Saying No To God with Matthew Korpman / Transcript

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Matthew K 0:00

But at the end of the story when she rebuts him and gives her illustration, Jesus goes ahead and says, great is your faith, like your faith, is an example of your faith, not just for saying this, but like what you said is the definition of faith. And because of it, you're you're gonna have your daughter healed. So fait, in Mark and Matthew, for the Syrophoenician woman is telling Jesus, No, you're wrong, and rooting it, in this case, in God's justice, in morality in logic. And then saying, nope, what you've said doesn't make sense. And God goes, yep, you win. That's how you do it. Good job. That's faith. Hey, disciples, were you paying attention? This Gentile woman. This quote unquote dog just told me no, have you guys ever told me no? No, you reject my teachings all the time, but you don't ever tell me? No, you just go. Yes. So yes, sir. She said no, you should take pointers from her. That's what faith is.

Seth Price 1:13

Hey there. Welcome back to the show. I'm Seth This is the Can I Say This At Church podcast, which you should already know, because you downloaded it but maybe you have one of those podcast players that automatically auto plays and if that's the case, and you haven't subscribed, hit the button. While you're hitting buttons, click the Patreon button. You can find that at the website. You can find that in the show notes but I do hope you find it I want you to click it I want you to hit the box and support the show. This show is 100% not ad supported. So I am very thankful for every single one of you that does support the show and would ask a handful more of you to go ahead and hit that button. I will do my best to make it worth your while. Today I spoke with Matthew Korpman. Who has you'll hear at the beginning like just he's just too many degrees, like the guy is just crazy smart.

And it's a little bit intimidating if I'm honest. But we talk about a concept of literally saying no to God and how we're called to literally recognize what we think people are saying that God is saying, or a way of speaking with other people, and just putting a flag in the ground and saying, No. No to you, no to this situation, and no to God, I'm not gonna do that. And I know that probably doesn't make sense right now. But I think it will at the end. And so to add to the list of the February episodes that we're really deep and packed full of information, you know, both with Vince and with Nathan Jacobs, another really fantastic episode. I cannot wait to hear your feedback on this one. Here we go.

Seth Price 3:05

Matthew Korpman, welcome to the Can I Say This At Church podcast, and I said this to you earlier. But for those listening, my voice is more raspy because everybody in my family except for my wife and son decided to get the flu. And that was myself included. And so I'm like, 27 hours off of that, but the rasp is nice. I'm liking the rasp, so I'm going to go with it. But welcome to the show Matthew.

Matthew K 3:27

Thank you so much for having me, you and your raspy voice.

Seth Price 3:31

Fair enough. So I like to start off with this question. And I pre-warned you bet. But when I said when I would tell somebody, hey, I'm talking with Matthew tonight and here's who he is. Like, what are the things that you're like? Yeah, if you need to know anything about me, this is who I am. And here's why that matters.

Matthew K 3:48

Oi…yeah, what do you need to know about me? All right, so I can give you like the CV quickly. So I'm currently a student at Yale Divinity School. I'm doing a Master of Arts in religion, concentrating on second temple Judaism. For those that don't know that just as a fancy word, that phrase, that means that I study the period of history of the Jews from when they returned from the Babylonian exile and like for hundreds, to the time that the Romans destroyed the temple and 70.

So that involves early Christianity, the Apocrypha, early, Rabbinical, all that fun stuff, all wrapped, and even Gnosticism, all wrapped up into a fun little bow. But it's also exciting because it's a very interdisciplinary degree, which means I have to do a lot of work on the Hebrew Bible, as well as the New Testament, and I kind of have to be able to work in pretty much the whole range of history, to have a good idea of how it's working at this one point in time. Which of course, the first century in particular with the rise of Christianity is such a Extremely important and dynamic period, you really have to know a lot of information to understand it. No one aspect will help you. So I'm doing studies like that. My background before Yale was I did four degrees in my undergrad back in California. I did religious studies, archaeology, philosophy, and film and television.

Seth Price 5:25

How long have you been in school?

Matthew K 5:27

I finished the four degrees in five years, which was definitely already one year more than I wanted to stay there anymore. By that point in time, I was like, oh, man, okay. It's worth it? But I did. I got through it. I've been at Yale. This is my second year, I will be graduating in May and God willing, I'll be going on to do a PhD in New Testament this fall. So that's kind of like that is the academic sort of perspective. I've also been published in some various Academic Journals for Biblical Studies. I have a chapter coming up on the role of the Apocrypha in Protestant history that'll be coming out in an upcoming Oxford Handbook volume.

