28 - White Awake with Pastor Daniel Hill / Transcript

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Daniel 0:00

I was in a seminary course with a cup professors trying to make this very points of how pervasive white supremacy is. And he said he will have a catalog and he said, All right, let's look, you know, every one of you, no matter which program you're doing at the seminar, you all have to take some core theology classes if you pull these up, right, and they're just called theology. And then there's electives you can do, you know, African American theology, you can do an Asian American theology, you can do a teen American theology. The point on is like, what you won't see a category called Euro theology or white theology. That's why, because that's just considered the baseline, that's considered the norm, right? The the European theologians who reflected on, you know, scriptures and wrote about those, those are considered the foundation of theology and then all these other ones are American, Asian American, Latino American they're considered exhilarated. They can they're considered to be kind of coloring in or filling in. He's like, that's just one of the that's just one of the everyday examples of which, which we don't even notice that we're white supremacy exists where that's a little deficient. Like we think of white theologians as supreme. They're the ones who have kind of final word and then The other non white theologians you know, kind of joining a chorus of it.

Seth 1:40

Welcome to another episode of the Can I Say This At Church podcast, I am Seth, your host. The conversation today is heavy. It's challenging. I had the privilege and the opportunity to speak with Pastor Daniel Hill, who is the pastor of a large multi-ethnic church in Chicago. He's also the author A new book that came out late 2017 called wide awake. I want to take anything away from the interview. So let me just say this America we, we have to push into the topics of race. It is not easy, it is not comfortable. But the sobering fact is that as a people and as a country, and this is me speaking, as a white middle class, man, we don't want to talk about race. However, we can no longer just sit back and let things be untouchable, we can no longer stand idle. When issues arise we've got to educate ourselves. More importantly, we have to educate ourselves on both sides, there is history to both sides.

What we have to learn will have value and what we learn to value matters. Do we value our status, our privilege, our history over others, or do we value the people that bear the image of our Christ? Let me say that again, people bear the image Christ. So with that, let's get into the conversation with Pastor Daniel.

Seth 3:39

Daniel, thank you so much for joining us on today's episode of the Can I Say This At Church podcast it's a pleasure to speak with you.

Daniel 3:49

Thank you. So that's wonderful to be on your show.

Seth 3:50

There's going to be many that are unfamiliar with you. I've become accustomed to you as I was researching the topic for this show and found your voice keep going bubbling up to the conversation. So I become a bit familiar with your background and your history. Can you kind of walk us through just you know, what makes you you kind of your upbringing in the church and lead that into what you're doing now? And then and then we'll proceed to talking a little bit about you know, race and the church and in the world that we live in.

Daniel 4:19

Yeah, sure. Well, I'm a Chicago guy all my life so born here born into the church, my father was a minister as well and also scholar; was part of one of the first study Bibles out on the market. so I'm sure I learned English word before this, but the first word actually remember saying dikaiosýnē my dad teaching me that Greek word so that's I've been familiar with

Biblical concepts it's pretty much I was a boy.

Seth 4:45

So the dika… what is that?

Daniel 4:47

Dikaiosýnē, the Greek word for righteousness or justice depending it's a translated But yeah, I remember my dad teaching me that. That's actually the first conscious memory of a word I have dikaiosýnē.

Seth 5:02

Not dada but, dikaiosýnē.

Daniel 5:04

That was his kind of claim to fame is he was a Bible scholar. So he would bring up original Greek or Hebrew with them and just preach straight out of the original text. And that's the crowd he drew is folks who kind of planted himself as knowing the Bible well, but we're looking for original language insights that they couldn't find on their own.

So that's the kind of church environment I grew up in. When I went off to college. I was not planning to go to ministry, my undergrad was in business and I came of age from the .com era. So I worked full time during college while going to school in a .com, and then joined an internet startup company when I graduated college, and that brought me out by Willow Creek Community Church, a large church here in the suburbs, and I ended up going on staff there and work there for most of my 20s and then planted a church I'm at now River City Community Church in January of 2003. It's in the humble Park neighborhood of Chicago.

Seth 5:57

So I'm not all that familiar with Chicago. It's it's on my list of cities to visit. I've been to many of the big ones, but not that one. So where is that in relation to I guess, you know, the Chicago that we all think of or the Chicago that we see on TV when we, you know, when we watch sports or that what's kind of that frame of reference for for the community that your church is nested in?

Daniel 6:19

Chicago has got like three main sections, the North Side, South Side, in the west side, each have kind of their own distinct personality. So Humble Park, where we're at is kind of right where the west side begins. And so typically, West Side associated is associated with just black but our neighborhood is half black and half Latino. And so we're kind of in a little bit of a borderland between kind of the center of the city and where it starts turning into the west side.

Seth 6:42

You wrote a book recently that came out in 2017, called White Awake, and I've read pieces of the book. I've not finished it in its entirety, but I've enjoyed reading it. And I will tell you, as a fellow Caucasian middle Income class man in America, I have recently over the last decade or so come to struggle with a lot of the same stuff that you speak about. And so kind of what was…why did the title of the book is very not off putting but very out there very catch your attention. It's in your face. And you're curious about it. So what? What led you to want to write this book?

Daniel 7:22

You know, I mean, looking back over the course of my life, there was a lot of moments where I think I was beginning to realize there's something more that I needed to wrestle with, but I chose not to, which, as an aside, I think, you know, there's a lot of conversation about white privilege and while, I think that's a conversation worth having at the end of the day. I think. I like how my friend Julian, a pastor in the south side finds privilege. He defines privilege as simply having the ability to walk away.

And with that simple definition, I can see how they're just as privilege over the course of almost my entire life where this has always been an enormously important issue in our country. But some of us don't have to deal with it if we don't want to and that was me most of my life, I worked at Willow Creek and you know, young 20 something minister everything was new for me including officiating weddings. And where this really began was it was the first cross cultural wedding I'd ever officiated. And that wasn't something I really paid attention to until the wedding actually came. But the groom was of Indian descent. And he told me at that the rehearsal dinner the night before, you know, would be taking deep into the Indian culture and was indeed and it was very memorable night and the music, food, the dancing, everything was a really incredible experience for me.

So I was feeling very swept up in it. So I grabbed them afterwards and just wanted to thank him for inviting me this world said, you know, “hey, I'm so jealous of you that you have a culture I wish I had a culture and just want to thank you for bringing me into yours for this evening.” And what became a very defining moment for me he's a very gregarious kind of fun loving guy became very serious in that moment, and then afterwards wedding, he put his hand on my shoulder. He said:

Daniel, you hope not only do you have a culture, but when your culture comes in contact with other cultures, it almost always wins. It would be great for you and everybody, if you would actually learn about your culture.

Then he walked back out of the dance floor. And that was despite the fact that there have been many moments in the course of my life where I should have been paying attention that was the one that really grabbed ahold of me. It was just very provocative. It was borderline offensive to me based on where I was at that moment. But this idea that I not only had a culture that my culture almost always wins when it comes in other countries, other cultures, that really became kind of the genesis of you know, a more intentional journey on my part to become awake.

Seth 9:29

I assume that was after the wedding because that's kind of a drop the mic kind of comment, like something you'd put on Facebook or Twitter, and then immediately block someone so they can't rebut. (laughter)

So how did that, you know, that happens to me a lot. Because people a truth is offensive. When you take away all the emotion, I've come to find out so he says this to you, and then where do you go from there? Or I guess if you know if it was if it was me here, you know in Central Virginia, you know Someone after Charlottesville says something, whatever it be, and then just leaves, you know, goes home. And you know, so how do you then how do you go forward from a comment like that?

Daniel 10:09

Yeah, I wish I could tell him more noble story. I mean, it wasn't like, “Oh yes, this is the truth I need to find more about it” it was more like I tried to talk my way around it and so my own head and kind of diminish him and diminish the comments. But you know, for whatever reason at that at that moment, you know, God, let that one stick, and I just couldn't shake it.

And so it was very much still a defensive reaction. But I kind of went on the quest to disprove his theory, you know that I had a culture, my culture always wins and to kind of form an argument with the intention of eventually going back to him and disputing it. But the more I kind of began to talk to people that weren't just in my kind of white middle class, cultural bubble, you know, the more I found almost a universal resonance with what he said. And almost it's kind of like, when you talk to people were thinking about this stuff. That wasn't even like shocking to them, right.

So it was so shocking to me, but it's like, no duh people were thinking about it. And so I began to realize that there's just kind of this whole world, this whole level of discourse happening that, based on kind of my white upbringing I had just never been exposed to and never really needed to enter into.

Seth 11:12

Like, what specifically? What would be some of those examples of, well, this can't be true, or this shouldn't be true. So what were those things for you?

Daniel 11:18

You know, I would say, you know, I grew up in an environment that pretty actively promoted colorblindness. And, you know, we actually use those words, that's how it functioned, you know, but in especially within our church setting, you know, so there's always this kind of intention behind theology to say, hey, “all people are created equal, God loves everybody, you know, and so therefore, we don't see difference”.

And there's those bad people out there who are racist, but, you know, we're good Christian people who see everybody is equal. And you know, that that made sense to me growing up to treat everybody as equal. So even though I periodically would have interactions with people of color, you know, I never took the time to consider what the impact of their experience of being a person of color might be in our country; because I just kind of looked at him through a colorblind lens, you know. And so I think that's some of the stuff where I began to wrestle with and say, you know, is there something more substantial to the system of race? Is there something more substantial to the way we've kind of organized ourselves and the way we see each other. And, you know, I can go with more to that if you'd like. But I mean, I think at a macro level, those are the kind of things are began to explore and just began to realize, like, oh, wow, this is like this. This is a deep rabbit hole. And I've just not considered any of it.

And I really should, it's not really optional, totally optional. The sense that my life's not really a risk because of this and so I’m never really forced to think about it. But for so many other people like their, their livelihood, their well being, sometimes even their little safety is dependent on them navigating these kinds of things. And I just began to come understand the fact that the kinds of things I needed to think about were so different than the kind of things that people who weren't white have to think about. We touched on it right there. So I was listening to a show.

Seth 12:57

You touched on it right there. So I was listening to a show.I can't remember the name of it, but it's all about the hit. Story of the Civil War. But it's told by people that, that are much more educated in the history of it than I am. And I am a banker for for a living. And, and I just just a few days ago learned that, you know, Protestant American plantation owners here in Central Virginia across the country, used black people as capital the same way you would use a tractor; but usually use them because the tractor was worth more as a way to secure secure funding for their farm. And so you'd have JPMorgan Chase, and that type of stuff, holding a lien on a person. And so yeah, I think I think you're right history is a big part of that. I remember I texted that to a good friend is black and I was like, I don't how is this? If I never been told this? And I don't think they'd been told it either.

So yeah, history is…history is whitewashed, it is what it is. And what is our white culture then you alluded to learning about it, what have you come to find out so when he says that it always wins. In the lens of what you do for a living in the audience of this show, how is a church does that how does that happen? How is the church has when we show up as a white church? How have we won?

Daniel 14:12

You know, I think that's where we have to, like, start to dive into the history of things. And it took me a while to wrap my head around this. But you know, there's these really triggering terms especially for most of us who are white, you know, like, for instance, the term white supremacy is often a very charged triggering kind of word. And oftentimes, because people when they hear that associated with the most extreme forms, right, you know, the combat boots, or swastika, or you know, Tiki torches, or whatever, but come and understand the history of what that term means is a helpful beginning. Though it's a charged word it's actually very straightforward term white supremacy is just, it's literally just saying whiteness is supreme, right, whiteness is superior.

And in that narrative that whiteness is what is most valuable, is such a foundational part of the experience of everybody who lives in this country where in fact I like the term. Bryan Stevenson is the founder of Equal Justice Initiative. He's kind of out your way. And I think his stuff is really worth interacting with. He wrote the bestseller. Just Mercy. But he uses term he calls the Narrative of Racial difference. And this has been helpful for a lot of the white folks who are trying to like wrap their heads around helpful for me as well. He says, the narrative of racial difference, it's a narrative that doesn't just recognize differences in race, that's actually not a bad thing. In fact, I think you can make a case Biblically, but God recognizes different cultures, different cultures are created in God's image, I don't think recognizing the differences is what's problematic. The problem is that when historically when we've recognized racial differences with men assigned value to human people, human beings based on those differences, which said some people are more valuable with what they see as a racial hierarchy, we said White is most valuable, and black is most inferior as evidenced by the anecdote you just shared there.

