Inclusion through Acts with Mark Charles / Transcript

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Seth Price 0:13

Hello, hello. Hello. Welcome back. Thanks for downloading this is the Can I Say This At Church podcast. I am Seth, as always. And I hope that your day today, as you're listening to this ,has been, has been a good one. This week have brought back a guest that was on in the very first year of the show. And in that episode, we talked about a reframing of empire and Americanism and exceptionalism. And we did that through a lens of something I was unfamiliar with called the Doctrine of Discovery. So I had Mark back. And we talked about another text that he just says, kind of ripped open in a new seam on the upholstery, that is my couched views of Scripture. And so I was really challenged by this one. And I think you may be as well, but I was challenged in a good way.

And both when we did the episode, as well as when I edited it, and it was…it was enlightening. So let's do the thing.

Seth Price 1:41

Just to be clear, Mark, you're the first person I've spoken to since I took like a summer break, maybe the second person I've spoke to, so I may be rusty. But the nice thing about this is I'm not a professional. So it's fine. It's fine. (we both laugh)

Here we go. Mark Charles, welcome back to the show. Thanks for spending your early morning with us. I know you usually go out and you do something different each morning, because I watched those often on Facebook or all the places. But welcome back to the show my friend.

Mark Charles 2:07

Yeah, thank you, Seth. It's great to be here. I do normally I go out and watch the sunrise over the Potomac River, right about 10 miles from my house. But because we had an early interview scheduled this morning, I didn't have time to…I'd have to run there and run right back. So I decided to just stay home and sleep in a little bit more of this morning. But it's great to be back with you.

Seth Price 2:26

Yeah, well, I'm glad I can help you get more sleep. That's important. And I'm glad for you and for your family that I could get do that for you. But thank you for, um, for breaking your routine a bit to be with me, I know my schedule is not as amenable as it used to be. So I appreciate you being flexible. It's been…I miscounted the years you remembered better than me. It's been a long time since I spoke with you. And since you've been on the show. Though, I've shared your stuff quite a bit. And I've sent multiple copies of that book that sits right behind you. To many, many people. I don't know if you know this, but there's a level on Patreon where I just send them a book each month. And yours was it not long after it released?

Mark Charles 3:05

Oh, great!

Seth Price 3:07

Yeah, yeah, I switch it up each month, on something that's been speaking to me. So that went out. But you've been doing a lot of things since the last time that you were here. There's probably a lot of people that are unfamiliar with whom you are to begin with. And so I thought maybe if you wanted to just In brief, because again, I'll link in the show notes. So our first conversation on the Doctrine of Discovery and some of that stuff. And so people should do that. But just in brief for people that aren't going to kind of who are you? What are the things that they should know?

Mark Charles 3:33

Yeah, so just let me start by just introducing myself traditionally, so Ya’ at ’eeh. Mark Charles yinishyé. Tsin bikee dine’é nishłį́. Dóó tó'aheedlíinii bá scíshchíín. Tsin bikee’ dashicheii. Dóó tódích’ íi’ nii dashinálí. So in our Navajo culture when we introduce ourselves we always give our four clans and we're matrilineal as a people. So our identity comes from our mother's mother. Now my mother's mother is American of Dutch heritage, and so I say tsin bikee dine’. That, loosely translated, means “I'm from the wooden shoe people”. My second clan, my father's mother is Tó' aheedlíinii, which is “the waters that flow together.” My third clan, my mother's father is also tsin bikee dine’. And then my fourth clan, my father's father, is Todích'íí'nii, and that's the bitter water clan. It's one of the original clans of our Navajo people.

I also want to acknowledge I'm speaking to you today from what's now known as Washington DC. But these are the traditional lands of the Piscataway. So the Piscataway they're the nation that we're living here hunting here, farming here, fishing here, raising their families here, burying their dead here long before Columbus got lost at sea. And they're still here. I've had the honor of meeting some of the Piscataway I've been welcomed to these lands by the Piscataway and so I want to thank them for their stewardship of these lands. I want to also just humbly acknowledge how humbling it is to be living on these lands today. As you said earlier, I am the co-author of a book it's Unsettling Truths: The Ongoing, Dehumanizing Legacy of the Doctrine of Discovery. And my co-author is Soong-Chan Rah, who's written a number of other books, most widely known or The Next Evangelicalism, or Prophetic Lament, and we wrote this book it came out on in November of 2019. And it's been, it really is a not only just, it started out as a cultural lament. And it turned into actually after the 2016 election into a flat out rebuke of the evangelical church. And so the book has actually been, it's been selling fairly well, it's been generating a lot of good dialogues, there's a lot of both study groups as well as even seminary classes and college classes that are using it. So we're very pleased with the dialogue it's starting. I’d love of course, to see the dialogue go national, and see it really.

But there's the four chapters that I think are the most compelling for people. Actually, the whole book is but there's two chapters on how we got from Jesus to the Doctrine of Discovery. There's two chapters completely deconstructing the mythological legacy of Abraham Lincoln. And there's a chapter and a half, kind of reframing the whole dialogue on trauma, and giving an analysis of Robin DeAngelo's understanding of white fragility, and actually looking into what I would term as the trauma of white America and understanding white people as another group of traumatized people. So it's a good book, it's selling well, I do podcasts on it pretty regularly, almost weekly, if not even more often than that. So, I'm pleased about that. In 2020, I ran as an independent candidate for President United States. And that was an experience in and of itself, the goal of that was to address our nation and the church's foundational level, racism, sexism and white supremacy. And we are trying to build a nation where we the people truly means all the people.

So I've been fairly busy these last several years, since I spoke to you last, trying to continue to lecture on the Doctrine of Discovery, continuing to write and get this information out there. And yeah, I'm excited to talk to you today about some stuff I've been working on for the past year now.

Seth Price 7:14

Yeah, yeah. And I will tell people, so there is an episode from last year from when your book came out that I had worked out with IVP to have both Professor Rah and you want to talk about your most recent book. And then again, because you were running for president, it ended up being a little bit more than what you could do, which is a weird problem to have. So we had Professor Rah on and I can't remember asking him specific questions, and I can't remember the questions now. And he's like, yeah, that's a Mark question. (Mark answers) I can answer it in this way. But that is not. And so most of my questions, were Mark questions. And he's like, let me try to answer these and try to do justice to what I think Mark would say. But, that's a mark question.

Mark Charles 7:57

Yeah, Soong-Chan Rah, he was a fantastic co author. And he made the the intentional choice, the beginning of that process to really center my voice, and allow my voice to be center in that book. And he wanted to bring some of the academic analysis into it, as well as just his own story, cuz he's done tremendous amount of research on race in the church and things like that. And so but there are definite things. And I've had to say in several interviews, that really is a Soong-Chan question. He really, there's several parts of the book where his voice is really front and center (and) there's probably more parts of the book where my voice is front and center. Especially some of the most challenging chapters on Abraham Lincoln. Yeah, as well as on trauma and things like that, where that came out of my own lived experience, as well as my own research and things like that.

Seth Price 8:54

Yeah, yeah, definitely. Well, it was a good book. And for those listening, you should buy it. I'll link to it in the show. And they want to actually there, they can buy signed copies on my website, wirelesshogan.com. were selling signed copies of the book.

Seth Price 9:08

Really? I may do that, because I gave my current copy, that's all marked up, to a friend to read, with no due date. And I know they're still wrestling with it, because we've spoken about it in the past. And I don't want to ask for it back. So I should just buy another one.

Mark Charles 9:23

I'll give you a link to my website. And they can order a signed copy of the book from me.

Seth Price 9:28

Yeah, well, good. So you reference some of the new things you've been doing. And you have someone that helps you kind of manage your calendar, which is something I envy and they had sent me a few sermons (sermon one & sermon two) that I spent, I don't know about an hour and a half hour an hour and 20 minutes or so listening to. One time less intentional and then the second time much more intentional because I realized I needed to kind of devote a little more. Some things you can listen to in passing and get a lot from and there are other things that you know, you can you can watch a movie and then you can, quote unquote watch the movie. It was on kind of Pentecost, working through the Gospel of Mark, clean and unclean like there is a lot going on there. And I don't know where you would like to start with that. But I will say so much like I've had conversations with other people about baptism or conversations about Easter from people that I come at it from a different perspective and a different lens, that does not happen to be white, American, born in capitalism. You know what I mean? It comes with it from the point of view that is entirely foreign to me. And this was one of those messages. So where would you begin to kind of lay context for what we should talk about?

Mark Charles 10:38

Yeah, so we could go two ways. First there's my whole personal story of how God kind of raised this in me. And really, for the last year, almost for 13 months now. I have been deeply wrestling with some of these questions. It started with the passage of the Syrophoenician woman. But it led into a much deeper analysis of really the entire Gospel story and wrestling with the question of where not only do I as a Navajo man, or a Navajo and Dutch man, but where do white Americans get written into the Gospel story. And as I wrestled with it, and I started…so I was wrestling with it for almost nine months. And then I began teaching on it earlier this year. And as I taught on it preached on it presented it several times, I've gotten better at kind of bringing people into the dialogue without completely freaking them out.

But wrestling with it, and I thought of you, and I thought of your podcast when I was even going through some of this because of the name of your podcast with, Can I Say This At Church? And there is some, when he read the story of the Syrophoenician woman, there are definite things about that passage that you can and you cannot say in church! Because in that passage, Jesus very clearly creates a hierarchy. And he says to this woman who wants her daughter to be healed, and he says, Why would I give to the dogs what was meant to the Jews. And she responds and says, well, even the dogs eat the scraps on the table, and Jesus, I look great, here's your bone. You know, and he heals her. But there's some very troubling language.

And now I've been in the church long enough. And I've wrestled with that pastors long enough where I can preach that sermon and still make Jesus look good. But if you really wrestle with it, and if all of us are honest, if we had that interaction with Jesus, knowing his reputation for loving people knowing his reputation for going above and beyond to include people, we would all walk away from that interaction, saying, that is absolutely not what I expected. Right? I would not expect that. But the way I want to approach it today is really by through an understanding of Act 2. So for many Christians, Acts 2, I would say, is one of the best examples of what church should look like. Right? You have this diverse group of people from all over the world, the Holy Spirit has affirmed their identity by actually allowing the disciples to speak the Gospels into their language. And so they are hearing the words of God being proclaimed in their own tongues. They are coming together in unity, they're sharing their possessions, they're listening to the teachings, the disciples are performing miracles and signs and wonders. And this, fantastically, unified community is growing daily. And God is adding to their numbers.

And I think for many churches, they look at that, and we look at that as Acts 2 is like this great model of what church could possibly look like. And so when I was preaching this two weeks ago, or three weeks ago, to a Native American congregation, a camp meeting, a summer camp meeting, at the Mescalero Apache Reservation in New Mexico, and my first sermon was titled, The Hopes and Challenges of the Acts 2 Community. So the hope is yes, the Holy Spirit is affirming the identity of the people, their church’s growing, they're unified, the disciples are doing miracles, they're being taught and growing in numbers. Those are the hopes of that passage. We all know that. The challenges is they're all Jewish. Everyone in the Acts 2 community is already a Jew. Yes, they're from diverse places, they're from different ethnic backgrounds, but they've all already converted to Judaism. So they all speak the same language, they're all the men are circumcised, they all attend synagogue, they all keep the laws of cleanliness, they all follow the Old Testament Torah. They all have assimilated to Jewish culture. And now they are hearing the story of Jesus being proclaimed, and they're turning to that.

But we have to acknowledge the biggest challenge of the Acts 2 community is it's a highly assimilated body of believers. It's essentially the American church. Where you have a lot of different colors in the pews but they're all Jewish; or here they are all assimilated to Western European American culture. And one of the challenges I think, and when I preach around the country, I actually have to tell white evangelical audiences two things that would surprise most people. I have to tell them that they are not God's chosen people. And North America is not their Promised Land. I also have to tell them, that Jesus wasn't white. He didn't have blonde hair and didn’t blue eyes, he was not European. Because every picture they have of him, right, he is this white European running through the Middle East.

And the other thing I'm realizing now I have to challenge people on, is we have this understanding that Jesus's ministry was inclusive of everybody. And when we think about how do we grow a diverse church, how do we grow a diverse body of believers everyone will go back to the model of Jesus's ministry, because he was the one who loves everybody, and included everybody. But if you look at the interactions of Jesus in the Gospel, and we'll start with a story of the Syrophoenician woman, right, here is a gentile woman coming to Jesus who wants her child healed. And Jesus very clearly says, I'll heal you but you're second in line. And you have to understand that place before you get there.

There's actually only two other interactions that Jesus has with Gentiles in the Gospels. There's the Syrophoenician woman, there is the demoniac, who Jesus goes and he finds this demoniac, he heals the demoniac. But afterwards, the demoniac is begging Jesus to let him follow him. That gospel actually uses the word begging Jesus to let him follow him. And Jesus says, No, you can't follow me. You go back to your own people, and just tell them what God did for you.

And then there's the story of the Centurion. Right? Who has this amazing faith, he says to Jesus, you don't have to come into my house that would make you unclean. And you would have to go through this process of filling as well. Blah blah blah, I understand authority, just say the word. And I know my servant will be healed. Now Jesus is a person who every time he is shown great faith he absolutely rewards it. And for the Jewish people, that he heals, he goes above and beyond, right. He sits and listens to the bleeding woman's story until it's all over. He touches the leper who came for healing. He goes into the home of the tax collector, he sits and talks with the Samaritan woman. I mean, Jesus, when he sees faith, when he sees a chance to go deeper with people he every single time takes it! And he does not go into the home of the Centurion. He doesn't go into his home. Again, this is just a break from his other works. So the challenge right there is we have these little we only have three stories of Jesus interacted with Gentiles and all three of them are at best dismissive. And worse, right out exclusive.

Seth Price 18:52

Yeah, well, it feels like he's doing the bare minimum.

Mark Charles 18:55

He is! But we have to remember right, Jesus did not come to keep the moral code of 2021. Jesus came to keep the Old Testament law perfectly. And the Old Testament law actually required that he'd be separate from the Gentiles…required it. But again, this raises the question, so then where do the Gentiles get included? If they're not included in Christ's ministry? Well, then the next logical answer is Acts 2. And I've actually used Acts 2 for most of my adult life as “here's an inclusive church”. But when you look at the fact that Jesus didn't include Gentiles in his teaching, and now you see in Acts 2 that that whole group of believers were already Jews. So now this, again, this thing has just become easier to understand. So the Acts 2 community is not the inclusive body because it first required assimilation, because they all came from from the Jewish community. So then the next place that we see this is in Acts 10.