So like, I'm young, I'm active, I'm doing stuff that isn't just popular theology. So if someone's listening, and they're like, wow, this is interesting, okay, this guy is writing stuff. I don't know if there's someone snobby out there that, you know, I'm doing both. I'm doing academic stuff that's very rigorous, peer reviewed, and I'm doing pastoral stuff that I think matters to the living community in the church. And so kind of, I guess, right then and there, you kind of know I'm obsessively nerdy academically, and I'm obsessively passionate about practice and understanding the life of the church. That's probably two very important things to kind of summarize me.

Seth Price 6:51

I love it. So I almost want to pivot and just say, what the heck do you mean about the role of the Apocrypha in Protestant history? I'm not going to do that because…

Matthew K 6:59

I would love too!

Seth Price 7:00

I’m not prepared for that. But we could also just talk for…I have two hours on this bed where we could just go.

Matthew K 7:08

(Laughter both) Believe me if you get me, sir on the Canon and the Apocrypha oh, yeah, it's actually what's fun is my article when it gets released. And I'm hopeful that it'll get released this year that the volume, it'll be the first of its kind chapter that kind of explores how the Protestant Reformation treated the Apocrypha, which is not at all like how we currently talk about it. So it's revisionist, in a sense of like, it's revising what popular opinion is, it's not revisionist, in the sense of like, I'm trying to reinterpret things. It's, it's more or less that like, well, like Martin Luther he actually believed that 1 Maccabees was canon, and he states so and he stated other books he believes should be canon, but he wasn't sure. Like Tobit and Judith And then you've got John Calvin, who thought that the book of Baruch was canonical. And already right there, and then you're like, Wait a second this is…

Seth Price 8:09

This is not my Bible, I have 66. And you screwed with it, leave it alone.

Matthew K 8:11

But on top of that, this is not the narrative that we normally hear, which is like, Oh, no, no, no, the Reformation got rid of those books, or Martin Luther pushed them to the back of his Bible, because he didn't want anything to do with that, right. But there's a lot of sort of Protestant propaganda regarding like, what we'd like to imagine why those books are gone.

The funny thing is, most of the apocryphal books didn't actually get taken out of the Bible, most Protestant Bibles, until 100 years ago, like up until 1870, most Bibles had (them). So it's only been recently happening, that the Apocrypha has been traditionally missing now. So it's like it's a really recent thing and it was not done for any dogmatic reason. It was only financial, that it ended up disappearing, with the British and foreign Bible Society. So it's really interesting the history there, and you can really unpack it. But it's certainly something that Protestants need to own up to and examine.

Because Martin Luther, his seeming goal was the hope that Protestants were going to eventually deal with a cannon and actually examine these books and figure out what they believed about them. To date no church in Protestantism has ever done that. No one has ever gotten together and said, Let's examine whether the book of Tobit could be Scripture. We just kind of ignored them, push them and then eventually they just disappeared for financial reasons. So yeah, it's the weirdest thing in the world, honestly.

Seth Price 9:42

Question about when you graduate with four degrees. So I'm assuming you walked and received all four degrees at the same time. What color thing do you wear? Where do you sit? Because you know, you're supposed to sit like in the, I don't know that ….

Matthew K 9:56Y

You're the only person to ask this.

Seth Price 9:58

Well, that's the way my brain works like, I'm sitting They're thinking of you like graduating. So where do you sit? Do you pivot? Like, do you just bounce around and go out there four times? Like, how does this work?

Matthew K 10:06

Yeah, so basically, I'm trying to remember now, I know there was at least two different versions of the garb that I could wear the top part and I think one was the College of Arts. Yeah, there was two because basically, two of my degrees fell under the College of Arts and two of my degrees fell under the college of the Divinity School. So I had two different graduating garb I could wear and of course I chose the one that was divinity school because that was that was

Seth Price 10:39

Should have done half and half party in the back and business in the front or something. Yeah.

Matthew K 10:42

Which I wasn't really wanting to break out that chainsaw. But then, yeah, I mean, they give you they the day school gave me the two of their degrees on one diploma, but then the other because it was part of the same school but then the other two days.

Seth Price 11:00

Like the Apocrypha just cost cutting measures.

Matthew K 11:03

Yeah, no one wants to just go ahead and give it to you. But I actually did have when I applied for master's programs, I did have different people go, you meant that these were your majors, right? And that you heard what I said, right? It's like, No, no, no, I meant that these were separate degrees. Oh, really? Yeah, there's actually now that I remember it was Harvard that asked me that. That was Harvard. They're like, No, no, these are majors. Right? There's you didn't really do that though. I did. I was crazy.