Like a black person to be treated as property which you could never put a lien against a white person right like this. They were fully human, you can't use them as an object, but a lot of people were considered less than human and Bryan Stevenson, I think, accurately says that if you don't understand the history, the nerve of racial racial difference, you won't understand why things are still as problematic as they are. Because there are certain systems that were built on the never racial difference, like slavery, that have been overturned. But the narrative itself has never been challenged, this idea that we basically created a racial hierarchy that says whites most valuable blacks least valuable everybody else finds their meetings between those two.

And that narrative is so powerful and potent. And you see in the news every day, and you hear it in the national discourse, even in the most current debates about immigration, you know, there's kind of these know, legendary comments about certain countries that are, you know, expletives. And then yeah, you know, which really represents one end of the narrative racial difference, and then there's why can we have more immigrants from Norway, which represents the other end. I mean, that's just the nerve of racial difference. That's how it communicates is that whiteness is what's most valuable. Places like Haiti or Africa are these valuable, and everybody in between, you know, finds their worth based on that.

And so I think that's a real important starting point in this to realize that there's this narrative out there that the enemy is not a person at the end of day, the enemy is this narrative. It's this lie that says human value is tied to where you fall in the racial hierarchy. And so in that sense, this is not unique to white people to wrestle with this. This is on everybody. It's just that because white people live in a system that says, white is most valuable, even for white person verbalizes a disagreement with that it doesn't change the fact that that's the air we breathe, it's all that’s around us. It's the DNA of every system and structure in our society. And I just I would contend that without understanding how powerful that narrative is, and how pervasive it is, historically and present times, I think it's, I mean, it's just we're really handicapped in our ability to love our neighbor as ourselves, much less love ourselves. If we can see how serious the threat is of that narrative.

Seth 18:31

What would you say to someone that says, Well, that's fine. But is there a way that I say this? Is there a way to elevate another culture without necessarily devaluing mine?

Daniel 18:43

I don't think we want to be into developing other cultures and I think that's when we're completely anti Biblical that point, right? Because all people are created in God's image. It's like the song that's the opening page of Scripture is the Imago Dei that all people bear the image of God was talking about elevation or under, like whenever somebody's been looking For anybody who's putting down we're like, instantly in the realm of like serious sin category. And so I'm not ever proposing that the way you fix it is by re-elevating somebody else. I mean, it's just, we have to we have to subvert and eliminate the entire structure that raises up some and presses others down.

Seth 19:15

Yeah, it's the wrong it's the wrong metric to grade worth or the wrong that's probably a bad way to say it. But um, yeah, the wrong the wrong, the wrong measurements, the wrong unit of whatever it needs to be.

Daniel 19:27

Well, yeah, if I can even jump it, it's like, not even Yeah, I think that's some of the work I'm trying to do with people is to like realized, like, this isn't just a dynamic, I think it is the central dynamic in so many ways, this idea that some people are held to be more human, some people be less human. Like that is the foundational spite, like at the end of the day, and it's not just kind of like, Oh, yeah, that's like that's, like if someone actually realizes that right like that. That's the narrative that's alive as the broadcast to every second of our society because some people more human, some people are less human, which I would argue is just as powerfully being broadcast today as it has ever been. It's just an absolute confrontation to how God proclaims you know, humankind is made, which is according to his image.

Seth 20:07

Yeah. So you can choose to value the status quo, or you can choose to value an image of Christ. But you have to choose, you have to choose.

Daniel 20:17

Yeah, that's right. Yeah,

Seth 20:19

I've heard you say, and I don't know, or maybe you've written it or said it. But you talk a bit about you know, that you're in a privileged culture when you're learning, because you can go to a seminary and learn about African church history or other culture and church histories. Can you speak to that again, a little bit?

Daniel 20:38

Yeah, I think those are some of the so yeah, when I talk about that, like when people say, Gosh, white supremacy that is such a trigger word. I don't think of myself as a white supremacist. I'm like, Well, of course, I mean, none of us think of ourselves as white supremacists but I'm not actually when I say about supremacy. I'm not actually talking about somebody's individual actions. I'm talking about the way that every system in society continues to preference and normalize and even hold up whiteness as superior.

So that's an example I think is a very clear example is like in almost every seminar I know. But I was in a seminar course with a cup professors trying to make this very points of how pervasive white supremacy is. And he said he pulled up a catalog and he said, All right, let's look you know, every one of you, no matter which program you're doing here in the seminar, you all have to take some core theology classes, if you pull these up, right, they're just called theology is like, and then there's electives. You can do, you know, African American theology, you can do Asian American theology, you can do a teen American theology they put on is like, what you won't see a category called euro theology or white theology. Why? Because that's just considered the baseline that's considered the norm, right?

The European theologians who reflected on you know, scriptures and wrote about those, those are considered the foundation of theology and then all these other ones after American, Asian American, Latino American, they're considered auxiliary they can they're considered to be kind of coloring in are filling in. He's like, that's just one of the everyday examples of which which we don't even Notice that we're white supremacy exists where that’s a literal definition of like, we think of white theologians as being supreme. They're the ones who have kind of final word. And then all the other non white theologians, you know, kind of join in on chorus of it. I think examples of that in churches and organizations and schools, like ways in which whiteness is just communicated as kind of the standard or the norm or even the epitome of what people should be striving for. It's not people, combat boots on behind curtains doing evil things, it's just this kind of deeply ingrained thought process that whiteness is superior.

Seth 22:32

Well, this is an oversimplification but Jesus, I would argue is been whitewashed. Every picture you see of Jesus, they're all white. And the moment that you throw out an African American Jesus or any other nationality Jesus, which I think are honestly more truthful every nationality should be able to have Jesus look however it needs to look as Jesus represents everyone, but I mean he's been at least my opinion, co-opted by, by caucasian skin.

Daniel 23:01

And I think that's another very powerful example of white supremacy. I remember talking to a pastor who saw a picture of black Jesus, and he felt like that it was literally a heresy to do. And I was like, You seen white Jesus is your entire life? Have you ever called that heresy? And he had to admit he was more uncomfortable seeing a black Jesus than a white Jesus. Right? And it's like, well, like I think your point if you're going to guess I mean, he was a Palestinian, Middle East, Carpenter outside most of the day right?

If you had to guess what side is he was on probably on the dark side. But even if you just take that out. It's like, why is it that a black Jesus makes them uncomfortable and white Jesus doesn't, right? I think you're right. I think it's like, the ways we've internalized the white supremacy along the way, this narrative, that one is more valuable.

So if you're going to err, go on the side of white light, and we don't think that stuff overtly, but that really is part of the messaging we've received that if you're going to miss on one side, this on white because that's going to be the safer bet. And so I think that's a very powerful example of one of the ways that we just internalize that stuff without even realizing it.

Seth 24:42

I was on a committee to hire a pastor for our church here locally. And I remember one of the early early stages of it we had someone in and they'd said you know you need to vision the community that your churches in and whether or not you're comfortable with it. If your community within a few mile radius of your church is mostly African American or mostly Latino or single moms or Asian or whatever adjective you need to use, that should be in your interview pool.

Not that they necessarily get in, you know, in some form of spiritual Rooney Rule for lack of a better metaphor, but that you should intentionally seek those out instead of disqualifying people, because they didn't come from the right seminary, or they didn't come from, you know, from they're not the right color, or they're not the, when you look on the wall of pastors throughout the church, they don't they don't fit the mold. So how do you, and what are your thoughts on that a bit? Would you agree with that?

Daniel 25:37

Well, I think I understand where that's coming from. And I think there's perhaps room for that consideration, in my estimation, that’s still closer to the surface and farther from the root. You know, so I think it comes down to the white pastor who was, you know, trying to be very intentional, higher a white pastor. They made it a church wide mandate to white church and they made it a church wide mandate to the next associate pastor that they hire was going to be a person of color, without question like, just what's going to happen.

And so he was very excited that I understood the intent and neither one discourage that. But I said, you know, if the deeper problem is the kind of conspiracy of white supremacy in so many ways, which is what I think is a deeper problem. I think there's this kind of unchallenged, unexamined, unexposed kind of reality of how whiteness is still such a dominant force not just in society but in the church. And that's to me, that's the core of the book White Awake is you know, I don't see that as being unique to just white people like that's a force that everybody has to recognize. It's just that most people who are not white see it much sooner and our reckoning with it, most of us were white don't see it, and therefore it's very, almost like hostile to us when we're told about it.

So I said, if that's really the challenge, then you know, tell me like where's your…you don't need a pastor of color to be able to take on that challenge, right. In fact, I would say hiring a person of color on staff is helpful only to the degree the church is ready to start talking about the presence of white supremacy, right? So if you're Church is already ready, then perhaps that person can be a really helpful asset and going deeper. But if you're actually gonna bring a person of color to be the one to name that, like what happens when he starts seeing it, or she starts seeing it within the response, right?

And he is he like when he went pale, he's like, he probably would get run out of the building, if you talk about supremacy. I said, Well, then I think it's great to hire person couple, why would you do that to them? Right? Like, like you want to mean that, like, you know, you should be the one because there's a lot of concrete things you could do in your church to start to ready them for somebody like that coming on. It's just under the guise of well, intention, but like, you can actually harm him and probably the church by doing that, because they're not ready to even have this conversation.

So that's one thing that I tell people is like, I think multicultural great, but only to the degree that it enhances your ability to talk honestly about this stuff. And if it's actually a way to skirt haven't talked about it, I actually think it's worse to be multi culture. I think it'd be much better for an all white shirt to have honest conversations about the historical and present reality of some of this stuff, and begin to do the work and name it and see the focus of our demonic kind of backing behind it and learn how to kind of develop theological vocabulary for naming it and, you know, and combating on way rather see a white church, be intentional about the conversation they're having then to have a church become slightly multicultural, and become even less conversational about this stuff.

Seth 28:25

what are some of the ways then that as a pastor, you know, if there's a pastor listening, or someone that's church planting, or someone like yourself, what are some of the ways then as a leader of a church, that you are able to what are some things to look for to recognize that, you know, your church is at a tipping point, we can go back to the status quo, or they're there, I can see X, Y, or Z and they're there. We should really begin to lean in and do this messy, hard work. What are some of those things that you would that you would look for?

Daniel 28:55

It sounds so basic what I’m going to say at first but I just don't think it is. You know, there's a core level Jesus is associated with truth, right and the devil is associated with lies are John 8:32-44, Jesus talks about how the devil is a liar. His native tongue is that of a liar is the father of lies. Jesus talks about how he's the truth, the truth will set you free. John 14:6 He says I’m the way, the truth and life, right? So. So there's power in exposing lies and its power and telling the truth. And it's basically that sounds most like most, capital M, most white churches don't ever talk about the truth and lies behind race. And the lies is this narrative, you know, of racial differences narrative that there's human worth attached to where somebody falls in the racial hierarchy. And that's, I mean, to me, that's indisputable, there's 1000…it's so easy to get material on that and to build that case.

And then the truth, of course, is that you know, not only that human human values is found in the imago dei, but that there's also a war around us that we can't just proclaim that actually we have to attack all the things that dehumanize and distribute you know, attempt to really under God's creation, and, you know, my experiences, that if somebody will either just start to tell the truth and lies, they'll their church will start shaking, and not necessarily in the most comfortable of ways.

But even just a basic truth like that, that the system of race is built on a lie, that human worth is tied to racial makeup, and that the truth of God's kingdom is to dismantle that. That's more than what most white Christians can handle. And so I would say, start there and see if you can handle that kind of very basic conversation on truth and lies, and if they can handle it, then that sets the stage to start saying, how do we live more deeply into this truth and how do we combat these lies within our own lives, but and in our neighborhood and in society? And that turns into a great conversation and I think I love that conversation. Somebody can get there, but my experiences and I hate to be so pessimistic here but my experiences just most white churches can't actually have even that basically conversation because it's too threatening to kind of a house of cards that they've been built to believe around race.

Seth 31:00

Yeah, no, I agree. I remember after Charlottesville, both many friends because I live just 20 miles west of Charlottesville. So right after that happen, you could feel the tension in the room and we all knew. Well, my perspective was if your church is not talking about how this is not of God, this is just evil, then you're in the wrong church. But so how, how then do you? How do you make sure you guard against people feeling so offended or so taken aback or so hurt, that they stop listening? How do you make sure that that doesn't happen? Because you'll hear people say, Well, you know, I don't want my pastor to do that my pastor or my Deacon, or whoever they're just supposed to, you know, I want to come to church to feel good. I want to come to church to feel like I'm, you know, being a good Christian. So how do you guard against that?

