Salvation and The Inescapable Love of God with Thomas Talbott / Transcript

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Thomas Talbott 0:00

Actually I don't think that our eternal destiny is a matter of choice. I mean, people present it that way. But Paul seems to explicitly deny that in Romans 9, he says, “So it depends not on human will or exertion” now this is the new RSV translation and the King James reads a bit differently, but “so it depends not on anyone will or exertion but God who shows mercy, because all God's actions are merciful”. The kindness that he speaks of in Romans 11 is an expression of His mercy towards the obedient. His severity, his judgment, hardening of a heart, blinding the eyes of the unbelieving Jews is an expression of mercy and therefore you have no choice. God's going to be merciful to you no matter what you do, but the problem is people think of mercy as some kind of sentimental kind of happiness—mercy is what God does in order to meet your true spiritual needs.

Seth Price 1:30

Hello, my friends and welcome back to the Can I Say This At Church podcast, I am Seth. I'm very excited that you're here. We're going to talk about salvation, and hell, and some of those topics. And so as I look back month over month over month through like the last almost two years, the most popular episodes have been on hell. So way back in the day, of 2017, I was able to talk by phone with Thomas Talbott, who is the Emeritus Professor of Philosophy at Williamette University in Salem, Oregon. And he was one of the first people that I actually reached out to and I couldn't find an email address. And so I just called the number that I found listed for him on the internet. And I believe I got his wife, I left a voicemail. And I got his wife and I left a message. And I said, “Hey, here's what I want to do can I talk with your husband”. She said, “He's out now. Let me get with him and see if he'll call you back”.

And then he called me back and we kind of discussed it over the phone with him coming on. And at the time, I had not recorded any episodes. So the first episode that I recorded was with Jared Byas and Robin Parry on the same day. And so to be honest, when he asked me what I was trying to do, I really struggled to tell him what but I'm glad that he could hear the intentionality in my voice. So he called me back later and decided to come on. And then I just let it sit.

So I talked about evangelical universalism with Robin Parry, and I talked about annihilationism with John Stackhouse. And then I did annihilationism again, with Chris Date. And as I thought back on it as like, I've had this sitting here. I've listened to it a few times, I've been entirely pleased with it, but I just felt like it wasn't time yet to revisit that topic, but I feel like it is now. And so some caveats with this episode. I still didn't really know what he was doing. But it doesn't make my questions and his answers any less important or any less impactful for me and matter of face as I listened back to it, I find I'm still struggling with some of the same things and other things. I hear myself and I go, oh, man, Seth, you've grown.

There are things that I am more comfortable with now, or I have more knowledge about now or just through contemplative prayer or meditation or just regular prayer I am at a more healthy place now than I was in December of 2017. And so I really hope that you like this. And so for Patreon supporters, this will be a repeat for you. A lot of you heard this months ago, in a totally unedited form with no music. And so I'm really grateful for humans like Thomas that would take a risk talking with a random yahoo out in Virginia. I'm so sorry that it's taken this long to get it out. But I feel like it's time to revisit hell and salvation and so I hope that you enjoy this episode with Thomas Talbot.

Seth Price 4:40

My guest today is Dr. Thomas Talbott. And Dr. Talbot I just wanted to thank you very much for making the time to come on to the Can I Say This At Church podcast.

Thomas Talbott 4:50

Well, thank you for having me. Could you repeat one more time what the podcast name is?

Seth Price 4:57

Sure so it's Can I Say This At Church.

Thomas Talbott 5:01

Oh, that's great. I like that!.

Seth Price 5:03

Yeah. So for those of my, you know, of the listeners that that aren't as familiar with you, I was hoping you could maybe give us a brief. Just a quick snapshot of of who you are and kind of how you came to the positions that you hold now.

Thomas Talbott 5:20

Yeah. Well, I suspect I may have come from the same background as you did well, or at least a similar one, a very conservative evangelical church. I went to a very conservative Christian High School. The church I attended when I was in high school in college was closely associated with Dallas Theological Seminary and was into dispensationalism a lot, something that I subsequently rejected. I first encountered Calvinism when I was in college, and I rejected it immediately. I just couldn't believe that anyone could believe that before the foundation of the world God forordained that some people would suffer eternally and hell.

Seth Price 6:20

What college was that?

Thomas Talbott 6:22

Portland State University

Seth Price 6:23

Okay.

Thomas Talbott 6:24

It was through Intervarsity, the pastor of the woman I eventually married, came and gave a talk and he and I ended up with a huge argument; and later on he married us (laughs).

Seth Price 6:40

So I take each of you off move past that then?

Thomas Talbott 6:43

We’ve always actually had a good relationship. We started off with a with a huge argument. And of course, he would go into things like Romans 9 and I didn't know what to say about that. And anyway, he felt that I was honest enough, I guess, to deservedly married the woman that I married. But the high school I went to sort of identified a “good Christian” as someone who didn't smoke, drink, dance, rollerskating kind of iffy, play cards or attend Hollywood movies. So it's a very conservative cultural background.

My parents, however, were much more open. My dad rarely went to church, but he felt that his kids needed to be raised in the church. And my mom became a Christian during her college days, but had an incredibly loving nature. Anyway, during my college and seminary days I went to Florida Theological Seminary, my aim was to work out as best I could, basically Arminian theology. And I was very attracted to people like CS Lewis. And I was attracted to a freewill theodicy of hell. Actually, during all those years, it never even occurred to me that someone might take the doctrine of universal reconciliation seriously. I mean, it just never even…I never even thought about it. And you asked, “Well, how did I make the transition”? It's interesting, my younger brother, while I was in seminary, came under the influence of George MacDonald. And at this time, the works of MacDonald weren't really available. But the library at Wheaton had TypeScript copies of a lot of MacDonald's unspoken sermons.

And he gave a couple of them to the one on justice and one called the consuming fire and they didn't bowl me over right at the start. But the more I thought about MacDonald's perspective and how different it was from the perspective that I had been inculcated with during my younger days, and how it put things together in a way that just seemed radically different from what I had heard, and everything seemed to start making sense, even Romans 9 started to make sense to me. And so that was very influential in my starting to toy with the idea of universal reconciliation. But it didn't take long…it didn't take long until it just blew me away. I couldn't read the Bible in any other way right now.

Seth Price 10:13

Right? So was that while you were at Fuller, or…

Thomas Talbott 10:18

No, actually, I think after. I graduated from Fuller (and) I went to University of California at Santa Barbara, in the philosophy department. And I think it was probably right after I graduated from Fuller that I started thinking that, you know let's just see whether an interpretation of the Bible as a whole from a Universalist perspective would make as much sense as interpreting it from the perspective of the Calvinist or interpret it from the perspective of an Arminian.

And as it turns out, if you take a proposition that all Calvinists defend and you take a proposition that all Arminians defend and put them together, you're going to have universalism. The proposition that all Arminians defend, has to do with the extent and nature of God's love. That God, sincerely desires, He wills are sincerely desires, the salvation of all. The propositions that the Calvinist defends has to do with the nature of Christ's victory or God's victory in Christ. The nature and extent of that victory God will successfully redeem all of those whom he elects who he chooses to redeem, who you will or sincerely desires to redeem.

Seth Price 12:14

And that's what you rejected early in high school was was that early in college?

Thomas Talbott 12:23

College.

I was assuming that the doctrine of everlasting separation from God was true. And if that's true, then either you're going to have to reject the claim that God's love extends to all human beings, his redemptive love is elected love, and that's what the Calvinists do—or you're going to have to reject the claim that God's victory is complete in the sense that he will successfully redeem every One whom he wills or desires, sincerely desires, to redeem. So your choices between a God who is limited in love or a God whose victory is limited.

Seth Price 13:17

Well I guess there's always the other option for he's just fine with some people never been with him at all.

Thomas Talbott 13:27

Yeah, that's true. Sorry…you mean…I mean, but he is fine with some people never been with him at all? Does this include annihilating them…tormenting them...punishing them?

Seth Price 13:43

Yeah, the eternal conscious torment that I was raised in, you know, he's fine with you're not with me and not only for that I'm fine for you to not be with me for forever, which has never set right with me very much.

Thomas Talbott 13:58

Yeah. What? Yeah, well Yeah, that's that's the issue here.

I think I misunderstood you just before. Because when you say, Well, he's fine with not being with me as well. Okay, you guys go on and do your own thing and I won't harm you or anything like that. But the idea of separation, it's either going to include annihilation, or it's going to include punishment, or it's going to include God providentially providing a place for these people that live sort of without any conscious interaction with him. It's gonna be one of those three. Right?

Seth Price 14:44

Yeah. So how do you…so how can I…so from reading portions of your book, I find that you make the argument that you can't scripturally support all three of those that you have to reject one of them to sit with.

Thomas Talbott 15:02

Yes, in other words, we've got here three propositions that are logically inconsistent. And even if a person comes to me and says, “Well, I don't think they are logically inconsistent”, I think I can, you know, symbolize them and prove that they are logically inconsistent. But even if somebody says they aren't named me a single theologian who accepts all three. I don't know of any theologians that would accept all three.

The majority of theologians, in the Western tradition anyway, would accept the claim that some people will be eternally separated from God. But I don't know.

Sorry…ask me a question here.

Seth Price 16:00

Sure. So let me get it back to Scripture. So can you give me some of the ways that the there are just Scriptural references to support, or not necessarily support, to support each and then how they just have that can't go together? I guess as I read your book, I read through that portion a couple times, I think it's chapter four, where you kind of break down all three suppositions and then and then go on to say, you know, two of these are fine, but scripturally the third can't hold any weight. And that's the problem.

Thomas Talbott 16:36

Actually, what I argue is that if you just pick up an English Bible and read it naturally without bringing any theological presuppositions to the text, you will find Biblical texts that seem to support each of these propositions. But they can't all be true, that's the problem. In support of the claim that God's love extends equally to all, and that he wills or desire that all the saved. You know, a naive reader of the English Bible might appeal to text like 2 Peter 3:9. “The Lord is not willing to any should perish but wills instead, that all should come to repentance”.

1 Timothy 2:4 “God's desires everyone to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth”. Ezekiel 33”11 “As I live, says the Lord I have no pleasure the death of the wicked, but desire said that the wicked turn away from their ways and live”. And you know a very interesting Old Testament texts as Lamentations 3:22 and 3:31-33. “The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases. His mercies never come to an end. For the Lord will not reject forever. Although he causes grief, he will have compassion according to the abundance of His steadfast love. For you to not willingly afflict or grieve anyone.”

All of these texts seem to suggest that God really does want to achieve the reconciliation of all sinners. And, you know, then a text like 1 John 2:2 suggests further that Jesus Christ suffered and died precisely in order to achieve that end. When it says that Jesus Christ is the atoning sacrifice for our sins and not for us only but for the sins of the entire world. And then of course in 2 Corinthians, it's clear that God's attitudes toward us doesn't have to change, our attitude towards him has to change. But anyway, so there are plenty of texts that the Arminians would appeal to, in order to suggest that God really does love all human beings in the sense that he wills or sincerely desires, that each of them be reconciled to him and achieve some sort of union with him.

But now, we can turn texts that the Calvinists like, which suggests that God is going to achieve all of his redemptive purposes. Ephesians 1:11 “God accomplishes all things according to as well and counsel”, Job 42:2 “I know that you the Lord God can do all things and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted”. Or Isaiah 46:10-11. “My counsel shall stand, I accomplish all my purpose. I have spoken, I will bring it to pass, I have purpose, and I will do it. I mean, these texts seem to imply that God is able to accomplish all of his purposes, including his redemptive purposes. And then, of course, in 1 Corinthians 15, God ultimately brings all things into subjection to Christ.

But then, of course, we've got the issue of eternal separation. And if you pick up an English Bible and read it sort of, naively, without bringing a lot of theological assumptions to it, you will probably come across Matthew 25:46, which says, “and they will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.” 2 Thessalonians 1:9, “they shall suffer the punishment of eternal destruction and exclusion from the presence of the Lord, as from the glory of his might”. Revelation 21:8. “But as for the cowardly, the faithless, the polluted, as for murderers, fornicators, sorcerers, idolaters, and all liars, their lot shall be in the lake that burns with fire and brimstone, which is a second death” and these texts may seem to imply that at least some persons will be lost forever and therefore never reconciled to God.

Thomas Talbott 21:40

So my point is that you've got prima facia support in the Bible for all three propositions, the proposition about God's love, the proposition about his success in achieving his will, and the proposition that some people will be eternally separated from God. And you know, this is something maybe I have liked to read here, it's just two or three lines. Because the point is that various texts in the Bible initially appear to support and the fact that they decided on behalf of each of our three propositions with respect to each of them. Some theologians and Bible scholars have concluded that it is a fundamental, not a peripheral, but a fundamental teaching of the Bible.

