfectly comfortable where they're at. And I don't want to make their boat hit turbulence for lack…just for reasons. There's no reason to do that. It doesn't serve any purpose. But do you feel like that viewpoint of the Bible gives someone an inherent disadvantage when they begin actually studying the Bible as opposed to reading the Bible?

James 23:25

Hmm. And that's an interesting distinction here making there. Study as opposed to reading…

Seth 23:31

Yep, I only wrote down one question for today. Yeah, this is the one I want to make sure I worded it correctly.

James 23:34

And so I'm glad…I'm glad that the conversations led so it actually to that.

Seth 23:43

We will call that the Holy Spirit that’s what we will do…

James 23:47

Yeah, when I've found myself teaching at Butler University, which is not religiously affiliated, and yet lots of students who've taken courses on the Bible are not only coming from a religious background, but the Bible is important to them for their faith yet there are also students for whom this is a subject of curiosity. They haven't read the Bible at all before they know other people do and they want to learn about it. Figuring out how to meet both of those audiences needs is a challenge. But one question that students often have is, you know, particularly the ones who haven't read it before is, is this a disadvantage? And what I say is that there are advantages and disadvantages for all those students and what they're bringing, right? The amount of interest, the dedication to reading, can provide so much…right? There's an enthusiasm, there's a quest for you know, engaging with the text and looking at the details and paying attention. On the other hand, there are certain things that you're not supposed to see in the text and so you don't or you find ways of if they do jump out at you, and you can't keep yourself from noticing them. You find ways of crafting a narrative around the text that will harmonize those details so that you can say

Seth 25:01

What do you mean not supposed to see?

James 25:01

So for instance, the idea that there could be two different authors, human authors, with two different voices that are saying two different things. Right? Is one of the examples, right? The pieces, the detail is supposed to fit together, right? And when they seem not to it can be very troubling if you're coming from a certain set of assumptions. If you're not coming from those assumptions, then it can be. Yeah, well, that's just the way it is. And wow, that's really interesting. It's interesting that this person does this, this person does that. And so I think that…I think that there are things that [a] particular church context of any sort, as well as having no background of any sort that leads you to approach the text with a sensitivity to, and a receptivity to, what its authors think is important. All of those things provide some potential for making insightful observations as well as some things that may not jump out at us regularly.

Seth 26:25

You referenced earlier and I just finished, again, reading this book on the Dead Sea Scrolls, which talked a lot about the Essenes and they reference Enoch a lot; they reference Ezekiel and certain passages in Isaiah a lot as the reason for being out there. And you know, there's a lot there. And for those that want to listen to that episode, I don't know which one it was. It's, you'll know, if you listen to but there's a lot there.

And so the gentleman that wrote that book effectively says it John the Baptist was probably educated by those in Qumran, which is why there's so much baptism and this and the other stuff and he draws a lot of correlations. And then talking about in consistencies talks about like, you know, the two different liturgical calendar is between like a lunar cycle and a solar cycle, which is why John gives context to, you know, all the timeframe that you need between Passover and crucifixion, and all that stuff. I'm curious. And this may be something that you haven't researched, I don't know, some of your thoughts on that, because you alluded to John the Baptist a minute ago, and I'm gonna say I memorized it with a, I don't know what it's called. I heard Zendaya, which I know is a musician. And you said Mandaea, I think, I think is what you said. So that's how I memorized it. I don't know how to spell it, but that's memorize it.

James 27:31

So that's actually pretty good.

Seth 27:33

I don’t know what that thing's called. You where you correlate to things that sounds similar. homonyms that what is called homophone, something like that doesn't matter. Doesn't matter. Yeah.

James 27:41

Yeah. So I'd be curious whether the other the the other interview at all I'm looking forward to listening to it, but what whether there is a exploration of possible connections with Ezekiel, since you mentioned the Ezekiel. But yeah, the way I got to the the Mandaeans and most people in English say, Mandaeans just because looks like that's one way to pronounce it. I've been trying to make a concerted effort just because this is actually a living religious community.

Seth 28:09

Really? Today!

James 28:11

And, Mandaean, yeah, today. So you can go on YouTube and see what their baptism is like. Right. And that's something in and of itself that makes this a fascinating group, right? We read about baptism and ceiling and other kinds of rituals at Nag Hamadi. For instance, we read about some of the rituals that Qumran right in the, in the Dead Sea Scrolls. And we wish we could see what they do right.

Now, sometimes, there's a difference between you know what was true in ancient times and the way people practice things now, you can't just look at a modern day practice and assume that it's always been like that, obviously. But having a living tradition that's connected with sacred texts, gives you something to work with, that we really feel painfully the lack of if we don't have it. And so the fact that you can read these texts from this Gnostic tradition and see what they do, as living tradition, not just by traveling to Iraq or Iran and looking at them as it used to have to, but going on YouTube and looking at a video, right, there's plenty of them on there. It provides fascinating insight and it raises I think, some interesting questions about John the Baptists practices, because most of our approach to him is shaped by what Christians did with baptism, and what Christians did with John the Baptist as well.

And so bring the Mandaeans into the picture, even though their sources are from somewhat later, just to add something, to triangulate on the historical John, that's my that's my next big John the Baptist project, which I've started working on, but it's going to be a longer term project.

Seth 29:52

Can you break further into that, like so? How, so what do they do differently with baptism? For those that want to YouTube it how do I spell Mandaeans, and I'm asking that for myself. And like, yeah, and he did reference Ezekiel. Yeah, the guy actually referenced that the Essenes would have wanted, they would have been looking for two different priests.

James 30:15

Two different messiahs.

Seth 30:16

Yeah, I'm sorry, I said it wrong. And so John is one, Jesus is the other-is fascinating. And the whole book is actually I've read it a couple times, and I'm still not quite sure that I'm there. But there's so much. And he goes into even Pauline stuff, or they talks about, you know, this is in Ephesians it's almost verbatim in this one Damascus document or whatever. This is in Corinthians. This is in Galatians these all correlate back to John. And they're all right here. So what does that mean? I don't know. But we should talk about it. So it really is fascinating. So the Mandaeans who are they, what are they doing different? are they related at all to the you know, the the Pharisees the Sadducees? Anyone else? Are they entirely separate, like a fourth sect, like, what is that?

James 30:55

Yeah. So there's a lot there to talk about let me start by pick[ing] up where I connected with them. Right…So they are a group that if you work on the Gospel of John as a research area, you'll hear about them. And the reason I alluded to briefly earlier is because middle, early to middle 20th century, a lot of New Testament scholarship thought, these are the background to the Gospel of John in particular, right. They are Gnostic, maybe these are the descendants of the followers of John the Baptist, and Gospel of John seems to be arguing against followers of John the Baptist. And so maybe this is the reverse image that will help us make sense of the Gospel of John better, and why it's different and other things like that.

Their texts are late enough that that's problematic. It's like trying to get at the historical Jesus with the Nag Hammadi texts, right? You know, at least a few centuries later, and our oldest manuscripts are, you know, much much later than that, and some of these texts have been at least edited and redacted and interpolated; post Islam and things like that.

On the other hand, we have texts that are comparably late, you know, think about the the Babylonian Talmud, for instance, where same time period perhaps but we've encountered things in there that are also referred to in the New Testament, other sources that it's like, clearly there are some traditions that have made their way, orally or in written form, or somehow to find their way into these texts. And so I think that if they're used critically, they can be used by New Testament scholars in important ways. But what happened was there was a pendulum swing away from paying any attention to them at all, because some people, most notably, CH Dodd, wrote a book about the Gospel of John and the background to it, which he said, ”Well, maybe they just adopted John the Baptist to fly under the radar of the Islamic authorities to say they were people in the book”, things like that. And that just doesn't fit the evidence. And so I think we need to let the pendulum come back to a middle ground. But as for who they are, right, they are a Gnostic group, much like we find in the Coptic Gnostic sources. So they are distinct in that they mentioned Jesus and yet don't view him favorably…right.

We have texts that are Gnostic that don't mention Jesus from elsewhere. And we have texts that are Gnostic that we call Gnostic, that's the term is debated, but I'm going to keep using it because it's familiar and because it's, I think it's still fits at least in this case. But then there are some which are Gnostic Christian sources, but this is one that's Gnostic, baptizing group that likes John the Baptist doesn't like Jesus thinks Jesus was a would be disciple of John's baptized by him, but was bad news and went off the rails and things like that.

And so you can see why people would think maybe these were the followers of John who didn't become Christians, right. I mean, there's a certain plausibility to it. And I think they may well have at least a connection to that, right. Which is not the same thing as saying that you can just read these texts as though these were, you know, written before the Gospel of John and or the background to it.

So what do they do differently? Baptism for them is a repeated ritual. So it's not something you do once as a conversion. It is something that you do regularly seeking forgiveness, seeking to connect with the light world and to prepare for your journey into the afterlife, into the the realm above. To find your way past powers and, you know, malevolent forces that might be there. Find your way through purgatories that people's souls find themselves in when they have not atone for their sins when they are have not lived righteously. And trying to prepare to find your way to your ultimate destination doesn't work.

And so I think there are a number of things that are relevant to the to the work of John the Baptist there. So for instance, if John was baptizing for the forgiveness of sins, what does that mean? Right and for Christians for whom the death of Jesus is for the forgiveness of sins, then what does that mean for John's baptism? And so how does it relate is one of the questions that Christians wrestled with. But if it's a baptism for the forgiveness of sins, in the sense that it's essentially an alternative to sacrifice, then it makes sense for it to be something that's repeated. And so I think that that aspect of the men die in practice, that's ma n d, a, e, a n. Just so you can find it; do look them up on YouTube, I mesn it is fascinating. You'll probably also find some, you know, some lectures and guest talks and other things that I and others have have given if you start googling them on there, too.

But I think that that aspect of their ritual might actually be closer to what John did. At least it's worth asking the question, and unless we bring groups like that into the picture, we might not even think to ask the question because the alternatives are purity immersions, which is not the same thing as forgiveness of sins and being baptized into Christ for the forgiveness of sins in the Christian sense.

Seth 36:12

You said Coptic, Is that the sense of there's still a like an Ethiopian Coptic church. Are they related at all to that? Or no.

James 36:18

So Coptic is actually the version of the Egyptian language that was spoken around us our New Testament times and into later times, so you'll still hear about the Copts in Egypt, right Egyptian Christians. Ethiopic is the language that the texts like first Enoch, are preserved in in their entirety, because the work became part of their cannon in Ethiopia. And so you have a couple of related traditions there, all which are very interesting. But the Coptic Gnostic sources I'm referring to there, the texts are sometimes called the Gnostic Gospels, which were found at a place called Nag Hamadi, in Egypt, and most of them are thought to have been translated from other languages rather than composed in Coptic, Greek and in some cases, Syriac.

But that's those are the texts I'm referring to. And we see some interesting points of intersection overlap with the Mandaean sources.

Seth 37:19

With those other gospels, like Enoch and whatnot, so they seem to get quoted quite often in Scripture. And or at least the there's like small sections of other people quoting them in the New Testament. And so this is a question that I've wanted to ask you because I see you talk about a lot of different things. And at one point in time over the last years, you've said something like this. So what do we do with those texts that exist outside of the 66 inside Protestantism? What value can they hold? Should they be preached on Sunday and if so, with any disclaimers, like in a Baptist church or in the pick a pick a denomination, the denomination is irrelevant, because they seem to hold weight and authority and inspiration for a long time until they didn't. Which really makes me wonder what happens if there's a new archaeological Find Next week, and it changes scripture, I'm like, Okay, so what's the Bible that my kids have is shouldn't even still be bound in one specific binding? I think it should, because it's easier, but I hope my question makes sense.