Daniel 31:52

Yeah, well, I mean, my answer to this is going to be specific specific pastors. I realized the audience probably much broader than that, but I do think for white pastors, there is a count the cost with this, you know, what's most celebrated in our day and age is churches that grow fast, have big budgets and big staffs. And you know, we're kind of all tempted to try to get on that train. In talking honestly about this stuff kind of goes in the opposite direction, right, like, to your point that I don't think it is possible, I think, if you've got a bunch of white folks in your congregation, and that's not been historically how the churches talked about this stuff, once you start talking about it, most of them are not going to say, Oh, good. Finally, you have been waiting for this. Most are going to react poorly to it, you have to be prepared to stand on the truth and to be prepared to kind of listen to people who are upset, you have to be prepared to kind of Shepherd folks through that you can be prepared for the fact that some are going to leave despite your best efforts. In those that's all costly stuff that all requires a lot.

And if it was just a social issue i don't think can be worth doing. So I think there's a theological conviction that has to form that this really is a mandate as part of the establishment of Jesus's kingdom, the mandate of growing full disciples to tell the truth and you know, be able to see what's happening around us in society. And so I do think there is a cultural conviction that has to form. And then there's a count the cost. I wish that wasn't true. I really do. I wish I could like spin this to say it's a great way to kind of take your church to the next level in terms of its growth and impact. But I think evidence suggests that when pastors begin to talk about this openly in white churches, they usually go backwards before they go forward. And I think that's a just genuine comfort costing thing that has to be part of the equation.

Seth 33:23

And I think you're right, yeah, I mean, you see it everywhere. So I want to not to oversimplify things, but come full circle. And then and then I know we're coming closer to the end of our, of our time. So I want to talk briefly about race. So I mean, race. I've got three kids, none of my kids were born knowing that they were white, or that white was a way to identify yourself. So obviously, it hasn't been around for forever. But my question is, is race at all helpful for you know, the church or for humanity? It all has to have any purpose or should we just throw it all out?

Daniel 33:58

No! To me, I distinguish I put ethnicity and culture together in one category, but racing different categories. So I think it's important to differentiate. I think ethnicity and culture, I think are very important. I think, you know, we have passages like Revelation 7;9 that says when we're on the other side, when we're in heaven in our glorified states, God still will see the differences and ethnicity and nationality and culture that will be part of the heavenly chorus, right? So God's clearly not colorblind. God clearly wasn't colorblind from very beginning, ethnicity, culture, I think our reflections of god they're imperfect on times or even sinful, just like people you know, they need to be redeemed they need to be thought about so I think culture is needed to be talked about and redeemable. The system of race though, that we've created that really is based on colonialism and slavery, right? We had to justify why European nations were taking over nations of mostly people of color and then dominating them. That's how race formed, and then slavery or how race formed, we needed some way to justify owning human bodies. And the only way to do that was to say black people are less human. So the system of race really is designed To be human and belittle everybody that's not white, and then to an artificial way, hold up whiteness is a standard. So like if we're truly talking about race(s) there is nothing. Yeah, it's, it's not as bad as simple as diabolical, it’s cruel. Yeah, eliminating edge is the only task. I think that's before us when it comes to race.

Seth 35:19

I agree. And I try to, you know, yo, everybody says, but my son is in a stage of his life now that he comes home from school and is beginning to realize the differences between people. And you just hear it some of the words he says and my daughter to a lesser extent, and I can say as a parent, and I'm sure every parent deals with this. I just it's so hard to navigate. And it was really hard through the last presidential election, because you got the signs and everybody talking about everything I want to end our time with. You talk about there are stages of waking up. Can you go into this? I believe there's seven, I might be wrong.

Daniel 35:53

Yeah, the idea being that for those of us who are white because there's like a lot of science behind this, you know, how kids come to even understand their own sense of cultural identity is influenced by the kinds of conversations they're having, the kind of things they're hearing in society. And so for a lot of, for a lot of children of color, they're told very early on that they don't fit in that they don't belong, that they're less valuable because they don't look a certain way. So they have to process of stuff from so early on, whereas most of us who are white, we tend to be just immune to those messages because they're not threatening to us.

So we may not walk around thinking we're superior, but the reverse is true too where we're not receiving messages that feel threatening and putting our sense of value, you know, because of what we're hearing so it's just for most of us are white the earliest so usually happens is 20, sometimes later, where we begin to start to seriously recognize that there's this racial system and these kind of messages around it and so it I don't know how to say it other than that just kind of a handicap right? Like none of us are ready to deal with this once the light bulb goes on.

So the light bulb is kind of the first stage. So what I'm just trying to talk to go through, there tend to be the kind of ways white folks go through, you know, sometimes we're defensive. Sometimes we're not defensive and listen, but we feel super disoriented, disoriented, another stage, sometimes we take it very seriously, we feel a tremendous amount of shame that we're white. And we're part of a community that’s, you know, done a lot of horrible things, people of color, sometimes we end up on the other side of it, we think we're like, enlightened white person is better than everybody else, right?

We tend to kind of zig and zag in these different stages. And so I just tried to promote my own experience. And just, you know, close to 20 years now walking, the white folks are trying to understand cultural identity, I try to map out seven different stages that aren't necessarily linear, and they're certainly not once you through what you're doing through forever, I think you tend to come in and out of different stages, but I try to just put language around some of the stages that I think we go through as we get a clear and clear sense of how the world works and how we can kind of rise above that and live a different kind of way.

Seth 37:51

Sure. And so in brief, so the first stage you're saying then is a light bulb goes off.

Daniel 37:58

And the second stage I call denial. Most of us the first time we hear this don't want to believe it's true and tend to be defensive and dismissive of it. And for some people, they stay in that stage their entire lives, you know, but that tends to be the first one, once if somebody can get through that disoriented tends to be the next stage. It's just, it's discombobulating when you think you understood everything, and you start to realize there's a whole other reality out there that's really powerful and pervasive, and we just never seen before.

So it just feels like somebody changed the rules on us all of a sudden, you know, and so, learning how to be resilient and those learning how to kind of trust in who we are in God, that becomes a key part of the disorientation.

Yeah, shame. Shame is a big part of it. Often times I see people feel, yeah, feel like they're kind of less than once the light wants to go deeper and deeper into it. self righteous as a stage that I talked about where you kind of think, you know, once you get deeper into it, you tend to kind of quickly get to the point where you think You're better than all the other white people. You know, I think there's a lot of destructiveness in that stage two. And I do think there comes a point where you start to become really awake to this stuff, you know, it doesn't necessarily mean you know what to do, but you're starting to really see it, you just start to see it around you going into environments, you can see it right away, you can see the ways that certain stances, certain cultures are held a higher certain ones are good old, you know Western people to be more human, some less humans. You start to see it everywhere. And that's, it's both freeing and perilous at the same time.

Because you see it all around you, you don't know what to do. And of course, the last stage, I think the action stage should be the last stage is active participation where, you know, you you, you see much more clearly used to your community with other people of color who see you've got kind of support system around you in terms of knowing what kinds of actions really make a difference. And were you very intentional to live your life in a way that not only as a witness to a different kind of way but actually actively tries to dismantle you know, kind of this evil system that a little into humanizes other people.

Seth 40:00

I hear you say that and I hear correlations to something I saw a while ago from I think it was a psychologist James Fowler I think is his name and he's got these six stages of faith and it sounds similar to that, you know, you have something that you hold this just a preschool level, just surface level. And as you mature, as you age, you know your faith in whatever your religious tradition is, or I guess in this case, you know, your ethnicity or your culture or your privilege. You know, you question it you become comfortable with that and some people never move past it and other people come full circle to being in a place where they can just serve other people.

And they've moved beyond all the other garbage for lack of a better word. I'd like to end with this. So what are some as people are listening and they want to, either they feel convicted, or, or, or they feel motivated to begin to learn more about the history of both white culture and the cultures of others and how those two can share power. What would you say to those people? Or who are some of the authors like yourself or pastors or or speakers that they can begin to engage with, to, to try to do this better?

Daniel 41:13

You know, I'm trying to show my hand in the title of the book. I think that the work is less about doing something more about you know, becoming more aware and awake, which isn't its own self in its own sake work. So, you know, I think bottom lining it for somebody, it's doing the work to see the kind of history and power of this narrative that says human value is tied to where you fall on the racial spectrum.

For somebody that's white I think there's a deep amount of self introspection that has to happen there where I assume anybody's listening to this was engaging they already outrightly racism, I don't think you should be on here. We're still subscribe to that. The the deeper work I think, than just rejecting racism is to actually begin to go back over the course of your life and examine yourself kind of look at where did you hear those messages that whiteness is superior and that blackness or Asian, or Latino, or native is you know, less human and an inferior and whereas starting to starting to take note of the fact that, you know, we've been hearing this our whole lives and to be being recommended with that a little bit.

You know, I think that's some of the internal work. And I think the other hard work, it takes a while, I think to get clear on this. But the other hard work is to start to learn how this is not really just an individual thing, that it's kind of embedded into the systems and structures of society, where schools operate off of this narrative, workplaces operate off this narrative, neighborhoods to operate off of this narrative. And you know, that's where social change really happens when we can kind of call out and dismantle that narrative within social systems. But we have to get practice before we can do that we've got to be able to see it faster and with more clarity. And learning to see it in faster and with more clarity I think is the work in once you can start to See that and realize that white people aren't the enemy. That's never that's never the point. But this narrative voiceprints is the enemy that a very much as a lie that is very destructive and it has to be dismantled really at all costs. I think that's the work to position ourselves people to see that in a way where we're not defensive, we're not feeling attacked, we're actually seeing is legitimate threat to both our neighbors and ourselves. And we're all starting to work together to try to name that and attack it.

Seth 43:25

Well again I'll plug the book. For those listening. I'll link to it in the show notes. But please go out and buy the book. It is the portions that I've read and I fully intend to finish it over the course of this week are fantastic. Seek out Daniel on your social media, engage with him on YouTube. And so where would you point people to Daniel to do that to to engage in a dialogue with you if they if they feel so lead?

Daniel 43:48

My Twitter my social media handle is @DanielHill1336 1336, I've also got a blog at pastor Daniel Hill. com Kind of time share some thoughts on so any of those are viable ways you can hold me.

Seth 44:05

Well thank you again for your time today. Thank you for the for the open and honest discussion I have and I've enjoyed it. Thanks very much,

Daniel 44:12

Well thank you, I really appreciate you hosting me on here. Thank you again.

Seth Outro 44:43

I hope you enjoyed today's episode with Daniel Hill. I am personally challenged by not only the work and the ministry that he's doing, but the way that he's doing it in I think that so many of us could do so much more if we would just apply ourselves and recognize when the game is rigged. Try to elevate others to the same rules. Church continue to do the hard work. Continue to wrestle with things and continue to ask questions that you normally wouldn't ask at church. I promise you from personal experience. When you wrestle with the hard topics, you find Jesus there. You find God there, and your faith will be better for special thanks to Eric neater for the music that was used in today's episode. You can find more information about Eric by his music at EricNeader.com to find that link in the show notes. I encourage you to listen to the newest song that he has out this year called Heaven is where you are. It's a beautiful song. As with all the episodes and all the shows and all the music, the Spotify playlist Can I Say This At Church will be where you want to pick those up. A huge thanks again to the Patreon supporters for your continued support of this show. For those of you that have not yet made that leap Please consider doing so $1 a month is all that it takes. If you're on this, you probably have loose change on the desk, or at home, in your car for $1 consider it. Thank you all for your listening. We'll talk to you next week.

27 - A Flexible Faith with Bonnie Kristian / Transcript

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Bonnie Intro  0:00  

We need to have this broader look at our faith, because we need to understand more about other Christians, what they believe, why they believe it, how it relates to what we believe, so that we aren't treating each other with mutual suspicion and distrust so that we can engage productively across denominational lines. That can be very hard to do, I think, the longer you're in one tradition and just become accustomed to that tradition and accustomed to thinking of it maybe as the only true variant of Christianity. I think we start to maybe even doubt the faith of those who believe a little bit differently than we do, even though they're still very much focused on Jesus, very faithful, very in agreement on all the core of our faith.

Seth  1:!7

I wanted to try this a little bit differently. Before we get started, I say it often and I say it frequently, and I mean it every single time, this show will not continue to be a show, if I'm honest, after the first year, just because everything has to be renewed, without the support of our Patrons. I'm happy and I'm pleased to say that the show is well on its way to be in a position that it can at least pay for itself. Thank you to Patrick and Teresa and Lee and Jewel and Luke and the others like you, some of you since the beginning and some recently, that have come on and supported the show on Patreon. If you haven't not yet done that, please do that. 