Seth Price 22:44

When you say “it” is fundamental, you mean, you mean the conversation about eternal separation, is that what you say it?

Thomas Talbott 22:52

No each proposition.

Let me back off here and give a clearer explanation of total strategy. In order to have an interpretation of the Bible as a whole, you have to interpret some things in light of other, some texts in light of others. And so my strategy is to set up three propositions that cannot all be true, but can all receive initial support from texts in the Bible. And therefore that's going to dictate how you're going to proceed.

For example, the Calvinists believes in eternal separation, and he believes that God's will can't be thwarted. Therefore, he rejects the claim that God sincerely desires or wills, the salvation of all. The Arminian believes in eternal separation, but believes that God sincerely wills or desires the salvation of all. So the Arminian rejects to claim the God's will, his redemptive purpose, as expressed, for example, in the 1 Timothy 2:4, I think it is, he rejects the claim that God's will can't be thwarted. He rejects the claim that God's redemptive will will eventually be achieved. The Universalist accepts the Calvinist claim that God's redemptive will can't be thwarted and accepts the Arminian claim that God wills that all be saved and he concludes the third proposition.

Seth Price 25:24

Switching a little bit of gears, but I think it's something that I've always had a question about. So, when you were going through some of those Scriptures a minute ago, and you have like the Calvinists talking about, you know, eternally separated and burning in eternal fire and whatnot, there seems to be a big contention on how those are translated. And so how can someone like myself, with limited theological training, know how to infer those texts if I was to just pick it up or if I was to hear someone speak about it at church or just in talking in passing?

Thomas Talbott 25:57

Yeah, that's a great question.

As you know, The word translated “eternal” is debated by a lot of parties. What does it mean? Does it mean age enduring? Does it really mean everlasting? And my strategy is to let whoever I'm discussing with to say what that person thinks. If I was holding a discussion with a pastor of a church that wants to say this really does mean eternal, or at least everlasting. What we're talking about in Matthew 25:46 is eternal punishment.

Well, what I would say there is, you got to be clear that we're talking about an adjective. And I don't care how you translate that adjective. It's the very nature of an adjective that it can vary, sometimes greatly, particularly when it's referring to different categories of things in different contexts. Forget the Greek, take the English word everlasting. An everlasting struggle would literally be a struggle that goes on forever and ever never ends. Think of an everlasting change, or an everlasting transformation, or an everlasting correction. That might be an event that almost instantaneous it could be or it might be longer. But it depends on the noun that it is correlated with.

Now an everlasting correction might have effects that endure forever. But it doesn't follow that the correction is going to take place over an indefinitely long period of time. So we got to look at the noun. Now the noun “Colossus” is a word that, at least in ancient Greek, was a word for correction, remedial punishment. So translate the word aiónios as everlasting if you wish. It's still going to be very different if it's an everlasting correction than it will be if it were everlasting retribution. So my claim about Matthew 25:46 is that what we're talking about is a certain kind of correction.

But, you know, actually that doesn't really get to the heart of it because I think that in the Bible, the word aiónios really is somewhat platonic. You know, we read, I guess 2 Corinthians (2 Cor 4:18) “things that are seen are temporal and the things that are unseen are eternal”.

That sounds a bit platonic to me. But the point is that when it comes to God what is eternal is God and His gifts, his actions in time, various possessions are eternal in a secondary sense that they have their causal source is eternal God Himself. This gets pretty complicated and I talk about it in my chapter on eschatological punishment and interpretation in New Testament teachings.

Seth Price 30:30

In a universalism, or Christian universalism, view of the be all and end all at the end of everything. What is hell?

Thomas Talbott 30:43

Hell is the way that we experience the love of God when we are in a state of disobedience.

Seth Price 30:54

So it's not a future place to be. It's right now?

Thomas Talbott 30:58

There could be a future place called hell, I don't rule that out. But hell would exist for the purpose of the ultimate redemption of those in it. But what we have to understand, I think, is how to put together two themes, the theme of Christ's victory over sin and death and the theme of God's judgment. And one can either interpret God's judgment in light of his victory and triumph over sin and death, or one can interpret triumph, or his limited victory, in light of the theme of justice. My view is that we should start with the victory and triumph, especially since Paul makes it so clear in his theological essay Romans 9-11 that in the end, justice and mercy are the same. The hardening comes upon part of Israel in order that all of Israel will be saved. And when he talks about the Jews being disobedient, so that the Gentiles can come in and then this sort of strategy of jealousy where all the Jews will then come in that is clearly an indication that the non remnant Jews…I mean, what he's talking about is a non remnant Jews there.

And just in case you don't get the point, he sums it up with his magnificent statement in 11:32 “for God has imprisoned all in disobedience in order that he might have mercy upon all,” the whole thing is the outworking of a merciful purpose. Everything God does: what he judges, when he hardens the heart, when he blinds the disobedience, all of that is in the surface of a more basic, merciful purpose-couldn't make it clear. And the interesting thing is that if you look at Paul's theological discourse in Romans 9-11 it starts out in despair at the beginning of 9. I'm speaking the truth. My conscious bears with me. I’m in great agony over the state of my brother, my kin. And it ends in joyous exaltation.

And what explains that sudden Joy? To use an expression that I borrowed from JRR Tolkien who says “that the essence of a good fairy tale is a sudden joy has stirred. I mean, we've been talking about the hardening of Pharaoh's heart, the hatred of Esau, and vessels of wrath, and all of that. But now we find it is all in the service of a more fundamental purpose. Mercy, God has imprisoned all of us in disobedience, so that he may be merciful to us all. I don't see how he could get any more explicit than that.

Seth Price 34:50

So I guess one of the questions that I struggle with is my participation in this. So if I'm formed with is the ability to embrace whatever I want to…how do I have any say so in my ultimate result of anything? I guess, for lack of a better word, and I think I read it in your book and you talk about how Zachary Mannus references Kierkegaard and defends that people are just so damned and filled with hatred. And then if we want to remain in that state that we can choose to do so. So how, if that's correct, and I'm able to do that, how does that sit with a possibility that no eventually everything's going to be reconciled to Christ? Eventually, whatever determined amount of time that is.

Thomas Talbott 35:53

Yeah. I think the crucial thing here, Seth, is that the consequences of our actions are a source of Revelation. You know, I can choose to put my hand in fire, but I cannot choose to put my hand in fire and not be burned. Our actions have consequences. And when we act in a disobedient way those consequences are going to be instances of some people call God's severity. You know, Paul says, in the first part of Romans 11 “note severity and the kindness of God.” If you act disobedient Lee, you will experience God's love and severity. If you act obediently, you will experience it as kindness.

And so, the general point is that the consequences of our actions are themselves a source of Revelation. I may suffer from, you know, we humans suffer from all kinds of illusions, our disobedience is a result of a host of illusions. But if I suffer from the illusion that I have the skill to ski down a treacherous slope and so I go ahead and try and do it. A fall on a broken leg or maybe repeated falls and repeated disasters are going to reveal to me the fact that no, I don't have that skill; that was an illusion.

When we act disobediently, we think we can benefit ourselves, oftentimes at the expense of other people. But if we act upon that illusion, we will find again and again that we have not benefited ourselves. And at some at some point, my own view is, the purpose of the lake of fire is actually to purge us of all the evil impulses. But if in the lake of fire, someone still refuses to learn proper lessons, you can always leap into the outer darkness where you got a soul suspended alone in sheer nothingness. George MacDonald has a beautiful description of that horrific state.

Seth Price 38:38

Can you go into that a little bit with George MacDonald? Because I understand. He's like, early 1800s. And so I'm not familiar.

Thomas Talbott 38:47

No he’s late 1800s.

Seth Price 38:49

I got it wrong. I apologize. But I'm not familiar with that, can you go into how he describes that a bit?

Thomas Talbott 38:58

Well, I don't have the text here to read, I mean in front of me, all I can say is that what he talks about the outer darkness and the horrific state of living without any, even, implicit experience of God. Think of it as a soul suspended alone in nothingness. Think of John Milton's Satan, what he said about better to reign in hell than serve in heaven. Well in the outer darkness is nobody to reign over. Because if you have other people there, you're all of a sudden going to start getting implicit experiences of God. As I recall, MacDonald's description is God is still there with you, however much you despise god, he's there warming your heart making life a good thing for you. But if he withdraws all of that, the suggestion is that no one who's rational enough to be a free agent could possibly see that as a good thing.

You know, CS Lewis said that “union with God” is with a divine nature's way put it “is bliss. separation from it is an objective horror.” Well, no one who's rational enough to qualify as a free agent could possibly freely choose an objective horror, over bliss. So what we have to do is learn the difference over our lifetime between the consequences of submitting to God and the consequences of resisting and rejecting God. And I can understand how somebody could freely choose hell. What I can't understand is how somebody could freely choose hell and continue to choose it after experiencing.

Seth Price 41:13

Yeah, I can't either.

Thomas Talbott 41:15

So the purpose of experience and even hellish conditions is to teach us and therefore, God's judgment even if He were to send somebody to help temporarily, would itself be the expression of mercy. It's not merciful to protect people from the consequences of their rebellion. That's why Universalist, Christian Universalist, do not so many people in charge, have a sentimental conception of love. They see God's mercy as a severe mercy. He will require us to learn the lessons we have to learn; not by just changing our mind, but allowing us the freedom to choose and then letting you have the horrific condition that many of us choose to experience.

Seth Price 42:09

That's hard, though. And I guess to oversimplify it, the best way that I could bring that metaphor down to me is a well, a cosmic version of when I'm teaching my son to ride a bike, and I know that first time that I let go of the training wheels that he's gonna fall and it's gonna be horrible. And so I guess you're saying that, I know you're gonna fall, and when you do, I'll be here when you get back up. And we're going to embrace and then we can move forward, or we can continue to try again until we get it correct. That may be an oversimplification, but…

Thomas Talbott 42:46

But that doesn't involve, you know, selfishness to the benefit oneself at the expense of others. And my vision of how we all come into this life is we come into circumstances in which illusion, ambiguity, and ignorance, play a huge role. And, as a result, we are bound to go astray. I mean, sin is missing the mark, we are bound to go astray. And God does permit us to because we have to learn the lessons. So it is a source of Revelation, the consequences of our actions.

Seth Price 43:36

I've been gifted with the ability to be born in America. So what would you say to those who have in this view of salvation that were just born in the wrong country or in the wrong time period, and never heard the redemption story of Christ? And so how would you reconcile someone that's never heard the gospel, dying the first death? How do they have the ability to be reconciled without even knowing the name Christ?

Thomas Talbott 44:04

Well, I guess the issue here is, is there a time limit on God's love? Suppose I were to say that you have to have heard and received Christ before the age of 30, or your lost. Or you have to do so before the age of 40, or your lost forever. Or you have to before the age of 70, or you have to before the time of your death. Why would anyone want to accept that idea!? There's nothing in the Bible that suggests that that's true. I just don't see a problem there with other religions and other cultures. We aren't responsible for the culture that we are born in. And those who have never heard of the gospel are not required to believe something that they'd ever even heard of. Why would anybody want to say that!

Seth Price 45:00

But there will come a time I guess then that they have the the option, the everlasting option to make that choice. And ultimately everyone will.

Thomas Talbott 45:09

Actually I don't think that our eternal destiny is a matter of choice. I mean, people present it that way. But Paul seems to explicitly deny that in Romans 9, he says, “So it depends not on human will or exertion”. Now this is the New RSV translation and the King James reads a bit differently, but “so it depends not on human will or exertion but God who shows mercy,” Because all God's actions are merciful. The kindness that he speaks of in Romans 11 is an expression of His mercy towards the obedient. His severity is judgment, hardening of a heart, blinding the eyes of the unbelieving Jews is an expression of mercy and therefore you have no choice. God's going to be merciful to you no matter what you do, but the problem is People think of mercy as some kind of sentimental kind of, happiness, mercy is what God does in order to meet your true spiritual needs.

Seth Price 46:12

I'm good with that. I think I'm good with that.

Thomas Talbott 46:15

You may be good with that; more than some of your listeners.

Seth Price 46:19

Just full disclosure. So as I've done this, a lot of the people that I'm asking questions of they're not…t's not scripted. They're real questions that I've always wondered if I could say out loud, and the older I get, I'm finding that it's, it's fine to do. So I want to be respectful of your time. So I do have one last question. And it's not necessarily related to universalism, but it is a question that I'm curious to get everyone's opinion on. So in your view, in the church the way that it exists currently, either globally or nationally. What is what is the one thing that you feel as Christians that we could and should do in a generative practice that would help move the church forward or the cause for Christ forward day to day that maybe we're not doing now?