I did have a social life. I did. I even managed to find the love of my life. So you know, it is possible to do outrageously crazy things. If you have really good professors and and a school that's willing to do crazy things and work with you.

That's why small liberal arts schools are sometimes better than than the bigger because when they get monster, they don't necessarily want to work with you.

Seth Price 11:55

That's cool.

I didn't know that. I don't think I've heard you say that anywhere else. But to be fair, I've only listened to you. I have no one to play. That's an exclusive. You know what I do? That's fine. Why not? So I also before we started recording, so I expressed my ignorance. And so I'll do so now in public because I'm not going to edit this out. It's too much work. Like I don't see you in your book Saying No to God. I don't want to bury the lead there. In your book that you've written in your free time between all of these degrees, Yale Divinity School, sounds like you got married, and I did whatever is happening with these balloons here. Whatever that party was.

Matthew K 12:34

That would be Valentine's. Oh, it’s a little early?

Seth Price 12:37

So a little its hours away…

Matthew K 12:39

A little, it's tomorrow!

Seth Price 12:42

Fair enough. Um,

Matthew K 12:44

I hope that wasn't news for you,

Seth Price 12:47

No, I knew that it was. I'm happily married many, many years. I'm going to get myself in trouble. So you talked about in your book a couple times and you reference others “pillars” in your in your denomination of adventism. And so by that you mean Seventh Day Adventism, correct?

Matthew K 13:07

Yes, absolutely. Adventists like to cut down the name.

Seth Price 13:11

fine. I'm not overly familiar with either, because if like most Protestants, I'll let myself in there as well. You kind of get in your own two or three little ponds. And you don't swim in other ponds. Because, yeah, I know the language in this pond. And I know the way the currents work and etc. So what are the what are some of those differences and kind of how does that inform the way that you do theology?

Matthew K 13:34

Yeah, so, okay, I'd say that, as with every denomination, you kind of have to talk about it on two different levels. One, there is the way the denomination is presently experienced widely by people in this present context. And then there is what are the foundations that kind of made this denomination what it was and you know, still gives it life. Those are always going to two different things.

So, on the one hand, I'm going to give you right now the description of its foundations, which will sound great, right? But then like in practice, you know, there may be a bit of a disconnect in terms of the average, or not the average but a, a number of Adventists, you might end up meeting depending on your location and so forth. So like Adventism has a number of core beliefs. So the full name Seventh Day Adventism tells you two of the main beliefs. Wow, the first one is Seventh Day, which refers to the literal observance of the seventh day Saturday as the Sabbath, similar to the Jews who keep Saturday. And we do it the same way, Friday sundown to Saturday sundown, the Jewish and Biblical way of reckoning days and nights.

But the other term Adventist is literally A reference to Advent. And in that regard, it doesn't refer Immediately, like first, like, at least its original intention wasn't to like be the reference to Jesus's Advent as a child. But as Advent as in like the “second advent”, which that was a term and phrase back in the 1800’s. So the second coming of Jesus, the second return of Jesus. So, that might not sound like that would be a dramatically interesting belief to put in your name. Like, yes, Jesus is coming back like, okay, don't we all agree on that. But actually no in the 1800s, most Christians didn't believe Jesus was coming back without other stuff happening.

So there was a wide belief in the idea among Christians that they had to become perfect, and perfect the world, before Jesus would ever return. And this was the majority view. Most Christians laughed at the idea that Jesus could come before the world was perfected. They It was very much influenced by sort of this Constantinian Imperial Christianity that had been for so long, this idea that the Christian Empire was going to expand across the world. And so it was very revolutionary and rebellious for certain Christians to suggest that actually this was sinful, that Christianity for all its attempts to change things was going to end up failing, that God was going to need to come. Now, it's just like, “Oh, this is the tradition. This is just the widespread view”. But back then Adventists. And at that time before Adventists Millerites because that was kind of like the Millerites were sort of this movement that eventually led to the Adventist Church that we have today. They were distinct and different, but kind of like the millwrights were this movement that was all popularized by a Biblical interpreter who suggested that he could predict the date of Jesus coming. He predicted it for 1844 and of course that didn't happen.

Yeah, and most of the people in that event lost their faith, but a number of people refused to lose faith in Christianity after that. And they went on in different groups and the ones that ended up growing into Seventh Day Adventism were a collection of individuals who found hope in this idea of the Sabbath. So the name Seventh Day Adventists grew out of this kind of like these two major doctrines that started everything. The idea that if the Bible tells you that Saturday is the Sabbath, and it was only Imperial Christianity that changed it. Well, let's go back and value the Sabbath just like the Jews, and then let's not allow ourselves to be lost in the idea of an imperial Christianity that's going to somehow make the world perfect through human effort. Let's readjust our eyes towards God. So that's the name right long story.