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Today on the show, I spoke with Bonnie Kristian. Bonnie has written a fantastic book, one that, honestly, I wish I had six or seven years ago and one that I've recommended to some of the staff at my church. I think we should give this to every high schooler and everyone that's going into college as just a, “Here’s our gift to you. There are not really answers in here, but here's what you can expect to be challenged with as your faith has to become more flexible.” A Flexible Faith came out in May 2018. I highly recommend you go get it, and you'll find links for that in the show notes. 

A bit about Bonnie. She is a theological and political writer with a national following. She has columns and by lines on places like The Week, Time, CNN, The Hill, Relevant. She is well written, well versed, and knows her stuff. I can't wait for you to hear today's conversation. I can't wait for the thoughts and the ideas that it sparks in you as you listen to it. Let's roll the tape. Here we go. Bonnie Kristian.

Seth  4:01  

Bonnie Kristian, thank you so much for joining the Can I Say This At Church podcast. I know that we have rescheduled at least three or four times. I appreciate your graciousness and your flexibility on your calendaring, and I'm excited that you're here. 

Bonnie  4:14

Yeah. Thank you for having me, though, to be fair, I feel like I have to take credit for at least one of those reschedulings, in the in the name of honesty here. 

Seth  4:24

Well, I was willing to bear the brunt of that. It's fine. No worries. We're everybody's busy. I can't tell you how pleased I was when I got your email asking about the opportunity to talk to you on the show. If I'm honest, and I just a minute ago recorded the intro for this episode, I wish I had the book that you wrote about seven years ago, it would have saved me at least a lot of time in figuring out what my options were outside of my fundamentalist evangelical upbringing. I'm sad that that's not the case; but before we get into your book, what would you want people to know about you, because you hold a lot of hats?

Bonnie  5:06  

I do. The short version is that I'm a writer, A Flexible Faith is my first book.Most of the writing that I do on more of a weekly basis, most of what pays the bills, it's more political. I do some some theological writing outside of book stuff. I’m the weekend editor for The Week, which is a very confusing sentence. The Week is a news magazine, and I run the website on the weekends. I'm also a Fellow at a foreign policy shop called US Priorities, where I write foreign policy commentary on the news of the week, the day. I do some freelance writing as well. That's mostly what keeps me busy. 

I live in the Twin Cities with my husband and our dogs, who hopefully do not interrupt this podcast too badly. I moved up here for seminary a couple years ago. We like the area and are planning on sticking around. That's most of most of it.

Seth  6:12  

Are you still in seminary now, or are you done?

Bonnie 6:15  

No, I graduated in 2016, so now I'm looking into PhD programs, but that's probably, at least, a year away from starting, just in terms of needing to funding and write your proposal and all that sort of stuff, which is not done yet, at all.

Seth 6:33  

Religion and politics are two things we're not supposed to discuss. Doing what you do for a living, do you find it hard? Have you gotten any pushback from writing a book on religion? Or have most people just been like, “Nah, it’s fine, not a big deal. Do what you want to do. Who cares?”

Bonnie 6:49  

You know, for a long time I was very concerned about writing about both publicly and doing it well, especially in the sense of, I'm so wary of, in any sense, communicating, “Here’s my politics, and you have to agree with them. As if, these are the most Christian politics are the only Christian politics” I never want to be communicating that. I mean, obviously, I think there's a good fit, and my my faith in inspires and decides a lot of my politics. I don't want to communicate that message of, “You have to think like I do politically or I have doubts about your faith.”

For a long time, I kept my main website strictly on politics stuff, then I drew up a little side blog where I did theology. Then eventually, sometime when I was in seminary, I was just like, “You know what, this is dumb. Why am I keeping these things separate? There's no reason to be sort of compartmentalizing my life like that. I can have this caution mixing things inappropriately without keeping things separate in such a weird way.” Some of the writing that I do on a weekly basis is sort of at the intersection of religion and politics. I'll write about how how religion affects our politics, which happens so much here in the States, topics about civil religion, that sort of thing. I think it's not totally out of left field, for my more political-interest readers at this point, in a way that maybe it would have come as something of a surprise five years ago,

Seth  8:37  

The book, A Flexible Faith that you've written, I like how you approach, over the course of, I think, 18 or 20 chapters, some really big columns or pillars of any version of Christianity that we are or that someone would profess to be, be it Orthodox or Catholic or Messianic Judaism, and a lot of things that I'd never really thought about before. I'm curious, why did you decide to write it? Was it seminary that did that? Or was it something you'd been struggling with since you were a youth? What is the birthing of this book?

Bonnie  9:14  

I really usually go back to two audiences that I have in mind, and each of those comes with its own motivation. One would be Christians who are good with their faith, with their church context; obviously you are never at a good, final place, but you're not in a big season of doubt, you’re not in a big season of questioning. You're happy with the congregation, that sort of thing. Even in that space, I think that we need to have this broader look at our faith, because we need to understand more about other Christians, what they believe, why they believe it, how it relates to what we believe so that we aren't treating each other with mutual suspicion and distrust, so that we can engage productively across denominational lines. That can be very hard to do, I think, the longer you're in one tradition, and you sort of become accustomed to that tradition and accustomed to thinking of it maybe as the only true variant of Christianity. I think we start to maybe even doubt the faith of those who believe a little bit differently than we do, even though they're still very much focused on Jesus, very faithful, very in agreement on all the core of our faith. 

The second audience and motivation is for Christians who are in a season of doubt or questioning. There have been a lot of books, more memoir-style books, that talk about the experience of going through a time of deconstruction. Those books are great, and I think can be super useful if you're going through that and you want to read about someone else's experience and use that to process your own experience. What I wanted to do was really say, “All right, this has happened to you. You can’t go back to where you were before you had these questions, but you don't want to stay in this limbo of questions and doubt forever.” So let's have a really practical way to say, “What comes next? What else is out there? What are your options within Christianity? What can you begin to learn about to start to rebuild your faith?”

Seth  11:24  

Why did you choose these 18 things? Why those topics as opposed to… Well, I don’t want to give it away. I have other questions lined up specifically for a few chapters that I have questions about. Why these? Why not [others]? There's so many things about church that we could question or drill down.

Bonnie  11:41  

Yeah. There have been some sort of similar books in the past across the spectrum by Greg Boyd and Paul Eddy is a big one that I've mentioned that in the book as a resource for further reading. Then there's a Zondervan series; I don't know what this whole series is called, but the books are typically called Four Views On Hell or Three Views on…whatever. Those do it book length what I do in a few paragraphs in each chapter. I looked at things like that, just to see, when other people have come to to a similar project, what have been the questions that they found important to a lot of people to answer. So I looked at books like that, to find out what other people had thought. Then I also included more, and I'm not really sure if this is the best way to put it, but more lifestyle issues, if you will. Things like, can Christians be rich, should Christians vote, things that I think don't tend to get quite as much attention from those books, which are usually a little bit more interested in areas of theology proper. I think those tend to be really important to people on a practical day-to-day basis, so I wanted to cover that as well.

Seth  12:59  

I wholeheartedly agree. I have one of, I think, its Zondervan’s Four Views on Hell. When I say hell, it has purgatory in there, which I'm not sure that counts as hell, but it is something akin to that. What you hear people argue about in church picnics and on Facebook and on Twitter and at PTA meetings are the topics that you have in your book. Most people could care less about transubstantiationism, but they do care about how we vote, or the way that we lean politically. I do appreciate that, I just was curious. I wonder how much of that is an inference of what you do now, how much of your, “Here's what I write about, here’s what I hear on the internet and in publications of what people are worried about.” Then how does theology connect to that?

Bonnie  13:49  

Yeah, I definitely think it affects it coming from not so much an academic theology background, but from like a news and journalism background. Definitely, that has played into the selection of topics.

Seth  14:01  

At the very beginning, you set the stage. I'll be honest, I haven't read Greg Boyd's book. I don't know if you got this from his, but you talked about the concentric circles. The best way that I can describe that to people that don't have the book in front of them is if you picture the target logo, but you add a few more circles after it. And so you've got Jesus at the center, then how do we spread out from that?

Bonnie  14:22  

So it’s Jesus at the center and it's not even like our belief about Jesus, but the person of Jesus Himself. That's the core of the faith. Then the first smallest circle around that is what we would call dogma. These are super basic beliefs that all orthodox Christians can agree to about what God is like and what He's done and what He wants from us. I used the apostles creed in the book as a good encapsulation of dogma. If someone says, “Roughly in 25 words or less, what does it mean to be a Christian?” This is the sort of thing you're going to come up with. Things that a Catholic and a Baptist and a Methodist, everyone agrees on, it’s so, so basic that way.

The next circle further out would be what we can call doctrine. That's the sort of thing that divides denominations. Things like just God choose who is saved. Things like how should we do baptism? Things like predestination, that's the doctrine level. Those are super important, but they're not the sort of thing where it's really definitional to what it means to be a Christian, it's usually more of an explanation of the dogma level stuff; okay, so we all believe that, here's how we disagree on how it works. 

Then the largest circle would be opinions. That’s the sort of thing where we could agree to disagree within a denomination or even within a single congregation. The things that I'm discussing in A Flexible Faith are all either doctrine or opinion level issues, and you can even debate about what properly goes in each of those categories. It's never about Jesus in terms of questioning His divinity and His place in our faith. It’s never about dogma-level issues. The assumption is that's all settled, that is what it means to be Christian, and we're working out and exploring different ways to be a Christian, given that foundation.

Seth  16:25  

For those listening, [review] what some of those sound like; some of the topics, as I'm looking at here are: Does God plan everything that happens? Why do we get baptized and how? What happens at the end of the world? There’s a lot of those type of topics.

Seth 17:30

I am curious. What made you decide to do the Q&A? Those are my favorite parts, partly because I already knew some of the information in the chapters, although I was surprised at what I didn't know. But the Q&A's to me, I really enjoyed those. I almost want a whole book of Q&A's.

Bonnie  17:49  

Yeah, I really enjoyed doing those as well. For people who haven't seen the book, in-between each of the chapters there's like a five-question Q&A with Christians who are living out their faith in more unusual ways. Depending on what your tradition, your background is, maybe some of these will be familiar, maybe they'll all be totally unfamiliar. The idea is that you could spend a lifetime in church and most of these people you'll probably never encounter, which I think is a loss. I went with the Q&A, I could have just written about them and done like a little report, but I really wanted to have that element of personal introduction, meeting them, in their own words, and finding out from someone who's in that tradition, what is important to you? Why, in many cases, did you choose to be here? What do you think this facet of Christianity has to contribute to other Christians? I'm never going to become a Benedictine nun, but that doesn't mean that I don't have things to learn from them. 

It was a really interesting part of the book to compile. There were some pretty amazing moments in how I was connecting with those people. I think the craziest one was, I interviewed a member of a Latin-American based community from El Salvador; I got in touch with him, I think it was recommended to me by a journalist in Oregon maybe, to connect with a nonprofit in New York, which put me in touch with, I want to say, a priest or a lay missionary in Africa, who had this guy's contact. It was crazy. Like it was spanning, I think, at least three continents to get in touch. Then we spoke by Google Translate, because he doesn't speak English and I don't speak Spanish. I'm plugging my stuff into Google Translate. For the questions, I have a friend who speaks Spanish check it and [confirm], “Yeah, this makes sense.”

Seth  19:58  

That could have gotten dangerous, because I'm sure you've seen those those nice, funny videos, where someone will just plug in five sentences into Google Translate, run it through 20 different languages, and it ends up saying….

Bonnie  20:09  

Accidentally send them some horrible insult.

Seth  20:11  

Yeah. Which one is your favorite Q&A? That’s probably not fair.

Bonnie  20:15  

It is not fair, and it's a hard choice. I really enjoyed Claire Stover from the Bruderhof, which is the common purse  community. A lot of their locations are in upstate New York, and that's where she is, but they have locations elsewhere. I thought her story was super interesting, because if I remember correctly, she had a career on Wall Street, and then she gives that up and goes to this [community]. They're not Amish. They use technology, but they’re still a common purse community. They have all their goods in common. You have a little bit of personal property, but you share all your money. It was a super interesting conversation with her, but they’re all great. It’s hard to pick.

Seth  21:01  

The story of Dirk Willems, is that how you say his last name?

Bonnie  21:05  

I think so.