Seth Price 20:05

Well, before you get there…so I assume you've preached this in both Native American churches or indigenous churches, like you just referenced the, the New Mexico congregation, and maybe at a church in DC, or a church here in Charlottesville, Virginia, where I'm at or wherever, like, what is the feedback from that? When you basically say…I mean, because what I hear is, yeah, there's grace but we're kind of a second class citizen. You know what I mean? Which I can, yeah, so what's, what's the guffaw? They're like, what do people do just leave? Do they burn the church? Like, what happens?

Mark Charles 20:43

No, this is why I'm on your podcast, right! Because Can I Say This At Church? Which is, I'm pointing things out that once you see it, you acknowledge, I've always known that was there, but I haven't known what to do with it.

Seth Price 20:57

Yeah. So we don't talk about it.

Mark Charles 20:59

So we don't talk about it! Yeah! And so you know, who how many of us have heard sermons, even deeply challenging sermons about the Syrophoenician woman where Jesus still comes out looking really good. Instead of saying it appears that Jesus held the ethnocentric views of his time. Right, it appears that he was pretty clear of you are second in line and I'm here for the Jews first.

And so again, so what I'm pointing out I…the the most pushback I get from people, is, they immediately begin to think about the implications of this. And, in general, a white audience will have a bit harder time wrestling with this than a native audience from just the limited experience I've had.

Seth Price 21:53

Why do you think that's true?

Mark Charles 21:54

Well, again, I don't have any, if we just look at what… So the native audience has been in boarding schools. They've been mistreated, abused, some even raped in the name of Jesus. Right? And they were told by the people who are doing these atrocities and that Jesus loves you. He just requires you to be this way. And white audiences, again, looking at this passage creates a tension because the tension is well, was Jesus sinning? Was he somehow sinning because you know, of what he did? And it creates a tension of again, where do I get included in it? I mean, I can tell you for most of my adult life, I've envisioned myself following Jesus. And it was really challenging, difficult, to read, honestly, the story of the demoniac where this Gentile is begging Jesus to let him follow him and Jesus says no. Right.

And so putting myself as a Gentile back in that era, I'm like, yeah, there's a good chance Jesus wouldn't let me follow him. I have no biblical evidence that Jesus would allowed me to be one of his disciples had I been a Gentile back in that day. Just like I had to wrestle with the fact that had I'd lived in the Old Testament times, I probably would have had genocide committed against me and my people, because that's what they were doing to claim their promised lands.

And so it's interesting, I'm not even going to say this as a conclusion, it’s interesting that Western Europeans rather than really wrestling with that tension have just made Jesus white. So if there's a tension that says, well, Jesus, if there's biblical evidence that Jesus was not inclusive of people who are not conformed to Judaism, then your only two options are to conform to Judaism,

Seth Price 24:19

or redefine it

Mark Charles 24:21

or to redefine who Jesus is. And so Western Christianity made Jesus white. I'm not offering that as a conclusion. I'm saying it's an interesting observation.

Seth Price 24:30

Because then we get to step in in the place of the Jewish people in this case, and exert that we're now first in line.

Mark Charles 24:37

And I would even argue, and then it allows you to do Christian ministry. By telling other people they're second in line. And so when you have a narrative, like you have with the American church, towards native peoples or African people — African Americans, where there clearly is a understanding Have you are second in line? Right, pointing these things out kind of begins to shake up that whole, you know, pointing out that actually that model Jesus had is not the model we're supposed to be following. So let this gets you into the next part. Let me get to the part where we get included.

Seth Price 25:25

Okay.

Mark Charles 24:28

So in Acts 10, right, God shows this vision to Peter and on it is this blanket with all these animals, clean and unclean, and the command is, “kill and eat”. Now Peter, who's been with Jesus, his entire ministry, has walked and eaten and been with him. He was there in Mark 6 when Jesus declared all foods clean. And Peter definitively says, in Acts 10-never. We've never eaten anything unclean! So he's like, Jesus may have said they were clean, but we've never touched that stuff. We never went there! And again, there's no biblical evidence that Jesus did eat and break bread with Gentiles. It's not in the Gospels.

So while Peter’s pondering this Cornelius’ people come, he goes with them to their house, he walks into their house. And it's interesting that the first words out of his mouth is not “Oh, I remember when Jesus went into this Centurions house”, and set a precedent of we're going here. But Peter walks into kind of this house and he says, I shouldn't be here. You're a Gentile. I'm a Jew. I should not be here.

But he's there. He hears Cornelius’ story. He's beginning to preaching. And as he's preaching, he sees the Spirit fall on Cornelius and his family. And the circumcised believers who are with them were astonished that the Spirit of God fell even upon the Gentiles. Again, three years with Jesus (he) had no clue that the work they were doing was meant to radically include Gentiles. Peter is even again, his worldview is exploding right in front of his eyes. But he actually says, there is nothing to prevent me now from baptizing you. You've been given the same Spirit of God, and I'm going to baptize you. So again, he changes.

What's fascinating is an Acts 11. The disciples, the apostles hear that Peter was horror of horrors, eating with Gentiles. And they are angry at him for Peter goes back. He says, well, hold on, let me tell you the story. He tells them the story. And then the Apostles say, so then even the Gentiles are included! Again, three years with Jesus, they had no clue.

See, the challenge I think we have here is Jesus did not have an ethnically inclusive ministry. That was not his ministry model. In fact, he was quite clear. I'm here for the Jews first. And if there's any scraps leftover, I'll throw a few bones to the dogs. But he was very clear, he actually said it. I'm here for the Jews first. So what we've done, and so now, here we are 2000 years later, and the best church we have is the Acts 2 community minus the miracles, right. It's a bunch of people from different ethnic and racial backgrounds, who have all chosen to assimilate to a single culture, so they can sit in the pews together. And why have we not gone further? We haven't gone further because we're using a model that was never intended to be the model. Jesus, I would argue, came to confront power, and to model true leadership, which is to go forth with humility to even accept persecution. That was what he was most adamant about when his disciples got a perverted sense of leadership and a misuse of power Jesus was there to absolutely correct them. And to say that's not what we're doing.

But he was not modeling this inclusive ministry of diverse ethnics and, we didn’t have race back then, backgrounds and ethnic backgrounds. And so we're using this model of Jesus when technically, and Jesus was pretty clear, right? He's like, I'm gonna die and go back to heaven and It's actually going to be better for you that I won't be here. Because then you'll get the Holy Spirit and the spirit will remind you of everything I've said. And in fact, he said, you're going to do even greater things than I've done.

And we see that happening in Acts 11, where Peter does something Jesus never did. He went into a Gentiles home, he broke bread with Gentiles. He baptized Gentiles who hadn't already converted to Judaism, uncircumcised people! Peter ushered into the kingdom of God, Jesus never did that. And so when we take the model of Jesus, and use it for what it wasn't meant to be. So if his model was about confronting power, and we now make it about ethnic inclusivity. Now this justifies us creating hierarchies, it justifies us telling people, I can call you a dog, and still be loving you. I can tell you, you're not qualified to follow me and still be loving you. I can not break bread with you and not go into your house, but expect you to break bread with me and come into my house after you assimilate to my culture, and still be loving you. When, that's actually what the Holy Spirit came to do. The Holy Spirit came. Once Jesus died on the cross. Once he reconciled all things back to creator, once the curtain was ripped that didn't just allow the Jews to now go into the Holy of Holies. It allowed the world to go into the Holy of Holies! And we see the Holy Spirit beginning to throw open that invitation. In the book of Acts.

Seth Price 31:47

I will be right back.

Is this an adequate way to restate that because a thought just popped in my mind? So if we're modeling Jesus we're being modeled away to subversively live in the culture that we live in to push people to uncomfortable places. And then we should further move and discipleship in a following of the Holy Spirit, which is a religion of “yeah these people too. And yes, those people too. And yeah, those people too. And also those people too.” (Mark laughs) Is that an overgeneralization?

Mark Charles 32:41

No, in fact, if you look in the book of Acts and Acts 2 and Acts 9, there is language around the body of believers about they were all in unison, they held things in common. They had this beautiful unity, that's in Acts 2 and in Acts 9. Once Gentiles, uncircumcised Gentiles, are brought into the church that language is not repeated. And, in fact, the church begins to fall apart. Right? Peter and Paul begin to have differences. And this book that begins with this picture of this highly assimilated church after the Holy Spirit does what the Spirit does the book ends with the Apostle to the Gentiles, Paul, sitting in a rented apartment writing letters trying to frantically hold this fragile group together. And so it leaves us I would say, with this challenge of A: we're being asked to do something Jesus never did. And B: we're actually being given a task to do that has never been done before. Right! It's 2000 years later and we still don't have this radically inclusive church, that the Holy Spirit paints a picture of in Acts 10 and 11. I think it's because we're following the broken model.

Seth Price 34:04

Yeah. Well, I think there may be another reason I think it's because people want to fund things that they were a part of. But it stops where we become a part of. And after it progresses where I'm currently at. I don't want to be involved with this anymore. Which makes me kind of question the institutionality of the church, just as a whole, like, just as a big C global. Not the congregants of the church, not the body of the church. But the infrastructure of how it actually happened.

Mark Charles 34:38

It’s because it’s an institution. The goal of an institution is to preserve itself. And the church was called to lay down its life why I think it's impossible for the church to be an institution because institutions demand preservation.

Seth Price 34:57

How do I say this? So how is there a church then in 50 years if we live into that model? Or does the church just radically look like something that I wouldn't recognize if I was alive in 50 years? Hopefully, I will be, maybe medicine is amazing, but I probably won't be.

Mark Charles 35:15

You know, I think what's fascinating even right now is what's happened over the past two years with church during the pandemic. Where we have these clear divides of believers going, you know, really, truly demonstrating what it is they trust, and who it is that they're following. And there's a lot of people who have taken this two years as almost a break from deep engagement with church. Right, it's been harder to go when it's virtual, it's been harder to keep kids engaged when everything's online, and they're online for school all day. And I think there's a lot of people who have taken a break. And from (the) conversations I've had, there's a lot of people who feel healthier after taking that break.

Seth Price 36:14

Yeah, absolutely.

Mark Charles 36:16

They're feeling like, it's been nice to not go into this space, where I have to defend my humanity at a deeply spiritual level. So part of me is wondering is is what's even going to come out of what the church is going to look like, after this pandemic? Have some of these the seeds even been able to be sown a bit deeper during this pandemic while what we typically thought of as church, which is a building with a 75 minute service and weekly program list. Now that has changed radically. And I think there needs to be…I think that the pandemic can even help us even define what we understand the structured part of church to be. And I think there's a lot of people who have found that they've been able to maintain relationships with believers during the pandemic while the structures of the church have not adapted well and have not been feeding people near as well as is necessary.

So I don't know, I think I'm hoping we're gonna see a real transformation of the church as we come out of the pandemic,

Seth Price 37:33

I'm gonna, I'm gonna stretch this further than you may want to go. And so feel free to punt the question if you want, though, I can't edit it out of the video. I don't care to learn how but I can edit out the audio. So thinking of a church structured around “and them too…and them too”, if I give names to those “and them's” and we think about the church that you and I are part of today. Like, how do we intentionally conversate and move the church forward on inclusivity or even honestly coming to an agreement on a definition of terms on LGBTQ inclusion and racial inclusion and power and money and politics and everything that the pandemic is exacerbated or even science and, you know, vaccine, not vaccine, climate deniers, climate, not denier. You know, like, how do we begin to even talk about that in a way that pastors feel as though they're allowed to, because all of them have homes to pay for and lights to turn on? Like, how do you navigate those two?

Because it sounds easy to say, yeah, we just include people, let's do this thing. But I don't…I don't know if I was a pastor, or someone in leading a church, a treasurer, or something like that. Like, I don't know how I would push that forward.

Mark Charles 38:51

So I think that the key for this is right, this is not just another book topic. This is not just another thing to teach on. I think this lays a different set of expectations of what we're looking for God to do. Right? In Acts both 2 and 10 it was the Holy Spirit that initiated this radical inclusivity, right. The Holy Spirit in Acts 2 did not need to allow the disciples to speak the language of the nations, everyone there already spoke Hebrew. And they were used to hearing the works of God proclaimed in Hebrew. And when they heard it in their language they were amazed because they were for the very first time hearing the God of Abraham and his works being proclaimed in their own language! They had never experienced that before and they didn't know what to make of that.

Again, in Acts 10, the Holy Spirit initiate to Peter and says, “Eat these animals that even Jesus never touched”, go into this home a place where even Jesus never brought you baptize these people who even Jesus didn't baptize. And I think what it's been doing for me is it's been changing my expectations of what I'm looking for the Spirit of God to do.

Again, I think, we can only have faith in something that we have an expectation for. And if our expectation is that inclusivity looks like Jesus model of ministry instead of the Holy Spirit's model of ministry, I'm going to have different expectations. And so what I want to do is I want to begin to change people's expectations. And even challenge them of yeah, I think even Jesus understood the limitations that he had because he was a Jewish Messiah. Right. And that did not allow him to go certain places and interact in certain ways and do certain things. And we saw those limits very clearly, I think it demonstrated, even what Paul says, which is the law is a curse, it's not going to save you. It's only going to condemn you.

You know, Jesus. Absolutely. And I would agree he kept the law perfectly. And even that did not allow him to radically include the Gentiles. And so, rather than even teaching this, well, I want to begin to change people's expectations. And I want them to begin to expect the Holy Spirit to blow the doors wide open. And even against their own will, right! Even against what they want or expect. I mean, Peter was there I'm sure I'm sure if you were to give him the choice, hey, Peter, you want to go baptize a Gentile and bring them into them? This body of believers would have been like, um, you know, I'll pass on that today. But the Holy Spirit is the one who initiated it, and is like, no, this is what we're gonna do!

Seth Price 42:33

I'm gonna pass on that today.

Mark Charles 42:35

And so actually what this has done is A: it's been changing my expectations, and B: it's been changing how I pray and what I'm even expecting of God. Because one of the things I'm saying to God much more regular, I love the model of prayer of the leper who came to Jesus. And he said, if you are willing, you can make me clean. He lived his whole life as an outcast. He lived his whole life having to yell unclean, unclean. He lived his whole life being treated as a second class Jewish citizen. And he came to Jesus, he had heard his miracles, heard what he had done. And he said, I have every confidence that you have the authority, you have the power to heal me. I don't know if you have the character to heal me. If you're willing I know you can do this. And Jesus was indignant. He's like, What do you mean? And he actually reached out and touches the guy, again, he's Jewish so he's being radically inclusive. He touches the guy and says, I am willing be clean.

And I found myself praying to God, that way. I'm like, God, I have a Bible full of stories of you standing up boldly for the least among the Jewish people. I have church history, 2000 years, of you at least allowing Western Europeans to act with impunity. I have very little evidence, God, both biblically and historically of you taking a bold stand for black and brown people who aren't Jewish. I have very little evidence. There's a few stories here and a few stories there. But I have very little evidence of you taking a bold stand for black and brown people who aren't Jewish; even though I see clearly this is the trajectory going all the way back to Genesis. And what we see in Act 10 and even the the vision in Revelation, that you have this idea of reconciling all of creation, everyone back to you. But you have to stand up and do this.