Thomas Talbott 47:13

Yeah. That's a hard one because I don't want to dictate politics or even religion to anybody. My sense would be just really practice love. You know the two great commandments love God with all your heart and all your soul and all your mind. And love your neighbor as yourself. And I know, the high school I went to, we were always being told that we needed to witness and all this, but a lot of that witnessing wasn't really anything but sort of response to a sense of duty. Just love the people around you? And that may involve saying no, to some people, I mean, if somebody starts acting in a racist way, you can lovingly and severely say, “no, that's not right!”

Seth Price 48:18

No, I agree one of my favorite ministers from one of my wife, a nice first church used to say, you know, Christian, if you would do this, it's not a euphemism, and you could actually change the world and he spoke often of what you just said. So, I would agree wholeheartedly. Very wholeheartedly. So while we wrap up, where would you point people to learn more about yourself, obviously, there's your book but more importantly, to just educate themselves in such a way that as they wrestle, there's a good place to to go with with text that has been well researched and maybe the Scripture is presented from the way that you do where the Calvinists or something would say it this way and Arminists would say it this way, and I would say it this way. So what is what is a good place for people to go as they're as they're searching?

Thomas Talbott 49:09

My Willamette University website, you could probably just Google my name, but I'll just real quickly read it. www.Willamette.edu.ttalbott.

Seth Price 49:30

Okay, I'll put that in the put that in the notes as well. I appreciate it very much. I'm thankful for your time.

Seth Price 49:57

That episode still speaks to me. When I'm honest, I lean, still, towards annihilationism. I feel like that is the best way hermeneutically to read the Scriptures, but I am ever hopeful that I'm wrong. I am so hopeful that what, folks like Thomas Talbott and many, many others that what they argue, is a good look at what the future holds for creation, not just humanity. I'm really hopeful that they're right. I just don't know that I can hold that yet. But who knows where my faith will take me? I do know this…on Palm Sunday, I with my church, a Baptist church we gathered with Methodists, and Lutherans, and Episcopalians and our Catholic Brethren, and the Church of God and Christ Brethren, and we marched through downtown of where I live, and I just kept thinking, I don't know what the afterlife looks like, but I really hope that it's that people of all races, every gender nuanced beliefs. Who knows I'm sure and there there would be also, you know, statistically they would have had to have been people that are, you know, LGBTQ in that group but we all marched in celebration of the coming of Easter and in remembrance of Palm Sunday together. Nobody argued nobody bickerd we just exuberantly sat in community with each other. We sang a bit, we prayed a bit, and it was beautiful. And I hope that that's what we're all going to do.

But I really, really hope you enjoyed this conversation with Thomas I would highly recommend getting his book The Inescapable Love of God it is a very even approach and holds everything in a way I think that is respectful.

Today's music is from Andy Squires. I got turned on to him from John Mark McMillan when I asked him who he was listening to and he told me this person and I was like, I don't know who that is. And then I went to Spotify or iTunes or wherever and started finding found his music and just heard so much in it that I could relate to and it's beautiful and it's haunting. It's gripping. But mostly it's truthful. And that's what I really appreciate. So I hope that you enjoyed it. You'll find links to his music from this show on the playlist at Spotify for the show and you'll find links to that at the website. Please remember to rate and review the show on iTunes.

Talk to you next week.

Finding Faith in Honesty with Danielle Kingstrom / Transcript

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Danielle 0:00

I want to find God and everything I read, I want to see that, and I typically do, that other people are just kind of vying for that same existential question we all have that we think we're going to get through discovering something in the Bible anyway, which is why we're supposed to be here and what our goal is supposed to be. So I do it with a Christian lens. I always want to try and whatever I find, go “Look, that's just like what Jesus said”. So that's my default. That's kind of what I grew up with. That's kind of what I've always been comfortable with.

Seth Price 0:52

Everybody, welcome to a special episode of the show. So there's about I don't know 40, the number varies weekly of those of you that have pitched in at a minimum $1 a month on Patreon. And if you haven't yet do that you need to, there's so many different benefits there. So there's a benefit for you to get in the show early. There's another level that gets the unedited version of the show, which is my personal favorite version of the show. There's so much that happens before I say, “welcome to the show”. And there's a lot that happens after and usually I'm recording for all of that. And oftentimes, especially with this episode with Danielle, there is like an entirely new version of stuff that happens after I hit, “all right, we're done with the show”. And then we talk about other things. And that stuff is fantastic. And then the stuff prior is also fantastic. So there are people that have heard me say that, you know, or if you've read the blog that I have on CanISayThisAtChurch.com. There's an episode with Aaron Niequist and with Alexander Shaia, where we talk about things before the show, that's all recorded. But you know, at the $5 level, those people get that version of the show. And then there's this one.

So there's a level and I forget what I've named it, I should probably come up with easier names, where I want to talk with some of the people that are the most engaged with the show. Learn about them, their faith, their story, what makes them tick. And so this will be the first of a handful of episodes like that. And so Daniel Kingstrom is one of those supporters. And so she was, I guess, picked for lack of a better word for the first one to do this version of the show. So I really hope you enjoy it. So we talked about you know, her upbringing. We talked about the shift from evangelicalism to something else we talk about fundamentalism, we talked about the military, we talk about ecology and farming and life and motherhood. We just talked about so many things.

But what I really love is on the tale end, you know, Danielle just brings it home, you know, what do we do? How do we live and she just she just nails it. Hope you enjoy a special episode.

Seth Price 3:29

Danielle!

Danielle 3:29

Hello.

Seth Price 3:30

I'm excited to talk you. Welcome to I guess the first I'm slightly nervous about this the first Patreon version of the show and so A: thank you for your support of the show and B: I've really enjoyed both debating with you and talking with you on Facebook but equally enjoyed both it's it's nice to sometimes disagree with someone on different things but then also agree with them on other things and not call each other Hitler or you know, not call each other something like that.

Danielle 3:59

Not yet anyway though right?

Seth Price 4:04

So tell me about you what makes Danielle…Danielle What is your you know you were born on this day and all the way to today don't go that far back but what makes you?

Danielle 4:15

I was born on a chilly winter night in December? No! I am what makes me me. I'm, well, what makes me busy is that I'm a mom of five. I have five spread out 19,17, almost nine, seven and the half twins. So they're spread out, I have five kids. I homeschool them. Well, I graduated one. I homeschool I live on a farm with my husband. And he's taking over his father's farm fourth generation farm here and we just kind of do our own thing. We live in a bubble and we raise livestock. We cows, we have chickens, we have sheep. My husband manages a hog site. So he is responsible for 13,000 hogs every day. Rain, shine, blizzard whiteout conditions, he's there.

So that is a demanding life that requires me to be at home on guard. So I have to cultivate something from this space in order for I think, for me to kind of branch out and contribute. And so my aim is through writing and podcasting.

Seth Price 5:37

So, couple things. So I don't really comprehend what 13,000 pigs looks like. So if you were to like try to equate that in a metaphor and say, you know, so Seth, you know, one pig equals the space of like a cedar chest. Here's what, however many thousands of pigs equal. Like what is a decent metaphor?

Danielle 5:59

Well if you take your average greenhouse that you see on the side of the road or set up at, you know, your local grocery store during the during spring, and you triple that, and then you double it, and then you double that entire space, that's one barn and that holds 1000 pigs.

Seth Price 6:18

That's big, like, put it into football fields.

Danielle 6:23

Well, I would say our nine oh, my god. Yeah, like I even know how big a football field is really.

Seth Price 6:28

50 yards wide by 100 yards long.

Danielle 6:31

Well, I would say this space of our house runs probably takes up two, then we have a separate site—so three.

Seth Price 6:39

That's a lot of pigs.

Danielle 6:41

Yeah. That's not something that I even like saying that we do, because we're so against it, you know, but it's what his dad does. And in order to take over and do what we want, we have to use this transition. So I mean, yeah, because I mean, we barely even eat pork any more. Let's put it that way

Seth Price 7:01

Yeah, well, I don't eat pork often and if I do it's like when is it maybe maybe Christmas Eve we always have like sausage and French Toast and that's like our family thing. Like go to church come back sausage and French toast.

Danielle 7:15

I like meat. We raise our own animals. So you know we do that route but in order for us to turn this farm into a more ethical and environmentally pragmatic farm, we have to start with that. Yeah, before we transition but yeah, my husband's like moving super hippie green and we envision cannabis and hemp and all of our dreams come true…

Seth Price 7:45

Is that legal or?

Danielle 7:46

Hemp is in cannabis is if you go through all the fun paperwork and I mean we have visions of like converting the farm the barns until like greenhouses and growhouses and capitalize that way.

Seth Price 8:01

Yeah, sounds good.

So I don't know if you're like me. So before, or in preparation, I had time in an airport coming back from Texas to prepare for this. And so I spent some time since we're friends on Facebook, going back in time, just randomly scrolling and letting it in, and then reading that and then doing it again. And so it seems, unless I'm wrong, that your theology has shifted somewhat over the past…I don't know I want to say 10 years because like I went back, like some time. You'd be surprised how many years back flyby when you just fling the iPhone up as fast as as it goes. I'm curious about that because that's really the itch that I always need scratch like the what has changed and why and how you see God?

Danielle 8:45

Yeah, 10 years is about when I would say my deconstructing started and that was right before me and my husband got married. My husband was okay, so growing up my belief was always in a singular God. And I grew up with the Lord's Prayer. I grew up learning to say my prayers we very rarely ever went to church, you know, unless the kid was going to be baptized or we knew someone getting married, basically. And you know, if our friends were doing the church thing, then we got to go do the church thing. When we were sick, a church, we didn't have to go to church.

And as my mom journeyed through her spirituality, she's kind of tagged us along. And whenever she was just self-educating herself on what was out there other than the Bible, or looking at the Bible in different ways, she brought us along, and so I just kind of kept going with that. And then I was lucky in my high school, I was able to actually take different religious classes. I learned about so many different religions and Buddhism and Taoism and Daoism really struck me. We had a very large Monk Community where I went to high school. And so Chinese, Cambodian, Korean, Japanese, all different cultures, all different forms of belief systems and I was just getting drunk on learning from my friends and belief. Because they were eager to talk about it they had families that were more than willing to talk about it.

And I just wanted to just every perspective I could drink up, I was drinking. And so I just kept going forward with that, up until about 10 years ago. I mean, I went through heavy practice with Buddhism. And then I went through about two or three years of Wicca and I learned so much from each but it just wasn't enough for me. I just felt like there's more.

So my husband, I met him, he was very open about his faith. (He) grew up, you know, Lutheran conservative, he was a military dude and love God love country and I wasn't in that area at the time and I kind of was like, just whatever, let's keep our stuffs separate. And he wasn't about that, you know, like one night he's like, will you pray with me and I just went, are you kidding me? You're one of those people? And he was serious and I don't know something about it. I was like, okay. And he prayed over a relationship and I thought, Okay. And then we kind of got tangled up in a really fundamental evangelical circle, mainly because of where I was working.

I worked for this steel company, and everybody went to the same church, and they had daily prayer sessions and weekly Bible studies, while selling steel coils and I was like, is this even legal? You know, I was in such a liberal mindset at the time I was hardcore democrat. My previous relationship before Cory was a hardcore Franken fan and Al Gore and I almost ended my relationship over me voting for Bush that year. So he converted me hardcore liberal, and then enter my husband who was Christian conservative.

My whole work environment is Christian conservative, and I'm like, go Hillary! And they're going…uh uh uh. You know, and so my husband sat me down and shook the liberal out of me, but it wasn't like that. It was what do you even believe he was the first person that asked me what I believed and stood for. And he was also kind of like, invited me into reading the Bible, and familiarizing myself with passages, you know, cause he could say things and I'd be like, man, I supposed to know where that's from?

So I kind of went through this starting of a breakdown, I left the liberalism and I jumped on this conservative Christian bandwagon, and I got caught up in the evangelical circles and, you know, got into this whole division and looking at other people and trying to put myself on a pedestal like, I'm the good Christian. I literally did that to my whole family. I was like, I'm a good Christian should follow suit with me. I know what I'm doing. But then right before my husband deployed, it was like, I was fighting with everybody I didn't want to be in. There was so much drama. My parents were starting to fight. And then a few years later, they ended up getting divorced, but I was caught up in the middle of it trying to do my own relationship.