Seth  21:06  

I had never heard that story. I tried to put myself in his shoes. Correct me if I'm saying this wrong, this is from memory, for those listening. He basically was incarcerated, escapes, the guy chasing him down goes to drown in a lake because he's fat, and Dirk wasn't because he's been starved. As a Christian, he turns around and goes to save the guy, at his own dismay, obviously. I can't imagine myself doing that, ever, ever. I think that was my one of my favorite moments in that entire book. It put me in a place where I felt challenged, and it wasn’t “Scripture.”

Bonnie  21:46  

Yeah, it's a crazy story. I'm in a Mennonite community, and I did not grow up Mennonite. I had not heard it before joining this community. The story is that, not only does he go back to save this guy and then get burned at the stake for his trouble, but that he spins around without hesitation. It’s not like there's a couple minutes of Dirk kind of standing on the ice thinking about, “Should I go back? I'm probably going to get killed.” No, he's just, “Oh, I have to save him.” It's not even a second thought. It's a crazy story. I don't know that I would want to go back either. Especially because it's not like he was in any way at fault for this guy drowning. It's not like he did any violence to the guy. I think no one would have faulted him for going on and for saying, “Let his fellow guards rescue him. That's not my job.” But he didn't do that. 

Seth  22:49

Couple of specific topics I want to ask you about. The first one is this. As I read through it, I don't know that I've ever had a thought since I began my deconstruction phase and my rebuilding phase, and I'd like to borrow an adjective or a way that someone described it to me on Twitter - it shouldn't be a deconstructing, it's more like our restoration, where you're just getting rid of really, really bad tarnish, and uncovering something more beautiful underneath. I found myself, when I read through, I don't fit into any category. I don't know if I grew up as a fundamentalist evangelical. I now think I hold to Christus Victor, but I also still hold parts of my faith that are more fundamentalist. There are other parts that I think the Eastern Church has it right and the western Church has it wrong. For those like me, how do I know what kind of a Christian I am? Or is that even a question that I need to be asking?

Bonnie  23:47  

Yeah. I think, as much as we might claim we don't like labels, I think we all like labels. It’s nice to be able to say, “Here are the five boxes I fit in.” And it's tough, because for many people, obviously there's a degree to which internal consistency of some views are not going to fit well with others. There’ll be some degree within which that'll sort of sort you into categories. I think many people, especially now, where we are much more fluid about drawing from different traditions and changing traditions as our faith evolves, than it used to be in the past, I think there'll be many people who, like you, will find that they don't fit neatly into one category or another. 

My answer, I guess, is try to find the closest healthy community in your area that works and go with that. Certainly don't try to force yourself to conform to the community's views where they different from yours; if that difference maintains, that's fine. I would encourage people to not let that inability to find a denomination or a group that perfectly agrees with you on every subject to become like a real sticking point or something that you really focus on. That would be nice if we all found a church that was what we agree on, on every issue, but it's not going to happen probably. I think we need to learn to be okay with that and to be able to worship and commit to people who are not in 100% agreement with us, both on the macro scale of recognizing the church universal, but also on the local level of saying, “We can be a congregation in a community together, and we can still disagree on some stuff.”

Seth  25:54  

A couple specific chapters that I think are more and more pertinent as each day goes on. One of them is [where] you talk about gay relationships. You basically talk about how we can't take those clobber texts that Paul writes when we want to condemn gay relationships, and then not also say that you can also use heterosexual relationships to also be just as sinful and just as wrong. I'm curious your thoughts on that. You don't express a lot of opinions in the book. Most of the chapters, you don't actually tell us what you believe, and I do like that, but there's a part of me that doesn't like that because I'm used to people telling me, in their books, what they believe. 

Where do you come with that, because I don't see that as a topic going away anytime soon, it's only going to get more vocal, more and more vocal. I can tell you just personally, I spoke with my wife, who's a nurse, not long ago. We had watched a show, it's a made up show on TV, and this little girl was born with both genitals. It it wasn't until there was a medical emergency that they found out, and the mom had to be in a position of, “No, here's what they are.” But had they waited six more years, she'd be deemed gender questioning, or she'd be deemed something else. How, as Christians, do we come down with? I guess, where do you come down on that?

Bonnie  27:21  

Well, intersex cases like you described are really tricky and, I think, their own category where you are born biologically with both sets of genitals or some combination of reproductive organs. That's an incredibly difficult scenario that I, in some sense, especially for the parents, I wouldn't wish on anyone, because it's such a grave decision that you're faced with making for the child's whole life. I remember hearing in maybe elementary or middle school about that case from the 90s, where I don't even know if that was a case where the child was intersex or where they had like an accident in circumcision and so the boy was raised as a girl but always felt like a boy. I don't remember the details, but it was terrible because when he reached like high school or adulthood, he was just struggling with these overwhelming feelings of that something was wrong. He eventually did, I believe, live as a man and then I think committed suicide; his whole life was ruined by mistakes that had been made in his parents’ and doctors’ best intentions, decision-making when he was quite young.

As far as gay marriage more broadly, that is one of about two-thirds of the chapters where I don't give my own opinion mainly because the book isn't really about me. While I do like to share my view on the issues where I'm most passionate, in many cases, I felt like I I didn't really have anything of note to add or anything of value to add. As far as that topic specifically, our congregation specifically is beginning later this summer a community discernment process on that because it's coming up for a vote in our denomination, I believe, next summer. I want to go through that with my community, and I didn't really want to you know stake out a big position on my own because I knew, as I was writing, that this was coming up, without going through that with my church. That was my decision for that being one of the the majority of chapters where I don’t weigh in.

Seth  29:49  

In the Mennonite tradition, and I'm not familiar with them, and and I should be more familiar because where I live in Central Virginia, there are a lot of Mennonite communities around me.

Bonnie  29:57

The Old Order, right?

Seth  29:58  

I don't know. I'm going to say sure, but I honestly don't know.

Bonnie  30:02  

I went to college in Bridgewater, near Harrisonburg.

Seth  30:05  

Oh, then yes. I’m actually in Stuarts Draft, so I’m just down the street.

Bonnie  30:12  

We would hear Buddies clapping by our dorm rooms at night. The rumor, at least, was that the Old Order Mennonite kids liked to go to the next town over where they would try on jeans and look at themselves in a mirror and that was their big teenage rebellion.

Seth  30:28  

Well, Harrisonburg has great stores, so that's fine. In your tradition, then, is that something where it's like the Southern Baptist Convention or something where, “No, we said this, and now if you don't agree with us, you can no longer be part of this community,” or is it not that?

Bonnie  30:44  

No, I mean, that's the question. So it was my understanding, and I was not a part of the church then, but my understanding is that one or two times ago, when they had the big national convention or whatever, the subject was brought up. I think it was summer of 2015, and it was either right before or right after the Supreme Court case was decided. The subject was brought up, and obviously it was very much in the news then, and nobody would felt prepared to take a vote. So they they said, “You know what, let's table this for four years until the next one for study and prayer and discernment, and we'll come back and we'll decide this at the 2019 meeting.” 

There's a lot of disagreements about it. I know that there have been some very conservative churches that have split off from the main Mennonite Church USA to form their own smaller groups, because they want to maintain a very traditional perspective and they're concerned the broader denomination won't. I think there are a lot of people in the celibacy camp, and there are a lot of people in the affirming camp, and there are probably still even in the main denomination people in the traditional camp. So I don't know how that vote will go at the denominational level. I don't even know how the discussion and discernment is going to go in our congregation. I would say at my congregation, I feel confident saying it won't end up, we don't have a lot of old school traditionalist, the sort of people who would say, “There's no such thing as a gay orientation. It suggests your sinful desires.” I would say there are definitely going to be people taking the celibacy position, saying you can be gay, that is a thing, but marriage and sex is reserved for opposite sex couples. Then there will be affirming people as well. I don't know what's going to happen. I'm a little nervous to see how it goes down, to be honest, just because it's been so destructive for so many churches, this disagreement,

Seth  33:00  

For those hearing that last 30 seconds, that last little bit of, “There are some that are affirming, there are some that are celibate, and there's some that are this other option,” that is the book. You'll notice there, and let me brag on you a bit, there’s just a grace there in not calling out anybody as wrong, which is hard. As you buy this book, that is it, here's all the options. It doesn't matter what the outcome is, here's the options. Then you get to wrestle with it.

Bonnie  33:28  

Obviously, someone is wrong, right? Like those three positions are mutually exclusive, they can’t all be right. But to be wrong is not to be not a Christian on this and many other issues. And I think we need to be able to make that distinction of being able to say I disagree with you, this is an important issue. It has implications for how we treat each other and how we understand God and it matters, but disagreeing with you does not mean that I want to try to kick you out of the church

Seth  33:57  

To build off of that, and that's where I was going with this, you recently wrote an article on Missioalliance, which is one of my favorite websites to go to, specifically because they give a lot of data, not a lot of opinions often. There’s usually data that backs up their articles. You recently wrote when one, think that's what it was called, How to Disagree [About Theology] Without Kicking [Each Other] Out of the Church. So, how do I do that? How do I show up on Sunday and come… I know humility has to be part of it, but I also know I'm not humble by nature. I don't think anybody is, maybe some of those Benedictine nuns are, but I'm. So how do we then do that? How do we disagree? Because, like you said, a lot of the views that we have can't both be right. They just theologically can't. As we approach the Bible and we approach scripture, how do we do that? How do we figure out who gets to be right this time without breaking off into the 67,000th version of Christianity that’s somewhere in the world now?

Bonnie  35:01  

Yeah. So I think the concentric circle thing that we talked about helps a lot, just in terms of maintaining a perspective and reminding ourselves that different disagreements, some matter more than others. Disagreeing about the divinity of Christ, that’s one where we can fairly say, “If you don't think Jesus is God, by definition you're not a Christian at that point. That's what it means. If you disagree about how to do communion, that's not a defining issue in the same way. I think that helps just in terms of being able to step back and take a breath and be like, “Okay, this matters, it does not mean that they're not a Christian.” It's difficult, and I think even with that perspective, even with humility, it’s always going to be difficult. 

I don't have some special wisdom in this. I certainly am as subject to the temptation to label someone a heretic as anybody is, someone I disagree with. I think that we have to remember that maintaining that degree of grace and forbearance to our fellow Christians is part of Christianity as well. If we're too eager to be slandering people and breaking communion with people that we disagree with, that doesn't exactly reflect well on our own faith, on our own Christianity. I think it just has to be a constant vigilance of ourselves, and we can't control how other people will come to the debate. We can certainly make sure that we come to it with a sense of, “I think I'm right, and I'm committed to the truth as best as I know it, and to always trying to find out more about the truth and hone my views to be more in alignment with it. But, I could be wrong, and let’s talk about that, in a spirit of grace.”

Seth  37:08

When you describe it that way, it’s a lot like a marriage. Often when I'm arguing with my wife, she's partially right, I'm partially right, and if either of us refuse to admit that, nothing happens, and usually it's damaging to the relationship. I don't have to be all the way right, and you don't have to be all the way wrong. We’ll keep it phrased that way on purpose, because I like to say that I'm right. 

I'm curious, and I don't remember you speaking on it in the book, but with what you do for a living, Christians that have been gifted with influence, and so I think of a Paige Patterson or a Jerry Falwell Jr. or other names escape me at the moment, but Christians, and it doesn't matter if they're conservative or liberal or somewhere in between, as the political landscape in our country continues to change, as voting blocs continue to change. I'm a Millennial, so I'm now the biggest voting bloc, most of us are just too lazy to go vote. As the landscape changes, how do Christians that are either inheriting that power from someone that had it, like Jerry's kids in 10 years, how do we work with that so that we don't do detrimental harm to the church in such a way that the current trends of Millennials just checking out of “big church” altogether? How do we use that power to wield actual justice? How do we do it in such a way that we don't cause harm? I don't even mean intentionally causing harm, I just mean cause harm.

Bonnie  38:44  

Yeah. I hope, and I think I see some evidence that Millennials and younger generations have learned from the errors of the recent past to not engage in the way that some of our elders have, which I think you're right has caused harm, regardless of intention. I do think that there's at least an awareness that the harm is possible and a desire to avoid that; whether or not we actually managed to avoid it is another question. I think that there's been, especially in the last few years, and very vivid negative object lesson for us of what happens when you do this badly. It's hard to say. It’s hard to say if it'll get any better. 