And so I'm asking God, how long the Lord? I believe you can do it. But I'm waiting for, are you willing to do it? And so, my prayers have radically changed in the past year. And I've also begun to realize that, again, the myths of the church, right? Evangelicals believe they're the Jewish people, they have a covenant with God of Abraham, and that they're written into the story there. And so they interact with God like Jewish people. For most of my adult life, I believed I was a disciple of Jesus and I've had to wrestle with the fact of how I'd been alive back, then he probably would have not let me follow him. He might have healed me or giving me what I wanted if I would have shown I understood the hierarchy. But he probably wouldn't let me follow him.

And so I've been acknowledging that, yeah, I get written in, you as a white person, get written into the story in Acts 10. And what's fascinating is that after Acts 10 is where the church begins to fall apart.

Seth Price 46:17

Because it's inclusive?

Mark Charles 46:19

Now that it has uncircumcised Gentiles in it, it begins to fall apart. And we, again as I said earlier, this book ends not with a coming full circle of now we have this radically inclusive of an ethnically diverse body. But we have the Apostle to the Gentiles sitting alone in an empty apartment, writing letters to hold this fragile thing together. Almost leaving us with the challenge of “are you the reader of these words willing to go out and be used by the Spirit to create this radically inclusive body of believers?”

Seth Price 47:02

Yeah, it almost makes me want to make that if I get second, I'm probably got the verse wrong. 2 Corinthians like 3:17 (or 16) that one says “Where the Spirit of the Lord is there's freedom” almost makes you want to say where the Spirit of Lord is there is inclusion?

Mark Charles 47:15

Absolutely.

Seth Price 47:17

I don't know enough Greek to know if I can do that with the text. I'm actually going to text somebody in a minute, because that has popped into my head multiple times, as we've had this conversation.

So I have two other questions for you. And then I'll give you back to your missed sunrise. So outside of this I've begun playing on this shows name. So what are some of the things in brief that you're like; yeah, if the body of the church not necessarily the ministers, although, yes, of course, the ministers. If the body of the church does not talk about “x”, there is no future for the church? Like what are those things that people feel as though they can't talk about, in your opinion, that must be wrestled with in a public forum in the church and like lead from you and me not as the Minister of a church?

Mark Charles 48:02

I think we have to absolutely wrestle with the fact that Jesus's model of ministry was beholden to the ethnocentric views of his time. And that he did not challenge those views. I think we have to acknowledge that so that we can acknowledge the Holy Spirit is the one who radically brings in this teaching. And the Holy Spirit is the one who radically begins to do this. You know, the longer that we try to, especially this the story of the Syrophoenician woman, the longer that we use that story as a picture of Jesus' loving ministry and inclusive ministry, it's only going to perpetuate the inclusivity that we have in the church today.

So we have to acknowledge that Jesus wasn't modeling an inclusive ministry, an ethnically inclusive ministry, for us. He was modeling dynamics with power. He was modeling servant leadership. He was modeling, being humble and submissive to the spirit in the will of God. Which means we have to wrestle with how attentive are we to the Holy Spirit? How attentive are we too you know, this is what to Jesus’ credit, right? Yes, he never went into a Gentiles home. He never broke bread with Gentile people. He didn't allow Gentiles to follow him. But to his credit, when his disciples saw that this was what the Spirit was doing they jumped in with both feet!

I think Jesus, one of the things that he modeled beautifully, is waking up in the morning, praying to his father in heaven, getting guidance from the Spirit, and then allowing that to shape and mold his day. And so when when Peter saw the Holy Spirit fall on the Gentiles yes this radically challenged everything, even what he saw in Christ. But he's like, if this is what the Spirit of God is doing what's to prevent me from baptizing them? So I think that's one of the things where the church has to begin to really wrestle with that.

And I think we also need to wrestle with the fact that yeah, because we have this incomplete view, we're actually trying to build something that we're trying to build and assimilated church. Which is not what the Holy Spirit is about.

Seth Price 51:04

Yeah, that doesn't need to be built.

So last question, this has become my favorite question, Mark, over the last two years, and I don't think I asked this of you the first time. So when you as a person try to wrap words around what God is or what the divine is, or whatever that is, like, what do you say to that?

Mark Charles 51:25

I feel the most close to God when I am sitting outside 5:30-6am in the morning, watching the sunrise. I've already listened to the news that morning. I know that crises going on around the world, the droughts, the fires, the deaths, the wars. And I'm watching this piece of art, not being shown to me, but being constructed in front of me. I see the shades turning colors of the sun, I see the river flowing, I see the seasons changing, I see all these things. And my response, the first response out of my mouth, no matter what news I've heard that morning, no matter what's happened the day before, when I see those things, the first response out of my mouth is one of gratitude for a new day and for another day. And I understand God very clearly as a creator. And I understand that ultimately I don't have nearly as much control as I would like to think I have or that the world will tell me that I have.

And acknowledging that there while watching the sunrise on a regular basis it helps put me in my place. And you know, one of the things I've done the first chapter in the introduction to our book, I have two pages talking about the experience of watching the sunrise. After my campaign for president in 2020, where the conclusion was the nation definitively said to me, we don't want to deal with these issues. The Press didn't want to write about them, the candidates didn't want to engage with them. The nation is like, yeah, we don't want this, there's a remnant, a few people, but the nation by and large, we don't want to talk about these things. And so what I've begun doing since then, is I'm continuing, I've gone back to watching the sunrise. But now I'm live streaming the sunrise. And I'm doing that intentionally because part of the reason I'm where I'm at today in my understanding, and even what I'm fighting, what I'm working towards, came from watching the sunrise. And so I'm live streaming my sunrises in an effort to invite people and even disciple them into a worldview that understands there is a creator and we are not ultimately in control of everything. And we we need to acknowledge that.

And so, yeah, so I've been doing this and you know, I may who knows I may run again in 2024.

Seth Price 54:42

Do it.

Mark Charles 54:44

But right now I'm trying to lay the groundwork of like, Yeah, this is not just an educational problem. This is not just, you know, a trauma issue. There is something fundamental that our our nation doesn't understand which makes them unwilling or unable to look at our own history. And watching the sunrise helped me to get to a point where I could look at those things better. And so I'm literally inviting the nation several mornings a week to join me to watch the sunrise. And hoping that I will actually see some fruit of that if I do decide to run again in 2024. I'm going to continue to try to engage this. I don't know the exact next steps. But I know this is part of the groundwork that needs to be laid before we can really engage it at that level again.

Seth Price 55:35

Yeah. So where do you want people to go to do the things that they should be doing? And and I'm going to say, I'm going to link and I'm gonna have in the show notes, the link to both of the sermons, part one and part two, because I think, and for those listening, there is a lot in those that Mark didn't discuss. There's a lot of stories in there about your family, your upbringing that you didn't discuss a lot of other things that are weaved in there that that give a lot more meat to what we've gone over in brief. And so those are going to be there. And you really should listen to them. And I'll share them as well. But where do you want people to go to kind of engage in to do something like where where would you direct people to if they hear this and they're like, yeah, I want to, I want to get involved in something in this vein.

Mark Charles 56:17

Yeah, I would invite them first of all, to, you know, I'm very active on my own social media. And so I'm trying to do several things. I'm live streaming the sunrises I host several times a week, what I call my second cup of coffee, where I just get online and try to give a paradigm shift for the things going on politically and socially and economically around the world, and in the US. I'm also trying to start a sermon series are a teaching series on my YouTube channel that I'm calling are Decolonizing My Faith where I want to begin teaching about these things more regularly to not work with the institution of the church, but to work with what I'm beginning to call the remnant. Right, the people who are like, yeah, I'm not being fed. I'm not having my humanity affirmed in church.

I still know God, I still trust God is to believe in God. But church is more of a hindrance to me to that than a help. And so I want to help people to decolonize their faith so that they can meet their all that I'm doing on my social media. I'm doing a weekly book study, chapter by chapter of our book Unsettling Truths. So these are the places where I'm trying to put as many of my many resources out there in real time, as I'm engaging with this, as I'm teaching on these things. And I think the thing I'm most encouraged about is, especially this stuff we've been talking about today. A lot of people are, I’m not sure if agreeing is the right word, but a lot of people are acknowledging that there is absolutely something here. And there are things that we as Christians, but even the church needs to begin to wrestle with, because it's very clear that whatever model it is we're following, it's not working. It's not working. And it's been 2000 years. And I personally would like to invest myself in something that works.

Seth Price 58:20

Good. Good. Good.

Mark thank you so much for your time this morning. Very much so. And for the again, the breaking of your normal routine. I'm aware of obvious, especially now, how important that is to you. So I do appreciate your time very, very much this morning. And, and yeah, man, it's a pleasure to have you back.

Mark Charles 58:35

Thank you, Seth. I really appreciate it. Online I'm wirelesshogan on most social media. On Facebook, I have a verified account. Mark Charles Wireless Hogan is my my professional page, Twitter, Instagram, tik tok, and YouTube, engaging all those places. And so I encourage people to follow me under wirelesshogan. And yeah, join this conversation. I'm excited.

I think the thing I'm most excited about is, I really want to see what the Holy Spirit does. I want to see the Holy Spirit begin to press these issues, and challenge and even being to deconstruct some of what I would say are the institutions of the church that are clinging to this older model that isn't working. Yeah.

Seth Price 59:30

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Pommel Horses, Baptism, and Transformation with Alexander John Shaia / Transcript

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Alexander John Shaia 0:00

When we're trying to form a new way of understanding God, which is a God of abundance, a God of generosity, a God of inclusion there's a horrible anguish about norming, this new experience.

Seth Price 0:30

Welcome back to the Can I Say This At Church podcast, I'm Seth your host, as usual. And I'm glad that you're here. Thanks for downloading. I don't want to do any announcements, because I'll do those at the end. That way, if you want to check out (on them) you can. I'm very excited for this conversation. So Alexander John Shaia is back on the show. He's always one of my favorites. We talked about baptism in the context of it a slightly different and you'll hear me kind of tell the story of that as we get going. But without further ado, let's make this thing happen.

Seth Price 1:26

Alexander, welcome back to the show.

Alexander John Shaia 1:29

Gosh, Seth, I've been looking forward to this.

Seth Price 1:33

I have as well. Yeah, very much so I am. Yeah, I cherish our relationship. I really enjoy that I have you as a sounding board when needed. So but um, welcome. Good morning. Good afternoon for you.

Alexander John Shaia 1:47

Good afternoon. Yes. Yes, for everybody who can't see I'm in Spain. And it's roughly 1:30 in the afternoon. And lunch here starts at three o'clock. So I'm fine. I just had my second cup of coffee.

Seth Price 2:07

I'm on my second cup. I'm going to try to do my best to not have the swallow sounds in this. So we'll see how it goes. What has been new? I don't even remember the last time that we recorded. It's been some time. But I don't remember when we recorded that. What is new for you in say, it was before the pandemic, so what is new for you?

Alexander John Shaia 2:29

Well, what's new is that I got I was in Spain under lockdown, last year, for 100 days. And lockdown here meant you couldn't go outside of your house. If you needed food or medicine, you call the police and they delivered it to you. And then I really discovered that I wanted to live you. And so I came back to the States and went through the process to get a residency visa, which is one year at a time. And I had just, just, just as of two days ago, got my national identity card, which makes me an official one year resident of Spain.

Seth Price 3:06

How much trouble is it to get renewed every year? Because I know how much trouble you went through to get that to begin with.

Alexander John Shaia 3:12

Talk to me in six months. (laughs) I don't know. I'm told not much. But I don't trust that.

Seth Price 3:22

So Spain intoxicated you while it kept you because of the pandemic.

Alexander John Shaia 3:27

It did it. One of the things I love here is the care for people for each other. I have to adjust to the fact that when I go to a store, and people here still are lining up to go into a store because there are still restrictions about the number of people to go into a store. People look at my grey hair and they step aside. I'm not used to that. Yeah, I'm not used to thinking of myself as as having reached a certain age, but I'm certainly not used to not just standing in line like everybody else.

Seth Price 3:59

Yeah. That's a different temperament altogether. So that was the plan to stay in Spain longer term before the pandemic or is this like a pandemic induced Spanish version of Stockholm syndrome implied by a country.

Alexander John Shaia 4:17

So in 2012, I walked the Camino for myself and I walked almost sixty days. And the very last village I walked into, which is here at the ocean is the village I'm in now. And when I walk into that village, I said, someday I want to live here. And nine years later, here I am.

So the idea was playing in my mind, but I have to say that when lockdown happened and I was here ,in one location, and couldn't move around and really discovered I love being here. It's not all the toys of Spain that attracted me it's something about the simple life here. Even if you're just locked in a house.

Seth Price 5:00

Yeah, it's on my list. I found out last yesterday that my what my mom, her dream is to go to Paris and spend some time and I was like, Mom, you're so close to retirement just go. She's like, Who would I go with? I was like take your sister's? Who cares? Just go, it'll be fine. But she lives in a state of anxiety. rightly so. So. Yeah. Um, so yeah. So for the topic to the end, though, you've you buried the lead. So you've done new things since then. So you started a publishing house, not in just words alone. You've put books out? Like, yeah, so yeah, talk a bit on that, because there's a lot going on.

Alexander John Shaia 5:39

Well, the publishing houses, called Shaia Sophia House, myself along with Nora Sophia. And we are an imprint of Quoir. And it's just a great relationship with them. And so our niche in Quoir is that you have a book that touches upon transformation in the wide avenue of transformation. We'd love for you to consider us as as your publishing house.

Seth Price 6:09

Yeah, I've read I think one, maybe two of your books in that in that house. And yeah, it's a good, it's a good flavor. It's a different flavor. And I enjoy it. I enjoy it. So I didn't want to bury that lead, because that is a huge thing and you didn’t bring it up.

Alexander John Shaia 6:25

And you didn't is it is a huge lead. And the other thing is that last December, I released a provisional copy of my book on the 13 Days of Christmas. And I'm now pushing to see if I can get a final edition help this year.

Seth Price 6:43

I got to be done by April, September to get everything bound and printed and shipped and where it needs to be?

Alexander John Shaia 6:49

Probably August and so I'm right on the razor's edge at this moment.

Seth Price 6:54

I said, April, I meant August, I get mixed up with the two that are ace. But I said April and September, but yeah, (we both laugh)

Alexander John Shaia 7:00

Yeah, I leave the middle of August to leave this year's camino, which, for so long, we weren't sure what's going to happen. But yes, in fact, the Camino this year of 60 days is moving forward. And we're now accepting applications for Camino 2022.