James 38:22

Yeah. It's actually a question that I have long used as a classroom thought experiment when getting students to talk about the canon. So if a letter, authentic letter of Paul's is found, tomorrow, not will it but should it become part of the Bible, right, should it be added, and why or why not? And that discussion often gets at some of the key facets that went into making the cannon in the first place, the cannons that we have, because when you talk about 1st Enoch, or Book of Jubilees, that are in the Ethiopic canon, those are pre-Christian works, right. Texts that are from outside of the New Testament and before that, and some of which were clearly known to early Christians, we get allusions to 1st Enoch in the Gospels. But more importantly, we get an actual quote from there in the letter of Jude, which may explain why nobody ever reads the letter, or the postcard of Jude right, this tiny little thing, right.

But clearly, it was a text that the New Testament authors were reading, some of them were reading, but it's not included in most Bibles today, but is included in some and so for that very reason. Like why do some Christians have texts that others don't are important to ask?

Neither of those is gospel. Right. So the things that were found in Nag Hamadi I think we can safely say are later than the New Testament and influenced by it, there are works from outside the New Testament that might be so early that they could be independent, or at least incorporate independent traditions. The Gospel of Thomas is often mentioned as one where that's considered a possibility. The Gospel of Peter, I think is another interesting one, just because of the ending, we're missing the ending as we are in the case of Mark, I would guess; that's my view, in case you're wondering. But, you know, we're missing the beginning and the end of the Gospel of Peter, but what we have before it breaks off before the manuscript from both pages crumbled, or whatever happened to them.

We get things pointing in a direction that might actually help us figure out some things are puzzling about the New Testament, right? I mean, how would that story continue after the women said nothing to anyone because they were afraid or things like that. And so I think that there are important things that one can learn by reading those texts.

Seth 41:14

Hold on one second. I have a four year old. Yes, ma'am. If you're gonna be here, come say hello at least.

James 41:22

Hi!

Seth 41:24

I don't know if you can see or not coming. If you're gonna, if you're gonna see the top of the head, you're gonna interrupt you have to say, hey, here, here you go. Now you can hear him.

James 41:30

Hey, have you ever been on a podcast before? No! This is your first time. I hope that your dad includes this because this is probably the best part of this podcast episode.

Seth 41:41

Oh, that's awful. That's…that's hateful (laughter).

Seth 41:46

All right. You can't stand on the couch. That's not possible. You're gonna get hurt. Sorry.

James 41:53

Well, no, they were her bits are the best bits. Then there's your bits and it is my bits, right?

Seth 41:58

Yeah, absolutely. She's probably as a child, she's probably the most, most Christ like of all of us. So why not…She's walking up the stairs. “Yes, I was on daddy's show”; she’s bragging to the other kids.

James 42:15

And she should she should you don't invite just anyone on here, right?

Seth 42:19

Yeah. Yeah. Well she invited herself on.

James 42:22

I may…I may try that and see if it works on some future occasion just like suddenly, like, try to pop it in and see what happens.

Seth 42:29

Yeah, do it.

James 42:30

But yeah, I think so, if a text is discovered, right, let's say a letter of Paul's, you know, when I get students to talk about that, here's the things that usually come up. One is, you know, what is it right? So, if Paul went off the rails and he lost his faith in his final years, and that's what that letters about, probably shouldn't become part of Christian Scripture, even if it's authentic letter of Paul’s.

If it's, dear Timothy, you know, when you come to see me, please bring a gallon of milk, two dozen eggs and a bag of flour, I'm making pancakes when you get here. That probably should not be part of Scripture. Although it will be less controversial probably than the than the previous one.

Even if it's something that helps us make sense of what's already there, most people are not going to add it simply because it wasn't part of the Bible historically. And for them, that's going to be what matters, right? And so I think the very act of discussing this, what people hopefully realize is that, you know, sorry for those for whom sola script is the slogan, but the Church defined what's in the Bible through consensus building. It wasn't just the Da Vinci Code scenario where Constantine comes in and says, “You got to make gospels, pick your favorites, make sure they make Jesus look really good“ or something like that, right? It's not that but it's the church, debating, arguing, disagreeing about the fringes while converging on some things that the people who are having the conversation actually have all been reading, or most of them have been reading for a really long time. And most of that process happens naturally. And then they debate some things at the edges. But they have to fashion out an agreement. And in some instances, it took a really long time for some to get on board with some of the texts that were at the margins of the canon, such as I mean, the book of Revelation in eastern churches, you know, is one example.

Seth 44:29

Yeah.

James 44:31

And so just thinking about that, I think, forces, you know, Protestants to actually think about something that Martin Luther, as reformer clearly thought long and hard about, he realized that he has to address the question of what is canonical? What are the status of these works? That you can't just take that for granted because he's still living at a time when printed Bibles, you know, between two covers, yeah, this is this is a new thing. And it's not a given in the way that it is for most people. Now, what is the Bible what's available in your Christian bookstore or what's on your app?

Seth 45:04

Let me um, let me shut the door. They're still being really loud. I'll be right back. Let me shut let me…shut the door.

James 45:09

And so I'm going to keep talking. I wonder whether Seth will even notice this.

Seth 45:16

What did you say?

James 45:17

I said, I'm gonna keep talking. I wonder whether Seth will even notice this. So I wasn't sure how much time it had. So I would have probably ad libbed something.

Seth 45:26

So there's a friend of mine that runs a separate podcast. And he, he had to step away. I think UPS started banging on the door or something…and whoever the guest was, he's like, so here's what's actually happening right now. Let me tell you a little bit about Eric and his life. And his he's, he just kept going. He cut it out. But then he put it on Facebook. He's like, so here's the mystery that happens when you step away from the microphone. Thanks for your flexibility. They're not at all.

Yeah, it was in reading that book on the Dead Sea Scrolls. The guy has said he's like, you know, there's like five or six or whatever. There's like more copies of The Book of Enoch in full, then a lot of other texts that we have that were found there, he's like, so obviously, it was important, or you wouldn't have that many copies, it's unlikely that those copies accidentally had more preservation. It's just they had more copies of them. So they had some things.

I want to wrap up with this. And so you piqued my interest at the very beginning. And I don't want to let you go without another science fiction question. Because there are a few that share my affinity for science fiction, you had said something about Ezekiel and interpretation of that an ancient aliens, which I know is a show on History Channel, and I don't have cable. So I've watched it very rarely. What were you talking about? And for context of those, if you're not a patron supporter, you won't really hear that because it was before we started, but the rest of you 50 or so people, you'll hear that; hat were you talking about? Like, that doesn't even make sense to me.

James 46:47

Right? So one of the things you talk about if you do things not just about the Bible, and about science fiction, but as I've come to about the Bible and science fiction; is you discover that this whole Ancient Aliens thing actually get started to a large extent by somebody who is interpreting the Bible in a very distinctive sort of way. that individual is Erich Von daniken. And he wrote a famous book, Chariots of the Gods, as well as a number of sequels. You can probably find copies of this in your local Goodwill store, I mean, printed so many you know, that it's, you know, you can get hold of a copy. You can probably also find it, you know, in in your local library and other places. I'm not recommending it as reading I should probably clarify…

Seth 47:39

(Laughter) You can find it but don't read it.

James 47:42

By all means, read it, read it critically. I would say don't embrace its message because I think it's it's approach to the Bible is problematic. But he says that he read the Bible, it never made sense to him, until suddenly he started taking it seriously as descriptions of what these people actually saw but substituted aliens for God, right.

So Ezekiel sees this strange object with moving parts in the sky and sees figures that don't look human, but are humanoid, and what is this right? And his whole approach to Ancient Aliens really emerges out of that. And you actually get this coming up in places in pop culture. Maybe not with his name mentioned but if you've ever seen, and I fully understand why you might not have, but if you've ever seen the movie Knowing with Nicolas Cage, it features features aliens, it features or end of the world scenario, but there is a prominent display of some artwork. That is an attempt to depict what Ezekiel is saw in Ezekiel chapter one.

And I mean, I should add from the perspective of Biblical scholars and ancient Judaism, this is a mystical texts, this is important texts in Jewish mysticism. They warned against reading it on your own. And I think Erich Von Daniken shows that that caution was needed.

But what Ezekiel is seeing is essentially, you know, is one of my students put it once God on wheels. This is the heavenly equivalent of the Ark of the Covenant, right? The Divine Throne. But it's a chariot, right? But it's a heavenly chariot that can move in any direction. It's wheels within wheels, it can move in any direction can be anywhere, it can be with the Ezekiel and the exiles in Babylonia. It's not limited to the temple in Jerusalem. And it's a response to the question of what you know, what happens to our one God in relation to exile, apparent defeat by other powers who represent other gods, these kinds of things.

It's a powerful and meaningful text when you get that symbolism Ark of the Covenant symbolism other things, of course, then you see Indiana Jones, you're like, well, that could be aliens to, right? So you know, it's whatever.

Seth 49:53

Its all aliens…

James 46:57

But, but if you read that text, and you don't have that context, then sure, I mean, unidentified flying object seems like a you know, not a bad description. I mean, it is a strange thing and Ezekiel is puzzling over it. But I think the imagery is clearer if you have more, more Biblical background.

Seth 50:13

That's good. I'll I probably won't read that book because I have so many other books to read, but I will find that movie because Nicolas Cage movies are 50/50 you're either really entertained. That doesn't mean the movies good. But you are really entertained or you're like, that's two hours that I will never get back. closer to death. Yeah. And so, yeah, yeah. So plug the places James so you do your own podcast you write prolifically on your blog. And you got the new book coming out or sounds like multiple books. So where would you direct people to? For years things like where all the places

James 50:53

Okay, so, if you google Religion Prof. You'll find most of my online presence. My blog used to be Exploring our Matrix. And then I realized that my students were not getting my matrix references anymore. And so it was about time. You mean, the matrix? Yeah. Okay. So, but it was a pun, right? exploring our matrix, you know, our context, but also our matrix, the movie and stuff like that. Yeah, I've been blogging for so long, I probably could have been like, the Bible guy blog or something, you know, like, I could have snatched up like some prime real estate in the blogosphere, but didn't do it. But it's probably just as well. And one reason for that is that I was actually exploring side interests. What were at that time side interests, sci fi and things like that. So I was religion prof on Twitter for a long time. And so when I renamed my blog, it became religion profit as well. And now my podcast is also religion Prof. And so that's good way to find me on online on Facebook, on Twitter, Instagram, even anyplace else. There's a book, a two volume critical edition translation commentary on the Mandaean book of John, which is coming out from the Degreuder, very soon. And so look that up. And I don't expect anyone to order it at, you know, for their own personal copy, you know, unless they actually work in this field as academics, and are among those very wealthy academics.

But get your library to get a copy. So recommend it to your library Public Library, University Library, because I think this is an important text for libraries to have to make accessible to others. There will be an open access component to this because one thing that didn't come up in our conversation is that the Mandaean’s are as living community historically located in the border regions, where Iraq and Iran meet, not always a hospitable context for them for a variety of reasons. And so they're now under represented dwindling numbers in their historic homeland. Spread to lots of other countries where you might actually meet some of them, see some of them see, you know, find out if people should google them and see if they are located in their local area. and support this community because a lot of them are refugees from their historic homeland.

But a lot of them are struggling to know how to pass on their heritage to another generation of people who don't speak their language, don't, you know, may not find the religion is familiar things like that. And so we've both, we've been concerned, both to engage in his cultural preservation in service of those communities that kindly allowed us to work with their texts, but also to reach people who might say, the man dies. Didn't they do that in the 20th century? Isn't that you know, is that worth another look and so we're going to have an open access component that hopefully will get people lured in so look for that coming very soon. Yeah. And then connect with me on social media if there's anything that I mentioned that you want to talk more about.

Seth 53:49

Absolutely, yeah. Well, I I still will do that. Yeah, I look about three times a week and like what did James post today. Because it's it's it's all over the place. It's archaeological. Or it's this I mean, today's on, you know, Columbus Day, which I'm not going to talk about because this won't air on Columbus Day. And Columbus Day continually just makes me more and more angry as I get older and my learn more and more context and like, really, really missed the boat. But anyway, that's beside the point. Thank you again so much for coming on. Appreciate you so much.