But okay, where do Adventists fall on the spectrum? Well, Adventist typically, well, overall, it's a denominational belief that the dead are not living. So they believe in something like soul sleep. Which is to say that when you die, you blink. And just like when you sleep and dreamlessly, you close your eyes and suddenly it's morning again. Basically, that's what happens, people die. And then the resurrection occurs and it's one second later, and suddenly, they're at that day in time.

So Adventists don't go around thinking that there are people in heaven who are looking down at them. Precisely because there's not really a lot of Biblical evidence for that belief among early Christians. That's something that most Biblical scholars recognized that this was kind of early Christians didn't have that idea yet that kind of came more with Platonism and with Christianity getting more involved with Greek culture. So Adventists as you can already tell from these few doctrines, they're very much like, “let's go back to like the way things were; let's dig deep into what the historical beliefs were”. They are anti-hell. There is no held doctrine. In fact, one of our founders Ellen White declared that the eternal hell doctrine was a Satanic heresy. That (it) was a deception created by Satan in order to paint God like him. So people were annoyed with Rob Bell suggesting questioning whether there was a hell questioning whether they…

Seth Price 19:29

I’m not sure that he suggested much he just kind of said here's all the views….

Matthew K 19:31

Yeah, here's a lot of questions. And have you ever thought of them? No, no our denomination started out with like, you can't be Christian if you believe this, because you basically worship Satan. Is that God do you think of that's running Hell is Satan. Yeah, the funny thing is Rob Bell gets a lot more hate nowadays than Adventists do in Evangelical circles. So makes no sense. But you know, that's that the way the ball rolls.

So Adventists have these unique and I'd say like those are already the biggest ones except there's one more and that really plays a role in terms of like where I come from and how this book shapes and that is that Adventist don't believe in inerrancy. We are not supposed to believe in inerrancy. It's, we're kind of like dabs smack in the middle of the liberals on the one end and the conservatives on the other end. Because we believe that the Bible has human fingerprints. We don't believe that it's completely without error and every factual detail that it has, and we still believe that regardless, it's authoritative. So it is this weird middle ground where it's like no…don't we're gonna affirm God's doing something in this book and it is inspired. And not only is it inspired, you can't try to cut out things and say that's not inspired and that is like inspiration is working in mysterious, powerful ways.

On the other hand, it definitely has human stuff in it that you can't just say that these are dictated words.

Seth Price 21:12

So you're using inerrancy, the same way as you're using inspire the to equal each other because the way I'm used to inerrant is, nope, this English version of this translated version of this translated version of this translated version of Jerome's translated version of that other translated version. Mine's definitely the only right version not even the Spanish one, just mine.

Matthew K 21:29

Well now we’re getting King James onlyist.

Seth Price 21:32

Well, you could you could use NIV it doesn't really matter to me.

Matthew K 21:36

There’s just not that many people with that view..

Seth Price 21:39

But you know, that's what I hear for inerrancy. And so but you're saying inspired so you're using inerrancy and inspired in the same way?

Matthew K 21:45

No, I'm saying like for Adventists inspiration refers to like God is using these texts. These texts are not like any, like they may be written in similar ways to other human texts. But their usefulness and their way in which they are being utilized in the church is surpassing what would be simply a standard human text.

So it's not just like, “Oh, it's inspiring”. But rather, there is something that animates this text, that animated the writers who wrote this text, that still speaks today, in spite of the fact that it should have only spoke to its context. So no, inspired here has a much more dynamic and fluid and less, less rigid kind of meaning, again, as it's supposed to. Now, here's the deal, Adventism and I mean, the deal is, when you go outside of what the foundations are, and you start seeing how people technically are in practice, it can sometimes be kind of a jolting experience.

So, you will find specifically in the area of inerrancy, that Adventists unfortunately, have had way too much intimate contact with evangelicals. And that has led to the ideas of inerrancy getting very much ingrained into people without the word. So what I mean is, is that like Adventists are very into Bible prophecy, because “Advent” and second coming. That's just kind of it comes to be one of those interests pieces. Adventists are very dedicated to thinking that they need to pay attention to these things and know. So unfortunately, most televangelists in adventism have been highly influenced by evangelical pastors and inerrancy.