Seth Price 7:17

That's cool. That's cool. That's good. Yeah, a while back, I remember the night that it was I sent you a message in messenger. And it talked about a conversation that I'd had with my daughter, because someone had said something about baptism, the way that you know, eight and nine year olds do with a different understanding of God, which is totally fine. And you had responded with the history of baptism, there, just few people that think they know as much as they should. And you wish that theologians today would really research early Christianity is use if the ritual, and how it's different from today.

Which, for those listening, you should go back to the first time I spoke to you, I remember when we talked at that time, it was close to lent, and you're like, I'm not prepared to talk about Easter, because of this, this, and this, and it's pageantry. And it's not what it was.

And I was like timeout. Can we go ahead and schedule a second one? And so this one gave me a similar feeling where I'm like, I don't know anything about the history of baptism? I don't. And I know my thoughts on it. But it doesn't mean that there's any context there. So I'd like to weave in and out of that, because I would assume a lot of people like myself are equally as ignorant, because, you know, it's not on the 15 minute YouTube thing, then we just don't dig into it. And honestly, I started perusing books on baptism. And outside of like, Reformed Theology, there doesn't seem to be a lot on baptism, except for a couple cursory surveys of the differences between immersion and sprinkling and all this different stuff. So there's a lot there. Where should we begin?

Alexander John Shaia 8:57

Okay, so I want to start by saying, we have Christianity before the year 600 and we have Christianity after the year 600. So that is sort of arbitrary, but I'd like people to think of the Christianity up to 600 and after 600. And early Christianity, which I'm talking about is 5 or 600 years, I mean, it's two and a half times the age of the United States. This is an enormous sweet sweep of time. But it is is so different from the Christianity that we think of today, in every way possible.

But, I just, I can't emphasize enough that I mean, I think of the golden years of Christianity, us being the second, third, fourth, fifth centuries, where we were doing something that was unheard of in human history. And I really mean this and I don't mean this to be to downplay or make any other religious tradition second class, not at all. But Christianity was the first tradition that said, it no longer matters who your mother was. It no longer matters your bloodline. It no longer matters your economic status. It no longer matters whether you're free or slave. It no longer matters what part of the world you were born. We've got a table, and you're welcome to come and to sit at that table as a brother and a sister with everybody else at that table. Now, if we think that that's a radical idea, even today, go back 2000 years ago. And I love my Lebanese tradition but it also gives me a window into what the world of the Middle East was like all those centuries ago.

My grandparents, in that small mountain village, which was fairly isolated in Lebanon. They would look over the canyon, and they would see the people in that village over there, which they probably had never visited. And they would say “we don't know those folks. We don't know those folks” As as much as we think about what, what the shape of an alien, quote unquote alien is going to be when they make themselves known. I mean, the idea of in the Middle East 2000 years ago with every city, every village was its own. And they would extend hospitality to the traveler but that's not the same thing as inviting them to be a member of the village.

And along comes Jesus the Christ and early Christianity, and we throw open the doors and say, Oh, no, we're not just inviting people…we're not just extending hospitality. We're inviting you to come and be a member of the family. From all the world's diversity, from all the different thought systems and ideologies and philosophies, and male and female, yeah. And I believe verities of sexual orientation, etc, etc, all of that. We're inviting to the table of the brothers and sisters. Okay, but here's the kicker. It's great to have the vision of a table where people can sit as brother and sister. But how do you create the behavioral changes and the attitude changes that make that not just an idea, but make that an ongoing practice? That's where baptism comes in. Because before the year 600 baptism was not about membership. Baptism, for the first aeons of Christian history was equal to what today we call ordination. And in fact, today's ordination, right is the old baptismal right, before 600.

Because we took seriously the idea that we were a community of priests. And certainly, the first step is to come into relationship with Jesus Christ. But that's just the first step. And that's not what baptism was. Baptism was you come into that relationship. You accept the rigors of learning how to live pan-tribally, with all these people who are not like and how to develop communion with that. And you learn and commit yourself to your talents, to give those to your family and to your community and to the wider world. And when all of that is done, then we baptize you, then we pour the water.

Seth Price 14:26

I've never heard the thing of juxtaposition between ordinational rites and baptismal rites. So what does ordination look like in the first 600 years versus now? Because that's, that's not.

Alexander John Shaia 14:41

Yeah, right. So ordination was a very small step. So you've got a community which is formed, deeply formed, in the practices of being a communion table. They're formed in a relationship with Jesus Christ, that's a given. And then secondly, being a communion at table. And then thirdly, that you also understand what your talents are and your gifts that you have to offer to each other in the world.

The priest is a small step forward, as we understand that this individual, or these individuals, have the talent of convening such a group of people at table. They actually are the priests to the priests. But the whole equation shifts because we don't have somebody as we do today. I'm not saying that this is a less than, but in the early church, you don’t have somebody standing up giving a sermon on Sunday. The community is obligated to prepare themselves to share the Word at that Sunday gathering with each other.

And there might be one or two people who are going to speak reflections that other people will, will share day in and day in, back and forth. Because remember, all of this is being built from the Jewish experience of Shabbat. And on Shabbat, you've got one person who gives a reflection but you've got the community who argues about it. And I really mean that arguing because that's an essential part for the Jewish people. No one person knows the truth, the truth is relational. And you need to have a whole range of people in the room. So you've got different perspectives about what's being shared. And that my passion about what I see above, evokes your passionate about what you see. Not that my passion should be the way you understand, but use the energy of my passion, to understand it in a very different way for yourself.

Seth Price 16:58

So the way that you're describing that to me, so I happen to go to a Baptist Church, but one of the things our minister says all the time is you don't have to agree with me, I'm gonna paraphrase him. You're not to agree with me, because Baptists believe in the priesthood of all believers. So just do the thing. Just do the thing. It's totally fine.

But it also sounds almost like a…so for someone pre 600 to baptize someone is that a subversive act against the religious leaders of the day? Like is it…would if you were like a rabbi, or whatever, in the day, and you're seeing other people do this and then assume a form of authority over what a word of God is? Is that subversive, is it heretical, is it…like what is like, for contextual purposes like what would that be?

Alexander John Shaia 17:53

Are you talking about governmental or religious?

Seth Price 17:57

Well, I think religions operate often like a government, but I'm not so much against like, against, like Rome, or something like that. But more so against like, you know, like, against the the priest and the temple, and the Sanhedrin, you know, what I mean? Like, would they look that way? Like, no, what do you know, you don't get to say anything, you haven't been trained, you don't get to just go in this water. And now you get to… Is this subversive at all or would they not care?

Alexander John Shaia 18:23

Well, so now, I need to make a further discrimination, which is to remember the year 325. So we've got Christianity up to 325. And then we've got 325 to 600. And then we've got after 600.

Seth Price 18:39

Okay.

Alexander John Shaia 18:41

In 325 when the legal persecution of Christians ended, and Christianity then became “the state religion”, the tradition began to take on some of the trappings of government. And as soon as you begin to take on some of the trappings of government you begin to develop sort of an in group in and out. And when you have an in group and an out group, you have an enormous amount of fight and disagreements.

Seth Price 19:14

You don't say‽

Alexander John Shaia 19:15

Quote unquote the fourth century is known as “the heretical wars”. And basically, what that meant is, is that Christianity was trying to figure out what's the wide middle? I like to think of Christianity in the fourth century, is like somebody on the pommel horse at the Olympics. How far can I bend to the left? And how far can I bend to the right without falling off the horse? That's my image for the heretical wars is, you know, on one hand, Christianity said, you can't say that Jesus was just a good person. And on the other hand, you can't say that Jesus was just God. It's like how you hold that Jesus was by Human and God together…there's a wide range but Christianity's got to stay in that wide range and not fall off one way or the other.

But during that time, there was an enormous amount of argument. I oftentimes use the phrase that I learned when I worked out the bayous of Louisiana, sadly, many, many, many decades ago when it was really a lovely place to be, but they gotta saying out in the bayou. And I'm gonna tell it to you. Like I heard it. When you're up to your ass and gator you can't remember you came to drain the swamp.

Seth Price 20:45

(laughs) Let's get away from the Gator.

Alexander John Shaia 20:47

Well, yeah, so are the up to 325 Christians are running for their life. And we were doing what we had to do to stay alive and serve the community. And then after 325, suddenly, we had the luxury to start talking with communities that were far flung. It's like well, what do you believe? Whoa, what do you do on Sunday and then this cacophony, which I think of is the gift of Christianity, all this diversity became known. But in that becoming known there was a sense of wisdom probably need to norm the middle. And that created enormous amount of anxiety and frustration and philosophical wars.

Seth Price 21:42

Yeah. Yeah. Well, it seems like that still is the case. We haven't learned anything. I was listening to a podcast the other day, which I become addicted to that I don't feel like advertising here. But I can tell you later if you want. And it's a historical podcast. And he's like, the only history I've come to realize it's true is humans don't learn anything from history. We just read about it. But he's like, that's the only thing that I've come to see is true. So pre John the Baptist, and Jesus, it feels like because there seems to be a baptismal right in the early church, but it seems to be more of a cleansing. Like this is a ritualistic, repetitive. Do this, do it again, do it again, layed with my wife too close to menstruation, do it again, somebody passed away, do it again. But that doesn't appear to be the way that it seems to be afterwards, you know, the way that Mark talks about it, John talks about it, the way that it's written about in Matthew where it becomes a thing. So is this even the same thing? Are they two different baptisms?

Alexander John Shaia 22:42

Seth, they are two different baptisms, and this is, you know, just when we're reading the scriptures, and we see the word baptism, there is almost nowhere in the scriptures where that word relates to what the second century Christians develop.

So first of all, let's remember what John the Baptist is doing is not Christian Baptistism he’s not baptizing Jesus into being Christian. He's offering the Jewish ritual of a mikvah bath, which is something that you can repeat over and over as a cleansing of oneself and an offering of oneself deeper to God. And the radicalness of John is, many people in those days are Jew are doing the Jewish ritual of baptism, which because at that point, Judaism had taken on a lot of Greek language, it changed the rituals name from a mikvah bath to baptism. And then 300 years later, they changed it back the mikvah to make it clear that Jewish mikvah was not Christian Baptism, alright.

But John is baptizing people by taking them down into flowing water, the Jordan River. Everyone else in those days and there are many are doing baptism in the synagogue in a stone vessel with with a firm floor on it. What is so upsetting about what John is doing, is that John is taking people down into the element that the Jews considered as potentially the place which was the door to Sheol and where the demons lived. Flowing water to the Jewish people in the first century is anathema a taboo. You don't want to go near flowing water. You want rain water, you want well water, but in look at the Psalms, always praying for still water but not flowing water.

And why was that? Two reasons for that.

First, if you know the flood story, well we think of the flood as the vault over the earth opening up and waters coming down. True, but if you read the text closely enough, you realize that the text And the vault underneath the earth opened and the waters came up. They came from both directions and wiped everything away. So when the Jews see flowing water, they're like, well, we can look up at the sky, make pretty sure that the vault overhead is firm. But is the vault cracked? If I go down into flowing water, am I going to go out through that flowing water into Sheol? Plays a deep, deep, deep, deep anxiety.

And even if you if you read the text about coming out of Egypt, and Moses is standing there and Yahweh removes the waters, the text says a wall of water on the left on a wall of water to the right. And then what does it say next, and the Jews walked on dry land. The Jewish people of that time had tremendous anxiety about flowing water. They wanted their feet on dry land. So when John the Baptist doesn't do the Jewish ritual back in the synagogue with a firm bottom, but it's inviting people to go down into a place which is, which they think is treacherous and dangerous. This is a whole new level of committing yourself to God.

And he's upsetting the religious authorities who are like, well, who told you you could do this? John, where did you go to get the temples Good Housekeeping Seal of Approval?

Seth Price 26:44

(Seth laughs quite a bit) Good Housekeeping.

Alexander John Shaia 26:46

Well yea! So again, not that he's baptizing but that he's using flowing water which is why early Christians, and we've totally lost this since, why early Christians used flowing water to baptize was not because it was clean water but because it was treacherous. You go down in to a place, like an emotional or spiritual death, to live through that place and be raised by the power of God to live a wider life.

Seth Price 27:26

Yeah, again, we referenced earlier, there were no books that I could buy that gave me any context. And I have to I have to chew on that quite a bit.

Alexander John Shaia 27:35

Well, one of the great, more contemporary theologians that this is a Benedict in named Aiden Kavanagh who wrote one of the most magnificent books called The Shape of Baptism. And about how the baptism imagery is horrific. And he reminds us that in the early centuries, our ancestors said to us to look at the baptistry you should be horrified because only with the eyes of faith would someone look at such horror and see new life.

Seth Price 28:13

I'm gonna buy that today. I think that two books that you made me buy this month? And it's July? It's like July 8, and I'm already at two. (Alexander laughs)

So zooming forward then to today? Actually no, another question. So if John was just taking people into the synagogues on the sly when people weren't, wouldn't have been as subversive, or what he would have, would it have been disrespectful, wouldn't have had any similar form of power, or would they have not like, you know what I mean, I hope that question makes sense.

Alexander John Shaia 28:44

But yeah, I mean, I know I don't think he would have that power at all. Many, many, many people were leading Jewish people through a ritual the mikvah bath as every synagogue today has a place where a mikvah bath. And so we have to constantly when we're reading the scriptures, and now when I translate the scriptures, I stopped using the word baptism, because it's not baptism, as we understand it in Christianity. It's a mikvah bath. Jesus is going down into the Jordan and receiving a mikvah bath from John.

Seth Price 29:20

Yeah. I kind of like I kind of like the picture thinking of baptism that way as entering a live source and leaving a live source, alive, or entering a stale source and leaving the same just leaving “wet” maybe that's an oversimplification, but I kind of like, I like that.

Time for a quick break. I'll be back in like a minute. Hang tight.

Seth Price 30:28

So zooming forward to today, we've got 800 ways to baptize people. Like we baptize babies. We sprinkle babies, we dunk babies, we don't do that we have believers baptism we have, whatever the Presbyterians do whatever the Methodists do. So how did we get here? Like, because baptism means 20 different things to 20 different people. It's like trying to define the word evangelical, it means different things.

Alexander John Shaia 30:52

So let's go back again to this, you know, for easy speaking, take the date of 600, the Germanic tribes of Northern Europe have swept down to the outskirts of the city of Rome, and they are preparing to sack the city the next day. And the Pope, and in this moment I can’t remember which Pope it is, goes out to meet them, and makes a tremendous bargain with them which saves the city of Rome, saves 1000s of lives. But here's what happened. He said to them, if you will allow yourselves to be baptized and promise then after you're baptized to go through the process of accepting the disciplines of Christianity. We'll give you the keys to the city.