James 54:19

Thanks so much for having me on. And if you actually do give up some time from your life, you know, your short lifespan to watch that Nicolas Cage movie. Next time we talk, let me know what you think of it.

Seth 54:31

If it's on Netflix, I'll watch it today. I mean, I'm all for it. So why not?

James 54:36

Good luck!

Seth and James 54:56

Laughter

Seth Outro 55:02

I keep circling back to that metaphor, because I find it a really good way to talk about faith. Often, we learn new things, and we're not ready for it. And we're dog paddling in a river or a stream or a lake or an ocean that really requires a strong swimmer. And I really like that metaphor, because we've all been in over our heads shoot almost every single time that I do an episode, or open or new book, or really try to learn some new ideas. I'm always in over my head. And it's both scary, but I think it's awesome both necessary. A special thanks to Laura Thompson for the use of her music in this episode, folks, remember to go to the Spotify playlist for Can I Say This At Church? Click the button to play. I mean, the artists make a little bit of money every time you do that, and definitely check out her stuff. She has some great stuff happening there. But there's so many other artists from every single episode that's come out, so I can't wait See you next week. Be blessed.

Renewing Your Mind (Among Other Things) with Todd Vick / Transcript

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Todd 0:00

Forgiveness basically, is the act of releasing someone from your emotional debt; feeling like they owe you something. When you're when you forgive somebody, you're literally releasing them from that and you're you're giving up the right to ever bring it up again. Because that's I mean, if you want to be thorough with your forgiveness, that's what it amounts to. I forgive you, I let it go. And that doesn't mean I'm going to bring it up at every family gathering and this and the other but it most people do that. But you know, true forgiveness, I believe is just releasing the person and then giving up the right to ever bring it up again. Because it's gone. It's behind you. It's released.

Seth Intro 0:51

What has happened in everybody, how are we doing? This is Seth, I am your host. Welcome to the Can I Say This At Church podcast. So there's a new thing in you will go to the website or in the show notes a couple ways that you can help out. So first off, you can rate and review the show, but you should have already done that. Second off, support the show either on Glow or on Patreon, especially this time of year. So for Patreon supporters, you get like a promo code to use in the store. And what better way to get yourself or someone else something that you like at a discounted rate there. So there is that. And you can ask anyone that knows I am the worst marketer or promoter of anyone that I know. So that's about as good as you're going to get there.

However, this I do need your help with I soft launch this a few weeks ago, just mostly to make sure that I did it correctly. And it appears that I did there is a survey at the website and in the show notes. So if you click down in there, you'll see the link for the survey and then over Can I Say This At Church com. There's a link for the survey. I get asked all the time, mostly by guests who listens to your show, what's the audience like where are they at? So they just kind of know where the shows coming from and for the longest time, I had no answers and I still really don't Who the people that listen are but that answer is beginning to take place as a few of you have already taken the survey, mostly some really close friends that have, you know, I send it to them to kind of fact check it or break it or make sure that it works. So do me a favor between now and the end of December, just go and click that button, I will take it back down at the end of December. But I would really appreciate your help with that. I would really appreciate your help with that. And then any other way that you can help out the show, just checking off the list there on the checklist. So rate and review, support the show financially, if able, depending on the way you do that, you may get a discount in the store. And please do that survey cost, you know time a little bit as I think there's 10 questions. So it's not like it's massive amount of time, but that would really help me.

I'm really excited for today's conversation. I had a chat with Todd Vick, about his most recent book called Renewing of Your Mind and I really enjoyed it. He approaches things just from a different point of view that I don't often entertain and I really like the way that he breaks apart some old stuff Is that we use quite often, but I think that you're really going to enjoy this. So here we go. The conversation with Todd Vick.

Seth 3:11

Todd Vick, welcome to the show, man. excited to have you on.

Todd 3:13

Thank you so much, Seth. I am just so excited to be here.

Seth 3:16

And then for those not listening earlier, I met Todd’s dog and so you may hear a dog or any other animals so it's always fun to have animals involved in this. So, Todd, this is my favorite question that I asked. And it's the one that I think people like to answer the least. But I like it. So what makes you you a lot of your story is in the book, which we'll talk about, but just at a high level, take a few minutes and kind of walk me through how you got to be what you are right now. Okay.

Todd 3:50

Really, it goes all the way back to the year 2001 for me, I was in seminary and I read a book by a guy called Steve McVey he actually wrote the foreword in my book, called grace walk. And it talked about his journey as a pastor and the legalism and all the stuff that he felt he was under the religious treadmill, people's expectations and how he just discovered grace in the midst of all that, and that just kind of set me on a path because I was I was that guy, I was doing the religious treadmill. I was pastoring a church, we were growing. Things look great. But inside, you know, my heart was just, you know, not in it at all. It was just, it was, burning out.

And I was doing everything the way I've been taught, thought I was doing everything, right.

But it just turns out, you know, years later, I find out that, you know, I'm not wired for that kind of legalistic environment. So I left local church ministry altogether about 2016 and then from 2001 to 2016 you know, my journey was one of just really doubting asking questions. I was in the ministry out of the ministry in the ministry out of the ministry, went through a divorce. You know, a lot of things happened during that time. But one thing that I discovered that just never left me was was grace, even when I was doing things that were stupid, because I was upset or whatever.

God's grace was there to catch me. And there was just a moment around 2016 where I realized, you know, I've been doing this wrong. I've been doing this wrong all these years. Preaching the same things and telling the same stories, and I just, I wasn't even sure that I myself believed it. And so what what I was going through at the time when I left the church, I didn't know what the word for it was, but apparently is called deconstruction. I didn't call it that. I looked at it as the renewing of your mind, and that's kind of where the book came in.

But I'm just you know, for the last several years, that's just what I've been doing. I've just been reading new things and reading books that other people would tell me don't read that because that's that's not that's not right. But I just been reading stuff and I love it and I'm growing and I've met some wonderful people online mostly on my on my good friends are all online spread around the world. Well, you know, thank goodness we can connect, you know like this. You know, I'm just, you know, I'm just a guy I don't think I'm anything special I'm just a guy who figured out God is more than than what I was making him out to be.

Seth 6:35

When you say religious treadmill, can you tell me what you mean by that? I think I know what I would mean by that. But I'm curious where you're coming from with that.

Todd 6:46

As a pastor, there was always one person in the church that took it upon themselves to kind of tell me, guide me, on what to do during the week. And so you know, it just became a daily things somebody would call and say, “here's what I need you to do today go visit so and so go stop by here and stop by ther. And I'm doing all this stuff for people in the church. I didn't have time to do for people that didn't come to church. And I just got stuck doing for the church so much that I just I forgot how to…I was trying so hard to keep my job that I forgot how to do my job. And I just missed opportunities to minister to people outside of the church because I was so busy trying to keep the church happy. And you really can't do that, as you know, eventually, they're just gonna ask you to leave and that's what happened to me.

Seth 7:37

Yeah. And then I want to circle back to what you said at the end there. So you said you're reading some things that people tell you, you know, air quotes, not to read? What are some of these (things)?

Todd 7:48

Well, Grace Walk was a great book. Nobody told me not to read that. But it was a great book. I've read Bob George’s Classic Christianity. That's a really good book about grace. More recently, I read The Shack by Paul Young; changed my life. I mean, it just messed me up. So bad, but so good.

Seth 8:09

I still need to read that book. I haven't read that book I've read while I've watched the movie, but I haven't read the book.

Todd 8:16

Yeah, the book is really good. I've never seen the movie, ironically. So we're kind of opposite on that one but and then I read you know, Love Wins by Rob Bell, Velvet Elvis, books by Rachel Held Evans, Blue Like Jazz. And the more I read Brendon Manning, especially-wow what a great a guy he was, but I'm reading all this stuff.

And I'm like, yeah, this is…this is what I would say if I could put the word if I could put the words together. I would say these things begin to realize I'm not I'm not Todd, the Southern Baptist, conservative evangelical pastor anymore. I'm just not. I can't be that anymore. But even while I was doing it, I wasn't and I think that's what why I had so many problems with Christians and churches; I just, my heart just wasn't in it. And they I guess they deserve better than that. But yeah, it just ended.

Seth 9:08

Talk to me a bit about your book. So you referenced it a minute ago, you know, The Renewing of Your Mind, which you're using, I think is a metaphor for deconstruction, which is fine. I find so many people don't use that word unless you're in like that circle that uses that word. And I think it's good to use a different framework there. So talk to me a bit about like the genesis of the book (so) you're reading all these other books. And you So what was the tipping point where you're like, No, I've got something I need to say. And here's how and why. So how did that kind of begin?

Todd 9:40

I was at my last pastorate, back in 20,000, excuse me, 2015-20,000. We're not that far in the future yet. 2015. I was doing a teaching on Wednesday nights on Romans 12 to be transformed by the renewing of your mind. And I was mostly teaching, you know, the elderly, faithful saints of the church that would come on Wednesday nights. But I wanted to give them more than just, you know, here's what the Greek says, here's what the Hebrew says, I wanted to look deeper.

And so I started looking into the science of the brain l, neuroscience. And by, by no means do I consider myself an expert, I'm nothing but a student, but I have read some amazing books about the brain. And I tried to bring some of that stuff into the church, you know, on Wednesday nights to try to take our study even deeper. But they did. I mean, they, they liked it, but they, you know, it didn't really seem to matter to them. But it mattered to me, because while I was going through all this, I'm understanding why I'm the way I am. And that was a big revelation for me. Because for years and years and years, I wanted to be what everybody else thought I should be. And I just couldn't do it anymore. So I realized this is who Todd is, you know, the things that are happening to my brain, or that happened in our brain or happen into my brain right now. And so that that's kind of where the.,,the seed was planted. But it wasn't until a couple years later that I actually sat down and started writing out the book. But I had so many notes and so many webinars I attended. And so many books that I've read. I mean, it was so much material that I brought to the book. I didn't even use it all in the book, but just just that's what started it. I just wanted more and there's just more knowledge out there then, then between, you know, what I was what I was doing.

Seth 11:25

I want to jump on to that brain thing, because the chapter that you wrote on and I'm going to say it, probably, maybe I don't know how to say it. I'm just going to say neuro plus, neuro-plasticity is I think that's how you say it…

Todd 11:36

Right, neuroplasticity.

Seth 11:38

Yeah. So you're the second person I've ever heard use that word. I had a friend call me one time to kind of give me a high level overview to which I was driving. And that's just I'm not in the mind frame to be able to soak that in at that point. But I like how you be begin that chapter saying no, this is not a science textbook. So you can relax, which I like. But talk to me a bit about and for those listening like what is neuro plasticity? Like, what does that mean? What have you learned? How does that intersect with faith?

Todd 12:15

Okay? Well, I'm 51 years old. And back when I was in school, they used to teach us that the human brain had billions of cells, but they didn't grow. And so the best that you could do is not drink, not stopping the brain cells that way, don't hit your head, because we hit your head, you might lose some brain cells. And for years, that's what people taught that the brain is just what it is and it can't be anything else.

Modern science, neuroscience in particular, has made discoveries about the brain through through amazing technology and in the in healthcare, the MRI, the functional MRI, PET scans, they're able to look at the brain and actually see what it does when when certain thoughts are had, or when people are having a religious experience, they measure all of that is just incredible. But neuroplasticity is a word that I discovered in a book by John Aseraph, called Having it All. I watched him on the movie, The Secret, and I really liked his story. So I went and got that book and he talked about neuro plasticity, which is basically the brain's ability to reprogram itself. By feeding it new information, the brain can actually absorb that information, fire the neurons, and actually begin to take root in your subconscious, which is where 90% of thoughts come from anyway.

So as I began to study this stuff, it was just amazing. But neuroplasticity is the key I think for the renewing of our minds and for deconstruction. As we reconstruct, you know, we can we can teach our minds new things we can teach old dogs new tricks, so to speak, with neuroplasticity that it is possible that the brain can learn new things, even, you know, even when we get up in years. But yeah, neuroplasticity is powerful.