And I think many of them hold to an inerrancy kind of belief. So what ends up happening is when they're preaching on the TV and lots of Adventists are listening to them. They're not technically saying, “today we're going to talk about inerrancy.” We're going to give you the doctrine, it's not a doctrine. It's not part of our belief system, but they'll talk about the Bible in such a way that you are inevitably forced to think that this you know, you can figure it out like alright well God said it and we can trust it and man I think I figured out what inerrancy is… You know without anyone having to spell this out for me to just naively think like this is this is where it's going.

Seth Price 24:22

Yeah well to be clear I don't also don't hold an errand See, I'm also not an Adventist, but wow, so don't hold you in here and see, so it's fine. Why do you say wow, I feel like there's…?

Matthew K 24:36

What! Isn’t this like the most conservative podcast out there?

Seth Price 24:40

Mine. I doubt it. I doubt it

Matthew K 24:43

You have deceived me sir.

Seth Price 24:47

Have I? I don't believe I have. Um, I don't know I one time had a guest say.

I've had a lot of guests say a lot of things. Now. This is definitely not the most conservative podcast. I know. I'm more of a literalist, if by literalist allegories, allegory metaphors, metaphor, hyperboles hyperbole to the culture that it was written to at the time that it was as opposed to America or Britain or Australia. You know, whatever country we happen to be in today. That's probably a better way to read literature. Like, anyway, that's a side note.

Seth Price 25:45

What are you getting at and Saying no to God, and I do want to be clear, I know what you're getting at because I've read it, but for those that haven't read it, and honestly, I like the book enough upon the second reading. So one of the patron things is about 10 or so people, I send them a book every month. This month was Illia Delio latest book, which is fantastic book. Mine comes tomorrow. I've read portions of it.

I think I'm gonna send yours for March because I think it's fantastic book so Wow, yeah, I just I just buy them and your honor just buy them and send them. So anyway, What are you getting at in saying no to God because the cover itself is enough to make people go. Well, here we go. So this is another another book that the covers like, Yeah, I don't want to read that. Like Me too. I don't have any I don't want to why would I want to read that like saying no to God? Why would I…of course I won't say no to God. I'm God fearing person. Why would I want it…

Matthew K 26:38

Sounds like an atheist title. Like it sounds like it's a new Richard Dawkins book, you know, but the thing is, it's the subtitle that gets you because it makes everything confusing, you know, a radical Okay, I'm with you. It's definitely radical, radical atheist, you know, a radical approach to reading the Bible faithfully, right. What do you mean faithfully did this just suddenly get Christian on the me, that doesn't make sense. How can you faithfully say no to God? And I think this is where your podcast title kind of comes in perfectly. Can I Say This At Church‽ You know, like this is this is a pretty good litmus test like this. I wouldn't be surprised if this might be one of the most radical things you've ever had a guest suggest the question, Can I Say This At Church? Can I say in church, no to God? Can I reject God faithful in church? Is this something I can even bring up as a discussion point? And for most obviously, on both sides of the spectrum, liberal or conservative, the answer seems to be like, “nope”.

I remember one time I was at a scholarly convention, and there was one of the most liberal progressive Christian publishers who will be not named, but you can probably guess, that had a booth out and I was talking with one of their staff. And as soon as I started pitching it, I was like, well the book is titled, and no sooner had I finished the title, then this girl turns and looks at me and goes, “why on earth would I ever want to say no to God?”. And I mean, dumbfounded, like dumbfounded look, and she was so nice. She was such a nice person. very genuine. But she was so sucked into it. Up until that point, I knew that my book would be controversial for conservatives. I did not realize that it is just as totally ingrained in any progressive liberal, that the same principle is true.

Like the only difference between liberals and conservatives about inspiration or inerrancy is not about the doctrine itself. I'm pretty sure liberals and conservatives both adhere to inerrancy; one just thinks they don't have it, right. So conservatives are like “this text inerrant”. It's not that liberals are claiming there isn't such a thing as inerrancy it's not like they're saying God wouldn't be inerrant. They're just saying, “this text is not it”.

And so the problem comes that when you get a title, like my book, saying no to God, I'm not saying saying no to the Bible, the progressives can get on that. Yeah, yeah, yeah. That Bible is definitely not inerrant. Now, suddenly, you point the direction at God Himself and now suddenly, you're like, “Oh, I touched a sensitive spot here”. You know, this is this is the real holy grail of like, where your belief system is tied in with, this idea, this authoritarian concept, that you if you really had God in front of you (that) you would not be saying no to him. And on top of that, why would you say no right? On what for what reason?