Seth Price 31:57

No bullets fired. Well, there weren't any bullets, but…

Alexander John Shaia 32:00

No. So in that moment, the whole of baptism being a preparation for the priesthood at the table of everybody. After that moment, it became a ritual of first profession, of membership, with the promise that I will further develop myself. And what happened is now we have two different levels of people at the table. We have the people who have gone through a deep personal transformation and understand their relationship with Jesus, have accepted the practices, have exhibited the grace of the practices, and know the role that they have to give the community. And then we have other people at the table who have simply promised first membership.

Well, now we have a cultural moment happen. And that is the whole of the Roman Empire is gone (and) much of Northern Europe is in chaos. And the church becomes the school, the police station, the hospital, the community center, the everything. Education is very limited. It is said that probably most priests were simply the only person in the village who could read write a little bit. And everything in Christianity became the priest gets formed a little and everybody else gets formed a very little. And you begin a stratification, which ultimately ends the community, the true community of the priesthood at the table.

Seth Price 33:43

So there's no inherent on try to say this without a weight of offending anyone listening, it might not be possible. So many of my friends believe that without baptism there is no being with God after we're done breathing. But that doesn't seem to be any of what you've described. Enough so that some people you know, will will baptize infants who aren't making a commitment to try to better themselves in a spiritual way. So how did we get back to…it feels like a new version of a ritual cleansing, but a one time ultimate cleansing? How did we get back to that because what you were describing doesn't seem to match what many denominations do today.

Alexander John Shaia 34:29

So just to further understand the early origins of baptism baptism has a series of moments in it which could go over two or three years. But from the first moment of baptism, which is you make a profession to be a follower of Jesus, that begins the process to two years later when you have shown evidence that you know the practices and you know your talent is when the waters are poured, all of that baptism. And the early church called Baptism of desire as the fundamental root of the entire process, and without the baptism of desire, there was no real baptism because there's no commitment of one's heart to live in a certain way.

The early church also understood that there was no need, spiritual need, to baptize an infant. Because if the parents are truly alive and Christian, just not just nominally Christian, but if the parents are true practitioners of the tradition, the child is bone of bone, blood of blood, flesh of flesh, and spirit of spirit. So the church would baptize the child not because they were concerned about where the child was going to go if they died. But recognizing that the child of two people who are truly practicing Christians can be nothing but…now they can make their own decisions when they grow up. But if your household is steeped in the ways of the Christian tradition, that child is going to be given Christianity in the same way that you've given the child its DNA. So there was no sense in the early church of, quote unquote, “original sin”, and concern about where the child was going if the child died. There was the reality that a child born to Christian parents is Christian in the womb.

Seth Price 36:54

Huh. So I might be stretching this way too far. But I saw a joke the other day about John Piper and Abraham Piper. I don't know if you're familiar with either of those. So John Piper is a, I want to put this very plainly, a horrible, non loving person from everything that I can see. Like he just seems to intentionally spew hate and use the Bible as a sacred weapon. His son, he excommunicated from his own church, because his son has expressed doubts. And he walked away and said Dad I'll come back and he welcomed him back which great, and then he walked away again. And so someone the other day, it said, but how do we then deal with this section in Titus that says to be an elder or a leader in the church, your kids have to be showing fruit or you can't be an elder or a leader because what are you doing? And to hear you explain baptism in that way almost feels and maybe I'm reverse Litmus testing this in of we can see what the children are doing later this kid doesn't seem to be doing what we would expect. So I wonder if the parents were actually what we thought? Maybe I'm stretching that in ways it isn't intended to be just because the joke is still in my head. Maybe I'm not. Maybe I am, I don't know.

Alexander John Shaia 38:05

Well, I mean, I do think you're stretching it in a way it's not intended to be (Seth laughs). And I have to honestly say that that's my hope. What I think we miss is that Christianity in those first two centuries is a maelstrom trying to become this tradition which welcomes everyone. And the polemic is not so much about pagans, the polemic is about people who believe that they have the only way to God, which every pagan tradition believed. They were not traditions, at that point in their history, where they were welcoming converts. If you belonged to a tradition of your village, or if you were a worshiper of Dionysus, etc, they saw their god or goddess as having limited powers. Why the heck am I going to ask my god or goddess to be your god or goddess that's gonna diminish what they have for me. And when we're trying to form a new way of understanding God, which is a God of abundance, a God of generosity, a Got of inclusion there's a horrible anguish about norming this new experience.

Seth Price 39:34

I did not know that about scarcity of power for like a diocese did not know that at all. So I didn't interrupt there just now.

Alexander John Shaia 39:42

Yes! I mean, why is Paul inveying so heavily against pagans? It's because of their tribalism. The great hallmark of Jesus Christ is this understanding that all people are brother and sister Which Judaism has, which Hinduism had to some degree at that point. Nobody, nobody, had yet gone to the next step, which is to say, and we've got a room where all that world's diversity can sit with each other as brother and sister. That's just folly to think that we can move from separate but equal to equal around a common table.

Seth Price 40:34

Separate but equal, made my mind spent in a different way, trying to figure out a way to 14th amendment scripture of all humans equal and just under the law. I'm not saying that right. I can't remember what the either way, I'm stretching that again, in ways probably unintended.

Alexander John Shaia 40:52

I mean, I love my Jewish brothers and sisters. If I were not Christian, I would be Jewish. And I totally admire the sense of how they understand the equality of all people before God. But Judaism is not quote unquote, evangelical in the sense of wanting people to join them.

Seth Price 41:16

Yeah, yeah, there's no proselytizing.

Alexander John Shaia 41:21

Right. Yeah. Which Christianity is one of the first quote unquote proselytizing traditions, because we understand that all humanity can sit together as brother and sister. But it can't just be an idea. It's got to be a practice that we learn how to do. And that was an essential part of the long preparation of baptism.

Seth Price 41:51

I want to shift gears…

Alexander John Shaia 41:54

…which…no..

Seth Price 41:55

Well, no, go ahead. No, no, no, which was…

Alexander John Shaia 41:56

Which I think is the piece of Christianity that we have lost today. We have lost the ability about how to hold diversity of ideology, diversity of theology, diversity of socio-economic condition, diversities of sexual orientation, etc. And we are trying to make churches that are ideologically the same. Rather than saying we are the place where diversity can learn to be brother and sister.

Seth Price 42:31

Yeah, I'm glad that you kept going. Yes, yes. Amen. 100% of that, yes.

Where I was switching gears that segue so brilliantly.

So same two questions. I've been asking everyone for the bulk of this year. The first one is just a play on the rhetorical question of the name of the show, because why not? (Alexander chuckles) What should Christians humans, not necessarily ministers, be concerned with being able to speak about in our congregational bodies? And if we don't we’ll just explode faith communities? What should we be allowed to talk about? Or should we be intentionally talking about in our churches?

Alexander John Shaia 43:10

We should talk about anything as long as we can learn how to talk about it with respect. I'm very sad to say that I think that this is a core Christian practice, but I didn't learn it in Christianity, I learned it in psychology, I learned it in sitting with men's groups, etc. That when you're sitting in a men's group, and there's a great amount of disagreement and tension that comes into the room of what's being discussed, the facilitator will ask us to go out and chop wood together, or chant, or drum, or do something that allows us to hold the energy and see each other as brothers. And then we come back in to the discussion and discovered the discussion has gone to a deeper level. That we don't…in the men's group, and this is utterly, utterly foundational to Christian community, that we do not try to resolve it by giving a right answer we try to resolve it by the community finding a way to harmonize diversity.

Seth Price 44:25

With axes, you want to take tension and let people chop wood with axes I'm just playing a little bit. Everybody's heightened and anxious. Let's give them all axes. Now I'm teasing a bit but it makes me laugh. Yeah. I've realized I've been waiting to ask you this question in a recorded way for years now that I get to ask you. So when you try to wrap words around what God is, what do you say to that?

Alexander John Shaia 44:58

I'm gonna paraphrase Rob bell on this one. He really said it to me the best that I found the way to say it is that God is the hum, or the melody, that's going on in every cell of the cosmos. And that hum, or that melody, that's going on in every cell of the cosmos. It's in the cosmos, but it's transcended there is a reality that the hum refers to.

Seth Price 45:32

I heard someone recently give an answer to that question with inadvertently. It's an old YouTube interview of I think it's Conan O'Brien, or maybe Stephen Colbert, and Keanu Reeves of all people. And they got existential about John Wick, which is a movie I don't know if you've watched any of those or not. I've only watched the first one. But he asked him what happens when we die. And all Keanu Reeves said was,

I don't know. But I know that the people that love us miss us tremendously.

And for some reason that feels godly to me, like it feels divine. The hum kind of calls that same memory to my mind, where do you want people to go to do the things that they should be doing as it relates to the work that you're doing?

Alexander John Shaia 46:14

Great question. So in the last year and a half, over this time of pandemic, we have really tighten and refined and made radiant the process of heart and mind community, which is about 18 months of spiritual formation, as using the book radical transformation and the paperback edition of Heart and Mind as a way to learn the spiritual practices of the map the journey, and especially how we hold diversity in a certain way, until it opens up as a vibrant part of us.

Seth Price 46:55

How do people do that?

Alexander John Shaia 46:56

Go to our website quadratos.com. And then up in the right hand corner, you'll see a tab that says communities click on communities. And then you will see Heart and mind Community. You'll also see walking Spain's Camino there, all the various spiritual practices that you can be part of, to learn and to reform and to make more vital today-a new form of Christianity.

Seth Price 47:29

Yeah, I've realized. So for those listening, I'll link it somewhere that may have been the last time that we spoke. So I was involved in a heart and mind community that I had done online, just because of everybody being geographically spread out across the continent. And I remember the four of us, me, you, Darrell, Danielle, and Jim, the five of us having a conversation about the impact of being in that community. So for those listening, if you kind of want to hear a biased view of what it was for me, you should go back and listen to that one. Alexander it is always a joy.

Alexander John Shaia 48:00

I mean…I really want people to know there's a map. And knowing the map is not the same thing as walking it but dadgummit gamut. I don't want to go on a journey without a map. And then, and then secondly, there are some key early Christian practices which we can restore today, which will open Christianity’s radiant heart as it’s intended to be. And if any of that touches you, please go to the website, look at what we're doing. Find it through us find it somewhere. But Christianity is in better shape today than it's been in a couple of 100 years. And it's only going to get better.

Seth Price 48:37

My friend, I have enjoyed your time. My morning, your afternoon. Very much. So thank you so much for coming back. Appreciate it.

Alexander John Shaia 48:45

Yes. Always Seth, thank you.

Seth Price 49:05

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Room at the Table with Suzie Lahoud, Sy Hoekstra, and Jonathan Walton / Transcript

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Sy Hoekstra 0:07

We don't want to just hear from the same exact voices about race, right? Like if you know, for instance, people will tell you we’re talking about race, they want you to just preach the gospel. And you ask them who best to defines the gospel and they're gonna give you a bunch of people who own slaves. Right? And like, I don't… you know, if the gospel didn't stop Jonathan Edwards or George Whitfield from doing the things that they did, then there's something enormous missing there. Right? And also, if you actually want to engage with the entire church and genuinely be in communion with brothers and sisters of all different backgrounds, like I'm not going to sit down with Jonathan and be like, “Jonathan, let's learn about the gospel” from somebody who would have been genuinely okay with me owning you as property. Like that's absurd! We're not doing that! Right. So we're starting from the perspective of not what is the norm; oftentimes in America, we're going to take more seriously than anything else the people who are most affected by the problems that we've created, because they're going to best understand those problems. And they're going to be the ones who are best going to help you move away from them.

Seth Price 1:24

This is the first week that is back to back new episodes since the summer kind of hiatus happened. And I'm slightly nervous that I'm out of a rhythm. But I'm also excited to do new content. As we close out and begin the autumn and fall or summer. I don't actually know what time of the year it is. So yeah, I'm not going to do the normal, huge, long intro because I just really am excited for this conversation to happen. So I had sigh, Jonathan and Susie, who were on the show, gosh, right before the election happened, like October maybe of 2020. And it was a good conversation, and I have stayed in contact with them. followed their work. And they're doing some big things and so brought them back on. We have a much deeper conversation. Laugh a whole lot. Poke a little bit of fun at some people, mostly me. But yeah, I think you're gonna enjoy this. Here we go to overtake dogs toxic? Betty americanas. piece we recording separately. Do you want to record separately?

Jonathan W 2:49

No, I just I just knew I went away. And I didn't know if y'all had like decided something.

Seth Price 2:52

But we also decided that you were editing Jonathan.

Jonathan W 2:56

Gotta do what you got to do. Go up just like this. edited the text to post it?

Seth Price 3:08

Oh, goodness, no, I'll edit it. Why not? appreciate it? All right, here we go. sigh Susie, Jonathan, I'm not going to do last names because you're returning people returning humans. So welcome back to the show. How are the three of you? Great. Thanks

Sy Hoekstra 3:25

so much for having us.

Jonathan W 3:26

Yes. Again, for letting us be here. Yeah, good. excited to have this conversation.

Seth Price 3:31

So it's been, I just asked, and Jonathan did the math for the banker. It's been many months. Since Joe are on the show. I think the last time you were on. Everyone had written in a book. It had been a thing. And I will say I've heard conversations around the book. One of my good friends likes to reference articles from the book articles. That's writings. That thoughts are I don't know what the word is. More articles, essays. Yeah. All those words on the pages, he will reference back. And so yeah, definitely that. So what is new for each of the three of you? Because it's a new year. That's the same year but a new year. Why not?

Sy Hoekstra 4:12

We are so so we when we put out the book, our our Anthology, it was but for the listeners who didn't listen, last Monday's anthology about basically a lot of Christians writing about why they weren't voting for Donald Trump and the route to the last election. And so we made a little company just an LLC to for the purposes of publishing the book, and now we're doing other stuff. So we basically turned it into like a small media company. So we do have other books that we're planning to publish. We're very excited about some of them, but we are not quite at the point where we can say anything about like who who they are what we're doing yet, but we're very excited about some of those and then we also have a blog that consists like a weekly newsletter. And have some writing from the three of us, and hopefully some other people in future, and a weekly podcast that we're doing called shake the dust and all of it is kind of under the umbrella of leaving colonized faith for the kingdom of God and centering and elevating marginalized voices, those are kind of the big hitters that we're doing everything under.