And that's just one of the things that I really got fascinated with once I started reading on that-started reading other books on neuroscience and things that there's so much wonderful stuff out there. But I just became fascinated with stuff like, like a nerd. I was just soaking it all in. And I don't usually have these conversations with people because it's just boring to them. But to me, it's fascinating. The capacity of the human brain to actually learn new things and reprogram itself, by thinking better thoughts, new thoughts, new information, because, you know, for years and years, people thought the earth was flat, and they thought the Earth was flat because it looked that way. You know, you turn to the right, you turn to the left-flat, but then, you know, discoveries were made that the earth is actually round, and once people absorb that new information, they did it, you know, kicking and screaming, all the way. But once it was proven and they realize that, you know, their brain actually starts to realize and reprogram that, hey, the Earth is round, it's not flat, it is round, regardless of what we see. And that's, that's just the brains of an amazing organ. And God made it and he made it amazing. And I just think, I think we owe it to ourselves to understand as much as we can about it.

Seth 15:21

So how do you connect the concept of, well, first, I mean, aside, I wholeheartedly agree with that. I've read so many different books on prayer, and they like do MRIs on people as they're praying. And even then, like just different faiths, like, you know, like indigenous people, when they pray. There's just different parts. Buddhists, when they do their thing, there's just different parts, like all the different prayers are activating different parts of the mind. And I mean, there's evidence that shows you know, you can, you can literally if you want to be more compassionate as you pray for compassion, the parts of the brain that control compassion, oddly enough, they get stretched and they're like, any other things. You use it more often and that highway gets running and gets bigger. And and, you know, there's there's a new interstate or what as a bad metaphor but how does that intersect then with someone in their faith? The ability for the brain to reprogram itself or to rewire? Like how do you how are you intersecting those two?

Todd 16:24

In my situation? You know, for almost 30 years I was a Southern Baptist minister, very conservative, went to a very conservative college and seminary and taught the Bible a certain way for a number of years. And once that had just, I guess, had a little bit of courage or curiosity to step outside of that and start looking at some other things. That's when I realized that I'm missing out on so much and there's so much more that I can put in my brain. Somebody once said that the average human being only uses about 10% of the brain their whole life. I don't know that that's exactly true. I think that's been debunked. But just the thought of that, that only 10% of your brain gets used in your entire lifetime. I was just not happy with that I wanted to do more if I could, if I could do more than 10%, I'd like to do that. So you just begin looking outside of the box that you're in. And once you do that, you realize that there really is no box.

Knowledge is just out there for you to grab. And so I began to grab knowledge that was more fitting with my particular character. I'm a compassionate, personal, loving person, a caring person. It was it's very hard for me to take scripture and turn it on somebody, you know, as a negative thing. I always want to help people and encourage people and I was taught kind of not to do that in some ways. For example, years ago, when I was first pastoring a couple came to me they wanted to get married. No one would marry them because they were living together. And of course, you know me being the young, fresh out of school, pastor I was so good you know, I just can't I'm good conscience do that for you. And I regret that every day since. And I wish I could go back and do that differently but just that kind of thing that yes, you can marry people that are just living together. There's nothing that says you can't win people can bring up scripture, keep the marriage bed undefiled and things like that.

But marriage, you know, I don't want to get on a rabbit trail here. But, you know, marriage, how we do it today is nothing compared to what it was in the Scripture. The marriage ceremony was a huge, powerful thing. You know, with us, it's a piece of paper. We go to the judge to get married and the pastor to get our pastor get married the judge to get divorced or something like that, but I just think there's better ways to do things and I just wanted to know what those things were. I wanted to find it, because I didn't feel good about myself or I was doing I wanted to change I wanted to be a better person.

Seth 19:03

Yeah. Is that your dove?

Todd 19:05

Yep.

Seth 19:08

I like it. I don't think I've ever heard a Dove before.

Todd 19:11

She about 21 years old. She's, 23 years old, excuse me.

Seth 19:15

Is that also the Dove talking?

Todd 19:18

No, that's not the Dove talking. That was my lovely wife.

Seth 19:22

I don't know if doves can talk. I don't know. I don't know anything about birds

Todd 19:26

Our Doves can laugh and bark like a dog, that's about all it does.

Seth 19:30

Hello to your wife.

Seth 19:53

One of my favorite chapters of your book is what you've done with the story of the ugly duckling. Which for those people paying attention. Is that old Hans Christian Andersen fairy tale about you know, that duck that doesn't fit in and has some awful beliefs about himself. I wonder if Todd you could rip apart that chapter a bit, and what you're trying to do with it, because that's one of my favorite chapters, I think because it's so simple. But I think that's what makes it so good as well. Wonder if you could rip that apart of it?

Todd 20:22

Yeah, the I resonate so much with the ugly duckling.

Just feeling like you don't fit in all the other, you know, ducks are better than you. They're more pretty than you. They can do more things than you they have. we're privileged new. And I grew up in a single parent home and my father was an alcoholic and all my friends you know, they had their mom, their dad had their great family time. They all went to church together and I just didn't have that. So I was just felt like I was, in a way an ugly duckling. So one of the things I love about that story is just taking it apart and trying to assume what the ugly duckling must I've been thinking most of the time and that's what that chapter attempted to do was to give give the ugly link some voice and some some thoughts.

You know, like, I think I used a job interview. You know, what, what would the ugly duckling look like in a job interview? You know, it will tell us something about yourself. Mr. duckling is well, I make people laugh at me. And, you know, things like that just, you know, completely self putting himself down at all, you know, everywhere. And then, you know, that story just kind of ties into the parable or the story of the prodigal son. And I kind of link the two together. But that ugly duckling concept is is I think it's really, it's more prevalent than we realize in Christianity. So many people are made to feel like they're not as good a Christian as this person or that person. Precious people that realize that they are attracted to the same sex and they're in church, and they're afraid to tell people because they know what's going to happen when they do. And so they carry that around like an ugly duckling. And just feel like Well, everybody else is better than me. There's something wrong with me because I don't, I don't like guys or I don't like girls. In general, you know, people are constantly comparing themselves while I don't go to church like I ought to, or like I should I don't read the Bible like I should or tied like I should, you know, how should you who says, How should you do that? And is it a formula that we can sit down and look at and do and who came up with it? Nobody! God does not expect any of that stuff to make us there to make him love us any more than he already does. And that can be a very liberating thought for somebody.

You know, “I'm trying to do my best to go to church and just do the best I can to the Lord comes back and deal with this planet to better I can tell the rapture comes”. And there's just so much more to it than that. And there's so much more to life than that. Otherwise, what's the point? And so that was kind of where I found myself years ago. I don't want to just wait until the rapture comes and do the best I can, but there's got to be more to it than this has to be. Turns out there is there's a lot more to it.

Seth 23:22

So when people disagree, and as a pastor, I think I talked with a lot of pastors as well. And, you know, behind scenes, there's a lot of tears, a lot of crying, a lot of shame. And often there's not a lot of forgiveness. Churches just break apart, communities break apart. friendships, families break apart. It's just, it's just awful. And so you talk a bit about Africa, what chapter it is, but you have a chapter called like, the renewing of forgiveness. And so for you, like what is forgiveness? Like, how do we use it, how do you posture with it? How does it work in because you say in Here you give a definition of what forgiveness is not, you know, you say forgiveness is not forgiving. It's not an approval of the offense. And forgiveness is not necessarily reconciliation even. So then what is forgiveness if it's not any of those three things?

Todd 24:17

Forgiveness, basically, is the act of releasing someone from your emotional debt; feeling like they owe you something. When you forgive somebody, you're literally releasing them from that and you're giving up the right to ever bring it up again. Because that's I mean, if you want to be thorough with your forgiveness, that's what it amounts to.

I forgive you, I let it go. And that doesn't mean I'm going to bring it up at every family gathering and this that and the other, but most people do that. But you know, true forgiveness, I believe is just releasing the person and then giving up the right to ever bring it up again. Because it's gone. It's behind you, it's released. And when you know it is finished, except for you know, this area, that area this person, that person.

He said it's finished.

That's, I mean, that's a pretty bold, conclusive statement it is finished. And he tells the Apostle Paul, my grace is sufficient for you. That means you don't need anything else my grace is enough for you. And unfortunately, Grace is just doesn't seem to be enough when it comes to forgiveness.

God, you know, God has taken me a long journey through forgiveness. I share a lot of it in the book, I’ll spare us that here. But, you know, forgiveness is, is hard. If you don't understand what you've been forgiven for, where you how much you've been forgiven. And I think there's something in scripture that says, Well, Jesus says those that are forgiven much understand, you know, forgiveness better than someone who's not forgiven so much.

When Jesus is telling the parable, he mentions 10,000 talents. And so I, you know, I read that years ago I'm like, what's what's a talent 10,000 talents that mean he could do 10,000 things well? Like juggling or something? But it's a financial expression of basically at one talent is 6000 dinerai which is, you know, in a denarius is one day's labor back in the Biblical days. So basically one talent is 6000 days of debt. But he said 10,000 talents, so you add all that up at 60 million days of debt. 60 million days of debt! and the average person only lives 89,200 days if they live to be 80.

So we're talking 37 lifetimes of sin, of debt, that that was forgiven. When Jesus was on the cross and he said it is finished. I mean, 37 lifetimes plus of sin-Gone-erased. I've never bringing it up again.

Seth 27:03

I've never done that math before. That's powerful. I don't remember if you did that math in the book or not. And if you did, I must, I must have missed it. I must have missed it. And that's shame on me. I'm a banker.

Yeah, and so that that makes all the more powerful the seven times 74 forgiveness as well, like, you know, here's the worth of this. Here's how often you know, you're going to do this. And then here's how also often you're going to be both sides of the coin. There's this side, right? And that side, right, I've never done that. That's insane.

Todd 27:36

And Jesus never said, you know, on, you know, forgive 70 times seven. That doesn't mean that after 490 times, that's it. You don't have to forgive anymore. Of course he's employing hyperbole there you forgive as much as it takes. And then just goes on to break it down like that.

In the story, even though it's a parable, it's a powerful story. That gives us two versions of forgiveness, it gives us the forgiveness itself and the gratitude of being forgiven of such an enormous unpayable, ever-unpayable debt. To the next scene where the guy, find somebody that owed him, basically, $16 an equivalent, and he, you know, chokes him and says, pay me what you owe me and puts him in prison. And then the king finds out about this and and then, and then you know that the story ends with “God turned him over to the tormentors”. And that's always bothered me too, because, you know, if God is love, and God is forgiveness, then what's this tormenting thing that in quite literally the tormenting is what we bring on ourselves, when we do not forgive. That's the torment that that I believe God is speaking of, or Jesus was speaking of in that parable. It's not that God turns you over to something really awful as it is that you bring something really awful into your mind. And it really you know, I think many people take pills for that and we you know, we call it depression. We call it anxiety. I can't prove that everybody's holding bitterness and that's what the problem is. But I wonder how many people would be healed of depression and healed of anxiety, if they would just learn to properly forgive someone else.

And, you know, I've had to work through that. It's one thing to write about It is one thing to teach about It is one thing to preach about it, but actually do it that's, that's where the, you know, that's where the, that's where it gets hard. So, I've worked through forgiveness for many, many years. And it's just an ongoing process. But, you know, I break it down, I've broke it down to three things in the book is what you do, you know, you write a list of people that you need to forgive and the list will be ongoing. And, you know, with each person on the list, you just say, okay, so and so. I love you, I forgive you, I release you, and I love you. And once you do that, more and more, you start, actually, you know, the neuroplasticity starts, you know, bringing that to your brain more and you start thinking that That way, it just changes. It changes a lot.