Then he's deploying and now we're scrambling to get married. And everything happens so fast that it was like this big explosion. That summer my husband deployed and so much shit hit the fan over the next couple of years. And I played around with Ravi Zacharias and Tim Keller.

Seth Price 13:45

Ravi’s voice is seducing though his voices you know, it's like listening to your grandfather like you tell me more. I don't even care what you're telling me just tell me. more.

Danielle 13:55

That beautiful Indian accent on top of it.

Seth Price 14:00

He’s so gentle.

Danielle 14:02

But then after a while I started going “I don't really know what he's saying”. He just felt like he was saying the same thing over and over. Okay, well, he had referenced some other people. So I started looking into them. And so I got to Tim Keller, and then somehow I got to Greg Boyd. Greg Boyd, shook me, wrecked everything I thought because I was like, military wife, proud of my country and my husband, my husband thought for you and your freedom. You know, I took on that mentality. And I read Greg Boyd, and I was like, I was so wrong. And then I do what a lot of people do is I was like, I swung that pendulum so far back that I was like, honey, you just better condemn the military and he's looking at me going, what are you talking about? You know?

Seth Price 14:50

All this while he was gone while he was deployed.

Danielle 14:53

Now. He was back. He was back…when he got back. Okay, so I cheated on him while he was deployed.

Seth Price 15:01

I hope this isn't news when I run it…?

Danielle 15:05

No.

Okay, no, everybody knows I feel like. But that's what happened. And I admitted it within like 40 hours. I couldn't hold it out. He knew something was up. And that's when we really started acting married. And that's when we really started fighting. And that's when we really started digging.

So we just had done a lot of digging. And then my parents got a divorce after that, after he got home. And we were having kids, and we were trying to do our marriage and we were trying to rebuild and that kind of created a big shatter and divide for us with our families, because it brought up his parents divorce. And so we were just doing a lot of digging. And we happened on Greg Boyd, and what that was four years ago, maybe five? And ever since then, we've just been, more so me, I'm just kind of like pulling them along for the ride. And he's like, whatever you say, babe, I trust you, you know, or sometimes he's like, you don't know what you're talking about. But let's look at it again.

But I do the digging and the research and I lay it all out for them. And what do you think? And we talk and you know, and then I go and dig more. So that's what I've been doing. So I'm just thirsty, to keep understanding God and to keep understanding meaning and existence. And

Seth Price 16:24

So why Boyd, which book was it?

Danielle 16:28

Myth of a Christian Nation? Have you read that?

Seth Price 16:32

I've read parts of it, man. So that one is the easier to read version of his larger one. I can't remember the name of the large one either. It's on the bookshelf…no, it's not on this bookshelf. I have too many bookshelves. So yeah, the Warrior God one.

Danielle 16:53

Oh! Cross Vision.

Seth Price 16:56

There it is yet. So there's a larger one that's written with bigger words. And then the Hey, let's redo this. I need nickel.

Danielle 17:01

Yeah, yeah. His God at War and Satan and the Problem of Evil? Yeah. Holy crap. Those are big bucks. They took me forever.

Seth Price 17:11

Yeah. So I remember so I spoke with him for gosh, January of 2018, it's just been over a year. And there was a part I forget even what I asked him and he's like, says stay with me because we had the video and he's like, I can see the juice dripping from your ears. Stay with me. I was like, I can't honestly I want to talk with him again, but I'm scared too. I don't like feeling like the dumbest person in the room. And I don't think he means to he's just brilliant.

Danielle 17:40

He just thinks you're on track with him. So he's just just conversation. You know, this right here. I'm over here. Like, wait, what did you say? Let me write this down.

Seth Price 17:50

Yeah, yeah. Where are you at now then? So if you were ultra Democrat, and I don't know what type of religion to ultra conservative and I would also assume when you said Evangelical GOP, and now, I'm not overly concerned with your politics, although I could probably glean that from your Facebook posts.

I try to make my posts in such a way that people don't quite actually know who I support, which is, is a goal. That's the goal.

Danielle 18:22

That's a good idea.

Seth Price 18:25

Well, I, so one of the things Danielle that I've been struggling with is, and hopefully you'll struggle with this as well. So the more popular the show gets, the more people listen to what I have to say. Which really makes me want to say less, if that makes any sense at all.

Danielle 18:41

Oh yeah. Cause you don’t want to turn them off and make them go man I hate you now.

Seth Price 18:44

I don't like the microphone. I don't want to talk…I'm happy to talk about God and Jesus and say, No, here's where I'm at. But like when it comes to politics, I'm like, listen, here's the thing. Like there's smarter people than me, that have a better....I just tend to vote for the school board here where I live and the rest of this stuff, I don’t know.

Danielle 19:05

You don't want to have to talk about it where you might be compelled to talk about it.

Seth Price 19:11

So, no, I want to talk about it, but I refuse to talk about it. I grew up ultra conservative, and then went to liberty and was you know, gung ho for you know, the Moral Majority. And this, that and the other. And then the further I get away from that, I'm like, oh, man, I don't even recognize the person…that person like, I just, they're both broken. All will shoot all four or five parties are broken in many different ways. And I just find it easier, although slightly more offensive, to talk about God. People get angry a lot faster but at least they don't usually call me a Nazi or something else.

So what what kind of Christian would you call yourself now or is that even the best term? Like what would you say?

Danielle 20:05

Yeah, I mean, I think using the term is easier for a lot of people. So then I don't have to go. Well, you know, I mean, I, I jive with this, and I dig this. I'm mostly Christian, but I'm so open to the teachings of Buddha. And I want to find God and everything I read. I want to see that and I typically do that other people are just kind of vying for that same existential question we all have that we think we're going to get through discovering something in the Bible anyway, which is why we're supposed to be here and what our goal is supposed to be. So I do it with a Christian lens.

I always want to try and whatever I find, go “Look, that's just like what Jesus said”. So that's my default. That's kind of what I grew up with. That's kind of what I've always been comfortable with. But I don't want to make a decision on what heaven or the life after is. I try and focus on what would the Kingdom look like here? And I don't believe in hell and I can't wrap my head around God rejecting anyone. So I guess that would make me a Universalist.

Seth Price 21:16

I agree with you this. So one of my favorite things that I do when people put something on Facebook, or shoot me an email, which happens more and more is I'll just respond, especially with eschatology, and you know, heaven and hell. And I'll say, Yeah, what if I told you they're probably both metaphors? And that's pretty much the way Jesus used them. And then I don't say anything else often I don't even get a response.

But if I do, it's people like “I'm gonna pray for you”. Awesome! Do that! That would be awesome.

So you are writing a book with Matthew Distefano, what is that?

Danielle 22:14

Um, well, right now it's called “naked and known”. And what it is, is kind of our take on the non-expert, not advice, how to be married book. Naked and known” how to have an authentic, vulnerable, marriage or long term relationship. What happened was, he wrote a vulnerable article on his blog. And that really resonated with me. And so I reached out to him and wrote my own piggybacking off of his idea, and he published it for me as a guest piece and then called me and “do you want to write a book”? What‽ Our stories are so similar and I said, are they? And he said, we have a lot of stuff we can that I have a feeling we share. And so we started talking and kind of sharing a lot about what we've gone through with our marriages and really just felt like maybe if our voices spoke out it, I don't know it might help other people who are going through the same shit we are. Can I swear, sorry.

Seth Price 23:28

Yeah.

Danielle 23:30

So that's where we're at. And we're you were using great minds. I mean, it's not just our anecdote, but it is. We really like a conceptual angle of everything we both do. And he's, um, he's a theological scholar. So he wants to, you know, show through the Bible, through Scripture, what we've usually thought about what marriage is and what the roles are and show you what if it looks like this instead? And then how can we show you an anecdotal story from our own marriages to better explain this? And then what did we learn from this? And could it benefit you?

And because we've both been through some pretty what's the word overt controversial instances in our marriage, things that would usually break marriages, would end in divorce, and we've survived them. We've figured maybe we had a little bit of a missing piece to add to the puzzle. So that’s our aim.

Seth Price 24:34

So many people and I don't know what those things are outside of what you said just a few minutes ago, but I know so many people when the world that we live in now people just pull the escape hatch lever. I watched Top Gun the other day, because that's, I like that movie. And the only thing I can think of is so many people just use a bad metaphor, pull the escape hatch and they slam right into the glass and self destruct everything instead of a landing safely in the ocean, because they refuse to deal with a plane that's on fire that you can probably fix if you just settle the freak down. But they just refuse to. And that's more than marriage. I mean, that's friendships, that's politics, that's church. That's all 70,000 billion denominations of all the different churches…

Danielle 25:21

It’s expectation. That's what expectation does to us. We can't deal with uncertainty so we have these constructed expectations of how everything supposed to be and as soon as it gets a little hard, “well we're told we can do this and just get out of here.” So we do it and then we wonder why relationships don't work out and why half of marriages end in divorce because it takes work. The Buddhists say life is suffering well so is marriage-suffering, but find the joy in it.

Seth Price 25:57

Listen up kids marriage is suffering.

Danielle 26:00

It is. But it's worthy suffering

Seth Price 26:04

Another book and this just popped into my head so I don't know if you've read because I saw your stack that you posted the other day of like 20 books and maybe less than that I am curious why were some flipped around are those like for later reveal like you're gonna turn a little Lazy Susan?

Danielle 26:21

Those are the first four books I will be talking about on our podcast, Bookish.

I wasn't gonna show them to you but I was showing you all my cool colorful post it notes.

Seth Price 26:33

That’s a lot of post it notes Yeah, well you should add a book and for all I know it's in one of those reversed ones and if it is you can just wink and since nobody will ever see the video we'll just edit this out like it never happened. There's a book Without Buddha I Couldn't be Christian. I think that's the name of it, by Paul F Knitter.

Danielle 26:53

I don't have that book.

Seth Price 26:55

I think it's Paul F. Knitter. He is like the really smart person chair at Union Theological Seminary, which I feel like is close to you, isn't it?

Danielle 27:06

I don't know. I'm in Minnesota.

Seth Price 27:08

I think it actually is in Minnesota. (Update…it’s not)

Danielle 27:11

I would not be able to verify that.

Seth Price 27:13

I can't, but he's just a scholar on World Religions period,just happens to be Christian. But one of his most famous books is I think it's called Without Buddha I could not be Christian or something similar to that. But you've said enough things that I think you would enjoy it.

Danielle 27:31

Yeah, I probably would. I'm doing two courses right now on like Buddhism in modern psychology. And it flabbergasted me even to see the title of the course and I went, okay, two birds, one stone. Sure.

Seth Price 27:46

So break that apart. What is that? Buddha in modern psychology.

Danielle 27:50

Buddhism in modern psychology? Well, one of the courses is just, it kind of just shows you how the Buddhist thought kind of lines up with, I want to say your best self actualized possibility.

How do I say this? Okay, trying to think of my my course notes here. It's just a basic introduction into like, what's it called the “daca!” “duco?”I don't want even I'm gonna mess this up. Okay.

Seth Price 28:25

I won’t know if you do. I know very little about Buddhism.

Danielle 28:27

Kind of an introduction into like the tenets of Buddhism. And then kind of juxtaposed with what psychological thought. What Freud what Jung, what…what’s another dude's name that I just got into? Oh my gosh, see, I'm screwing this up again, I forget names, and correlating how Buddhist prescription can help with mental clarity, mental health, and self actualization.

And that was such a bonus for me because we're in our book we're writing about needs. You know, when you're talking about needs, you're gonna refer to Maslow's hierarchy. And, you know, Buddhism, Zen Buddhism, has some processes that kind of are in the same sphere of the, what is it like the six essential human needs of certainty, uncertainty and then the physiological needs.

And I don't know, for me, it was just super interesting because I just never really thought about putting Buddhism with psychology in the first place. I'm interested in both big time just because yeah, new stuff challenges my brain. And when you start really digging, like I started digging more in Buddhism, and I started looking more towards Carl Jung and something in Carl young drove me back towards Buddhism and I thought, Well, that was weird.

And then Jordan Peterson references both Buddhism with modern psychology, goes back to Jung, and talks about Buddhist teachings. And so yeah, it for me, I was like, as I'm learning, I'm like, maybe I'm just supposed to be learning this because it's all just interrelated with everything else that I was reading. And it's just interesting.

Seth Price 30:21

Yeah, that's good. With whatever you can say, what is your of the of the first four episodes? I'm assuming you're recording them or you already have recorded them? I don't know….

Danielle 30:31

Couple. Yep. And we still got some more to record on Monday.

Seth Price 30:33

What are you most expectant about when people hear those?