Jonathan W 5:21

Yeah, I think coming off coming off the election, the reality that this is not going away, became very present and real for us, and I think became present and real for everybody post January sixth. And, you know, the continued election audits and things like that, that things are not going away. And I think for me, you know, joining up with science, Susie was probably like, just a gift during the pandemic, and post pandemic life, because I do not, didn't have a group of people to kind of lock arms with to engage in a sustainable, long term way to forge a new path towards liberation. Right? To say like, we are going to create a different collective story. And having studied I think we talked about this last time I was on, like, having studied Jerry Falwell and studied Billy Graham, and how the formation of the religious right, like if there's going to be resistance towards idolatry, it has to be just as organized and just as rigorous and just as expansive, if not more. And so I hope that ktf Press can be that like through the podcast, through the blog, through the books that we publish, there'll be a new universe of Google terms that come up when people search for Christians in America, the bursting that algorithm with some light as opposed to the nonsense that comes up now. Yeah,

Suzi Lahoud 6:55

I would say going after that there was definitely this massive push to get the anthology out, it was definitely a sprint, and kind of got that done in record time. But this is sort of a thing, you know, we need to be in this for the long haul, you can't just address these things with one book over a three month period, you really need to be willing to dig in and do the work in the long term. And then yeah, just adding to story. I mean, a lot of life has happened for the three of us. Since then, all three of us have moved. We've gone through all kinds of things with our kids. And I'm expecting another one in October. So it's a lot of stuff that we've been through just as friends and we kind of came to this realization that one there's just a lot of synergy and shared passion there. And to like Jonathan was saying it's been really life giving to have this fellowship we have for our meetings once a week, and we can't stop we have with each other like

Seth Price 7:49

yeah, for In addition, wait, wait, you have one for our meeting? Or for one our meetings. We have one for our meeting.

Sy Hoekstra 8:02

Guys, if it's for hours, and I haven't been noticing, I believe I know is our cutoff time is regularly at midnight. Yeah. So it's kinda like guys, I need to go to bed now. Yeah, and I send immediate text after the call.

Suzi Lahoud 8:22

But it's because it's where you know, we're talking business. But then we're also just sharing about what's going on in our lives and what's going on in the world and what's hard and what needs to be lamented. And, and so yeah, that's been really cool. So we're excited to share some of that with folks through the podcast through the newsletter and the blog and the other stuff we're doing.

Seth Price 8:41

Yeah, well, congrats on the upcoming baby. That's big. I have three humans are great, when they're not frustrating, but um, but yeah, that's, that's good. I want to lean in on that. So the three of you started a podcast, I don't have many other podcasters on but I'm curious, what did you think that that would look like? And what does it actually look like?

Jonathan W 9:02

See good question. I thought that it would look like more of us sharing about our journeys, in retrospect. But what is really pressed me is being willing and able to explore how other people's journeys are going to influence me and change my life. So like, if I'm I mean, I did not know having a conversation with with samosa levy was going to push against, like things that I thought about human rights and even global evangelicalism. Like I didn't know that like, sitting down and listening to my friends like Gabrielle and Milly, who are, you know, pastors and human rights lawyers like respectively, like, would would just not blow my mind but like, make We feel incredibly humbled and proud to be their friends. You know, like I am being changed by the work that we're doing. And I think that was something that I'm grateful for. But was was unexpected. You know,

Seth Price 10:14

what about the other two of you anything that you were expecting in your life that I didn't know, besides for our meetings, which, again, is ridiculous. I work at a bank, and I don't have four hour meetings.

Sy Hoekstra 10:28

It's not the real number, I run record and I run to banks, and I don't I'm gonna claim pregnancy brain, even three hours is ridiculous.

Seth Price 10:40

Like, that's a whole Lord of the Rings movie, like, like, that's, that's Interstellar with all of the credits. Like

Sy Hoekstra 10:52

I would say a big unexpected thing for me. But I mean, six months, I've stopped practicing law, I was doing that six months ago. And now I'm, you know, all into audio stuff. Like I've learned a whole new realm, I had no idea how to run a podcast before before we looked into this. And it's, it's actually been a lot of fun, I really enjoyed it. And just finding something for me, I think that is, like very personally fulfilling. And it's something that I actually kind of enjoyed doing on a day to day basis, that was experiences. But I've always kind of had a passion for, like, trying to help people live, I think with more integrity in their faith, like really trying to find ways in which their their faith did not like it kind of isn't, isn't actually lining up with the things that Jesus says and asked us to do. And unfortunately, a lot of places that you can do that in the kind of church in society that we have today. And I very much agree with Jonathan to that. It's It's making me like kind of articulate and think about things in in much more like focused and concentrated ways. And I think just making me better at explaining kind of my faith and my, my relationship with God, really, and understanding how that works, and actually drawing closer to God in the process.

Suzi Lahoud 12:19

Yeah, and shout out to site site has been phenomenal. He really has become, I feel like an expert in such a short period of time. And I was talking to my husband about the podcast, and he's like, wow, you're getting really excited about this. And I was like, Yeah, I mean, it's exciting, because psi is doing such a phenomenal job. Like it sounds legit. So that's been that's been cool to just, you know, hand over this, this fantastic content with all the amazing guests we've been able to have, and then let him do his thing. That's been such a blessing. And yeah, I think I didn't realize how much the stories and the testimonies and the witness of the people that we've had on the show would really become interwoven into the fabric of my life. Like, I feel like I'm referencing these conversations all the time that they're becoming seminal conversations, in my own walk. And yeah, I didn't, I didn't expect that. And even a specific example, I remember the day that we recorded with Reverend Dr. Lamar Hardwick. And we've been really excited to have him on the show. And he's been going through this difficult journey in his battle with cancer. And thankfully, he recently had a successful surgery. But yeah, he's been going through a lot and his book on disability in the church is so profound. And that ended up being a day that I was dealing with some really scary things with my pregnancy. And we came on and had this conversation just about what it means to be human and, and aspects of God and who he is. And his, the fact that he is, as as Reverend Hardwick puts it disabled because of what Christ went through on the cross. And those wounds are still there. And, and I came out of that conversation to say, I'm so deeply impacted, because I was dealing with the limitations of my own humanity and the fear that comes with that, and wanting to just deny that. And so yeah, it's been it's been transformative on a personal level in a way that I could not have anticipated.

Seth Price 14:19

I would echo all of that. I won't add much more to that because, but yeah, absolutely. I often find myself referencing back conversations that I've had many, many times and then I'm also always terrified that when I say things and like, that doesn't sound like my words. And then I'm like those not my words, but I've made them part of the way that like I see the world and I'm like, so maybe now they are my we're all just plagiarizing one another anyway. So yeah, one of you I don't know whom but as the I just stay with you so when y'all are talking about like one of the goals of ktf more as a press and is with the podcast and with everything else is to discuss like issues in and around, like surrounded with colonized faith. And I think that that word colonized gets thrown around quite a bit, especially like on Twitter, not as much on Facebook, at least maybe not with my friends, but definitely on Twitter, like, what is that? And how are you kind of going about it?

Suzi Lahoud 15:16

Yeah, so decolonizing your faith, it's, and I actually heard this on our on a recent podcast, Brandy Miller's podcast, reclaiming my theology, she had a guest that was talking about this, and some other academic, more academic theologians will make this distinction where a lot of folks are talking about deconstruction, but that's a little bit. decolonization is distinct in that it's, it is seriously looking at this colonial project that took place historically, where you have all of this, you know, theology coming out of Europe, and it's loaded with the racism, and patriarchy and economic exploitation that was wrapped up in the colonial project. And so that ended up infiltrating our faith in the way that we see God and the way that we think that we're supposed to follow Christ, and that still, in many ways, the dispensation that we're dealing with today, theologically, and so it's, it's about getting to the root of those ideas, and figuring out how do we extricate that, so that we can go back to the Jesus of Nazareth. And again, emphasizing you know, the tagline for our podcast is leaving colonized face for the kingdom of God, because there should be a destination there, you know, the point is not to just leave people out in the desert and be like, well, this stuff is stuff is garbage, and we're just gonna drop you off here. But But really, it is about coming to a place of, of greater intimacy with who Christ actually is, and what he actually taught. That is apart from what, you know, these colonial European, primarily white male philosophers and theologians have handed down to us and so yeah, so that's kind of what that that's about,

Jonathan W 17:06

can you check on this, like, you know, drill down, it's, it's a faith like a calling us faith, the faith that is comfortable with power and making people conform to that power? And I think it's a faith that is it's comfortable with racism and patriarchy and exploitative economic systems that you know, that Suzy just named, and then it makes those things necessary to engage with

Sy Hoekstra 17:28

Yeah, actually supports them isn't just comfortable with them.

Jonathan W 17:31

Yeah, like, and then I think, you know, there's almost what's happening now and I'm writing an essay about this is that they're, they're inextricably linked together. Right? And so, um, this is not a my notes, but I'm going to talk about a little bit like, essentially, what I think is that colonists faith, what you end up having happen as you there are custodians of colonialism, which is like by women and bipoc people who are pursuing whiteness. So we actually become people who enforce systems of patriarchy, and systems of abuse and violence and economic systems and structures. And we enforce like cultural hegemony, that is like we adopt the racism and the colorism in the supremacy as well, right. And then you have people who are the custodians like like us, that's not my word. That's another scholar. But, um, we become custodians of the colony, through implementing the systems and structures. And then there are the people who actually embody what Willie Jennings called, like the patch of familia, it's like the white male, self sufficient owner of things. And so we're all pursuing that ideal. And then the dominant culture like then gets to make that a holy thing. And that's where I think the colonizer joins the faith. And then this is supposedly God ordained. And I think that that's when it becomes destructive and eternal. And I think that's the thing that that it doesn't die with a person like it gets passed on, you know, in some praying that we could be a part of, not just a deconstruction, that that Susie said that brandy broke down so well on her podcast, but also the explicit decolonization I think

Seth Price 19:23

the history of civilization is littered with things that got her drained. are the things that we mistakenly thought that God ordained. Yeah, right. Yeah. Yeah. So what you were saying I don't know if it was either uses your job or you Jonathan but there's a there's a lyric in a song that I don't think is actually out yet. I don't actually care but I'm gonna read you the lyric. Because the guy writes music in a way that like literally like, rips at my heart and the best and the worst way so he's writing a song about like, what the church is telling people. Like, hey, we see you but you can't stay here. Like You gotta leave because you know, we got a budget. So like it reaches out from a bunch of different sections. But there's a part in here and it's about a girl named Jane. He says it says that Jane was born with a skin darker than her peers spent a cycle telling them the reason for her fears, no one seemed to know or care about the past. And then they showed her where they stood with every vote they cast, which then leads into the chorus it says, you know, then they said, Jane, thanks for your time. But there's just no room here for you when there's power on the line. And we know you're hurting, but we're not listening. We should help you out. But we don't really have that kind of time. So go work harder, and you'll be all fine. But you must go. Like, for some reason, when you said power, like, that's like, Hey, we heard you, we see you hurting? Whatever it is. But you can't stay here like, Yeah, right. You can't be in here.

Sy Hoekstra 20:54

I mean, tie a couple of things that that the other two said together. We had Lamar Hardwick on like Suzy was, was saying he was an autistic pastor who's a disability advocate. And, you know, he talked about how, basically, capitalism colonialism created this situation for black people, where they needed to understand that they understood that the point of them being in America was to produce and so they needed bodies to produce. So when they were disabled black people, they would have, you know, there's there's this whole kind of cultural like inheritance of having to hide that effect, because of like the cruelty that would come toward slaves who were disabled, because they weren't producing for the capitalist system. And then he would talk about how in his church and a lot of the churches that he talks to when he talks about how you do disability ministry, you know, one of the main questions is, like, what's going to be the return on investment, because this is expensive, right. And so he pulls out like the parable of the banquet from the Gospels and talking about who you should be concerned with and who you're, you know, that the people who you invite to your table shouldn't be the powerful shouldn't be the people who are just going to be able to repay you with the same money in the same honor as it should be the people who cost you something and like so. So just kind of, I think that's just one example of how we're trying to undo that and trying to get people to listen to people who are undoing that exact thing. That's that's put in that song. And I really want to hear that song comes out, let

Seth Price 22:20

me know, I'll ask him, maybe I'll send it to you. Actually, I'll send you a link. So I actually had him on the show last night, like I hosted, like a live zoom meeting. And he like played, he played the whole EP for whoever happened to show up. I'll send you the YouTube link. Yeah. I mean, it's, it's it's not like you're there in person, because again, he's singing through zoom. But it's still like this anyways. Yeah, like, I don't know, I, we didn't come here to talk about that album. But we could, but we won't. is one of those albums that when I heard it, like, there's so much in there that I'm like, Yeah, I know, people that have said that exact same thing to me in a podcast, because they felt safe to say it. And, you know, anyway. So I really am upset that you won't tell me who the authors are and what you're doing. But I do want to know what they're speaking about. Like, so what are some of the subjects that you'll plan to publish on? And like, what direction is that going in? The reason I ask is, I don't know how to say so. Like, literally, I watched the news today, while I was playing baseball with my kids in between, you know, we're practicing, you know, batting and whatnot. So they don't forget how to play by the time next spring comes. And I see that Mitch McConnell has been a jerk again, and basically said, Sorry, we don't care about voting rights for people. And then I see so many of my friends from the church being like, yes, that's what we stand for. We did it. So like, that's got to stop. And I don't know if this is really what you're tackling. But it reminds me so much of what we were all writing against in the book that was published last year. So what are some of the themes and topics that you hope ktf can kind of bring into the forefront so that people can really get upset as they wrestle with them? Because honestly, I think that that anks is part of the conversation. Maybe I'm wrong, at least it is for me.

Suzi Lahoud 24:05

Do you want to go ahead? Oh, sure. I'll jump in and then feel free to add on. Yeah, I mean, one thing we've been discussing, we do feel like a part of what we're trying to do is is promote I'm gonna use the term political literacy, but just because I know a lot of folks have been talking about religious literacy in the past decade or so, and and how we need to understand, you know, other faiths and what they believe in. And in this in a similar way, I feel like white evangelicals in the United States, we need a new dispensation in terms of how we engage on a policy level, and and a new way of understanding how our faith informs our politic. And of course, that was, you know, what the original anthology was all about. That's what you folks were writing about. And so this is continuation of that in a lot of ways, I would say, especially with the newsletter, where we're trying to help people engage with different sources outside of maybe what they're used to engaging with. And so some of it is pointing for folks towards explicitly Christian resources. And some of it, it's pointing folks towards other resources that aren't explicitly Christian. But how do we be in the world but not of it in a way that's not us just existing in our own little bubble? that historically has been a segregated bubble, where we're only engaging with people who looked like us who think like us? And, and that's so dangerous. And so, yeah, again, I would point folks to the newsletter for that piece. But then, of course, the the book projects that we're going to be working on, we'll be touching on that as well. And then, yeah, the podcast. I mean, this past week's episode, we interviewed sighs wife, whose was previously an immigration rights lawyer now works at NYU law, and someone who contributed to the anthology as a DACA. recipient, and just engaging with their both their personal and professional stories. And hearing from them, I think it's so important for folks to hear about these issues through story, because that's really how we will connect and be able to cross these divides and bridge these divides. And even just understand that that needs to happen. Because I think sometimes we bugs don't even know that we need to, we don't even know we're in a bubble. And we were discussing this too, we recently got to sit down with Professor Do you may the author of Jesus and john wayne, and she talks about the evangelical consumer culture that developed and that again, that's like, that's the hive that we're in. And so so we're kind of trying to push the the walls of that outward.