You know, when we talk about forgiveness, another thing that I've, you know, preached on forgiveness and gotten in trouble with, you know, is forgiving the terrorists, you know, who perpetrated 9/11 you know, forgiving Osama Bin Laden, forgiving, you know, Saddam Hussein, and you say this in a church, and I've actually had people get up, walk out, and I understand why they're doing it. It offends your American pride. But we're not about American, we're about the kingdom. And in the kingdom of God forgiveness is power. Forgiveness is life. Forgiveness is grace. And it's empowering when you forgive somebody like that. It doesn't mean you approve of terrorism. And it doesn't mean that you think what they did was right. It just means I'm not going to hold this grudge for you because it's hurting me to do so.

It's actually tormenting me to not forgive you and so I have to do it because if I don't do it, I'm going to be tormented. So forgiveness is for our benefit as much as more than anything else. Forgiveness releases people from our debt releases us from the burden of having to hate them. And it's just very liberating and powerful. And I really spent a lot of time in the book with that, because I wanted to get that across. And it's just so crucial to your spiritual life. If you're holding unforgiveness, you're just not going to grow. It’s just that simple

Seth 31:25

So one of the questions I wrote down, as I thought through, you know, the overall arching theme of your book, and it's because so at our church recently, like, we meet every so often on Sunday nights, and I honestly can't remember the cadence, because I just remember about it that Sunday morning, and then I'm like, Yeah, sure. We're coming back. It's like once every four, six weeks, something like that. And we've been working through the enneagram, which I've been enjoying, but we talk a lot about, you know, in that in that framework, are you familiar at all with that framework of the enneagram or no?

Todd 31:58

I've just started looking into it. I've heard enough people talk about it, and I figure Well, I better get on board.

Seth 32:02

It's fascinating. It's fascinating. And I don't want to be on those people that just makes everything that but in there there is you know, there's a heart, there's a mind and there's like a body and Scripture also looks at that you know, love the Lord with all your heart, with all your mind, with all your strength, know your body. And so as you're renewing your mind, one of the questions I wrote is, how is that impacting? How do you see that impacting our heart and our body?

Todd 32:29

There's new science, that the brain is closely connected with the gut, so to speak, this, you know, where you really feel something in your gut. There's a, there's a fancy medical word for that, that escapes me at the moment, but you feel something in your gut is coming from your brain. They're, they're actually connected. And some people say will listen to your heart, not your brain. You're actually talking basically about the same thing. These are connected the heart responses as the brain tells it to, we can tell the brain what we want to believe, blah, blah, blah, anyway.

So, using the brain, you know, forgiveness, things like that actually, joy, love, all of these things cause dopamine and they cause endorphins to secrete from the brain and into the body. Forgiveness actually is good for your health, there's actually health benefits. I think I covered in the book some of that, health benefits to forgiving someone will just make your stomach feel better. It makes your body feel better, you have less stress, you have less joint pain, things like that; just because you you train your brain to forgive instead of hold a grudge. Because holding a grudge is where you get the stomach problems and the digestion problems, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, a lot of that stems from just wrong thinking or unhealthy thinking. But when you when you start to renew the mind the brain actually helps the body by releasing those chemicals into the body.

And it just promotes healing, it promotes happiness. You know, I meet people a lot that go to church, and they, you know, they have a bumper sticker “too blessed to be stressed”. And I just, that's just bullcrap. I mean, to me, that's just bullcrap.

Because you know stress is a very powerful thing and you can't be you got to have some of it in your life but how you deal with it is key. But denying it I think is what the be blessed to stress to you too blessed to be stressed thing I think that actually denies some of what we're actually talking about, you know, sort of denies it, there's a problem but there's actually you know, there may be more stress than you realize. Yeah, that, you know, renewing the mind is is is really the beginning to living healthier, living better lives and feeling better and sleeping better just causes so many problems to disappear. Why would we not want to do more of it? or learn how to do it at least

Seth 35:15

You talk in chapter 17, and I don't want to hash all that out because a lot of what you've written here is deeply personal. And I don't know that I'm necessarily comfortable enough right now to talk about that in such a public forum. I would recommend people definitely get the book and read through that. But I think it fits very well, with, with what you said at the beginning of ministers losing kind of the how to do the job you're doing, you're doing the job just because I've got a light bill, and I've kids that need to eat. And I definitely have some allergy medicines because I'm a big fan of not sneezing, you know, and so you forget how and so with your experiences, of being in the ministry, and then all of this growth center Then what would be maybe three or four things that you'd be like, listen to me right now church, here's what you need to do. Because we're breaking our ministers which all this all the studies show that we are all not just do so many ministers burnout, because they always have to pick up the phone, they don't get really a day off even if they have a day off. It's because they can't be right. I don't think there's a lot of safe spaces. They're not trained to deal with, you know, certain types of mental physical trauma. They're just not trained for that. But I think people unloaded on them. And so with your experiences, and then just kind of some of your story, like, what would be three or four things would be like, all right, listen, here's we need to start doing this. And here's why. Like, what would you integrate if you were to rebuild things?

Todd 36:46

Basically, I'd narrow it down to three simple things and they're simple, but they're hard to do. They're hard to make yourself do it.

The first is just you know, choose. You cannot do anything different if you don't, unless you choose to, if you if you don't make the choice to make a change, nothing's going to happen. Because you know, we need that, you know that mark there to say, “Okay, here's where I draw the line. After this, I'm going to start changing, start doing things differently”. And this is, you know, if you're going to lose weight, if you're doing anything like that you have, you got to make a choice, I'm going to do it. And so with, you know, with deconstruction, and with renewing the mind, you know, the first thing you have to do is just choose I'm going to do this, I've got to read other things, I've got to branch out and look at some different viewpoints that are, you know, different than mine and, and kind of try to meet in the middle of all this and see if, you know, see if any of it sticks. So that would be the first major thing. If you don't choose to renew your mind at this, you know, it'll just be one of those things that you know, 10 years from now, I wish I had done it. And we don't want that, I really strongly encourage people to read the book, and then choose. I'm not going to do this anymore. I'm not gonna live This way anymore. For me, it was just desperation. I couldn't live this way anymore. I had a nervous breakdown, spent time in the hospital spent time in therapy. So I knew I had to make a change. There was no question about it. And so I chose to do things differently to approach life differently to approach the Bible differently. And, and it's really been liberating to be honest.

So choices, the first one, and then the second would be confrontation. You've got to confront your old thoughts. You've got to confront your old mindsets. You have to be willing to look in the mirror and say, Maybe I'm wrong. I was just having a conversation with somebody a little while ago on social media. Somebody I knew for a long time. Very much and Evangelical, very much in the conservative camp it made a statement that you know, all Millennials are are whiny babies that you know depend on the government and they depend on man. And I was like, Well, what data do you have to support that really because I was interested because I know Millennials are, they're leaving the church in droves is probably because of comments like that. When he just said, you know, my eyes, my eyes, this is what my eyes are telling me. What does your heart tell you? And then he began to quote scripture, you know, Jesus turned the money changers tables and this that the other is like, you know, “Brother, you can make scripture say anything you wanted to say, to win an argument, you really can, but it takes but it takes real courage and character to look in the mirror and say, Maybe I'm wrong about this”.

Maybe I'm not the authority that I thought I was on matters like this, and kind of left it at that, but you've got it. You've got to have the courage to confront your your old ways of thinking, especially, you know, in the book I dealt with my experiences with racism in the church through the years and you know, I've had actually had my life threatened a couple of times because you know, for a lot of people of color coming to church but, you know, Some people say well, I, you know, I was born that way I was raised that way. But you really choose to be that way. You absorb information, you, you, you know, watch the signs of people you grow up with. And you just you become this you don't you're, you know, you're not born a racist. Racism is just kind of something you picked up along the way. And so with me, I had to be willing to confront that because I consider myself one of the most non-racist people I know. But if I had to be really honest with myself, there are still areas of my life that I need to work on with that. And so I mean, it's just a work in progress, but you got to be willing to confront that thing and say, this thing might have a bigger hold on me than I thought it did. And you know, just just confront so choice confrontation, and then you know, the confrontation courses, that is the hardest part. And then, you know, you just kind of start living that way.

Day by day start gathering new information. You know, basically the brain works like this. You give it information, it process the information like a computer, it stores information in your subconscious. So these are things that you don't even think about when you're awake. These are the things that you dream about when you're sleeping. And, you know, for years, I used to dream that I was back in middle school and there was a test and I didn't know I was ready for it. I didn't know the combination of my locker because it had been there since 1980. It was just you know, dreams like that. But you know, when you start feeding your mind with different things on a regular basis, the subconscious starts to finally absorb these things. And pretty soon, you know, lately I've been having dreams where I'm like in charge of something or that I own something or that I'm leading people in something. And that's a big difference from being the you know, the kid who couldn't find his locker and you know, not ready for a test. And some people have, you know, even more vivid dreams than that, but You know, once you once you confront yourself, you know, then you begin to just acquiesce and begin to start over. Day by day, dear friend of mine, passed away of cancer years ago used to say that people act and react based on the information that they have in front of them. And that really challenged me to look at the what is the information that I have in front of me, that has caused me to act and react certain ways. And you know, once we once we get to the heart of that, and we start to add new things and then rebuild with a stronger foundation of compassion and grace and love, and all the things that that embody Jesus. It just begins to change our lives, it changes our health, it changes our everything, which is it's a good way to go.

Seth 42:51

You're talking about that story about you know, griping about millennials, and so I get that a lot personally, because I work at a bank. I'm The branch manager at that bank and I'm also a millennial. And usually, usually that role is not held by a millennial. Right? So I get that often. And I've, this is gonna sound really mean, but it's usually as someone that's, you know, rigid Bible believing, especially because I'm here in Central Virginia, but I always turn it on its head, and they'll walk away. So always ask them you know, do you do you believe that you Train up a child in the way that they should go? And the answer is always absolutely. Okay then whose fault is this Todd? You did exactly what you did if you're so upset. We only are the way that you made us like I don't know. I don't know who you're actually mad at.

Which that works in so many ways. And I don't usually take it in a religious way. We're talking about you like online everything or Facebook. Um, yeah. So then piggybacking on that, as well, so actually have the new data because I'm the guy that has to soak up data. So like on October 17, Pew came out with their new, this year's worth of data. And it's like another 13 point dip, like from like 53% to 41% or something like that. Like, it's not just millennials leaving the church. It's just all the people. Which is so bad. And I think you're I think it's just because we just yell, we don't do anything. We hoard wealth. We, we, we don't, we're not the church. We're just out borrow a phrase from a friend. “We're just a glorified social club that is hard to distinguish from the Kiwanis” like you not actually church, you're just a nonprofit coladas with a cross on the on the on the on the on the doors there so yeah, right. Well drive at home I want to give you the last word for those listening, that are driving you know, pull over pay attention. This is what you need to take if there's anything that you wanted to say that maybe I didn't touch on the July Yeah, here this if you don't hear anything At all hear this and then to the end of that just dovetail in where can people go? The books available where good books are sold? You know, Amazon the normal places? Where would you direct people to? As they're like, okay, yeah, I'm gonna go get this. So what would you want people to hear last? And then how do they go get it?

Todd 45:18

The main thing that I would probably drive home is, is that there is a better way to live than what you're living now. If you're unhappy, if you're unhappy in your relationships, you're unhappy at work if you're unhappy in school. There's a better way because so many people feel like this is my life. This is the cross that I'm supposed to bear. This is God's plan for my life. And I've got to be strong, and actually know there's actually a better way to look at things in that it's just by renewing your mind by thinking better thoughts and looking at better solutions. And then you'll actually begin to have better life outcomes and that that was really the whole point of the book and qs far as my story, because I was having bad outcomes for such a long time, and the reason I was having bad outcomes was because I was doing stuff wrong. And so when you when you learn better ways of living and better ways of being a husband better ways, being a father better ways being a Christian and a church member or non church member, you know, learning to embrace deconstruction, and try to, you know, figure out a better way to do these things. Just know that there is a way to do it, you can do that you have the power to do that. It's called the brain. And God gave it to us and he expects expects us to use it, I would imagine.