Danielle 30:36

Well, if they're just going to react off of the titles, I think some people are going to react negatively. For instance, on one of our episodes, I'll be discussing Jordan Peterson's 12 Rules For Life.

Seth Price 30:50

I haven’t read that one.

Danielle 30:53

Um, it's interesting. And one of the reasons I'm doing I read his book, I read it last year when it came out. I somehow got…I don't even remember how I discovered Jordan Peterson (it was from a podcast, some other podcast). And I, at first, didn't really like him. I thought he was cocky. And then I saw another video and I was like, Huh, and I think he was like crying in it. And I was like, weird. I didn't even think this guy even had a smile. And then I got interested in his book, and I read it. And then I made my son read it. Well, a few chapters, because it's a big book. And my son's attention span is really little, but he's 17. So I thought there were a couple of key chapters in there that I really liked. And then I started talking about Jordan Peterson. And then I was like, wow, everybody hates him!

Seth Price 31:46

When you said his name the first thing I thought is, well, this is gonna go one way or the other. I don't have much of an opinion on him, on purpose. I have refused to learn much about him.

Danielle 31:55

Yeah, well, and the only reason that I really jive with him is because there was a lot of stuff that he was saying that I was trying to speak to, to through like literally writing this book with Matthew, there was some stuff in his book that I'm like, like he gets it. And I started sharing some of that stuff. And I think I like pissed someone off when he liked it. And I was like, that's Jordan Peterson. He messaged me and he's like, “you really need to learn how to quote people better and put their names down!” And I was like, “you're mad because you like something Peterson said…okay.!” But there is such contempt.

And I get it. I mean I get it. But I think we still have to look for the good in people. And he has a lot of really incredible stuff to offer. And I just kind of want to share that perspective. And if people don't agree with me, cool, too. And I actually think that episode, we're like, contrasting it, Michelle Collins, she's going to be discussing a feminist book, like feminist Psychology.

Seth Price 32:55

At the same time or those are two different episodes?

Danielle 32:56

The same episode.

Seth Price 32:57

So how would that play with Jordan?

Danielle 33:00

I know, right. How would it play?

Seth Price 33:00

I just…you know I do know…

Danielle 33:03

I don't think Jordan would disagree. I don't know what her book is about, but I don't think Jordan would disagree. I think he's, a lot of people I think have said that he's like, anti-feminism, but I don't get that. And I mean, I'm a skeptic when I read people because I'm always looking for like, are you a racist under there; is this patriarchy stuff? I gotta be careful what I'm promoting here. Don't give me any hidden stuff.

And so I did that with Jordan Peterson, you know, like, I'm not going to just fall for this guy and then look like an idiot later. So I've really gone into it with a fine tooth comb. And yeah, he says some stuff that I'm like, “No, that's stupid.” But he says some other things that I think, I don't know, maybe if people heard this from this light, maybe they'd be like, “Oh, he's not so bad.”

I think people want to hate him because he's kind of hard to label. I can’t put him in a box. So in some of his chapters, I think is he writing.., is he pro socialism? You know?

And for me, I'm like, why is everybody socialist? It's just rubbing into me! And I don't know if I like it. I don't know what's going on here! And, like my husband's cousin reached out to me last night and was like, “it's starting to grow on you”. And I'm like, shut up! I'm not going to admit that, you know.

Seth Price 34:23

Is it?

Danielle 34:25

The ideal of it is (in) the same way anarchy appeals to me, and utopian form. Yeah, that's my kingdom.

Seth Price 34:35

That’s fair. Yeah. The part of socialism that appeals to me is and honestly, I hadn't given it much thought until the lady, I can't say her name. And I'm not gonna try the freshman congressman from New York, Alexandria,

Danielle 34:50

Alexandria Ocasio Cortez?

Seth Price 34:52

Yeah. I try to not ever talk politics, but there was the thing that she said in an interview. Let's say it was on CNN, I don't know what it was on, I don't think it was on CNN. And she basically said, you know, like, it's not really morally acceptable for people like (Jeff) Bezos to live the way that they do while some people literally can't afford insulin.

And I can really get behind that, like, I don't care about the rest of it so much. But I also am a very successful banker. I really wrestle with that. Like, there's a part of me that's like, now we should fix this. And another part of me is like, even if we do what's that mean for my career? Because I literally get paid to help people build and accumulate wealth. And I'm damn good at it.

Danielle 35:42

It’s a bit of a moral conundrum I bet, huh?

Seth Price 35:44

I didn't even go to school to do it, and I am good at it. But there's a tension. I just tunnel vision it out, I guess. So I want to ask this so I know your podcast is going to be based on you know, authors and books specifically. So If you could pick one, and they weren't gonna say no. Like you wanted to talk to the author, and I don't know if you will ever do that on your show or not, what would it be?

Danielle 36:09

Which author?

Seth Price 36:10

Yeah, like, if you had a book, you had the title in your hand, you're like, you know, I get a magic “everybody says, yes”. This is the one that I'm talking to. And this is it.

Danielle 36:20

Wow, I've never thought about that. Like, kinda like that. Who, if you could pick anyone who would you have dinner with? And I would never I would never know what to say. If I cried, but she's, she's not alive. Okay, can I not alive or do I have to?

Seth Price 36:38

I'd rather than be alive so it can actually work but that's fine. You could do it that one. That's fine. You just end up having to do two if you do that.

Danielle 36:44

Well, that's true, man I don't know.

Yeah, I do. Michelle Alexander. She wrote The New Jim Crow.

Seth Price 36:58

I don't know her or that book.

Danielle 37:00

She read the news. Have you heard of the documentary 13th that played on Netflix.

Seth Price 37:05

I loved that. I did watch that.

Danielle 37:07

So it was based off of her book, The New Jim Crow, Michelle Alexander.

Seth Price 37:11

So why her?

Danielle 37:13

She’s a strong woman and a strong voice who stood up for injustice and has stood against oppression. And I think I just want to sit in her presence and ask her if she feels like progress is being made.

Seth Price 37:37

That's a good question. Yeah, I don't know that you’ll like the answer. I've asked that question in almost every episode, and almost every time without batting an eye, they all say “Not really”. Yeah. Which is sad. That's sad. Well, it's not sad that they say not really. It's what's sad is they're like, nope, they don't have to think about it. Like that's the easiest question you've asked all day. Nope.

What is one thing that human beings can do today that would be generative in their faith? And I don't even really care what their faith is. What should they focus on intentionally that would be generative in whatever their Walk of Faith is? Be that Christianity, Buddhism, be it you know, whatever it is, be it Islam. What would that one thing be?

Danielle 38:28

To always be generative in their faith…?

Seth Price 38:30

When I say generative, I mean, to have some form of progress to do it better, either for you or for your community.

Danielle 38:39

I would say to just always let the love pour out. Keep it pouring out.

Seth Price 38:44

Would your husband agree?

Danielle 38:48

Yes, all the love.

Seth Price 38:51

I will wrap it up. So Danielle, as people listen to this, and then we know that you have a podcast coming out and you also have a book coming out where do they begin to engage with you?

Danielle 39:04

Well, you can start with bookish.cc and if you log on to that, you can subscribe to find out when we drop and then you can learn how to follow us. Rafael with Quoir, will be setting up all the fun stuff. I believe we're going to start a Facebook group similar to you know what everybody else does with their little podcast groups.

And then you can just look for me on Facebook. I'm not a “tweeter.” I don't do Insta..

Seth Price 39:36

Your “not a tweeter”?

Danielle 39:39

No, no. Look people like Twitter (and) that's fine. I can't keep up with it. It's too much so I can handle Facebook, Danielle Kingstrom on Facebook. And that's it right now. Follow along with choir on Facebook to get updates on when my books ready with Matthew and our podcast drops.

Seth Price 39:59

Good. Well, I appreciate you being here. Appreciate your time because you have a lot going on between a small city worth of livestock. (Laughter both) And then your family.

Danielle 40:13

It’s winter though this is my slow time.

Seth Price 40:18

Really, there's no pigs in the winter.

Danielle 40:20

No, well, he has pigs. I don't deal with the pigs, my son helps me deal, my older son, with the other animals. I'm a gardener, like hardcore. Like, that's my life. That's our food in the winter. So the winter I do as little as possible.

Seth Price 40:35

You're like totally self sustaining. Like you really don't have to run to the grocery store except for just a handful of things.

Danielle 40:42

Yeah, I mean, we have milking cows.

Seth Price 40:46

I don't even know what that looks like. Well, good, I'll give you back your evening. I have no idea what time it is there. But thanks so much for thanks so much for this. I've enjoyed it. I hope you've enjoyed it.

Danielle 40:56

Yeah me too! Thank you, talk to you later. Bye.

Seth Price 41:21

There we go first one in the books. I'm so appreciative of anyone that supports the show in any way. But for a handful you know the 30 or 40 people of you that you know are on Patreon. I am ever thankful and it is my privilege to do this with you. And for a few of you it is an honor to speak with you learn more about you to be deeply personal with you. I would argue to do church with you as we discuss faith in life in community with intention and so teach of you that have done that. Thank you. I can't wait to present more of these types of conversations to you.

The music today is from an artist they had a new album come out this year that have really like a lot. I don't really know what holds me. But there's something in the way that this band incorporates musicality, for lack of a better word. But the music in today's episode was from Mike Main and the Branches. You'll find links to all that in the show notes. And the tracks obviously, is still going to be are still going to be on the Spotify playlist for Can I Say This At Church, that separate feed. If you're not listening to that, and you use Spotify, and that is on you, you need to fix that it is a fantastic playlist. I am biased, but I find each song takes me back to the episodes. And the emotions of that episode is in a way that only music can.

But even if you haven't heard the episodes The songs are from the music is really good. It's eclectic. It's not all of one genre. And so it's been an honor and a privilege to incorporate those artists and go and listen, support them any way you can. I'll talk with you next week, be blessed everybody.

Unmuzzled Christianity with Rafael Polendo / Transcript

Note: Can I Say This at Church is produced for audio listening. If able, I strongly encourage you to listen to the audio, which has inflection, emotion, sarcasm where applicable, and emphasis for points that may not come across well in written word. This transcript is generated using a combination of my ears and software, and may contain errors. Please check the episode for clarity before quoting in print.

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Rafael 0:00

The way that people understand and interact with church and I mean, we've been seeing numbers, Barna has been documenting it, you know, millions of people leaving the church, traditional church every year, not because they're losing their faith but because they're they're trying to survive in their faith kind of outside the four walls. Unfortunately, I think the American church has created this institutional empire that for the most part is operating outside of what Christianity is called to be. I think as those things begin to erode we're going to start seeing, I think, more honest conversations. I'm hoping to see a shift of Christianity away from a shame culture, away from law based, shifting more towards a true understanding of grace of a true understanding that if we really say God is in control, whatever your view of that is, do we give people the grace to be where they're at in their journey; or do we feel the need to constantly have to correct in align someone with you know, our theological viewpoints?

Seth Price 1:30

Hey, how are we doing? As always I’m Seth, you're in for a good episode today. So a lot of the people that I end up interviewing on the show are theological based, which is fantastic. And today's episode is no different really. But it's rare that I talk with someone that actually puts together the meat of content in a way that they see both sides. Someone that is both trained theologically but also knows the ins and outs of podcasting and publishing an art and graphic design and all of those small facets really change a person. I think, you know, an artist views the world in a different way a theologian views the world in a different way, a minister, a preacher, a counselor, a producer, they all hear things differently, and they all see things differently. And that's what I like about this conversation.

Over the magic of the internet I sat down with Raphael Polendo, who is the founder is a good word of Quoir Publishing, who has published some books about God and Jesus. And some of those books have become some of my favorite books and some of my favorite episodes of these shows. So those authors would be like, you know, Keith Giles, and Mark Karris and Brandon Andress, and those three authors have written some books that really have impacted my faith and my life tremendously and so I am personally thankful for those. And I'm thankful for institutions like Quoir that would allow those books to exist in a world that prior maybe they wouldn't have.

So we talk about, you know the history of evangelicalism, the the future of the church pillars of the faith and what those look like going forward. I mean, the conversation goes in a lot of places but what I think you'll hear, what I trust that you'll hear, is a genuineness and a love and Rafael’s voice and his concern and and his purpose and his mission as he sees it. And so let me know what you think. Comment on the show rate and review this show, just let me know, Facebook it whatever you need to do, but I really look forward to hearing your feedback on this one. Here we go roll that say, Rafael Polendo.

Seth Price 3:48

Rafael Polendo, dude, I'm excited to have you on to the show.

Rafael 3:51

Likewise.