Sy Hoekstra 26:59

Yeah, I mean, in terms of subjects, we're, we're kind of, we're covering so many different things, because I think, like the, just in general, the kind of colonial theology that we're talking about touches on so many different issues, but like we've gone, you know, we had ritual loaders, talking about like anti racist pastoring, and emotional health and Sandra Meir van opstal, talking about, you know, issues that women of color have, as leaders in the church and we had pastor Hardwick talking about disability and we had, you know, the Lutz's, he was just talking about immigration, like, we're trying to go at a lot of different things, but from an angle where we want to take that seriously, we want to take more seriously than any other perspective, the perspective of the people who are actually being affected by the issues, the like, the the oppression, the ways that things are happening, the discrimination that's happening out there, right, so so we don't want to just hear from the same exact voices about race, right? Like if you know, for instance, people will tell you, you're trying to raise, they want you to just preach the gospel, and you ask them who best defines the gospel, they're gonna give you a bunch of people who own slaves, right. And like, I don't, that, you know, if the gospel didn't stop Jonathan Edwards or George Whitfield, from doing the things that they did, then I that's, that's not there's something enormous missing there. Right. And and also, if you actually want to engage with the entire church and genuinely be in communion with brothers and sisters of all different backgrounds, like I'm not going to sit down with Jonathan and be like, Jonathan, let's learn about the gospel from somebody who would have been genuinely okay with me owning us property. Like that's absurd. We're not doing that. Right. So we're starting from the perspective of not what is the norm, oftentimes in America, we're going to take more seriously than anything else. The people who are most affected by the problems that we've created, because they're going to best understand those problems. And they're going to be the ones who are best going to help you move away from them.

Jonathan W 28:56

Yeah, I think the podcast and the newsletter, I think, speak to that mitch mcconnell moment that you're talking about where you're like, so here's an example like a resource I want to post this week. And I've had like, thought about for a while was the long form podcast series about the voting rights in North Carolina, where the only actual strategize, voting fraud that is happening is net estates was perpetuated by the republican party in North Carolina. Like that's what it was, it actually wasn't democrats or people of color at all, like it was a political machine run by the religious right in North Carolina. Right. And so, but that's not the story that's out there. Right. But like that's going to be a newsletter. Because if we're going to have a conversation, we need to center and elevate the people who are actually doing that journalism. Right. And so I think the newsletter and the podcast kind of get at those like, oh, like, what's that thing we're talking about with policing? What's Oh, we're gonna talk about NPR through Live podcast from like, a couple months ago. They're like, laid it out. Right. And I think The books like particularly the two that are coming. I'm trying not to like slip the tackle. That's why size editing, right. But like, larger forms of systemic oppression that we could apply to today. So like, the Yeah, I'll stop because I don't want to say that. But you're just like with the anthology, the anthology you can pick up in five and 10 years, it'll still be applicable. And that's what books need to be, you know, and so that's these these next two books. Yeah, at least will be really I'm, I'm angry that that's I honestly,

Seth Price 30:43

I think that that's true. I think it's true heart that it said something like, I hate that my books are bestsellers, like this is stupid, like this should not in 15 years, these books should become obsolete. Like, Oh, look, we we learned our lesson. And that's, as I don't like that I agree with you that the anthology will still be relevant. It shouldn't be. So I don't I don't know. Okay, it's that time, you can try to fast forward. We'll see. Lord knows, maybe you'll get it right. Maybe you won't, and then you can rewind it 1015 seconds, it's going to be fine. But it's time to do the things. I'll be right back. I am curious, though, and I want to lean on that word that Suzy said. And any one of you can answer this. So you know, in the in the definition of dispensation, you know, likely that's a new system of order a new system of government, or a new system of church or a new system of how the you know, the way that we read the Bible? How do we pivot to a new dispensation, which I like that thought and I think that that's accurate, without becoming another version of fundamentalist on the opposite, like side of the coin, or just a new coin newly minted, freshly looked, and then we're like, Yeah, but you know, and we other people in the opposite way.

Sy Hoekstra 32:01

I'll be real brief on this and then leave the other two I and part of it is actually what we part of what we just said is the answer to this question, and I'll explain why. So like, white evangelicals and white, white Christians in America period have spent for ever like a century now dealing with this like split that if you grew up in a white church, you may have heard of between like fundamentalists, and modernists, or or or evangelicals in the social gospel, or whatever, people who care more about things that are politically on the left. People care about, you know, it's a political split. It's a theological split, it affects other people, because anything that like white people do, and because Christians affect other Christians, but it didn't actually happen in other churches, right. So like, with Jonathan and I both went to Urbana when we were in college, and they were talking endlessly about this divide. And for me, I was like, Oh, yes, this makes so much sense of my life. And Jonathan was like, What are they talking about? idea what this doesn't matter. I've never had any issue thinking that these, you know, social justice issues are like intertwined. It's all the same, right? So part of the answer of how you you have any paradigm is you is you flip, who you're most paying attention to, because the problem, one of the problems that we're dealing with, are not popular problem that came from us and problems that everybody else has either existed outside of, or figured out solutions to. Yeah, I'll stop there, you guys.

Jonathan W 33:44

I will say yes. And even to that, I will also say on the on a personal and relational level, I think there's three things that we need to resist. And I've said them before in other places, but I think resisting the pride, particularly like generational pride, like every yojo, we're going to do this better than them right. And so we define ourselves as superior to x y&z and so I think if we position ourselves as perpetual learners and pursuers of righteousness, and justice and the gospel and the Kingdom of God, as opposed to people who have gotten it, right, then we, and that and that I think gets at the consumer as part of it, right? Like, we all want to produce something that can be consumed by lots of people, right, as opposed to experience something that's worth sharing with others who are willing to listen. Right? And so I think resisting pride, and then resisting narcissism, like just being a self referencing group of people like the answer to one echo chamber is not another echo chamber, right? That are like you know, superseding another echo chamber like you know, like if cnn eight Fox News, we still have a problem, right? And so And vice versa for people who want to watch fox. The reality is like we have to create a new thing, which is why, you know, Willie Jennings like his book, Krishna imagination, other resources that I hope we, you know, can contribute to create new paradigms for leading, because leading does not include cook like just destroying those who disagree with you and creating this new system. Like this is not this is not what we're trying to do. That's what colonization does. Nothing, it's hard for people not to imagine leading differently. But I do think Jesus offers models for that and other cultures offer models for that in ways that are inherently de colonial in nature.

Suzi Lahoud 35:50

Yeah, and I'll add to that, just by referencing two of our podcast conversations explained earlier, I'm now want to do when we spoke to pastor Sander Maria van opstal, she talked about this scarcity mentality that is also downstream of white supremacy and, and the kind of colonized faith that we're trying to get away from. And, and so we're really trying to embrace this theology of so disclaimer, this is something I wrote my master's theses on but a theology of hospitality. So so how do we add more leaves to the table? How do we welcome more people into this space, as opposed to saying, you know, I'm going to be the new the new main voice, I'm going to be the new demagogue or whatever, it's, it's more how can we add more people to the conversation? And and I'm not going to deny that that danger that you referenced, isn't there? I mean, believe me, that's what keeps me up at night, among other things, but um, I gotta like keeping me up at night right now and more to come. But that's definitely one of them. So I think that's, you know, something that we are cognizant of, and need to be cognizant of. But I think part of it is, is again, having that moving away from the scarcity mentality that we need more voices at the table. And I think size answer was so great. And just an example of that went with the recent flare up and violence between Israel and Hamas, we were able to have Reverend Dr. month at Isaac on our podcast, which is such a privilege. And he's speaking as a Palestinian theologian, the Dean of Bethlehem Bible college. And so we're hearing some deep Palestinian theology, we're seeing the Bible through Palestinian eyes. And so those are the kinds of, again marginalized voices that we want to bring to the fore. Because there's so much that we have to learn we are we are so far behind when it comes to listening to our brothers and sisters all over the world. Because against I gave such a great example. But a lot of the issues that we're dealing with that we're like, oh, the church is dealing with this issue. Well, no, the white Evangelical Church is dealing with these issues. Yeah, a lot of other Christians in other places in the world aren't dealing with this. Not that any church is perfect in any part of the world. But, but again, we have a lot to learn. And we haven't done a very good job of listening. Since American has been the imperial power that it is.

Seth Price 38:16

Yeah, yeah. Just to piggyback on what you said, like a white, like the white Western church. So the reason I ask is like, so I was talking with a friend at work, and he's like, I don't understand he happens to be Muslim. And he's like, I don't understand why everybody cares about the Southern Baptist Convention, and tried to explain I was like, it's because they basically run the publishing industry for 80% of what most of the North American church consumes, because those are the books that are in the LifeWay Christian bookstores. Like like so what they vote on whether or not your Southern Baptist ends up being the crap that's in your like, in your life into You can't escape it. He's like, Oh, that. And then he tried to tell me why I should just do the cron instead. Because you know, and we went on a different tangent. And that was fun. We talked for hours. I love talking with him about the Quran. I love it is one of my favorite things to do. So, like six months from now, you're all hyper professional. podcasters. Right. Like, like you're making six figures podcasting, because that's why we all do this. Everybody is aware of that. The way you publish make the big bucks. Yeah, yeah. I I've talked to many authors. And I don't think that that is I think everyone loses money except for like four authors. I think that's that's the rule. Yeah, exactly. Yeah. Yeah. One of my one of my friends like he literally published his book, but then he's like, yeah, I gotta go do my actual job. But he just writes because he can't stop writing. He just enjoys writing. Yeah. If you could hang it up in six months, not saying that you should. Like what does that look like? Like, what is it y'all growing? Or is it people listening and then taking that whether or not you know it and growing Is it watching certain denominational shifts come about because of conversations that maybe people are hearing? Like, what does that look like? As you're like, yeah, this is where I'd like to be. Six months is arbitrary. You call it six years? I don't actually care.

Jonathan W 40:15

Thanks. Master knows Christmas?

Seth Price 40:18

I don't know, is it? It is almost six months in three days. You know what? I don't? Christmas stresses me out. Let's say January. is a good question. It is Yeah. I feel like Oh, go ahead.

Jonathan W 40:37

Really fast. I said three things before and only said two. So the third thing is hurry. And so I think, I don't know. I think we need to resist the urge for things to happen quickly, and like happen now. Right? Because when, when we're prideful, which I long for us not to be prideful in what we're doing, I think we have something special to offer. And that was actually an email that we got back. Someone said, Please unsubscribe me, I'm so tired of Christians believing that they have the next best thing. That was a that was an email, we got back and said, I hope

Seth Price 41:18

you like that's not how email works. But we'll work we'll work on it for

Jonathan W 41:23

one thing. And second thing is a pride narcissism hurry. And like, if things are not different in six months, other than like, us having a number of paid subscribers so that we're able to pay marginalized voices to right. Like, that's, that's what I would want to be different in six months, if everything else stayed the same. Like, you know, we made our we made the podcast, we had our publishing contracts, and we have, you know, the office, the office that we have signed, like, I want that to be different, but how I would love it, if in six months, we were paying writers from marginalized communities to write I would love that, like, and that just takes subscribers, but but we already have the writers is that that would that would be? I think that'd be amazing. We're able to do that.

Sy Hoekstra 42:12

Yeah, Susie, you had some good.

Suzi Lahoud 42:16

I mean, this is an incomplete answer. But just thinking it's been neat, we've gotten one or two. Also emails that have been just really nice. I don't want to go into details just for the sake of these folks privacy, but just responses that that something that we put out really touched them in a really deep way that made them feel like they again, they they can have a seat at the table that there's room for them at the table. And, and that is what you want to see. That's what you want to hear. And so just seeing more of that, you know, not that folks need to come and tell us that we can feel good about ourselves. But I hope and I pray that we can continue to have that kind of impact on people's lives. Yeah, not just the another email in their inbox, you know, when the newsletter goes out, or not just not another podcast in the player, but that the conversations that we're having would be deeply meaningful and transformative to people. Yeah.

Sy Hoekstra 43:18

I think part of the vision for me is just creating a space that feels really different and a little bit disorienting, but in a good way. So so like, where people are able to bring their full selves, no matter who they are, to a space where they can have like very strong convictions. But at the same time, know that we're operating in a way where we're all going to be kind of humble and reciprocal, like, we're not going to say to any part of the body, I don't need you at any anybody from any political persuasion from any you know, we're going to be clear about what we believe and say, I disagree with you on this and that I'm gonna challenge you on, on these things that you think but but yeah, just just a space that feels like when you genuinely encounter Jesus in that way, right? Because that's how he feels. It's disorienting. It's different than what you feel a lot of times just in like the production of church services or Christian consumer culture. But it's like, you know that you belong there and you know, that you're going to be heard but you also know that you're going to be like made to the here and take other people's perspectives like seriously in a way that that you just otherwise don't in the rest of your life, like Jesus always pushes you to do that pushes you to stop centering yourself, pushes you to take seriously that, you know,

Seth Price 44:41

he the way that he took seriously so many people that that everyone around him wasn't. So I've had a lot of longer existential questions, and I always end with two and we're not there yet. So I thought I would ask a more selfish question. And Jonathan it may require your help. And so for people not listening, I'm going to link right here in the title Transcript and if not, people are gonna have to Google it. The first episode in which, at the end there, Jonathan decided to eat potato chips, I believe, on on the mic. And so for those that have been listening to the show recently, I continue to be self sustaining. Not necessarily to get rich, because that's not the point. I've had to put like ads in the show. And I let that you know, be based on your browser cookies, people. So you people that email me in wondering why you're getting commercials for X, Y, or Z? It's because you're searching for it in Google. That's not a me thing. That's a youth thing. That's how the internet works. Yeah, I don't, it's got nothing to do with me. But I thought I keep wondering how to like, you know, segue into that in the middle. And so I think when we're done with this, I'm going to need you to eat some potato chips into the microphone. And that's just going to become like the audio logo for the ad break there.

Jonathan W 45:55

Okay to advertise. I had a certain ship cringy. around in my entire life. They were crunchy. When I was listening. Yeah.

Seth Price 46:09

When I was listening, I think I like 15 minutes left, and you're like, did you get this all the way at the end? I'm like, not yet. So then I fired up. I'm like you got to be I'm driving down the road. And that's in surround sound. And my car's like, You got to be kidding.