So, you know, open your mind, use your mind, renew your mind. And things will begin to change not immediately, but things will begin to change. You'll wake up one day, a year from now two years from now be like, Wow, look at where I've come all this time from where I started. Hopefully because you read my book and it changed your life. That was my prayer behind it, but But you know there there are other wonderful books out there about the brain and about how to how to how to make it work for you instead of against you. But the book is available on Amazon. I self published through them and so that you know, being my first book, I just went that way. Today it's available on Amazon the renewing of your mind. Todd harvick. My website is ToddVick.com, email if you want to email me get in touch that way. I love to hear from people. Sometimes I get questions from from people and and I'm happy to answer. You know, what do you think about this? What do you think about that? And I love communicating like that with with people that read the book. You know, and it just means a lot to me that they took the time out of all the great books in the world that they took time to read my book. Yeah, it just it's amazing. It's an amazing feeling. But yeah, that's that's where it's available to Amazon. Yeah, perfect. Yeah.

Seth 47:55

Yeah. And I would encourage I enjoyed reading the book and thanks for sending it to me very much. And I would echo it's, I read a lot of books. I really enjoyed reading your book. So very much so and thanks so much for coming on Todd, really appreciate what you're doing. Thank you so much for having me. It's great. I keep getting drawn back to what Todd talked about at the beginning about pastors not being allowed to check out like making sure that there's a healthy place and I can't think of a more important thing as we walk into the holiday Advent all the way through Easter season. It's just a huge machine of clockwork, that must happen. Because the church is I feel like often that we we think the church is something it's not. The church is all about loving and taking care of people less about that building that we like to go to on Sunday, and I love my church building as much as the next person. That's not the church. And so I pray that each of you will find the space to recharge to rest. I pray that each of you will find new ways, or revisit old ways to renew both your heart and Your spirit and your mind because God's in all of that. Talk with you next week. Be blessed.

Why Church Clarity Matters with George Mekhail and Sarah Ngu / Transcript

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Intro - George 0:00

What if there was a moratorium on arguing about theology for a second, let's just pause. Okay, I understand the arguments on the other side have been on the other side of those arguments. Cool, I'm probably not going to convince you, and actually, I'm done trying. So let's just suspend that conversation. And instead, maybe we can find something that we all agree on, which is to say, let them validate each other's theology because we, in some ways, both sides of the theological debate, see the other side of perpetuating harm.

But let's just suspend that for a second, and let's focus on clarity. What if both sides of the theological spectrum agreed that clarity was reasonable? I think what would happen is we would root out a lot and this ambiguity that exists in between the spectrum where it really has nothing to do with conviction. In fact, a lot of the worst offenders of ambiguity are these “large, hipster, evangelical megachurch, Hillsong” type places that don't stand for anything.

It's not even that they’ve fleshed out their theology and they believe it so intensely that they're, you know, they don't want to talk about it because it's resolved. It’s that they don't even know why they don't believe it or why their policies are what they are. And so I don't think there's any room for that, frankly, in the church world.

Seth 1:48

Hello there my friends, welcome back to the Can I Say This At Church podcast. A lot of good things happening today. A lot of good things happen today. I'm going to bypass the normal plea for patrons support. etc, etc, because you know that you should have already done that. And instead, I'm going to make a pitch for something different. And so the guest today is George Mekhail. And I hope I said that right, George and Sarah Ngu. They are to the people that are on the leadership team for the website, church. clarity.org. Some of you listening will know what that is. But I think the majority of you may not. And so let me tell you what it is briefly before we get into the episode and why that matters. So a few years ago, they started a website and they've outgrown that, the website is dedicated to removing ambiguity on two central topics in the church.

One is inclusiveness. They're not making a pitch for either case, and the other is women in ministry, and women in leadership in the church. And they basically raised churches, and they have outgrown the platform there. And so as opposed to making pitches for you to support this show, which hopefully you'll continue to do, and or feel led to do today, I would highly recommend hit pause, go down to the show notes. I'm gonna link it right at the very top. They have an Indiegogo campaign that expires, I believe at the end of this week at the end of November here. They need to be able to upgrade the website. There are a lot of churches in America. There's a lot of ambiguity in America. And there shouldn't be.

So hit pause, click the button, go throw them a few bucks, see if we can help them upgrade what they're doing. And so hit pause, click the button, throw my dollar or two. And let's see what we can do to help remove some ambiguity. With that little PSA out of the way. I cannot wait for you to hear this conversation a bit about the mission and the heart and the message and kind of where they see things going.

Perfect, unpause it you're back. Here we go. So I really hope that you enjoy this conversation with both George and Sarah from Church Flarity. Both of these topics women ministry and inclusivity or at least a stance on it are massively important.

They are the topics of the future of the church. And if you don't believe me, just Google it, and you will find people bickering, and their bickering because nobody knows where they stand. And so here we go, a conversation about churches removing ambiguity and becoming clear.

Seth 4:50

Sarah Ngu George Mekhail, and I'm aware that there's two ways to say your name and I've committed earlier to not butchering it. So I'm going to go with that version cofounders of the website, church clarity, which is a website that has I told people, you know, “Hey, friends, you know, I'm going to talk with the co founders of this website. And this and this organization“, a lot of them either said, Oh, that's fantastic. But the predominant amount of them said, “What is church clarity?” And so I want to get there in a minute, because I think that's a huge question that matters. But Sarah, I'd like to start with you. Can you kind of break us through, you know, briefly, who you are, how you came to do what you do and kind of, you know how, how you became whatever it is that you're doing right now?

Sarah 5:31

Sure. I am a freelance writer by trade, and I do a lot of journalism and reporting. And I came to contact with George after I published an article on Evangelicals in the church, I think that was summer of 2017. And I had just come up and experience of interviewing four queer gay folks about why they chose to leave or stay within their not affirming churches. And so I want it to just fact check whether it was true that these churches, you know, did not permit these people to, in one case lead worship and walk his take communion, and in another case like be members. And so I just sent an email asking them if they can you just confirm this is true; very straightforward, yes or no? And I was surprised to hear that none of them got back to me the only one who did one out of four who did got back to me on the condition that it was anonymous and in fact, was shocked and offended when I said that I was actually going to use the church's name. And it just became very clear to me that no matter how much I pressed him on, yes or no, did this person-was he not allowed to join the worship team because it was gay. They wouldn't give me a clear answer.

So I was like, either you think my interviewee is lying to me? Or there's something like deeply unhealthy with how you think the church leadership operates. So shortly after that I met George and he said, “You know, I want to do kind of a almost like credit rating, credit score, better business bureau, or Charity Navigator, version for churches” that kind of skipped over the debate of you know, should churches be affirming enough for me, and let's just focus on the problem that no one seems to be focused on, which is, let's just get your just to start being clear about the policies first, and then we can have a conversation.

Because if you're not clear, then the congregation does not know and then there's no conversation, because they just operate on their assumptions based on maybe the branding of the church. So right now I run kind of writing things for Church Clarity but I’m predominantly responsible for the database of the scoring of churches that are submitted to us. We have a team of 100 volunteers that review their church websites and provide a score based on how clearly the church communicates their LGBTQ and women and leadership policies. So it's kind of a score of your website because the idea is we want to incentivize, and kind of pressure churches a little bit, to be clear all your websites. Because really, in the 21st century, your website is your front door, and you should know this stuff before you step in the front door.

Seth 8:12

Can I ask a clarifying question? So you were interviewing humans, not the churches specifically about these certain questions? And then anonymity would be no, you're not going to tell anybody that this is “Seth” answering. But then you reached out to the church, and he's like, “No, no, no, don't reach out to the church, because they'll know it's me!” Is that what you mean by that or did I miss understand you?

Sarah 8:31

Yeah, I meant something different. So I talked to four people who are not anonymous, who are on the record about their experiences with their churches. I then reached out to the church pastors to confirm whether or not what their congregant said was true, essentially, whether they really had these policies. And the one pastor who got back to me, gave me this like really boilerplate response and was very angry at me and accused me of being divisive, whatever, when he realized I was going to use the church's name in the article. I wasn't just going to say like “church in your city” or “church in Queens”, that type of thing.

Seth 9:06

Thank you for that clarification, because when I heard it, I was like, All right. So who didn't want to be anonymous? I appreciate the clarification. George, how about you? What's kind of your story?

George 9:16

Yeah. So first of all, thanks so much for having us. I love the name of your show because it’s inquisitive. Can I Say This At Church, something that we always all definitely ask. I grew up in the church. The other the other pronunciation of my last name is the Arabic way of saying it. I was raised into Cairo, Egypt into the Coptic Orthodox Church as a deacon growing up. And so I was 11 or 12 when me and my sisters, after we had emigrated to America, wanted to sort of be around more of our friends and from school and things like that, and so started going to Young Life and more sort of picking up in evangelical circles, left left the Coptic church Arguing with my dad about, you know, the perpetual virginity of the Holy Virgin Mary and things like that.

So I've always been just really curious about the church and what holds it all together and the different manifestations of it. So that’s caused me to sort of jump around quite a bit, I would say started, started pretty standard evangelicals and got into pretty hardcore. Calvinism was at Mark Driscoll’s church for a little while. Then bounce over to progressive, more progressive evangelicalism. When the church that I started working for, Eastside Community Church in Seattle, started going down this this journey of becoming more more open with our theology, and inclusive and affirming of the LGBTQ community specifically.

So it was that specific experience and I would say, the response of the church community and specifically other pastors, that the idea for Church Clarity was originally conceived. And what happened was, after we went through this process, becoming open and affirming, and making this a very public thing we were in Time Magazine, we were one of the largest evangelical mega churches in the country, this was in 2015, to be this, I guess, public about the movement we were making.

So we heard a lot of encouragement, a lot of like, positive feedback from our peers in the church in the different churches that were associated with. Initially, you were cheering you on great job, all that kind of stuff. And that was great for you know, a week or two. And then this the call stopped coming and people got quieter and you know, for, for responding when you reach out were a lot slower and the private praise and encouragement was never followed up with public support or affirmation. And I thought this discrepancy was fascinating. And I think revealed a lot. And so I started to get curious about the differences between what pastors were saying privately and how they're communicating to their churches into the public and similar to the people they were inviting. This rhetoric around, “all are welcome”. When in reality, you're denying people baptism, or you're not allowing people [them] to volunteer in certain places, right, the question of, well what's the limit of some of these “welcomes” became really, really important.

And so, as Sarah mentioned, I was in a mode where I left East Lake, after a little while, and moved to New York, took a job at Riverside Church as Director of strategic partnerships with innovation, so I kind of completed my circuit around the entire landscape. Now at the main line progressive church. And it was, it was there that, you know, Sarah and I and our third co-founder, Tim Schrader, launched Church Clarity. And it was all kind of, for all of us as a side project, something that we were kind of just experimenting with and didn't expect it to explode into what it is two years later now, where we have 100 or 130, something volunteers who volunteer for us from all around the world, and over 5000 churches submitted to our website. And basically, you know, I know you mentioned a lot of your listeners haven’t heard of us, which I think is good. But as people hear about this, we are sort of becoming this household name, where more and more people are starting to understand that clarity is reasonable, and they're using our website to find a church to attend based on wanting to go somewhere that aligns with their values and isn't afraid to state their convictions?

Seth 14:06

Sarah, I want to go back to something you said earlier. So why do you think that churches don't want to actually say what they believe? Because I think most churches will say, you know…you go to there, there is a, here's what we believe, you know, the Bible is inspired this is that, services are held on Sunday. You know, there's a huge doctrinal statement there. But specifically on women in ministry, and especially on homosexuality. Why do you think churches won't plant a flag?