I think that a lot of the stuff that we're witnessing now the president and with the white evangelicals’ support for him, people feel like it's a new thing, and in some ways it is a new thing. In some ways, what Trump is and does is very new, but in some ways, it's not. We've had civil religion in this country entangling the church and state for years. For centuries, for decades, the church has allowed the state to sort of cloak itself in religiosity and claim divine approval for the things the state is doing, and infuse our politics with religious overtones and undertones, and that's not new. It’s being used in some more obviously dysfunctional ways now, but I think a lot of it was already there, just less dramatic before. Even if Trump goes away and things return to “more normal,” I think a lot of these challenges to engage in the public square in a way that's functional and not destructive to our own faith and our witnesses as Christians will remain. I'm not very optimistic about this, as as you may gather.

Seth  40:58  

Yeah, I’m not either. For those listening, don't hear me bashing the president. I don't like the president, but I genuinely think he wants to do a good job. I just think we disagree on what that good job looks like. I am curious, though, if we think about it in an ideological way. If history shows anything, when a force of power leaves a situation, something else takes its place. If the church can somehow disentangle itself from politics, what fills that gap? Because something's going to fill the gap.

Bonnie  41:31  

Yeah, I mean, when I say disentangle from politics, I don't mean that we as Christians should stop speaking prophetically to culture and calling out injustice and saying, “This is wrong, we should not be doing this,” that sort of thing. I'm not calling for total separation from society. I'm not Amish, but I do think that it goes back to what I was saying at the beginning about the idea of wanting to avoid suggesting that my politics are the Christian politics. 

I think Christians across the ideological spectrum have been very comfortable implicitly saying that for years. That has two effects, one on the political side of things, it means that everybody's claiming that God supports them and their agenda. That becomes a very convenient and facile thing politically. Then on the perspective of individuals, then it’s, “Well, you know, I don't like this political agenda. That means I must not like Jesus.” Neither is a good result. I'm not calling for Christians shouldn't be involved in politics at all, but we need to be a lot more careful about how we do it, and what our engagement communicates about us and about God and about God's relationship to our government. 

Seth 43:02 

Well, Bonnie, I want to give you back the rest of your morning. The book was on sale May 15. From what I can see on Amazon, it's being received well. I don't have contacts at the publisher, but it looks like it's been received well. For those listening, you'll see the link to that in the show notes. Where else would you point people to, Bonnie, to either engage in works like this, or to work through the theological topics that you bring up in the book?

Bonnie  43:31  

At the end of every chapter, there's a reading list to learn more; so if that's a topic of particular concern to you, that's hopefully a start to help you engage more. On a more personal note, if you go to my website, which is just bonniekristian.com, you can get in touch with me there Twitter, which is @bonniekristian. On the website specifically you can sign up for my email list; hopefully sooner than later this summer, I'm going to be starting a series for subscribers of that, where each chapter has discussion questions. My plan is to sort of be answering those discussion questions myself by email to sort of engage with that further, and hopefully help readers think through it more themselves as well. That would be good to do.

Seth 44:19  

That may become a full time job.

Bonnie  44:21  

Yeah, yeah, I'm certainly not gonna finish all the questions this summer, maybe one chapter a month, and I'll finish a few years down the road.

Seth 44:33  

Well, thank you for coming on. I've enjoyed the conversation. I appreciate your time.

Bonnie  44:37  

Yeah, thank you so much.

Seth Outro 44:40  

I have the benefit as editor and producer and whatever hat needs to be done for the day of letting things sit and coming back to them and releasing them in an order that, for some reason in the back of my head, makes sense. I didn't do that with this one. The turnaround time on the edit and the recording this one was was less than a day. A lot has happened in that day. Overnight, as I thought about the conversation with Bonnie and woke up this morning and looked at the notifications of arguments and hatefulness that I've had on the internet, I find that I am not doing a good job currently of allowing other people to be right as well as me. That's on me. A lot of that's my pride, and that's something I'm going to have to deal with. I'm realizing that now. You're probably wondering, why am I saying this on the podcast? But if I can't be honest here with you, what's the point? 

Think about what you heard today from Bonnie, think about other people's point of view, and evaluate. I know I'm going to. I'm going to evaluate what I say to other people, either in person, on the phone, text message, Twitter specifically for me, and anywhere else that I interact with people. I think if I can learn to do that, and if you can learn to do that, that it's going to be a better last six months of the year, then the tumultuousness of these first six months. It's going to make things like Paige Patterson, just a few weeks ago, all that happened with that, it's going to make the SBC a better Christian organization. It’s going to make the CBF a better Christian organization. It'll make the Covenant Church and the Mennonite churches and the Catholic churches a better Christian place to be. If we can't further that ministry, then what's the point? 

I hope, I really do hope, that you go out and buy Bonnie's book. It is tremendous. I can't stress enough how hard it is to write about opposing views and so in a way that I don't know unless you tell me which way you lean. I think that’s harder than it is, and if you don't think that it is, try it. 

Thank you again to our Patreon supporters. Please become one. Stop what you're doing right now and do it. I appreciate you and you know who you are. I'm talking to you. You thought about it. I need you to do it

Seth Outro 47:36  

The music today is from artist Wendell Kimbrough. You can find his music at wendellk.com. Wendell’s music is beautiful. I can't stress enough. Go to his website and get his newest album Come to Me. It's mostly based in the Psalms. It's beautifully sung, beautifully written, and just overall fantastic. Do support Wendell, and go get his music. The tracks that you heard today are on the Spotify playlist entitled Can I Say This At Church? Talk to you next week.

26 - We are not Commodities with David Zach / Transcript

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David Intro 0:00

To break through this comfort, this installation that we have built, and we protect with walls, that's Disneyland version of life, that is not real. And even with the radio, we have Christian radio, we don't want the outside world to get in. So it is hard to feel I feel bad bringing people closer to the star, but then here's what the deal is. We were created in such a way we were designed, intricately our DNA was designed in such a way where we do not have fulfillment of life, we did not put ourselves in close proximity with sorrow. Because you know what they call my king. They called him the man of sorrows, that was acquainted with grief. And there's not a grief that exceeds this grief. There's a lot of grief in the world. But this grief, this idea of someone taking someone else's child and selling them for sex, to sex tourists from around the world, five times 10 times 15 times a day, that's sorrowful. And I get to sit with those working girls. I know their name, they know their story. I know their dreams that they have. I know the names of the sisters, I know about the fact that I used to work in or the simplicity of the country life and that sorrowful and I feel like I've lost myself, I feel like I'm broken. But then I realized-no Jesus hung out with working girls. One washed his feet with her hair and sweet perfume.

Everybody like said, What are you doing Lord? Why are you letting her waste her money that way? What are you doing hanging out with people like that? And I realize am a person like that. I'm broken. So, as Bono says, when we draw close to those who are poor, and those who are oppressed, the exiled, we draw close to the king himself. I think really Jesus says that.

Seth 1:53

Welcome back to the show, the Can I Say This At Church podcast, you're listening to a song. It is something more than a song or an album. And it's something more than an album. And I don't mean like your wedding song or the song when you met your significant other. I mean, like a song that is written with a heart that you hear something transcendent, and that it speaks to you in a way that is a different version of holy that when you hear the song you hear the heart and the ministry and the work of Jesus.

That is basically what today's episode is. Today's show is going to be heavier than well, I say heavier, a lot of the shows are heavy. But most people I feel like in America are not aware I know I wasn't; that the sex, trade, slavery, trade. trafficking of humans is a huge thing that still happens today. The way that our church and that our country and that we as people interact with the world, commoditizes, the world. The way that we choose to spend our time and our money and our eyes and divert our attention commoditizes our world. And what do we do about that? It's a question I don't have the answer to a did however, get to speak with David Zach, the lead singer for Remedy Drive. He partners with the Exodus Road, which is a ministry dedicating to breaking that cycle to going undercover. And trying to help those that have been sold into trafficking, trying to help them find the light at the end of the tunnel. Prepare yourselves for a conversation that is beautiful, and heartbreaking at the same time.

Seth 3:50

David, thank you so much for joining the Can I Say This At Church podcast and thinking of that name, I can't think of a bigger topic than what we're going to talk about today and stuff that we don't talk about in church more so than, you know, justice and lament and sex trafficking, and some of the work that you and your band are doing. Thank you for making the time to come on to the program, and appreciate you being here.

David 4:14

I'm glad to be here, when I saw that the title of your podcast, when you used our song a while back, I was like, "Man, this would be a perfect podcast talk about what we do.

Seth 4:23

Yeah, I agree. There's a lot…I've come to find out there are a lot of things that nobody wants to talk about in church, and some of them are theological, his speaking in tongues or whatever, running up and down the aisles or streamers or intercessory prayer, or it does politics doesn't matter. So I wanted to start a bit. So I followed your music for years I went to liberty and your music, especially some of your your band's earlier work was on repeat there at you know, 90.1 the Light at Liberty. And so tell us a little bit about you. What would you want listeners of the show to know about you and about Remedy Drive.

David 5:04

I grew up in Nebraska, I grew up in Christian culture, church culture. We were always indie (an indie band), I never really saw ourselves being a band that was played on the radio. But we did sign a record deal and that record deal and it's 10 years ago now is what you know, are some Daylight or song All Along, which is once people would know. I'm thankful for that. Because it put us in exposure to a lot of people and got us, you know to play it plays like Liberty. And we played a lot of churches and festivals and conferences. But at the same time, I never really felt like I belong at that world. And maybe it's part, I grew up in a really conservative Home Church network, where we weren't really even allowed to play rock and roll; and the rules and the regulations inside of our own church network, I thought was unique to just that. And then when I got outside and started touring the country, and I've been at probably more church than anybody can say they’ve been at. We're talking 200 shows a year sometimes; I'd be at different churches, sometimes 4, 5, 6 in a week, I realized that we all have our own weird views on different things; and that's really weird part of who I am, is that I observed that so often. And in that sense, maybe…maybe I haven't landed on on, you know, raising kids now, maybe I haven't landed on my own for sure thoughts on what the right way to do that? is,

Seth 6:37

Yeah, I can echo that. I've said it before, and much earlier conversations with people that it wasn't until I had kids that my faith became into question. Because when you think of God our Father or God our mother, whatever you want to call it, when you are a father or a mother, all those something in me broke open and the emotions change. And it impacts the way that I see things the filter that you have. Yeah, that was kind of that's kind of my story. How curious how do you end up playing rock and roll for a living? If you weren't really doing that as a child because I can tell you I can play a guitar. I have one right over there. I lead the worship at my church sometimes. I am not a guitar player, quote unquote, you use that as a as a way that I could make a living. So how does one come from we didn't really allowed to do this to now this is all I do.

David 7:25

Well, we were allowed to listen to Keith Greene, he was so he only real “rock music” we're allowed to listen to.

And I remember the first time my friend taught me how to bend a string, which we thought was you know, an evil, guitar string bending that scream it makes and it was just on acoustic guitar. My parents were cool and I think that was part of what? Looking back. It was one of the most clear parts of us saying why? Why this arbitrary rule against just this particular style of music? And it led me out of that that organization that we are part of. But I had learned piano, I didn't have a TV grown up, which was one of our rules. So that actually helped us become creative me, my brothers when we started a band, and we had a time to be creative. I'm trying to pass that on to my kids.

Seth 8:13

No, I agree I am, with the creative part, it's hard to limit that screen time. On the other side of the wall here I've got a set of drums for my son, and he actually comes to church with me each Sunday, at like 7:15-7:30 in the morning. He's there before most anyone else. He's there before the pastor, as the worship band comes together and he's getting better. Like he plays drums with us with a full band. And I love it. I love it. He actually is my small little metronome. Because it's a very simple, very, very simple beat and he does keep me on tempo. Your last two albums, or your band's last two albums, there is a ginormous shift. And I when I say that both Commodity and The North Star, I feel like I would never hear any of those songs on Klove, or Spirit FM. And so my question is, like, why this show what happened in your life that…that caused you to go “I can't sing this shrink wrapped version of the lady that needs this four minutes on the way to work”, like what changed in your life that broke that open for a change of lyrics or for a change of heart or was that always there?

David 9:18

Well, like I said, I was always kind of against industry against the commercializing of art. But I'm thankful for our time, like I said, but it came to a point, there was probably about 20 really specific moments of convergence. And I'll tell you a few of them.

One was Martin Luther King, Jr. would say to me, every year on on his day, I would listen to the last speech he made and he'd say

now is the time for us to develop kind of dangerous and unselfishness sure

and move me to the core of who I am. And also made me guilty about listening to the a&r and the marketing and the record label executives that keep on pushing the safe for the whole family we mindset on me, which flies in the face of the full Gospel, in the face of the honesty and the truth of what Jesus Christ proclaimed, which is freedom of the captives, liberty of the prisoners, goodness for poor people. ignoring all that to put out this shiny pop, it's going to rot your teeth eventually, I know it tastes good, but it's going to rot your teeth.