Sy Hoekstra 46:23

It's great. It's great. So not in a way, we should probably clarify, it's not in the episode, we put recording bloopers at the end of the episode.

Seth Price 46:30

You should have left it in it would have been? Yeah, because the internet doesn't forget. I don't need you to do it. I'm gonna go in there. I'm gonna steal it. And I'm just gonna put it in there and email it to you. Now I'm teasing, maybe maybe I'm teasing.

Unknown 46:51

Text later be like, so get that lays What? What happened? Yeah. So

Seth Price 46:56

I began trying to find a way to phrase this question differently. Because every time I ask it, the context gets lost. So for each of the three of you, what do you feel like congregationally, or community, the people of the church need to begin speaking about, for fear that if they don't, because they're afraid to say something in church, for being ostracized or being kicked out of a community or being judged, like the church, a part of the church will die, and like wither away, if we can't figure out a way to come and speak honestly, all of our anks and fears and anxieties, or things that we're hopeful for. Like as a body, I don't necessarily care what the pastor needs to talk to people about. I'm more cared about, what do you feel like it's important that the people begin to speak up about one thing, Seth, just one day, you're like, Listen, listen, it's um, it's not a three hour meeting. So.

Sy Hoekstra 48:07

Okay, I think a lot of the stuff that we talk about falls under the heading of divestment from privilege. So I'm trying to summarize a lot of thoughts into one big idea. My humanities degrees said, I'll see your

Seth Price 48:25

one thing, and I will make it a run on sentence.

Sy Hoekstra 48:30

Thanks. Yeah, exactly. Um, you know, one of the main things that the Bible glorifies Jesus for doing is the giving up of privilege is the emptying himself of power and glory. And there is a huge section of the American church that lives in the opposite principle, effectively, right? It lives on the amassing of power for the sake of the gospel, allegedly, right? It's, we have to so so this becomes you amass power, and you protect power, even when it's under legitimate attack from people who have been harmed by it. Because you think that you need to have that power in order for the witness to be, like, still out there for your witness to get out there for people to hear the Word of God for people to be saved. And so I think like, one of the biggest things for me would be just Jesus telling us that like, if we don't spread the gospel, like the rocks are gonna cry out a fundamental thing that I think we need to let like sink into who we are, is that we are not necessary to anything God is doing. Never, we get to participate in it, and it's a privilege. But we are just unnecessary. And that doesn't mean that we're not loved that we're not like incredibly valuable, but it does mean that protecting yourself and protecting your own power is never something that you do for the sake of the gospel. And there's like a million different ways that I would apply that probably to all different kinds of problems that we're having. But that would be one very big thing for me.

Unknown 50:09

Going through this decision indicate that she has something or you just know,

Jonathan W 50:14

I just don't. It's not together yet. I'm still rolling the dough in my head trying to get it to look right. And I can't

Suzi Lahoud 50:28

start attacking you tell me if you're ready to bake some bread? Exactly. Um, yeah, I think I'll reference again, my first master's thesis that I wrote, not because it was great, it was a mess. But because the research that I did, it impacted me so deeply. And it was the theology of, again theology of hospitality. But another way that that's been referred to is philoxenia, so love of the stranger, and, and embracing those on the margins, those who are unlike us, those who are cast aside, and so it's definitely connected to what Skye was sharing, but really, reclaiming that history. And Reverend Reverend Hardwick talked about this, too, that historically, the church, it was Christians who started the first hospitals, and, and were some of the first ones involved in, in caring for for those who are sick and those who had disabilities and, and for, you know, the poor and indigent and, and it's so tragic that I feel like in so many ways, we've lost that, that ethic that is so prevalent in the gospels in what Christ preached when he talked about the kingdom of God, you know, when he talks about the parable of the banquet, and who's invited and, and so I really want to see the church get back to that space where, you know, I referred to it as a divestment of privilege. And Jonathan talked about power, so divesting that privilege and power and realizing that where we belong, is really on the margins. And again, that those are the voices that we need to listen to not unlike, you know, I'm gonna come from here and help you. But but realizing that that that is where God is present, that's where you're going to find Christ is on the margins. And so, if we can reclaim that truth, and that form of incarnation as the body of Christ, I think we'll be in a much better place, I think, I think the other things will start to fall into place.

Seth Price 52:47

I was the egg timer. Jonathan,

Jonathan W 52:50

I want to talk to you edit this shit out. I look, I love what sciences you have said. I am just stuck on your question.

Seth Price 53:01

Why? What do you mean?

Jonathan W 53:03

So if I read Revelation 18, and then the first two verses of revelation 19, the death is not bad. And I think, you know, so revelation 18 is essentially like a eulogy

Seth Price 53:19

for by my God.

Jonathan W 53:20

First set it Yeah, against Babylon. And then Babylon is destroyed. And revelation 19 there's, you know, hallelujah, salvation and glory, there's worship after Babylon is destroyed. And so I would hope that the death of Babylon and those who worship in Babylon for the sake of the prophets who have been killed by Babylon, because in the Scriptures, it says that Praise be to God because He has avenge the blood of the profits in the blood of the profits was in Babylon, right? That destruction is not bad. It is it is just a for these systems and things to fall. My hope is that it would create an urgency for us to preach a whole gospel that liberates people from Babylon. So I think what we have to talk about is Empire, which is just power and privilege, right? And so, I don't know which theologian has said it or what popular people have said it, but like, you know, there are churches that are dead already. They would continue going Sunday and doing the things and collecting money and doing art and God is not been there for years. Right. And so I just want to be able to talk about Empire. And then the things that come in, you can't get work to be compensation and work the Emperor can be power. But I think it's just like, I don't want to sit down with another student who is going to go home and be disowned by their parents, or rejected from community for saying like, hey, every person is made in the image of God. And that includes my friend who's Jewish, even though they aren't Christian, and then includes my friend who's gay and who's not Christian. That includes my black friend, even though they want to defund the police like they like it includes like these people who you now say, are worthy of our vitriol of violence and death, even in some cases, right? In the name of Jesus, calling my my pillow guy, right? Like we have to like, if we can do that, then I would hope that like the coming death of anybody who is in Babylon and worships Babylon, would actually spur us toward evangelism, that it's brave to go into these spaces to grow up if we don't talk about it, then then death is just pending. And then I mean, Paul would say they're already dead in in transgressions and sins, right.

Sy Hoekstra 56:17

So I think implicit in what I said about us not being necessary is like, churches, denominations, you know, multiple denominator, they can all fall away. Yeah. Right. And that does not that actually doesn't have to be a bad thing, which is right, like people get hurt in the process. No question. But I mean, there's there isn't like in the work that we're doing. We're not necessarily trying to save any like institution or power structure. Right, right. We're trying to be we're trying to leave for the, you know, God, right. Like, that's what we're trying to prop up as we're trying to be ambassadors of. Yeah,

Jonathan W 56:56

yeah. And like, yeah, like, I don't want to be I don't want to lament over Babylon. I guess don't. You knows. And I think when I think like when I think about, like, I work for a campus ministry. And if I think to myself, Oh, man, like, you know, if this ministry went away, that's all right. I remember sitting down with someone, and I wanted to start a movement when I was like, This young whippersnapper leader person, when personally, and he said, Jonathan, he said, Jonathan, if you're truly working at something, you should not want to be around 15 years. Because if you're still around, then you're actually going to start trying to save your institution and stop trying to solve the problem. He said to me, and yeah, and that was hard. But I agree with it now. In that, like, Yeah, what we're doing can pass away, we'll pass away. And that's all right. Yeah. Yeah.

Seth Price 57:52

So I've asked all three of you this already, but I'm gonna do it again. Why not? I asked it when we spoke last time, and it's been long enough. And you've done enough podcast episodes that you probably have forgotten, but I haven't for each of the three of you in no particular order. If you want to wrap words around God or the divine.

Sy Hoekstra 58:11

What is that? Oh, us, Jonathan, this. I don't think you asked Susie and I this actually,

Seth Price 58:18

well, then you want to roll? You want to do it? No, I don't. I may not have I don't know. I try to ask everyone. Did you do? Okay, well, I'm sorry if I forgotten Hey, honestly, my answer from six months ago is probably different today than then. So yeah. Cuz in my answer is not relevant at the time at the moment. So what would y'all what would y'all say to them?

Sy Hoekstra 58:50

I think the thing that I come back to all the time that I have for, like, I think throughout the whole time that I've been trying to follow you This is the notion that he's the way the truth and the life. Like those those words represent a lot to me both in my personal journey, but also just because of how, like wildly all consuming they are. For a person to be the way that you follow the truth that you pursue in the life that you live. And I don't, that doesn't mean that I do that. I do that all the time, or do a burpee like, it just means to to be I mean, you talked about wrapping words around the divine, I think it's, it's something that is three things like immediately come to mind. One is like, all consuming and mysterious and a lot of ways one, but then completely the opposite of that is that it's like everywhere. It's in everything that you do the most ordinary things and the most ordinary interactions that you have with people. And then the third thing is that in a lot avoidance corrective to me, I've talked about this in the podcast before, like me personally. You know, thinking about Jesus as truth. Like Jesus does not come to us and say that the truth is a series of statements that the truth is a bunch of ideas that you assent to. He comes to us and says, I am the truth, me as a person standing in front of me is the spirit with which you interact. And the way that you have to then throw away like, often notions that I grew up with, of what constitutes truth, and reform, what constitutes truth around a person or on a living entity or on a creator is I think, probably something that I'm never going to stop trying to figure out. But I'm perfectly happy to never be able to stop trying to figure that out. And just to punctuate that there was a motorcycle.

Suzi Lahoud 1:01:07

I'm gonna start with a cliche, but hopefully redeem it. I would say, God is the the air that I breathe. And what I mean by that is, first of all, one of the most powerful things I heard when I was in seminary was a professor talking about how if we think about the Holy Spirit, we've, we really put the Holy Spirit into a box. But really, if you look in the Bible, the Holy Spirit is the Spirit of life. So wherever there is life, that's what the Holy Spirit is. That's where he's at work. And, and so in that sense, inside was kind of touching on this, you know, God is he's animating everything that that is going on around me that is in me. But then also, I have to say, you know, we spend a lot of time critiquing these different ideas, and, and again, use that word dispensation that we were for me that I was raised in, but I do have to say, specifically with my parents, they did a phenomenal job of raising me in a way that I always understood that you live and you die for Christ. At the end of the day, he is all that we have. And, and I've seen that, in my own life. And sometimes it's frustrating sometimes, you know, I'll be honest, even doing this work. I'm like, I keep getting sucked into things like this, like, why can't I just go, have a normal life have a normal job, you know, have my nine to five and, and just not care about what happens with the church and that care about what kind of witness we're being for Christ globally, and, but I can't I can't walk away from that. That's all that really matters. That's all that I have. And I've seen that in other people's lives. I remember one time sitting with a Syrian refugee mom, in my old apartment in Lebanon. And this was a woman at the time, we thought she was a widow, she had two little kids, she ended up finding out that her husband had had abandoned her just couldn't handle what was happening with their family with the poverty and the desperation. And so he he took off. And she, her situation was one of the toughest situations that we've seen. And she had come over, just to sit and talk. But she had experienced Christ in a really profound way. And she said, You know, I used to envy people who have things who have money, who are able to care for their kids. But now that I've experienced God in the way that I have, I realized that other people who have things, who have wealth, who have possessions, they should envy me because they'll never experience God, being there for them in the way that I've experienced him in my want, and in my need. And I knew that it was true. I knew that she had seen God in a way that I I will probably never seen see him she had felt his presence in her life in a way that I will probably never experience. And so he's not just all that I have. He's all that any of us. Yeah. Yeah,

Jonathan W 1:04:32

I think amen to all of that. And I think the only thing that, that the first thing that came to mind when you said that was the emotions that I felt when you asked that question last time where I'm like, right there. And I think that the way that I talked about God during that time When you ask me was something that was very familiar to me. But the way that I'm experiencing God now is unfamiliar to me. So I'm not used to experiencing god. Oh, no how to say this and have it mean, but I want to say but like, personally, and intimately, not powerfully, so I'm used to experiencing God's power. So casting out demons, healing people, miracle stuff. Um, what's happening now is like, God is not judging me. God is not condemning me. God is not supervising me. God is not evaluating me. God is not hovering over me, waiting for me to break down so that he can like, fix it. And then like, give me directions I can go try harder again. like God is not an overseer on the ministry plantation that I have on to work for him. He's just not. And that is. It's just, I just, I don't know how to function with a god. Which you know, Jesus and john wayne, when we interviewed Kristin COVID. The man I don't know what to do with that God that just wants to sit with me. But still waters, green pastures and all that like that. joined with all of the grander and stuff like it's the Isaiah six, distant, close, intimate, but far away and high and lifted up and near to us. Our Father in heaven, right. intimate our father. See that habit? Yeah. It's overwhelming. And yeah, yeah.

Seth Price 1:07:25

Thank you all for that. I'm aware of how hard that question is. I'm also equally glad that I'm not usually answering it. So. Yeah. Yeah. At least not here. So where, so people need to go to the places. And you'll probably have more places now than the last time that we spoke. So where do people do the things that the people should be doing? I don't even know if that's a real sentence.

Jonathan W 1:07:54

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Sy Hoekstra 1:08:31

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Seth Price 1:08:37

Another plug for people listening. I don't know where to link to the newsletter. I'll find it by the time this episode comes out. But I will say I get the newsletter. I read it. One of my favorite things is you're probably gonna like this one. The other two is I really think I prefer your recommendations. Specifically though, right? Yeah. Like, every so every time like I read it, I'm like, I don't know what this is. So like, your most recent one, like the like there was a useful like explainer from some center for something about the about the for the people act, and like, so I'm reading that and I'm like, didn't know, didn't know. Didn't didn't know any of this. Now, I feel stupid. But now I know. That's not the goal. Yeah. Yeah. No, I mean, just evaluating myself. I'm like, I probably should have known, but I just invest my time and other things. And my things seem to be more in the vein of you, Susan, you Jonathan so so I like you, you bring a different portion to the playground. Like I don't normally eat that. That's not I don't eat things with color. Like I only eat fried foods and potatoes, you know? Delicious. Yeah. So So, so So for people listening, do subscribe to the newsletter, because your experience may vary from one of the other from one of the other authors. So thank all three of you, Susie, appreciate your time. Say thanks for your time, Jonathan. Thanks for your time as well. I know that y'all are all extremely busy. And yeah, it's been a pleasure having you back on.

Sy Hoekstra 1:10:03

Appreciate it. Thank you so much for having us. They certainly appreciate your time. Thank you for hosting us. You are welcome. Well made for each other.

Seth Price 1:10:21

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