So it's really good you asked about like that Adventist history and inerrancy plays a big role in this because since Adventist don't technically believe in inerrancy, but we've been affected by the doctrine of inerrancy. It left me in a very unique position in college, in the sense that, as I was deconstructing my faith due to reading different various scholarly literature and so forth, I realized I don't have a dog in this fight. I don't have to pick a side per se. I'm not in the traditional spectrum. So I'm able to look at this somewhat a little bit differently than most people who are in this debate, because I can think, well, the Bible can still be great even if it's not inerrant.

But then I realized, “Ah, wait a minute!” there's something this debate has completely missed and sort of as a result of missing it, gone totally astray. And that is there are stories in the Bible in which human beings tell God no. And God says, yep, you were right. Or you won, or you defeated me. Like, no, I'm not kidding for those listening, there is a Bible verse that says, You defeated god. I'm not kidding you. It exists! It's in Genesis, we'll maybe talk about it.

But the thing is, is that these texts are really interesting because inerrancy works on the premise that if you had God in front of you, and he told you something and you knew for sure it was God, you knew it was inerrant, and you're hearing it straight from you know, God's own mouth. Well, then that changes the whole ballgame. Now you know that whatever God says is true, and you got to go do it. But that's not what the Bible teaches because the Bible shows examples of people who have the perfect inerrant Word of God given to them, and they rejected and God ends up telling them that they were right for doing it.

So right then and there these unique often overlooked stories both in the Hebrew Bible and the New Testament, with Jesus, illustrate starkly that inerrancy is a completely worthless debate, actually. Because the Bible itself tells us that, in fact, inerrancy isn't really the quality that we're looking for. It's not whether or not we can know for sure we have God's words, there's something even more important that you need in order to evaluate those words. And that's really where the book kind of drives towards is not only dealing with the issue of inerrancy, but dealing with the question of “what does the Bible frame as the real important question for understanding how one interacts with God”?

Seth Price 32:58

Can you break through or break apart two of those? In the book you talk about, there's a lot of Old Testament stories and there's a handful of New Testament stories as well of where people have been like, nope, not doing it. Don't feel like doing it or you know, struggling back and forth with God. Because I think, here's the reason I asked…when I hear you say that and kind of also when I read it as well, like a part of me kept coming back to like, Alright, well, I'm just being tested then like, is this a Is this a trick question? Like, am I supposed to do this? Was I not supposed to do this? Maybe I screwed up again? And one of the things I wish you'd given some time to and I may ask you about later if we have time is saying no to to like a Joel Osteen type of theology of you know, I did it right. So obviously I must be hearing the voice of God because look, look at this nice shirt. Look at his nice shirt! So can you break apart maybe one core central theme or story in the Old Testament and then maybe one in the New Testament of where people have just said flat out no or or beaten God?

Matthew K 34:02

Yeah. So, I mean, I can answer your illustration with one story I think pretty interestingly well and that would be the story in Exodus 32. Where Moses goes up onto Mount Sinai, the Israelites down below have gone ahead and set up a golden calf. And God gets so angry in the story he says to Moses, forget it. I regret I ever saved these people. I'm turning my back on all my promises. I'm going to go and murder every single man, woman, and child and I don't care. And then he says, and I'm going to completely enrich you! I'm going to make you Abraham's start the whole thing with you. We're going to make you the promise people you're going to have your status elevated from prophet to the progenitor the new Abrahamic start. And, you know, as far as a typical evangelical inerrancy framework would go the correct thing. The answer from Moses should have been die will be done, you know, on earth as it is in heaven, you know, your ways are not my ways. What seems bad to me is ultimately not my decision because I have a faulty mind.

You know, you could just list these things we say. Moses does not do that. Moses turns to God and says, “No, you cannot do this it's evil”. And, and I mean, he says that, and then, on top of that, he argues that if he does this, nobody in the world will believe him or trust in him anymore because he clearly can betray people. In fact, he says, pretty much they'll almost rightfully think you lead them out here to kill them. Because, I mean, if you knew the future you kind of did. And then on top of that, he points out, well, God, you would be breaking your promises.

Now in all that regard it's fascinating that Moses routes his rejection of what God is saying, in God. In fact, what John Calvin describes it as in his commentary is that it's like fighting against God through God, or going from God, or I think Karl Barth describes it as you searching within the heart of God for the power to resist God. In other words, Moses tells God that I know your ways, and these aren't them; this is not who you are!