And then in 2012, you remember Coney the warlord? That would kidnap boys-forced them to fight, he would force their daughter to be child brides to generals. They'd be raped, the kids were forced into cannibalism and blood sacrifice and rituals, all this awful stuff. And I watched that video that morning with my daughter.

And she was five. And Eva says to me,

Dad, why not God protect those boys?

And I have never felt so helpless as a parent. But also, she put in words what…you can't say that a church…right?

Seth 10:58

Right.

David 11:00

She said it. She didn’t know you can't say that church. She said,

Dad, where's God? Why didn't he do something about this?

And so I wrote that, I wrote those lyrics.

Jesus, where are you there far too young.

And I was kind of upset with the king of the universe, why you allow this to happen that and just that video, and the more I studied slavery, and the more I started writing lyrics, but then I went to my a&r guys, like, man, I think I have a role to play in this. I'm supposed to sing about this. And maybe I can offer my voice to the fight against slavery, in the fight against injustice and equality and child soldiers. And I can expose it, I can shine a light on it. So people that take action might be moved to take action. That's what I thought at the time I supposed to do. Then my marketing director looked me in the eye. And he said,

David, I am a whore, I need you to give me something I can sell.

Seth 11:45

Unhh, another thing you can't say a church.

David 11:48

Yeah. But you can say it behind the scenes that those guys that pedal out this positive pop, this positive, encouraging…that's the way they talk behind the scenes, these guys are about the dollar. At the end of the day, they're about the dollar. They're not about saying what needs to be said about impact and culture. They're about keeping people happy. And my a&r guy says to me, I say, I have this idea. And there were so many people that were excited about the idea to make a socially conscious, social justice oriented, rock and roll album that has worship elements. But my a&r guy says,

Hey, isn't worship singing? And, you know, social justice…that's this whole other thing,

what he said, which I think is the Christian music industry, I think is a result or its the other way around of Christian culture, and that is, hey, let's just tell people about Jesus all we care about Jesus. But we don't care about what Jesus cares about. And that's slaves. That's poverty. That's health care. That's, that's single mothers. That's refugees that's…

Seth 12:47

Yeah. Or the entire, the entire book of Luke can just if you want to, if you want to delve more into that. Just read Luke.

David 12:56

Yeah! Read Amos. Amos says, You know what, I hate your worship songs, they annoy my ears, your festivals and your conventions. I want nothing to do with them. I asked you for justice, oceans of justice. So shut up with your songs, shut up with your praying. I’m going to plug my ears when you pray until you do something about it, and so that's ringing in my ears, Isaiah 58, is ringing in my ears in Luke, when Jesus quotes Isaiah in the Gospel of Luke, it's just ringing in my ears. So that's a long answer..

Seth 13:22

Yeah, well, and for those that want to know what that paraphrase was, I'm pretty sure that's Amos 5:20 something through 25 or something like that. If you want to just pause now and go get your Bible and make sure that that's not being it. That's definitely in there. So, um, yeah.

David 13:38

And that’s what I have to like…I feel like I have to say that all the time was like, wait, I'm not the one saying this. Yeah, I'm quoting the Prophet.

Seth 13:45

I find in this happened even over the past weekend, when I say things like that, on social media, specifically, the trolls, for lack of a better word get so mad and like, well, that's not what the Old Testament said. I'm like, I know you keep quoting things to me from the Old Testament. But I would like to remind you, you have heard it said, but I say to you, I was like, so every time you say something, I'd like to briefly remind you, you have heard it said and now let's pay attention. Every time he says that let's pay attention and then they just get silent. Which is so infuriating, so frustrating, and humiliating, if I'm honest for someone that professes to be a Christian that people treat what was said that way?

Seth 15:05

Human trafficking, sex trafficking, slavery, justice, the the ministry that you're a part of, is the Exodus Road. And and I'll link to that in the notes for those listening if you want to go and support that ministry. And so in research for this, the numbers astounded me, I would assume, you know, in especially third world countries, that the number of people in slavery was not as high as what it was. And so not to bury the lead. It was like 45…40 something million people, which is insane. That's like the state of Texas, every person in the state of Texas. And that’s depressing. And so how have you and your band partnered with the exodus road? And what is that ministry kind of look like?

David 15:50

And for context, that number of 47 million people being enslaved in 2018 are impacted by slavery. 10 million people were enslaved and the transatlantic slave trade 200 years ago.

Seth 16:01

And that's the only one we normally talk about.

David 16:03

Yeah, so it's, it's not like we as humanity, are moving forward in this problem. We're losing ground. So like I said, we thought we were supposed to write songs, which we do. We have two albums, the North Star, which is named after Frederick Douglass’ newspaper, which was named after a star in the sky that the slaves would follow to find their way north at night.

Seth 16:29

I didn’t know that.

David 16:30

So it's, some of the melodies would talk about how to find it from the from the Big Dipper to the Little Dipper. There's the there's the North Star. Which is brilliant that they use songs to sing about the North Star in Frederick Douglass, the abolitionists that ran away that said,

I prayed for 20 years and didn't get an answer till I used my feet.

He had that newspaper that abolitionist newspaper commodity being the one before I got that lyric idea from my marketing director and essentially responded, I'm not a commodity.

You know, I don't want to be shrink wrapped.

And I use some of that anger against that industry and industry in general to tell the story of people enslaved. So that's one thing we do we tell the story. And we help fund the exodus road, our fan base has raised a third of a million dollars so far in donations and in kind donations. We also recruit people at our concerts, one guy that saw us play down here in the south. He had been formerly a special forces of the military.

He had been shot out of a helicopter in Afghanistan and broke his back. But he's healthy enough to do good work, but but he can't be in the Special Forces anymore because of the back injury. So he just donated two years of his life going overseas, donated his time raised his own funds, and he was on the front lines with the road.

And then I also spent a lot of time myself doing undercover work in Latin America, in Southeast Asia, spying on mafias, and crime syndicates and cartels make their living off of selling these girls. And my goal is that that investigative work, that undercover work, we go into brothels, we go into red light districts, we follow pedophiles, we tail them we find out where they live, we find out where they're doing business, we try to build cases against clubs, all for the hopes of rescuing these girls and boys, but also taking down the organizations and disrupting their their profit.

Seth 18:30

Is it…I don't want to sound jaded but from what I've not, not from what I've read, but from what I can think it would…it would almost seem like a whack a mole kind of thing. Is it that? Or is there actual progress happening? Or do you just shut one down hopefully, and then another one pop up and take its place just like a power vacuum?

David 18:45

Well, I feel the same way about it as I do sometimes when I'm more cynical is when I'm on my mind, I don't get done, mow my lawn. Without thinking you know what, I'm going to have to come out here and do this again. Because these weeds are going to grow right back up.

Seth 19:05

But it doesn't mean you don't mow the lawn,

David 19:07

It doesn't mean I don't do it! And the work itself is obedience. And we do it to the best ability. We know it's the wrong strategy to just go in and kidnap a girl out of slavery because another girl is going to have to be get kidnapped in her place. Or we know we're not going to purchase these people's freedom from the mafia, because that's funding slavery. So it's not like we're not doing it strategically. Our goal is to take down these crime syndicates and to send a message to other crimes syndicates in the area that even when the whole world looks away, somebody's looking out, somebody's watching, you can no longer operate with impunity. And as a result of that, we have seen the average age of girls on the street and certain communities go up quite a bit.

Because they know it's more dangerous. And it's getting more expensive, too sell miners. And as with anything else, are we going to feed everybody? Are we going to end malaria man, you know, another disease will just pop up in this place, will we really be able to get enough clean water, I think some of these things are we are going to be able to accomplish? But as much as that is a goal we're supposed to do it just because we're supposed to do it.

These are the things that the King of the universe cares about. He's going to end slavery when he returns. And someday when slavery is but a mere memory, they're going to look back and they're going to remember the day when the righteous people rose up out of indifference.

Seth 20:35

You actually wrote something similar to that in one of your blog posts, I wrote it down because I wanted to make sure I said it, or at least got your thoughts on it. And so you wrote

someday when slavery is a distant memory, and they'll talk about the day when the righteous rose from indifference and maybe these songs will be remembered as having contributed to the resistance.

And you go on to say

we need to reduce the melodies of our hearts to the lowest common denominator, our youth exploited, our songs exploited, our tears exploited.

And so when you say, you know, our youth exploited, our songs exploited our tears exploited. What do you mean by that, specifically?

David 21:08

In that I was talking about kind of my angst and my disappointment, where I felt exploited, I felt commoditized I felt, I felt like a mere product to be bought and sold by industry. And I think not just music industry, I think we all feel that a certain way, whether it's, you know, whatever it is, sometimes we, you know, corporations can take advantage of us. So everybody feels the sting of that.

And what I'm trying to do by referencing that and saying, hey, how does that feeling? Imagine if that was actually not just a metaphor, but actually your life. The fact that someone can take ownership of someone else, you know, when I signed a record deal, I decided when my image of my likeness,

Seth 21:50

Somebody owns the master, to your face.

David 21:52

Yeah, someone faster than my face.

But think of think of…think of how that would actually be an then. And then to know that nobody's coming, nobody's looking.

And then idea of legacy has been, that is what my wife said, when I met with Matt, Matt Parker from Exodus Road, I said, Man, I want to join you. And I get home at 2am that night, and Ana was like, No way, what are you talking about. And as Matt talks to the next day, at breakfast, Anna says David will join you this will be our legacy. And I think of the prophet Daniel that says,

Those who turn many to righteous will shine like the stars forever.

And that longing to be recognized have a king say well done. And that longing for luminosity in the next life, I want to wake that up and people because I know that's the way we're built, were built like CS Lewis says, with that weight of glory that's longing for the for define recognition, which comes with some sort of luminosity.

And so I wrote the blog you quoted a long time ago. But then I wrote a lyric off of it. It says,

and when we're gone and ages to come, the sages will, write. So raged the bearers of the light. So which the few with all our mighty gets the terrors of the night with no sight of view from the depths to the heights.

I don't know what it is. But I just, I just want to be part of that number. I'm going to get to meet Harriet Tubman, and William Wilberforce and Moses and Frederick Douglass and Martin Luther King, Jr. and I'm going to be able to say, hey, look at this little bit that I did in the same field, in the same arena of justice that you were in; and I think there's going to be something special about that.

Seth 24:40

Knowing what I know about myself, I don't see how you don't get broken, going undercover seeing these women looking across, or I assume it's not just women, I assume maybe it's also men, boys as well. I don't know. It has to be. I don't see how you don't just get broken. And when I hear your last two albums, and specifically the North Star. All I hear is emotion. And I find myself when I'm listening to it, I sometimes have to pull off of the road, specifically with Redemption Song. And I, I didn't even know until a few weeks ago that that was a remake of Bob Marley. Because I googled the lyrics, just so I could write them down. And then Bob Marley came up before you and I was like, This can't be Bob Marley, and it was. How do you take all that emotion and all of that sadness and brokenness of what these children are going through, and distill that into a song because I think songs have a way to transcend something that is beyond our brains and beyond our hearts, almost something that's primal. That is…well I don't know what the word is something more than human.

David 25:48

I feel bad for some of my other friends that don't have music, or some sort of art as an outlet that do this kind of work. Because these songs literally happen. You know, I'm writing, I wrote, “take me to the king's kingdom, tell me what it looks like” I wrote that melody and lyrics just came out when I was on a rainy drive riding a motorcycle in Southeast Asia.

I just had that longing, I just need to see something beautiful. Because I'm broken. And you say, I don't know how you don't get broken?

No, I am a broken person. I am not happy. I am not content to live in a world with 40 million slaves and more refugees than at a time in human history. And I sow in the field of apathy, and that also makes me pretty sorrowful. I'm going to try to rescue people from out church culture, which sometimes unfortunately, is, pews full of apathy looking the other way, as we live in our religious garments, when there's a man bleeding on the side of the road that Jesus talked about from the road from Jericho, and to Jerusalem.