Sarah 14:38

I'll give my take. But George, in some ways can give a better answer because I've never been on the other side where George has been I think it's a couple of reasons for my conversations with pastors. And folks, I think, for some churches, that they their goal, particularly from the LGBT issues, is to change people. Change their orientation. Change your gender, like, get people from A to B, because that's what they think sanctification or redemption looks like. And so actually my mom said this to me, “if a church was clear, then how would people walk in the door and how could churches change them?”

So there's for some churches, I think a very brute level of like, this is intentional. We're we need to be a bit dishonest, but it's for the long haul, it's for the best. And I don't think that strategy is that different from the typical bait and switch tactics of evangelism, where, you know, we're going to host a movie night with youth and pizza and music, and truly young people. And then halfway through someone, someone talks about the gospel, and it's like, Whoa, I didn't I didn't sign up for a gospel talk. I signed up for a movie night. So, in that sense, it's not that the surprising you can think about something that churches deeply believe they're right about but are a bit embarrassed about it. And there is, you know, I've had another pastor say to me “I can't be” and he was pastoring a church in Chelsea which is a historically gay neighborhood in Manhattan.
He said, “You know, I can't be clear about my stance, the Church stance, because to do so it'd be equivalent to being registered on a sex offender list on the internet. If people look us up and they see this, it's going to be branded as bigots and as hateful”.

And I think pastors like him, tend to be too preoccupied with “look at my motivations”, you know, I'm not a hateful person, I have gay friends. I don't want to be misconstrued of who I am based on the policies. And you know, we are very deliberate in our language never say hateful, to never say bigoted because that would assign motivation whereas we're just trying to get the impact policy, because you could be affirming in theology, actually, but still not affirming policy due to like, maybe denominational disciplinary rules, as we've seen, like the ACC, and UMC.

But regardless, I think of that pastors like him I think are more preoccupied with how people think of them, then impact of the policies on others. So and George, I think has another answer that has to do with money.

George 17:21

Sorry, are you asking me? Because I'm ready to just say money.

Seth 17:25

Do it. Do it. Go for it.

George 17:28

I think seeker sensitivity. I mean, I think this this whole idea…I think it's failed. The Bill Hybels model of let's set up, you know, pizza night for Jesus and get people in the door or the Young Life approach of let's get all the cool kids. I think what it's what has happened, what's transpired over the last 15 years is pretty clearly showing that that just has not worked.

And like Sarah said, we are careful about assigning motivation, I don't want to say that everybody who is ambiguous is just “in it for the money”, kind of a thing. But I do think that once a pastor is confronted with the ways in which their ambiguity about their policies has harmed a real person in their church; you know, like you confused this person, this person thought they heard this thing. And then this is what played out in your church under your care. I mean, once that message is delivered, now, you can no longer claim ignorance-you can no longer be like, “Well, I didn’t know that people were getting hurt”. And I think when that happens but there is still a refusal to deliver clarity that I have no problem saying, Okay, well, then clearly, you're just trying to protect your kingdom. You're trying to protect your pocketbook, you're trying to make sure that nobody knows the actual policies that you're enforcing because if enough people knew they would stop coming here and tithing here. And that is obviously inconvenient for you.

And so there's there's two parts, I think, to what we're doing. The first one is awareness. And I think there is a recognition that not everybody is aware that ambiguity can be this harmful. There is sort of this innocence and evangelism that says, No, I just want everybody to know the good news. You know, if I die, I will go to heaven or make sure I told the new people as I could or whatever it is. And I think that's okay. And I think we do have in our system, ways in which that we are able to accommodate the people that are in that position, but it's when the awareness has been brought, that there are no more excuses. I think that's, that's the crux of what we're trying to do is just say clarity is reasonable. All you have to do is explain your policies. Nobody's asking you to change, no one is asking you to be something you're not. But you do have policies that inform you, what are they?

Sarah 19:54

I think, George, we should just quickly mention the actively discerning stuff because that can be confusing to people.

Seth 20:00

That is actually my next question. So you have a couple, you have a couple ranking. So you have you have clear, unaffirming, affirming, you also have something called verified and you have actively discerning can either one of you break in, I might have missed one entirely, as well. What are those? Like if someone goes to the website, and they're like, all right, where's my church?

Sarah 20:20

So there are, broadly two types of scores. One is a score that we give to the church website, which I mostly have covered. So we look at church, any church website statements, sermons, blog posts, social media things, any clues on policy, but every church that we do score based on a website, we're also email that a verified clear survey, which is about 10 questions that's just yes or no on hiring, weddings, and ordination of LGBTQ people and for women leadership was preaching teaching elders, you know, senior pastor, that type of thing. And regardless of how they answer the questions, they will receive a verified clear score. So if you answered no to everything “verified clear”; answer yes to everything “verified clear”. If you don't answer the survey, then the whatever score we gave you earlier will still stand.

And I should mention in that survey, you can answer actively discerning, which means we're unsure, we want to be clear about the fact that we are in process. And for those churches, we require that they set a date of resolution for their discernment within 12 months so that you're not just like perpetually discerning. Which is, you know, a little bit of a cop out in our opinion, because if you're truly are discerning, you actually are looking for answers and not just be like I'm open to the spirit but here's my stance right now.

And when it comes to the non-verified clear scores, there is an “undisclosed” which means we cannot find any kind of conclusive evidence. There is “unclear” which means the policy evidence was hard to find that we had to really dig. And there's “clear” which is (your policy) was pretty easy to find. It was like on either the homepage or, you know, there's a clear trail to get me to your policy or your denominations policy. Right now we we do distinguish, you know if it's clear affirming / clear non-affirming but the more important part is the clear and unclear distinction.

Seth 22:09

I want to shift gears to the women in leadership policies because I feel like that often doesn't have a big microphone. And so I'm thankful that that is there. It will get a big microphone when somebody says something and then Twitter explodes for half a week and then everybody forgets about it again, like Beth Moore a few weeks ago with with MacArthur and I'm not going to rehash any of that. How if you had to, are the two…and either one of you can take the question. Do you feel like those two issues are of equal urgency or does one kind of take a more urgent place over the other or does it vary based on church or community?

George 22:47

Mmhhm. That’s a good question. I think it's hard anytime you start ranking urgency on matters. I think the reality is contextually a different level of urgency for a lot of us depending on the where we're coming from, I would say that culturally like on a broad scale, there's certainly something to be said about the LGBTQ conversation being at the forefront of a lot of people's minds. And a lot of, you know, even even laws that were having battles about the LGBTQ people's right to basic employment and basic human rights. And so I think because of that, because of the fact that it's sort of front and center, at a more societal level, that it's also front and center, as far as the church is concerned. But I want to be careful not to say that, therefore, it's more important than making sure that women have clarity in terms of their, the limits of their leadership in the church or even other issues that we don't currently score for that, I think, still have a lot of relevance but, but again, it's just tough to put a number or a ranking on which one is the more urgent or the which we should be talking about as important.

Sarah 24:06

Yeah. I would just quickly add that we treat both scores a bit differently. From a scoring methodology perspective. To get a clear egalitarian score, that's how we distinguish egalitarian versus non-egalitarian…to get a clear score, let me phrase it this way. You have to have representation in addition to policy. There are lots of churches that say, “Oh, yeah, women, you're free to lead”, but then still have predominantly men in preaching positions, Pastorship, elder boards, etc. So we actually go through this somewhat, arduous and a little subjective process of counting, and making sure it's a 50/50 ratio. And if not, you actually get an unclear score.

Seth 24:54

50/50 ratio of staff or like deacons or elders or how to because not every church like I know myself church doesn't really broadcast who the deacons are or who anyone outside of staff is.

Sarah 25:07

Yeah. So what church do you go to?

Seth 25:10

First Baptist in Waynesboro.

Sarah 25:13

Oh, sorry. What denomination?

Seth 25:14

It is affiliated with both Cooperative Baptist and Baptist Association of Virginia. That's what it's called.

Sarah 25:22

And I'm curious, how do y'all’s leadership governance structures work? Because, you know, in the Episcopal church, you look for the Vestry and the ELC you have a church Council, and Presbyterian Church, you look for the Elders.

Seth 25:34

So we have a Church Council, which is comprised predominantly of the main committee. So like stewardship, the treasurer, the pastor, you know, facilities, and then outside of that we have deacons that serve a specific term that are elected by the church, and then those rotate in and out.

Sarah 25:58

Yeah, I think for us obviously, preference would be to take into account teams that have essentially like governance, this decision making power over the future of the church and the, you know, budget of the church, what have you. Because obviously, if you cannot find any leadership team and it's just the pastor, you know, then two other staff people. Now what we usually do sometimes if it's, you know, happens to be two women, and a staff of one man, it, you know, you guys are clear egalitarian score, if if, if we cannot find a lead on it, your team will just be give an unclear score.

And we cite that the reason we give an unclear score is because we cannot find the leadership team. So I don't think we're, we might we're trying to raise the standard a little bit for church websites and say, like, more and more people, when they go to church websites are looking at who's in leadership are looking at racial representation, look at gender representation, and so we are trying to raise the bar for churches to do that as well.

Seth 27:17

What has been the biggest push back and this is open for either one of you, you know you've been doing this for two years now. So what has been the biggest “Alright, well, I didn't expect people to yell at me about this. I thought this was pretty cut and dry.”

George 27:30

Yeah, I would say that it is there's a general misunderstanding. We're constantly having to reiterate the fact that when we're talking about clarity that we're talking about policies, and I think that they can get misconstrued that we are talking about beliefs or we're talking about somebody’s position or you know, whatever the language people use.

And so people sort of can can get so excited about what they see in what we're creating but then jump immediately to like, you need to be more clear on your stance and then just kind of fumble through it. And we're trying to do as good of a job as we can communicating that we're talking about policy policy policy, policy questions. And I think, once we are able to have conversations with people who don't understand what we're talking about, there's actually…there's actually understanding that that doesn't make sense. It's clear what I love about this is that people who have conservative theology and progressive theology can all agree that clarity is reasonable. If you have an opportunity to actually explain that nuance that, you know, we're just trying to get to the root of the fact that everybody does have a policy that they are enforcing, and they should just disclose it. So I would say that's probably the biggest one.

Seth 28:55

What other options and so this is based or predicated upon the the most recent blog post that's out on the website for you all there about a minister that basically had to leave his church because he had to take a position. I believe I'm I don't think I'm misstating saying that or over simplifying it. And that is a common, a very common theme. I had a chat message with someone that literally they may lose their licensure because of their stances, and then they may also lose their ability to teach at whatever school that they teach at. And so where do you see the church going? Because I think if it constantly stays, you know, you either agree with me or you're excommunicated from the faith. And I think that people have to expend energy creating something new, that the church is just going to shrivel up and just die. So where do you see the options for ministers or for members even, that need that either you know, that maybe they go to an SBC church because that's the only church in town that they live or they go to a denominational type church, but they they can't participate?

They can't do the community They can't get married, or they're a minister in the same boat like where does it need to be like where and five six years do you think based upon you're constantly looking at these churches, websites, you're looking at their, their statements, you're getting emails from people, I'm certain, where do you see it needing to go?

Sarah 30:19

Just to clarify your question is because I feel like you're asking a couple of questions.

Seth 30:22

Probably am; I tend too ramble.

Sarah 30:27

That’s okay it’s hard to do this - I've been on the other side (of the microphone) a few times. But you're asking for people who disagree with their churches policy stance, and they maybe don’t have other options, what should they do?

Seth 30:43

Or the inverse of that of, you know, I have gone to this church my entire life, and we hire a new pastor. That pastor has different views than we do. And for some reason, we didn't ask those questions in the interview process. What does the church do so both from the Go to this church side. And then the other part from the church is about to explode side, like, where does it need to be in the years to come?