So he's not saying, I've got all this reason in my head and I've got all this brainpower and I'm smarter than you and I'm telling you don't do this! He's rooting, faithfully, every objection to God that he's giving in something that he knows to be true about who God is…and then in chapter 34, two chapters later, God says, alright, I'm going to show you what my ways are. And then it's everything Moses had hoped for. I am ever merciful, always forgiving, always kind, always long suffering; right, everything opposite of how he's acting in Exodus 32.

So, of course, most people have just tried to skip the story. Because it is, for them, the part that screws with their mind is when it says, “and God changed his mind about the evil that he was going to do”. And that's usually where people focus on or even some theodicy is focused on where they're like, oh, let's talk about how much does God's foreknowledge know and blah, blah, blah. And those are all interesting questions to some degree. But the much more interesting question is, why can Moses tell God no? That is far more fundamental than anything to do with God's foreknowledge or anything else. What's fundamental is (that) there is something about the divine human relationship that's being depicted here. How does Moses have the authority and the ability to stand up to God and win? To tell God your will not be done? And God says, yep, yep, yep. And then at the end to confirm that that really wasn't his will—that Moses was right, his ways, were not those ways that he was suggesting.

Now, what does that mean? What does that kind of leave us with, it's a confusing story? God's acting contrary to God's self. Moses knows this. But then why in the world are you following this God? What is he doing? Like this is a really messed up story. And it gets even more complicated because in the middle chapter 33, it actually describes their bickering and fighting as an example of how God and Moses used to speak to each other like friends. And so this is divine friendship. This arguing over whether God is evil and so that just strikes is like, this is a really weird idea. Like, if I didn't read it in the Bible, I would swear there is no way that it's in there.

So, when you look at that, you have to struggle to say, “Okay, well, if God is acting contrary to his ways, why?” Is it that God is is changing, but then God's not? Because God is still at the end of chapter 34, the same way as Moses claimed he really is. So then what's happening? Well, Martin Luther argued, and Calvin agreed, but Martin Luther really pushed this view that this was a test. That basically God was putting a was putting Moses to the test as to whether or not Moses understood who God's character was. Did he know God's ways and could he tell the difference between God's ways and say, a foreigner God like Molech’s ways? Is it that Moses was following and obeying whatever “God”says or did he know Yahweh specifically?

Now that kind of a difference is important because Peter Rollins when he tells a kind of modern parable. He says,

Well, what happens if you get to heaven and Satan sitting on the throne? And what if Satan says, ‘Well, I actually beat God, you know, Jesus is in hell now. And I'm sitting in the throne. So I'm God technically now. But don't worry, I'll honor all of the agreements. I'll give you your eternal life’

…all that jazz. It's a really complicated, sudden situation because now the question is, were you only following God because he was going to give you eternal life or was there something about his character that made him different from Satan? Right, is it just that Satan's an angel and God’s God or is there a character difference that makes God who he is so that even if Satan's sitting on the throne, he's still not God? Because he doesn't have that character? Moses, Martin Luther argued, was being pushed on this point. That God was putting him to the test to see, will you know that this is not who I am? And will you stand up against me? As like an analogy, this would be similar to a teacher in a classroom who has spent 20 minutes on a topic, and he wants to see whether or not his students have paid attention. And so suddenly he contradicts everything he said. If nobody reacts, he knows that he wasted his whole 20 minutes.

Seth Price 41:47

Yeah.

Matthew K 41:49

If somebody raises their hand and says, “isn't that the opposite of what you've been saying?” He goes, “congratulations, you got an A, you were paying attention!”

Seth Price 41:53

And everyone else fails.

Matthew K 41:55

So it's like that kind of an analogy here. Moses already knows God's ways. So he's going to recognize when there's suddenly this huge deviation. And so God deviates, and Moses immediately reacts. And God says, yep, you're right.

Now, this is also important because this is a penultimate moment for Moses. This is when he suddenly is going to make, you know, he's going to lead the people from Mount Sinai. This is him coming as the law giver, you know, it matters, whether he knows who is the God who he's giving law to. With that regard then, it is so fascinating to realize, like an argument that was also given by my own denomination, one of their leaders, Ellen White, who argued that in this story, God was also testing the selfishness of Moses. So you said the Joel olsteen effect. Will Moses be captivated by the idea of getting rich off this that he has the ability to elevate his status and his family in a way that Abraham only had been given before? And you know, he can throw all these people away and suddenly have a whole new dynasty start with him.

And, you know, but what had God done? He had tasked Moses with protecting these people with leading them, right. So this is also a deep test, that Ellen White argued, was regarding whether or not Moses would really be a leader, and would choose to put other people ahead of himself.