Seth Price 3:52

Welcome to the Can I Say This At Church podcast, and I'll be honest, and we referenced this a minute ago. I don't usually talk with people that also produce a podcast and so in the back of my mind, I'm like, don't screw up because you're gonna be graded on a scale of, you know, 1 to 100.

Rafael 4:07

What's funny, what's going on in my head is don't screw up because I don't want to cause you to have to edit additional stuff, because I know the pain of how much time and energy it takes after the fact.

Seth Price 4:18

One of the worst ones I've had to edit and it's recent. So it's actually this Mondays and I don't know when this release and so for reference for everybody, it was whatever the Monday is the last Monday that you could still be in March, whatever that Monday is…

Rafael 4:35

Okay.

Seth Price 4:37

…with Shane Claiborne and Mike Martin. So his Skype, kept doing one of these…(skipping), but it was actually just splitting apart the syllables. I wasn't clipping anything. So I had to find each and every single piece and I'd have to put it right back together. It took me hours, but I was like, you know, it is worth it. Because if not, it sounds like a bad connection. And it's not it's just that Skype sucks as a program. So I was like, I can make this work and for the most part, I only missed like two as I listen back. I'm like, I don't think anybody will even know. But I know, and the Patreon supporters know because they get an unedited version. But outside of that, yeah, nobody else knows.

Rafael 5:15

So well except except for now the secret's out.

Seth Price 5:18

Yeah, Michael, get a better internet. If you're listening. Fix it, fix it. But Welcome to the show. I'm excited that you're on. I'm excited. I'm excited to chat with you. So I always like to start the same way. Who are you? Why are you what you are and kind of what you know, specifically, just to match the tempo of the show, what is the theology in you that is made you you know, from maybe your youth to now like, what is making you you?

Rafael 5:47

Well, you just come right out the gate with the good stuff. Everybody

Seth Price 5:49

Everybody always says that like, “okay, we're okay. We're doing it”.

Rafael 5:53

No small talk. No, no easing into it. Let’s just go right in.

Seth Price 5:56

Yes, that's not edited out. I just go right in.

Rafael 6:01

(laughs) Love it.

Well, your first question, who are you? I always laugh because I think of that scene from that movie Anger Management. And Jack Nicholson is pressing him and he's like, no, who are you? And he's like, well, I'm listening. He's like, “No, no, don't tell me what you do. Tell me who you are”. It's just like, sorry, going down this existential wormhole. But, yeah, I'd say. Let's see, I'm a husband and a father, new new father. My son's four months old now.

Publisher. So my wife and I started Quoir Publishing few years ago. I'm a graphic designer by trade coming up on 20 years. I am a follower of Christ was raised in the church. And I guess this kind of dovetails into into the next question. So from a very young age, I was I was raised in the church. I think at like four years old, they would put me on stage to recite Bible verses in front of the crowd and, you know, people would clap and cheer and stuff and so I kind of had that fearlessness about me. And I was trying to, you know, evangelize to little kids at birthday parties and stuff like that. So that's the environment I grew up in, around.

I went to Christian Elementary in junior high. Around junior high, we started attending a very small startup church, where it's the type of place where you wear multiple hats. And so I was the youth pastor, I was on the worship team, and then I was also filling in for the pastor as he would go on speaking engagements and stuff. So just very immersed in church culture, in Christianity, from a fairly conservative evangelical background. And so that was kind of like my upbringing. And then, several years after that, I read a red book called Pagan Christianity, and that book basically destroyed me in all the best ways.

So from that point forward, a lot of my theology came into question and I started digging into, you know, questions that were coming up in my mind, deconstructing quite a bit reconstructing and so that was kind of what kicked off that whole process.

Seth Price 8:13

You said that’s called Pagan Christianity?

Rafael 8:15

Yeah, Pagan Christianity by Frank Viola. So at the time I saw I had gone to Biola University, I was a Bible minor, with a major in art, and was going to mega church at the time. (I) was not dissatisfied with the church was not, you know, frustrated by any means was pretty content. And I read this book, and basically, the premise is what we do and consider normative in the modern church doesn't really have a basis in the New Testament. And they kind of trace historically, these practices that we take for granted as church and kind of show where their origins came from.

And it's not necessarily that just because something hasn't pagan origins is bad, but the point they were making was that the byproduct of these practices that we've inherited have actually distracted us from the vision and calling and mission of the church. And so I had read this book, just out of curiosity, and it just wrecked me. And so I was just left kind of feeling like the rug was pulled out from under me. It was the first time that my worldview was like significantly shaken. And from that point forward, I spent (time) researching and reading and digging into, you know, what is church? How does the New Testament vision of it? And that was really the, I like to say it was the the first thread of the sweater that kind of got tugged. And once that started unraveling, you know, there was a few other doctrines and ways of understanding theology that started to quickly unravel after that. So you know, that that kind of led to this deep deconstruction, reconstruction.

Seth Price 9:50

If it was a sweater, what is it today?

Rafael 9:53

Oh, it's like a bikini speedo! (laughter)

Seth Price 9:55

Is the goal to reknit something or just leave the lying on the floor?

Rafael 10:00

Yeah, no, I'm definitely not a fan of deconstruction just for the sake of burning it all down. And I know a lot of people have a difficult time with that term deconstruction. But I, I really see it as relating to, I think was, was it Michelangelo, his quote about sculpting David, where he, you know, “all he did was chip away everything that was not David”. And so for me, it's really, I'm still very much centered on Christ and understanding not just Jesus as the Christ, but even just the cosmic, all encompassing, understanding the Christ. And so anything that I come across that I feel, begins to, you know, distract or cover up or reduce the Christ. Those are the things that I want to deconstruct and kind of chip away so that hopefully at the end, I have a more full more vibrant, larger, more freedom producing vision of who Christ is.

Seth Price 10:57

Yeah. I'm curious, so I didn't know that you did graphic design. But to be fair, I, on purpose, did as much research as I needed to know that I knew enough that I needed to just start a conversation with you. Almost like my friend told me in the car, like we're having beers with Raf. And so here's three things about him. Have a beer and just get into it.

Rafael 11:19

You didn't Facebook stalk me…?

Seth Price 11:23

It's always weird. I'll go back though now and I'll go back like five years on purpose and I'll just like, like, one picture from 2013. Just one picture and then you'll Yeah, you'll know it's me.

Rafael 11:34

Yeah, you have to do it like three in the morning. This is going well.

Seth Price 11:37

Well, to be fair, we're like three hours apart. So I'm not getting up at six in the morning to do this not although I get up at six anyway. Yeah, I'll do that.

Rafael 11:47

Naturally?

Seth Price 11:48

Yeah, well, six my time. I gotta go to work. So I work at a bank. So yeah, we had to get there like eight so yeah, but I went to school at Liberty for graphic design. And then hated it like literally got out of school and hated it.

Rafael 12:06

The design or the school?

Seth Price 12:08

Well…at the time. I got that question the other day because I rag on Liberty a lot but I feel like I'm allowed to because I spent a lot of money there so this is my house if I want to rip the wall down I will I spent a lot of money here I have a degree from here I'm an alumni and so yeah you can gripe all you want about Jerry Jr. whatever. But I met his dad we had dinner a few times when I met his wife and I know Jonathan Falwell decent enough and and so I can gripe if I want to gripe I earned that right.

Yeah, so I don't hate this school. I don't agree with this theology anymore. But I'm thankful that I went there. Like I don't know that I would be where I'm at now, either career wise or religious wise had I not gone there and some of my best friends came out of Liberty. But no graphics does that I hate it because I get so angry that people don't know what they want, if that makes sense?

Rafael 13:05

Oh yeah!

Seth Price 13:07

Like, like, I'll make this and show it to you. And you are like, “I don't like it”. What don’t you like? “I just don't like it.”

So for me, my deconstruction kind of started when I had kids like it changed the way that I emotionally viewed things. And I guess to play off that Michelangelo metaphor, I imagine those emotions were all always there. I just never really had to use them, because it was just me and my wife, and my friends. And it's, you know, it's a different set of emotions. Fisher. And I could ask you that easily. And I probably will. But I'm curious how as an artist, how has your art either helped you see God a different way, or change the way that you currently see?

Rafael 13:43

That's a good question. So I think for me, it's the excitement whenever I realized that there's more creativity, not only in just the world around us, but even in the way that we interpret Scripture and the way that we interact with God, I think that that, for me makes me come alive. And so recognizing, again, kind of this more expansive, all encompassing view of the Christ, where suddenly you're able to go out in the world and interact and be looking for manifestations all around you.

And it just kind of opens up the world into a way that allows you to enjoy it and appreciate it. And you almost become a treasure seeker. Because when you realize there's Christ and everyone that the Incarnation is just totally saturated. You know, Richard Rohr his new book. I haven't read it yet, but I know this is a lot of what he talks about that I think it just makes life more vibrant, more exciting. So as someone with a creative background, I think that excites me to be able to try and look and see and discover him in different ways beyond kind of what you're handed and just traditional conservative Christianity.

Seth Price 14:55

I haven't read the book either. But my pastor said, “Hey, he has a podcast out. It's like 14 After 12 episodes”. And “he's like, just listen to the podcast. It's basically the book with like director commentary”.

Rafael 15:07

Really?

Seth Price 15:08

So I fired it up maybe 20 minutes ago, like I was literally finishing the dishes before I came downstairs to talk. And the first question that these people asked Richard is, how do you explain the concept of Christ to your kids? Like, when you're when your child is like, five years from now, and I was like, That's such a good question. I'm stealing it. I'm stealing. So if you're listening, I'm sorry, but it's a great question. It's not my fault, but I'm stealing it. I tend to not listen to other religious podcasts specifically for this purpose, but I was like, You know what, no! I want to list.

Rafael 15:38

Well, you do listen to Heretic Happy Hour

Seth Price 15:41

I do! Yeah so you produce that right. So you produce that one in like 27 other podcasts? It's not 27 but it's quite a few right?

Rafael 15:50

So for sure Heretic Happy Hour, and then we just launched Bookish and then we do have about three in the works but they haven't launched yet. So technically just two for right now.

Seth Price 16:01

And you produce them all?

Rafael 16:03

Yes.

Seth Price 16:04

Yeah. So I know how much work this show is my question would be why? Like, why not subcontract that out in some way, shape, or form?

Rafael 16:13

Well, so to be fair, two of the ones that will be coming out, they are recorded and edited by the host and then they'll send it to me for final kind of mastering. So when I say “produced” it's kind of a loose term just more overseeing the process, giving feedback suggestions kind of helping steer navigate, be a partner so to speak. But as far as like the nitty gritty hands on Heretic Happy Hour is pretty much the one that takes up my time. And it's because just the nature of the show, there's a lot of, you know, bits and in audio samples and things.

Seth Price 16:53

Yeah, well when you have that many people, but it's always hard, like I know the multiple interviewees when I have those ones I like those episodes, but they're way more work way.

Rafael 17:00

Yeah, yeah.

Seth Price 17:05

One thing I love about that show is they know how to disagree without apparently wanting to kill each other. Which is, honestly, I mean, it's funny, but it's rare like, yes, it's just rare specifically for Christians to not just not just you know unthread the sweater, but just literally light it on fire and then pee on the ashes.

But that product is like a byproduct of your publishing. And so I wanted to talk a bit about that. Why two decades into graphics design would someone go “you know what I'd like to do? I'd like to create content, both in audio formats, and in print format.” That makes no sense to me. Like I don't understand why someone would want to do that?

Rafael 17:52

Yeah. Well, to be honest, it doesn't make sense.

Seth Price 17:55

Not even to you.

Rafael 17:57

Yeah, but it was I think it's just part of the journey. For me, the way that I try and live my life is looking for kind of the signs or the open doors or the open windows, so to speak, and getting a feel for potentials and possibilities and stepping into those and seeing if fruit comes out of it. And if it does, all right, keep going down that direction. So that was kind of a vague answer. But being a designer, I, several years ago, was connected with a guy who was in pretty big in the Christian publishing world. And there was new technology coming out from Ingram, which is a major distribution company, and they were launching a print on demand service for books.

And so he was in a position to help authors self publish through this platform. And so he knew I was a designer and he asked if I want to design a book cover for him. So the first book they were going to be launching was from a guy who had been previously published with larger publishers. He was coming out with a book called The Last TV Evangelist. So his name is Phil Cook.

And so they asked me to do the cover. I did the cover. It was so fun, because I love books. I love reading, but I had never designed anything for books before. And you're probably looking it up right now.

Seth Price 19:19

I am! You saw my eyes dart down?

Rafael 19:21

(laughs) I did, I did!