Sarah 31:07

Um, I think, you know, from a Church Clarity perspective, we kind of that's where at least ,George correct me if I'm wrong, but I think we trust people to make the best decisions, given the information that they have. Our job is to deliver, as best as we understand it, information available already on church websites, that we're just doing a bit more searching and centralization. But I know plenty of people who are like, “oh, wow, I didn't know my church had this stance. Hey, but you know, I really still love the community. I am gay, but and I'm feeling really connected to the pastor here so I'm going to just stay and be, you know, and hopefully talk to people and get people to change their minds.” I know some people take that approach. Some people be like, I'm leaving right away. As we're Church vetting of hiring of leadership. I don't…I don't know. I don't really know how to answer that question.

Seth 32:00

Well, to be fair, you missed that part of the conversation. George has asked me that prior. That's actually how I originally found my way to church clarity. As we were looking at, I was on a search committee to find our new pastor. And it was just clicking around. I'm like, what's, what is this website? And then I went down the rabbit hole of literally googling every church that are not googling every typing in every church name that I knew, and then submitting my own because it's time to it's time to be…I believe y'all are right that it is reasonable to not be ambiguous.

You have like, I can't tell my wife. “I think I love you. I mean, I'm pretty sure that I might love you. Pretty. I'm fairly I'm 98% certain that I'm almost certain, you know,” George, where would you take that question?

George 32:46

Yeah, no, I love the question. It's really thought provoking. I think the nature of our work, in a perfect world if everything goes well, hopefully what we're doing is talking to the people attend churches and inviting them to embrace their own individual like free will and their own sovereignty and to activate their intellect and their hearts and their minds a little bit more in terms of like, what am I even doing here? Why am I going to this church? What is this church about? Why am I giving my money here, volunteering my time here? And because the accountability can't be solely through this organization, we can be a catalyst, but clarity very much is the first step and what there's a long path to any sort of potential healing that the church can experience.

And I think it starts with the people of the church, saying no more, we're not gonna we're not going to allow what was once a really sacred and holy tradition to be commodified in the way that it's become commodified. And let it be all about you know what celebrity goes here or what kind of shoes your, your pastors wearing or whatever. We need to get real in the fact that we're allowing this, collectively, we're allowing pastors and the structures that we've created to water down what was once something that required a lot of conviction and a lot of faith.

And so hopefully there's a return to that, there's a return to people embracing it for themselves, this idea that clarity is reasonable. And then through that inquiry, having there be accountability that doesn’t necessarily require this, you know, this website to hold you accountable. And hopefully the website can be more of a resource and a tool that can unify.

I think that the other part of this that I would personally love to see is okay, what if there was a moratorium on arguing about theology for a second for like, let's just pause to understand the arguments on the other side have been on the other side of those arguments. I'm probably not going to convince you and actually I'm done trying. So let's just suspend that conversation. And instead, maybe we can find something that we all agree on, which isn’t to say that we validate each other's theology because we, in some ways, both sides of the theological debate see the underside of perpetuating harm. But let's just suspend that too for a second and let's focus on clarity.

Like, what if both sides of the theological spectrum agreed that clarity was reasonable? I think what would happen is we would root out a lot and this ambiguity that exists in between the spectrum where it really has nothing to do with conviction. In fact, a lot of the worst offenders of ambiguity are these large, hipster, evangelical, mega church Hillsong(y) type places that don't stand for anything. There's no it's not even like they have fleshed out their theology and they believe it so intensely that they're, you know, they don't want to talk about it because it's resolved. It's they don't even know why they don't believe it or why their policies are what they are. And so I don't think there's any room for that, frankly, in the church world. So I think there is an opportunity for some, some quote unquote, unity, even among churches that disagree theologically

Seth 36:24

I want to pivot and for those listening, I will say pause right now and just go to church clarity.org and just see where your churches but from what I understand there's a backlog. So just know, if you submit somebody, it may be some time before it's there. But I have a question about your website. And so I had asked a friend, you know, hey, what would you ask the, you know, the founders of this organization? And he had said, you know, a database of information is fine, but how are we helping to point people to community, because people need to be…is there any portion of your website or as you're going into rebranding that you're like, yeah, you know what now that we know that there's this many people in Dallas or this many people in Charlottesville there's many people in, does it pick the city, it doesn't really matter. Is there any plans possibly to point people towards community as opposed to just having the data as like a white page listing of churches? Or no? I'm sure that that is a massive undertaking to figure out how to point things in specific directions.

George 37:26

Yeah, absolutely. There is a really exciting part of this next iteration is our emphasis on “verified clear churches”, which is our highest and best score, verify clear indicates that the church has completed a certain policies are being submitted to our team, about 500 or so verified clear churches now out of the 5000 or so that have been submitted. And so with that group of churches that is exactly what we're hoping to do. Encourage people to go to these churches that aren't afraid of disclosing their policies and do demonstrate conviction.

And then from there, looking for ways to maybe even connect those churches to each other and building an association of churches. So we have this opportunity for clear churches to become members of what we do. And so once you get scored verified clear, you can pay a small fee to become a verified clear member church. And what that does, is it gives you more visibility to our audience. And basically, that's, that's the only way we make money. So nobody, nobody works for church clarity. We are doing, we're all volunteers, myself and Sarah included.

Now hopefully, that's not always the case. I mean, we've been at this for two years. And we do hope that we can create some sustainability because it's something that we believe in and there's there's a lot of work that still needs to be done in practical realities of us being here to pay bills and that kind of stuff. But verified clear members is the vehicle that we see it sort of a long term what we want to build this this whole vision We want to verify their churches to sort of believe with this this message of “we're verified clear” and what's been really cool is that's naturally happening.

As we've scored churches verified clear, there's like, they celebrate like hanging some score verified, clear, but there's clarity we see received searches, like making videos, like celebrating this moment or putting our, you know, their verified clear badge on their website and being proud of the fact that like, you know we're not afraid to tell you, “here's where we're at”. And so as we get our systems in place more and get through technical challenges and this backlog that we have, that's something that we're really excited to lean into more.

Seth 39:38

To clarify on verified clear. That doesn't necessarily mean affirming or unaffirming. It can mean both correct, just as long as they're clear?

George 39:48

That is correct. And then another highly misunderstood part. So once we go from scoring a church based on our methodology that Sarah described, and sort of using the information that we have or the readily available. We give them unclear not affirming or clear affirming or whatever. If they then become verified there, we actually drop those other labels on affirming or affirming. And they just become verified clear with the list of their answers to the policy question.

Seth 40:16

The reason I asked that question and why I'm asking the next one is, I went to the website, I'm on it now. And I could not find a place to say, you know what, I support this. Let me give you $20. So my question was, how do you make money, but then there's also a banner at the top there that says we grew too fast and we need to scale up help us reboot the website. What does that actually like? What are you doing? What are you rebooting? What's it gonna look like? What's kind of your timeline? What are the goals there?

George 40:40

Like? I've been talking a lot lately, but sorry, let me take this one too.

Sarah 40:44

Yes. Okay.

George 40:51

So yes, we just launched an Indiegogo campaign and we are trying to raise 50k. Basically to have the ability to invest development of our site. So two years ago when we launch Tim Schrader, who's a marketing genius, bless his heart. We've created this WordPress blog with about 25 churches, I'm sorry, Squarespace blog. Thank you. But over overnight, we outgrew that based on the response. And so we had to rebuild the website really quickly in two days on a different platform. And we've sort of been bootstrapping, like patch working, like it's really it's like the most bandaged-backend system you've ever seen. But it works and it's actually quite brilliant. The mind that are behind it, are really doing an incredible job of making do with what we have, but we've now had another milestone where we're pushing up against the limits of the fun side providers that we have and blah, blah, blah, all the technical stuff that's happening.

Point is, we want to make our “search” better. You know, we want to be able to offer more features and more tools and resources, especially for our “verified clear churches” and especially for people to come To the website looking for a church, we want to make the experience overall better. We feel like we have, you know, proof of concept in terms of what we're creating, and there's definitely a demand for it. But we've just been really intentional about money from the very beginning, not wanting to create something that was super, like dependent on donations all the time.

We're always constantly having to do these campaigns and whatnot. And so it's kind of a big deal for us to step out and say, “Okay, we're ready…we're pretty confident in what we're building out”. So we're ready to ask people for money, who support that. So that's kind of the left of the spirit behind the campaign itself. We're trying to build additional capacity so that we can continue to grow and get through this backlog that we have, and ultimately, score every church in America ,every church in America, that's that's the goal and we are scoring globally to but we're just trying to keep our goals focused on what we feel like is attainable.

Seth 43:00

So Where do they go to push the button to say, yeah, sign me up. I'm happy to support.

George 43:06

Yeah. So thanks. Thanks so much again for allowing us to plug that it's just go to charity.org. You'll see that the banner at the top, it'll take you to the Indiegogo campaign. That's that's probably the easiest part of the link is in our profile, Instagram, as well. So whatever is easiest, any, any amount helps. We're also whatever one of the perks that we're offering, if you do have a church was caught up in the in the backlog, we have released a limited number of what we're calling fast passes, that will get you to the front of the line, get your church published.

Seth 43:35

So it works for Disney. So why not? Sarah, you have a big job with the database and the methodology? Like is there any way that people can help you? Because I think the more data points in the matrix, the better for something of this nature, because that's just how algorithms work. So is there any way that as people like if they can't volunteer money; is there any other way to help partner with with church clarity to go I can help and here's how.

Sarah 44:08

Yes, we have I think I mentioned briefly but 150 plus volunteers, students but also across the world and we train you in our methodology and all you kind of need is internet connection a laptop or desktop and a few hours of free time every week over the week. And at this point, someone in Stephanie actually is the main point person I oversee some of the high level but we have like multiple teams.

If you want to go to our website you can go to churchclarity.com and then on the menu bar look for become verified clear. I realized we don't really have really clear call to actions on our websites George but technically that is the form by which you become sign up to be verified clear as an individual which then gives you the option to join us as a volunteer. So the only requirement we have a volunteer is not whether you are affirming/unaffirming but whether you are willing to be clear by your own policy positions.

So that's one way to help. And we have a variety of tasks from like, really basic data entry, people who like like cleaners and efficiency and organization. And it's like relaxing to people who have a more of an investigative edge. I want to troll through sermon archives and stuff like that.

Seth 45:20

Thank you for that. I had given you a time commitment, and we're coming up on that. But I wanted to say thank you both for making this website. I do know what it's like to have to run all the backend stuff, although I have no idea what it is to break Squarespace or word or WordPress, I'm not there. And hopefully I never am because it sounds like it's a big hassle. But thank you so much for doing what you're doing. I genuinely think and I know, you know, I fully expect in the next year so this will come up in my local church because we are not scored as affirming because I'm pretty sure we are ambiguous; but I do know we also have 10-15 gay, gay people, gay couples, gay married couples, gay youth-and that matters. You know that it just didn't matters, you know that someone could be raised in a church and then when they turn 17, and they want to do something, and say something, and then they don't have a fellowship. It matters. It matters. It matters so, so much. So I do want to thank you both for making what you've made. I know it takes a lot to do that, but I think it's needed. So any final words from either one of you? If not, I will let you go.

George 46:24

Yeah, you’ve been great. I really appreciate the conversation. Thanks so much for the work that you're doing and for everybody.

Sarah 46:29

Yeah, thank you so much. Appreciate you as well.

Seth 47:01

We should not have ambiguity. When we're talking about people and our beliefs, we have no issue was saying what we believe the Bible is with who we believe Jesus was what we think about the Trinity, what we believe about hell. And if we're honest, we have no ambiguity when we think about what our politics are, who we do and don't support, but to not talk about a conversation and a topic as big as what we just talked about, is damaging to every person in the room, regardless of their belief. I'm so thankful for things like church clarity, and the vision that they have. And I'm really hopeful that after they redo this website, and they can rebrand that some of those communities can begin to get built and be fostered and some of those communities can begin to be fostered. For people that need a home that have been ostracized on either side of the debate that they can begin to point people in those directions because it's just too hard to find the answers because churches just aren't willing to be upfront about the answers. I cannot wait for next week. It's December. Got some great guests lined up for December. And then it's going to be fun. I'll talk with you next week. Be good everybody. There.