And all of that makes me sorrowful. But here's what I tell people. And I feel bad because I'm recruiting people into this sorrow with me. I'm forcing people like yourselves to have to turn off the road because the emotion is overwhelming. But to break through this comfort, this insulation that we have built, and we protect with walls, this Disneyland version of life, that is not real. And even with the radio, the Christian radio, we don't want the outside world to get in. So it is hard; I feel bad bringing people closer to the sorrow. But then here's what the deal is. We were created in such a way we were designed, intricately our DNA, was designed in such a way where we do not have fulfillment of life if we do not put ourselves in close proximity with sorrow, because you know what they call my king. They called him the man of sorrows, that was acquainted with grief. And there's not a grief that exceeds this grief.

There's a lot of grief in the world but this grief, this idea of someone taking someone else's child and selling them for sex to sex tourists from around the world, five times 10 times 15 times a day, that's sorrowful. And I get to sit with those working girls. I know their name. They know their stories. I know their dreams that they had one. I know the names of their sisters, I know about the factory they used to work in and of the simplicity of the country life.

And that is sorrowful and I feel like I've locked myself, I feel like I'm broken. But then I realized no Jesus hung out with working girls. One washed his feet with her hair and sweet perfume. Everybody like said “What are you doing, Lord? Why are you letting her waste your money that way? What are you doing hanging out with people like that.”

And I realize I am a person like that. I'm broken. And as Bono says,

when we draw close to those who are poor, and those who are oppressed in exile, we draw close to the king himself.

I mean, really, Jesus says that.

Seth 28:52

When you're there, and you're learning the stories of these girls. Do you think there's any inkling that they know that you you're not going to abuse them or take advantage of that you're there to help them? Is there anything you think that they ever pick up on? They're like, no, there's something different about this guy. He's here to help me. I don't know why I know this, but something in him makes it and I know, he's here to help me. Do you like that ever happens or no?

David 29:18

I'm an artist. And I'm an optimist. You know, so I would like to think that somehow our spirits communicate that whether or not it's conscious, but for sure there's a there might be a safety to me that she doesn't sense from, you know, some 250 pounds 70 year old 60 year old Russian dude, that's that's her other option, right. And I do the job, I do it with kindness, I'm, I'm kind I'm tender, I'm compassionate. I'm not handsy the I'm not pushy, I'm not. But at the same time, you have to be to pretend that you're interested in buying this other human being.

And something that I like to do is I learned her language, I learned to say you are beautiful. And when I tell you that when I say goodbye, sometimes there's also a sense of rejection. Because she's under this impression that when I leave there, I'm out to find some girl that's prettier, or more attractive. And she's not gonna meet her quota. And I, you know, you know, hope, you know, maybe maybe I'd be a better option with the one of these other guys. So there might be disappointment, that she's not going to make the money she needed to make for her handlers to pay off her debt, whatever the situation is. So I said, You're beautiful. And when I say that, I mean, you are valuable.

You are a daughter of the king. You know, you are priceless. And I hope that that almost spoken as a prayer over her with somebody something that she's been in proximity with the king of the universe, if if she's in proximity with someone like us, right? And I don't know how that works. And I'm not a theologian, but maybe that moment will count when she meets him face to face. She's like, “I recognize you for some reason!” And he says, That's because I was with you in that brothel that night that brown hair guy with messy hair came in.

Seth 31:16

I want to ask a few specifics about a couple of the songs on the North Star. Not every songs deals with with with slavery. Well, it doesn't away slavery in a different way, but not necessarily sex trafficking. And so Warlike, specifically, and then Sanctuary, even though they're not put back and forth together. Yeah. When I listen to war, like, it makes it where I can't watch the news anymore. In a good way, like I hear everything that CNN or Fox News or some pastors or some members of the church will say, you know, no, we need to do this. We need to bomb Syria, we need to do this. And then I hear that song. And there's a part of it. That's like, No, no, no, no, you're doing this wrong. And, and when I hear it, for some reason, I think of two different movies.

So I think of that scene and Wonder Woman where humans have been throwing stuff, or shooting stuff, at everybody since humans could walk. And then the same thing in my son and I just watched Thor Ragnarock, the same thing there were, you know, the goddess of death, is talking about how they conquered the entire universe. And it's just war upon war upon war upon war and then to book in that was sanctuary. Those two are almost entire opposites. One is no, I'm here to give you everything. And the other is, because I destroyed you. So can you talk a bit about those two separate songs?

David 32:40

Well, Warlike began with a conversation I had with some Congolese refugees in Nashville, in my home. And they were talking to me about Colton, which is a mineral, the mined out of the country that we use in our electronics and our cell phones. And I look back history that country, similar to you mentioned, Wonder Woman, the God of War Ares, personified in King Leopold, this Welsh, you know, from Belgium, a king that thinks he can go own Congo, she can own the whole land. And at soccer, I met a guy from Cameroon, three days ago, you can imagine me at soccer, on the soccer field with a bunch of with bunch of khaki, shorted, suburban parents, you know, I just connect with the Congolese dad, and he talks about French colonialism.

And the agreements, the French leaders set up with dictators, so that the dictators own the resources and then give it to the French companies and other international corporations. And that spirit of Ares finding its way through to our foreign policy over the years, our need for oil at all costs our need for minerals and uranium, once again, back to Congo, those conversations. Not that I have answers, I'm just really sad that we're so warlike. I hate it. Because it's not just killing people in the act of war. It's displacing people. And I'm bothered that religious people, and especially specifically the white evangelical movement, gets caught up and become war advocates and propping up Warhawks because of the way sometimes people read prophetic scripture and they look the other way. You meet Palestinians at festivals like I do I meet Christians from Palestine and they they they're just like why are American Christians so mean to us? Why do you not care about human rights? They just care about these other thing but not about human rights.

And that disappoints me, and then moves me to Sanctuary where I take the voice of multiple refugees. I take the poem that's written on our Statue of Liberty, and I take another poem called Home is the Mouth of the sShark, but by a refugee. And why would anybody run from their home unless home is going to kill them? It's not her fault. It's not his fault. It's not a child's fault that her dad puts her on a raft going across the Aegean Sea and she dies. You know, and we go to Syria, like you mentioned, last week, we spend, we spend 250 million, was it something like that! Think of how many Syrian people we could have helped. But instead, the evangelical movement helped make sure that we only brought 11 Syrians to America so far in 2018…11!

Beautiful people, smart people!

So the idea that people from countries like Syria, Uganda or Cameroon, or Haiti have less value to bring to our culture than someone from Norway, what an awful idea. But that is the idea that's been dominant in white supremacy and colonialism, when we go and take from all these countries to our benefit. And the people that suffer the most are the people that have to run from our bombs, or bombs that we sold to countries and dictators that we propped up. And I just don't think that as a Christian, I should have any part in wanting that.

Seth 36:32

Yeah, I agree. And I also think that it's horrible lip service to say, we won't let these children and their families run away from an awful situation to a country that actually can support them and protect them if we wanted to. Because you're from this country but as soon as someone else poisons those children, then we've got to protect those children. But as long as they stay within their walls, don't come over here, stay on your side of the line, which is that's not Jesus. It's not. It's not Jesus.

David 37:03

And I reference because people when it comes to DACA, recipients and people from Mexico, or people from Latin American, South America and Central America, I was in Latin America with the Exodus Road, and I see a great need. There's violence but what is that violence coming from?

Why are people facing violence from drug lords? Is it because there's a demand for cocaine? Where's that demand coming from? It's coming from our suburbs, our businessmen, our Wall Street executives. And if there wasn't that demand cocaine, that violence wouldn't exist, because these gangs would not need to be propped up in order to meet that demand for the American population needs those drugs. So they're going to create those drugs. .

Seth 38:49

The most impactful song on the album to me is Sunlight on Her Face, and so I want to end with that. And then for those listening, I would like to play a piece of that after we're done with this conversation. So please hang out after the credits to hear that.

Can you talk to me a bit about the story of Sunlight on Her Face, because I especially like the way that you ended with verse three. And you referenced it earlier, you know, alabaster box, woman at the well. Just a bunch of people that children, prostitutes, slaves, women specifically have such a bigger part of the gospel in the ministry than most evangelicals would give them. And so can you talk a bit about the story of sunlight on her face, where that came from?

David 39:31

I've met girls that are being sold for prostitution, from all over the world. I've met girls in Latin America, from Latin America. I've met girls from Latin America, in Southeast Asia, girls from Uganda, or Kenya, on the streets of Southeast Asia. And they all have the same look in their eyes. They're stuck in this job, somebody is controlling them. Someone's profiting off them through some fraud, or coercion, or manipulation. And yet, a lot of times I see this resilience, this defiance in her eyes, and that moved me and I started to write.

But then I was in a conversation with my friends, Sudhir and Sudhir from India. And he does a lot of work in locked brothels. And he's talking to me about how some of the girls in these locked brothels. They've been there for days at a time. And they're not allowed out and they're forced to sleep like they're forced to be raped by like 15 to 20 customers a day, sometimes more. And Sudhir is looking at me, and we're on the top of this, I'll never forget around the top of this building in Southeast Asia, the sheets are blown in the wind, because they're doing the laundry on top of that building and Sudhir

some of these girls and haven't seen the sunlight on their face for days.

And then I think of, you know, there was one time in particular, this guy comes up to me after concert and says to me, he's like, man, “I really like what you're doing for those girls, but I really wish someone would share Jesus with them”. Just the way he said it, I was like, I was like, What do you mean, man, he's like, cuz cuz something much worse is going to happen to her if someone doesn't share Jesus with her, like, who's going to be something worse than raping her 15 times a day, man‽ And just the way he said it, I thought, you know what she is going to meet Jesus. And sometimes when I walk out of a place with one of these girls, she’ll pray to Buddha. And so I just imagine, in that lyric, Jesus Christ, the Creator of the Heaven and the Earth, intercepting that prayer.

And like I said earlier, he's going to meet her, and he's gonna tell her about him. Just like that girl that washed his feet with sweet perfume, just like Rahab on the wall with the spies in the lineage of Jesus Christ, he has something special for these girls in his heart. And I want you to, and I want people to hear that they have that same special thing in their heart for these girls that are forced and tricked and manipulated into this…this awful trip. And I had to have this belief and hope and pray for them that they will meet him in that same way. And they'll have the same experiences with him someday.

Seth 42:10

Yeah, absolutely.

David 42:12

In this life, or in the passage between this life and the next, and I don't know how that works.

Seth 42:16

You alluded to it earlier. And so not everyone either has the ability or the gifts to be able to do what you do to support this ministry. And so, in closing, how can people help support the Exodus Road and ministries like it, and become involved in a way that is beyond lip service that is beyond insufficient thoughts and prayers, beyond platitudes? And so how, how would you direct people to engage in something that I don't know many things that could be more important than all of these millions of people that drastically need help? And so how would you have people get involved?

David 42:56

Well, financially is a big help, you can, you can put an investigator in the field for one evening for $35 a month, which is cool, because then you're part of what that guy's doing. You can buy spy gear, a girl ran a five K in stiletto high heels and raised hundreds of dollars and also raised awareness. She was carried across the finish line by by somebody because her feet were bleeding. All sorts of cool things.

If you go to remedydrive.com I give a bunch of examples of different ways people have gotten involved.

If you text remedy to 51555. You'll get ideas and ways to contribute. But you'll also get updates on your phone every time somebody rescued, which is the best text to get ever.

Seth 43:41

Yeah, that would be you know what… I'm doing that? Yeah, what a better way to have a great day, or at least a more fulfilling day. I don't think having a great day should be the reason that you do that. But I don't know what could be more fulfilling than than popping that up and seeing that.

David 43:57

So, yeah, it's fulfilling.

Seth 43:58

Yeah. Well, David, thank you again, so much. I I envy your ministry and and I am praying for you, and I hope others are as well. Keep doing what you're doing, man.

David 44:10

Thanks. Thanks for having me on the show.

Seth Outro 44:13

I can't think of a harder topic to talk about or prepare for all the theology, all of the race everything else that I have spoken about with many other people, I can't think of a harder topic that I have prayed as much for or about than the conversation that you just heard with David. As I said, with Daniel Hills interview, people bear the image of Christ. And if we believe that it matters, to how we live, what we do and how we treat people.

Before we end, thank you to the Patreon supporters. Thank you to those that have rated the show on iTunes and if you haven't, please go and do so it cost you no money and it helps the show so much. I want to leave you with what we just heard about the story of sunlight on her face, tops of roofs. want you to picture a poor girl being repeatedly used in a way that humans aren't built to be used. And just keep that in your mind. Keep Christ in your mind as you listen to this last song from Remedy Drive’s most recent album Northstar entitled sunlight on her face. I hope it speaks to you in the same way you spoke to me.

Music 45:56