So I designed the cover. And then he asked me to do the interior of the book, which I've never done before. And I was like, Oh, yeah, sure, I can do that. And that was just a whole other beast, you know, doing the layout for, you know, 200 Plus page book. definitely learned a lot through the process. But by the end of it, I enjoyed it. And so he continued to refer me to other authors that needed books. And so (I) got very familiar with book layout process with with the print on demand process. And simultaneously, this is kind of when my deconstruction had started.

And so I was running in some circles where there were guys who are self published who had great content. But because they were self publishing, they weren't designers, the package didn't quite match the value of the content. And that just broke my heart because people do judge a book by its cover. And so figuring out is there a way I can help these guys obviously use my gifts and talents partner with content that I believe in that I think is legitimate, and, you know, hopefully elevate its status. So that's when the idea for Quoir kind of was born. If we started a boutique publishing company, that was really part ministry, part creative outlet. You know, we could partner with authors, and also in a way where we can ensure that the majority of the royalty goes back to the author, because I've heard too many horror stories of, you know, authors that get pennies on the book sale and are still expected to do all the marketing. And yet the publishers are, you know, taking all the money from that.

So that was kind of the genesis of Quoir was strictly book publishing. And as we continue to get books coming in, you know, when we first started, I thought, you know, we would be inundated with books from people who are like, Oh, this is from my cousin's grandma's grocers, second nephew, you know, take a read, and it would be terrible. But I was frankly shocked that from the get go, we were getting really quality manuscripts of books of people who are just hungry to get their work out there, but didn't want to go it alone.

And so we we found ourselves in this in between space, between traditional publishing, and self publishing. So we just started kind of owning that. And the books that started coming our way tended to be on the fringes of Christianity, where they weren't outside the bounds of Orthodoxy, but they probably weren't books you would find in Lifeway.

Seth Price 21:45

And certainly not now.

Rafael 21:47

Especially not now. So we really started kind of cultivating this. I guess this genre of books for people who are either just beginning or in the midst of deconstruction, where they're willing to ask questions. Where the books represent conversations that are worth having, regardless of whether you agree or disagree with the, you know, the premise. And so we just started attracting more and more folks like that. So as that was developing, then realizing that, you know, there's other avenues of producing content besides just books. And if we could create sort of this ecosystem, where content is coming in different formats and different media, different ways that people consume it, then we could really transition; and this is my vision for for this year is transitioning Quoir from a publishing company strictly to more of a media company. And so that's why we're launching more podcasts.

We're actually finishing negotiations right now with a university to begin offering online courses that will be produced for our authors. And so that'll be another way that people can consume the content and take deeper dives into some of the, you know, theological and other types of topics that our books cover.

Eventually, I'd love for us to get into like short films and music in some degree and figure out a way where it makes sense. Where we can operate and again that in between space similar like we do with publishing.

Seth Price 23:14

Am I safe in assuming you read every manuscript that comes or you're like, not looks good. And then but I feel like to me as as also going to school for graphic design, like you can't make something if you don't know what it's about, like at a deep level. So do you read everything or you just let the author tell you what you're supposed to think of it?

Rafael 23:33

So that's a great question.

So everything that we publish, I have read. So typically a manuscript will come in and I have a handful of people, some of them are authors, actually, that all send the manuscript to just for like an initial read. So people whose taste I trust who I feel really understand our vision and what we're after, just to kind of get a pre-check. And then if they give the thumbs up, or they say, yeah, this looks good. Then I'll take the time to read through it and make sure it fits. So it kind of helps to have that pre-screening process. But at the same time, because I do want to read each book, it definitely creates a lag time in our review process.

So, you know, for authors out there who submit to us, they just have to be okay with waiting a month or two before they hear back because I mean, we're pretty backlogged right now, which is exciting. It's a good problem to have.

But I think it just shows the need for people who want to get their message and their content out there and kind of don't feel like they have very many options. And so they reach out to us and want to partner with us. And it's on, one hand daunting, and on the other hand, it's very humbling to just to see that people are willing to trust their baby with us, you know, to take it to the finish line.

Seth Price 24:52

Glad that you said yes. My fear was that you're going to say no, which means I had very few options of where to steer this episode. And so my wife will tell you that I asked a lot of, so does my boss, like I very rarely asked a question that I don't know the answer to, although that was one of them. Because I like to, I run a bank. So I like to control all the pieces on the board. Whether or not I'm good at it. I don't know, but I like to do it. So if you were to pick maybe two or three books, which I know isn't fair, so I'm not going to ask you what your favorite book is. Because if you're like me, I read enough books that I'm like, this is my favorite or this is my favorite like…you know, like if I had why wrote a few blog posts on on the website, if anyone listening wants to read them, the ones that were most impactful, but even then it wasn't the book wasn't the reason it was the most impactful. It was the way that the book made me come to terms with something I was dealing with. As my sweater eroded into a smaller sweater.

Rafael 25:47

You're not at bikini status yet?

Seth Price 25:49

Well, I don't have the bikini body. So I don't know that I'll ever be it so you only have one kid but when you have three the bikini status goes away for “Oh, somebody has an extra curricular activity every single night”. And then maybe because you're going on vacation next week, we're also going to pick up an extra night to make up for something that we can't do next week.

Rafael 26:15

Oh, boy.

Seth Price 26:17

Yeah, those are real…they're fun weeks. Um, and then on top of that we do this (podcast)!

I'm curious. So if you were to take two or three books that you're like, you know, as I look back over these last few years, how long has Quoir been been publishing?

Rafael 26:50

Since 2015?

Seth Price 26:53

Yeah. So you go back over the last four years now, three years, four years? What are two or three books that you're like this book impacted the way that I see God and here's why. You scroll back through, you're like, yeah, after I read this manuscript, like, I'm a different human being now because of this work?

Rafael 27:09

But I love that you asked that question because honestly, that's the feeling that I want to have after each manuscript we read. For me personally, I feel like if a book is not either, you know, challenging the status quo in some respect or pushing you outside your comfort zone, what's the point of reading it, you know? And so that's the feeling I'm kind of chasing, so to speak, after reading each manuscript and so definitely the first one that did that, for me was Jamal's book Free to Love. And that one product, a ton of controversy, kind of right out the gate, which was interesting, because it's technically the second book that we published. And so it was, it was a gamble that early on.

But for those that have read it, I feel like for me what it is did was it expanded my understanding of what it means to love one another. And it really opened my eyes to a God who is really seeking for his children to live in oneness, and in a way where we're not competing in hierarchy but we're really seeking the best for one another as brothers and sisters. And so I think that just kind of solidified that, that view for me.

And it had some ramifications even for how my wife and I dated and eventually got married and how we viewed our relationship. Which for us has been really, really healthy and helpful. But I think it really gave us some perspective and context to make sure that we didn't turn our marriage into an idol like we've seen, you know, other people do around us.

Seth Price 28:52

How so? Like if you were to use a fancy word, so what would be some of the things that you orthopraxy of that like what, what are a couple things that you're like, here's what we got to do?

Rafael 29:03

So the first thing that comes to mind is, so in one respect, I think there's this tendency, especially with conservative Christian couples is once they get married, they'll isolate from community. And it becomes just very, you know, very us very family protected as who we are. And from the get go, we wanted to make sure that our relationship was one where we actually welcomed community, and were inviting people into our relationship, not in an open relationship, you know, sexual kind of way, but we wanted to just be very transparent and, and live in such a way where just because we're married didn't mean that we are going to like peace out and go do our own thing.

So that's one respect and another is just kind of the way that we continue to trust one another in relationships. We are, personally, we are okay with cross gender relationships. And so there's this practice that we had started for Valentine's Day where neither of us, we're big fans of Valentine's Day.

Seth Price 30:03

You don’t like chocolate?

Rafael 30:06

I love chocolate.

But I don't want to wait one day a year. So Valentine's Day was coming up the first year we were married and we kind of talked about it. We're like, you know, we don't really need to have this day to celebrate each other. What if each of us takes out one of our single friends who is of the opposite sex and just like treat them and spoil them and make them feel loved and appreciated that day. And so my wife took out one of my guy friends, I took out one of her girlfriends, and it was just awesome because we planned this special date around them and their interests and what they love. And it was just such an awesome time and to be able to have the freedom to trust who you're in relationship with, and that they trust you. Obviously, we we still have healthy boundaries and you know, certain things, parameters that we maintain, because we're not ignorant of you know, what can happen But I think we don't want to live in fear. And we don't want to allow our lives to be dictated by fear. And so we'd rather extend grace and love and just kind of live in a way that is pretty cross cultural so that folks can see that if we're claiming the name of Christ, that there is something substantially different about how we are in relationship with other people.

Seth Price 31:24

Yeah. Yeah, that's good. I cut you off there. You were going to the next book.

Rafael 31:29

Oh, next book! Let's see. Top of mind, I would say I'm trying to remember like the chronological order, but I know Keith first book Jesus Untangled that one really rocked me because it was something I hadn't really considered before. So it kind of came out of left field, but it really challenged my view and understanding of politics.

And specifically, just if we are serious about the kingdom of God and what Jesus came To fulfill in how he empowered us, then how is that being applied in our daily lives? That's where I feel like the orthopraxy comes in is, regardless of whether you agree or disagree with Keith's ultimate premise and his conclusion, the fact remains that, you know, we are in this world and we're supposed to be operating out of a different mindset then, you know, buying into the culture wars.

Yeah. So that one, that one was the one that rocked me as well. And then Mark Karris's book, Divine Echoes, hands down best book on prayer I've ever read. For me, prayer was always kind of kind of weird, because it, it's definitely not at least wasn't logical, the way we approached it. And, you know, you, you just kind of write it off. It's like, well, it's just one of those things. It's mysterious and you know, God's ways are higher than our ways but for Mark to really come at it from a way that was not only faithful to the biblical texts, but faithful to the human logic, and faithful to God's Self emptying kenotic love. I just feel like he took all these disparate threads and really, you know, put it together in a way where it was very tangible, very practical, and in a way that I feel gave honor to God and honor to us as agents of freewill. So it was, it was a phenomenal book.

Seth Price 33:18

Yeah, I would agree on Mark’s. And I will say, you know, I spoke with Keith, I think Keith was like one of my, I don't know, second or third times doing this. Honestly, I'd like to do over on that episode, but I don't know that I’d ask different questions. Because I struggle with, with politics with some days. I'm like, yeah, I'm right there with Keith and other days. I'm like, I have to say something like, yeah, I this needs somebody needs to say something like, I can't just sit here and watch everybody argue somebody needs to be the adult here. Because none of y'all are doing it. But I feel the tension. I totally feel the tension.

But I get so much flak still every week. From even having Keith on the show to talk about politics on a show called Can I Say This At Church, which is really oxymoronic. I'm like you do realize the, the whole premise here, but it's fine. But Mark's book so it changed me deeply as well. And I've loved getting to know Mark, but my wife and I, lead a Sunday school every other month for the youth that are at our church. And a few months ago, like I was like, we're just going to pray differently. I'll do it. I don't want to go to prayer, because we're not praying about cats, or your test, or your friend. I don't want to do any of that.

So I tried to pray, you know, in a conspiring way in in the best way that I could have top of my head and at the end, like a lot of the kids were like, I've never heard of prayer like that. I was like, well, we're gonna do it again next week. I'm still awful at it. But I will say every time I do it, I'm like, this feels good. Like this is the way that I should have always been praying.

Yeah, his book and Luigi Gioia, he's at Cambridge, but he’s Italian. I'm sure I said his name wrong. Those two books Mark’s and his book is called Touched by God. But I like Luigi because he gives me theologians that have never heard from like, that portion of the world that I'm like, Oh, this is brilliant. Yeah, this is brilliant.

What is the future then? So if you're going to turn into the Vox media to questions about choir, so do you want to remain on the fringes or do you plan to do to allow people to do mainstream stuff as well? So if you had someone like, uh, I don't know, I can't think of someone on top of my head. Like someone from Intervarsity that they're like, hey, I'd like to put this out. I'm not trying to rock any boats it just like a John Walton. Would you? Is that too centralized like are you trying to stay on the fringe?

Rafael 35:54

Yeah, so I will say at this point, we're trying to stay on the fringe, but it's because we have an understanding and a vision that the fringe is actually where the church is headed. So I think that we're beginning to see this massive shift culturally and theologically. Where kind of the voices that have been marginalized and silenced in the past, especially thanks to internet, proliferation of content, democratization of, you know, distribution platforms that we're really starting to see a shift, a fundamental shift, in Christianity. And so what I'm trying to do, and you know, history will say if it's successful or not, is, you know, I'm trying to throw where I see the receiver running, rather than, you know, where they're at at the moment. So hopefully, you know, taking a correct pulse on what's going on in Christianity, seeing the way that it's going and hoping that we can be at the forefront of kind of this next movement and this next wave.

Seth Price 36:51

I'd like to drill there. What is that forefront like if so my son is about to enter next year. He'll in of the fifth grade. And so he's getting to an age that all of those issues like will become real, like less Nerf guns and real issues. Even thought it’s at a very low level, but there's still, I mean, I can't remember being in school and just from hearing him and his friends talk like, it's about to get real, which is terrifying. Yeah, it's very terrifying.

But I mean, within the next few years, you know, sexuality is going to be a thing, gender is going to be a thing. Everything will become more of a thing. So if we're going to drill there, what do you see the big shifts are going to be like, what will be the things that either break apart everything that we know of the church into whatever's left whatever rubble is left, or what will be the thing that we were able to rally behind and move forward over the next few years?

Rafael 37:45

Great question.

So I think this is something Jamal actually referenced in one of the early heretic happy hour episodes, but he talks about kind of the four pillars of modern evangelicalism. And these are the things that I feel like are going to be eroding in a major way.

One is the inerrancy and infallibility of Scripture, I think there's going to be a shift in terms of how we view the Bible. Not in a way that denigrates it or, you know, relegated to just an unnecessary relic from the past, but in a way that allows us to engage the text more faithfully. So I think that's one major shift that's coming.

Another one he talks about is our understanding of hell. That one's fascinating to me, because it's my personal view that it's our understanding of hell that allows the heresy hunting and charges of false teaching and this like very emotional, worked up response to theological differences. Because if we had a vision of hell, or an understanding of hell, that that was different from eternal conscious torment. I think it would take a lot of sting and the bite out of those theological disagreements because we wouldn't be battling over you know, eternal security. But I think I think it would help to allow us to have conversations in a way that was healthier. So how I think is one.

Another one is just basically the, you know, Calvinist view of salvation.

And then, really, I think the fourth pillars is the way that people understand and interact with church. And I mean, we've been seeing numbers Barna has been documenting it, you know, millions of people leaving the church, traditional church every year, not because they're losing their faith, but because they're they're trying to survive in their faith and outside the four walls. So, unfortunately, I think the American church has created this institutional empire that for the most part is operating outside of what Christianity is called to be.

And so I think as those things begin to erode, we're going to start seeing, I think, more honest conversations. I'm hoping to see a shift of Christianity away from a shame culture away from, you know, law based, shifting more towards a true understanding of grace, of a true understanding that, you know, if we really say God is in control, whatever your view of that is, do we give people the grace to be where they're at in their journey or do we feel the need to constantly have to correct in a line someone with, you know, our theological viewpoints? I think the LGBTQ issues is huge, you know, especially with what happened recently in church, but I think it's just a matter of time.

And I think the more that we align with understanding the essence of love, and especially in the way that Jesus embodied it, and and displayed it, I think that's really the way that the church is going to be shifting and moving; especially as the new generation comes up our ideals, I can't even say art because I'm not even part of the new generation. (Chuckles)

Seth Price 41:00

Sure you are.

Rafael 41:02

Their ideals are just more in line with an inclusive understanding of what love looks like and acceptance in and trust. One of my one of my favorite bands is Thrice I don't know if you got a chance to hear their new album but there's songs on there that lyrically are just phenomenal. I feel like they really captured the heartbeat of where the shift is headed. So if you get a chance, check out their album. It's called Palms

Seth Price 41:29

I will. I haven't listened to that the album lately that's been on repeat for me. So there's two and I want to come back to the pillars because I agree with those pillars, but I have a question for you on one of them, but the two so Heath McNease has a new album and I don't know if you know Heath McNease. But the man is the man his money. So what's the name of his newest album? Oh, I’d have to pull it up. But it's a brand new album. It was out like two weeks ago for a few few days there like he was sandwiched between Dr. Dre and Tupac on like this. way. Yeah, like he's like, hey, somebody, did anybody get a screenshot, but it was for a few days.

So Heath’s music and for those that have listened to the show, there was a bunch of music on the first four or five episodes in a row. And that's all Heath. Okay, that's all his music for people that want to go away back in the library. But he just does some amazing things. So he's able to sing in like a John Mayer-ish way and then also just freestyle bars for days. And he's good. And then the other one is, William Matthews Kosmos.

I don't know if you've listened to that at all. Yeah. So you referenced hell and that's one of my favorite topics, but I don't talk about so you don't believe in eternal conscious torment? What do you believe?

Rafael 42:46

Yeah. So my first shift away from eternal conscious torment was actually thanks to one of our choir authors. And he's actually one of the people who helped us get the company started because he allowed us to transfer his entire collection over the choir and his name is John Zen's. So he's written a lot in the like organic church circles. But he was the initial person for me that shifted my thinking from eternal conscious torment to an annihilationist view. And so that was kind of like, again that that first thread when it comes to hell, realizing like, Oh, wait, you know, you're not going to burn forever. It's a temporal thing that makes more sense. You know, it fits more with the nature of living God. So that was the first shift there and then just reading different people, I read some and listen to videos from John Crowder, who is someone who has an inclusionist view of salvation, and then obviously digging into Matthew just a fun Oh, read his book All Set Free before he came over to Quoir. And you know, he's arguing for a Universalist view and then reading a few more books on universalism.

So I would say that I am happy in the universalist camp. I think there is no good scriptural support for eternal conscious torment. So I'm not willing to concede that one. I will say annihilationism is still possible. I think you could make a case for that. But personally, I feel the weight of evidence lies more with the patristic universalism, classic universalism. So it's actually something we're really excited about for an upcoming book is Keith Giles is going to be writing kind of his treatise on patristic universalism. So yeah, excited to put that out there.

Seth Price 44:40

That’ll be fun, I’ll read it. Yeah, I'm right there with you. Although I still lean annihilation. So those are the first two episodes I did and so I went ahead and did what the time it was George MacDonald, but he's Robin Parry now, and then I did John Stackhouse was like let's just go both ways.

I'm still not quite like I'm not ready again yet to actually like tackle it for an hour because I'm just not I'm just not just not there, just not comfortable. And I try to be as genuine as possible in this and just not comfortable. So if the church switches and assuming like any structure, there's four pillars, there's four corners, there's four, well, I guess there's some eight, whatever doesn't matter four pillars out of any structures it's gonna, the integrity is gone. And so when that institution collapses, because I feel like a lot of people talk about the collapse of the church, myself included, and then we don't realize that the church does like a lot of good things like it, we do a lot of crappy things. We do a lot of good things too. And you need both subsets of the church.

You need that nondenominational very loosely formed to allow people a place like myself or other people, to a safe place to go, and a safe place to feel included in worship. But you also like that church is never going to send people to Haiti to help after an earthquake. Like they just don't have the structure. And so if the pillars are gone, what happens with all that institutionalized resources? Like what do we do with those? How do we redirect the way that you and I will have to like sacrifice personally, to replace that? Because that work still has to get done. And I don't trust the government to do it, nor do I really want them to. You know, I mean, like, I don't know how to replace one institution with another without it being equally unhealthy?

Rafael 46:25

Yeah, that's a good point. And I think that's really a difficult question to answer just in terms of, you know, at what point does a movement become a self serving institution? I think that's been a question for thousands of years, because it's just the pattern that we see over and over, and it's probably part of our human propensity. But I think, I mean, the way I think it could work is realizing that if Church as a capital C, as an institution, did not function as it did today that we would still have things like nonprofits that we would still have things like businesses and organizations that, you know, people of faith would create and raise up. But it is fundamentally different from an understanding of church.

So, I think that, you know, there's great organizations out there that are doing phenomenal, you know, humanitarian aid type work. I personally have a hard time with the ones where it's a bait and switch. Where, you know, we'll we'll give you some humanitarian aid, but first you have to listen to the sermon. I think unfortunately, that's one of the like, the bad elements of when church, you know, blends into this. But I do think that, you know, even for atheists and people who don't have faith, there are organizations and humanitarian aid that happens.

So I think just because the church as an institution, possibly could cease to exist, I don't think that the service would, obviously we'd have to get more creative and we would have to empower people in new ways, but I don't see them as necessarily being the end of both, if that makes sense.

Seth Price 48:03

Yeah, it does. So then that would be a what's the thing I'm what's the word I'm looking for? That would be an entire shift of the way that we view quote unquote Big C Church. And so then the last question I like to ask you is, what is the church like Big C little c I don't really care, like, yeah, in that stretch, like, what is the church? Is it just me and you right now because we are two gathered? Is it something entirely different like what is it?

Rafael 48:30

Yeah.

Well, I like to have a view of the church kind of similar to the view of Christ where there's this cosmic view of it. Where the church is everyone who's been awakened to the reality of Christ, I would like to say. And then there's kind of a local expression which I mean, I don't know if this is treading into heresy but you know, if you look at Jesus I don't have

Seth Price 48:53

I don't have that button like you.

Rafael 48:57

(Laughs) But you know, Christ is this cosmic, especially in Colossians. I mean, Paul gives this like mind blowing, huge universal view of Christ. But then you also have the expression of Christ Jesus, who was the Christ, on earth at a particular location in time. And so I think church is kind of the same way where there's this, this cosmic, ethereal, corporate collective of people who are interconnected on this like spiritual network, but at the same time, there's a local embodiment and expression of it. And I think anytime where you have people gathered, who are awakened to their true identity, and to the fact that there's a kingdom at hand and there is king that we serve. I think church is is what's happening in that moment. I don't think it has to be a 501c(3). I don't think there has to be a sermon and communion for it to be official.

You know, I think if there is an intentional gathering of people who are about Kingdom business, however you define that. For me, I think that is a view of a local expression of church.

Seth Price 50:05

Yeah. The only question then there is, what role does pastor serving in that? Yeah, but I promise you an hour and we're coming up on our hour?

Rafael 50:15

Well, I'll give a quick answer. So yeah, I do believe pastors are vital. I will say that, I think our what we've done with the text is we've read our modern definitions back into the original language. So for instance, we see elders as a role as a title when in reality, the text uses elder in the same way it would just be like an older person.

So if you think of like a family structure, you know, there's an uncle, or father, someone who's been around the block so to speak, it's not an official title that you get voted into or something like that. Same with Pastor. Pastor is more of a function. So a person who pastor is a person who shepherds who guides who leads, not necessarily, you know, a job description you can find on monster.com. So that's a real quick overview. But again, if you dig into Frank's book, it'll explain it.

Seth Price 51:09

Yeah, I will. I'm gonna buy that, I like that concept. But we don't have enough time to go there. So, yeah, plug what you need to Raf. So how do people get ahold of you? Definitely how do they get ahold of the book? Some of the best books I read last year we’re Quoir books.

Rafael 51:25

Thank you.

Seth Price 51:27

Yeah, well, they're, what's the word I'm looking for…you can tell that they're not muzzled, if that makes sense. Like, the authors can say what they intended to say. And there wasn't an editor that went back and said, Yeah, no, we can't do that. Because I need this in the end cap at Target so you can't say that because it's just not gonna happen. So where do people go to either get in contact with you or possibly to submit a text if they want to, or, you know, where do they go?

Rafael 51:57

Perfect, real quick before I answer that. I love the fact that you picked up on that—that they're unmuzzled. I like how you said that. And just so everyone knows, just because we publish a book doesn't mean we agree 100% with it. So we like to be of the same mindset that it's like, well, this is a conversation worth having even if we're not fully behind it. We think it deserves to be in the marketplace. So yeah, so Quoir.com is the best place to check us out. And it is spelled weird, quoir.com. And that's where you can find out about heretic happy hour podcast, the bookish podcast, and all the books that we're coming out with. Sign up on our mailing list so we can send you updates on what's coming out. But that would be the best way. We also have a Facebook page. I think we're on Twitter and Instagram, but really the website is the way to go.

Seth Price 52:44

Well, I'll have links to all those in the show notes for those listening and thanks again for coming on. Raf Appreciate it.

Rafael 52:48

Thank you so much. Appreciate it.

Seth Price 53:39

I'm truly thankful that people like Rafael exist, that they're pushing the envelope in a way that is nuanced (and) in a way that as I guess he liked the phrase as a way that unmuzzles people; that gives people an avenue and events to say what they need to say in an open forum and to disagree and to disagree with love. To not argue to not bicker to lead a life but lead life like he and his wife talked about just loving our neighbor loving our friends being like Jesus. That's beautiful. I wish hope that's something that we can all do.

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