So in that respect, right, this story has several elements to it. The question that kind of leaves us with is, is this a one off or is this something that's supposed to like occur multiple times? So a much shorter story is Genesis 32, where suddenly you can look at Jacob by the Jabbok River who gets attacked by God, God suddenly wrestles with him. I mean, the word in Hebrew means “to get dirty to get dusty”. So basically it means you're tumbling around and around, like, both of you are trying to kill each other. And so it's just an all out brawl. This isn't like a WWE competition, like there's no kind of holding each other—it gets that way, eventually, by the end of the story, but you realize this is a very dirty fight. And by the end of the story, the sun is coming up. They've been wrestling all night. All this time, Jacob has not known who he's fighting with. He doesn't know it's God. He's thought that this is just somebody who wants to kill him. Now he sees that it is God or it is God's Messenger, whichever. And instead of saying, oh, oops, this is the Divine Will Oh, oops, I gotta obey what God is clearly intending. He fights even harder. Even after his hip socket is displaced. He's still holding on and managing to keep the individual from fleeing.

So he tells this cursing agent, this thing that came to kill him, he says, “I'm not going to let you go unless you bless me.” And then this angel or God himself says to Jacob, “well, I am going to go ahead and give you a new name, your name is going to be Israel. And I'm giving it to you because you have fought God, and you have defeated him”.

Now Israel means “those who fight God”, especially in the context of the story, that's how it's being understood by the author those who fight God or, you know, the God fighter. So, here we have a really strange story. Jacob tells the one who seeks to kill him, or curse him, I'm not going to let you leave this with a curse, you're going to give me a blessing. And then he gets the blessing that he will and his descendants will continue to fight God and defeat God in order to keep getting the blessing that comes from fighting God; you see, it's like a vicious circle, it just keeps going. So it's very strange what's happening here. And it seems to be illustrative of basically what the story in Exodus is talking about-divine friendship. This idea that when Jacob is faced with an image of the Divine which seeks to curse, which seeks to give ill will, he refuses to accept that and demands that he get a blessing instead. By demanding a blessing from something that looks like it's cursing, you're essentially affirming that you believe the true nature of what you're facing is a blessing.

In other words, you wouldn't ask Satan to bless you. Because it is not in Satan's nature to bless you. It is not within the demonic’s ability to give good. So when faced with something demonic and you say, I want the good, I want the blessing. It's very much like Moses saying, These are not your ways. Show me your ways.

It's saying that you are coming at me as something I don't believe you are, and I want the blessing. So now what name does he get as a blessing? You will fight God just like now, that means you're going to fight more cursing images of the Divine, and your descendants are going to do that, and you're gonna win. Now, who are you really defeating?

Well, it's not really that you're defeating God, per se. And that's the reason kind of why God is giving this as a blessing. You're not defeating God, you're defeating the bad image of God, this “what God looks like to you”, you're overcoming that. And then you're continuing to struggle constantly in this battle to come to a better understanding of the blessing of who God is, and your descendants, Israel, will continue to fight.

In other words, this is a very progressive view of how the people of God will come to understand in their divine friendship who God is; and that friendship is going to mean a lot of wrestling, a lot of rejection of bad images of God, and a real affirmation of a god a blessing. Now, that's incredible as an image, because not only does it just outright destroy the idea of inerrancy, it's meaningless. Suddenly, it's not inerrancy that matters; whether God said it or didn't say it. What really matters is it doesn't match God's character-is this who God really is? Like, that just changes the whole ballgame because now you're looking at trajectories and implications and all these kinds of things that get a big 10,000 feet from above portrait, not the nitty gritty I'm in this one moment.

So you know, in order for Jacob to reject that image of God in order for Moses to reject God's words, they needed a whole bunch of other stuff, a large collection in which to draw from and judge this image of God from. Which just tells you like, this is exciting in a whole deeper kind of way than we’ve typically been thinking of like, what God's words are.

It's not that just God says something and it's right; or God does something and it's right, it has to match his character. And if it doesn't match his character, that's when you fight. So that's when you would say no.

But you also asked like, okay, is this in the New Testament, right? All right. Okay, this is great. We've looked at the Old Testament, we've seen things there. Did this all change with Jesus? I know there's people out there who would say okay, Red Letter Christians and I mean, I nothing against Red Letter Christians, but I mean…

Seth Price 49:42

By that you mean the organization or…?

Matthew K 49:44

No, not the organization. Oh, no! I mean the many Christians who like to say that I’m a red letter Christian because I just read the red letters of Jesus and that's what matters. Okay.

Seth Price 49:56

Sure, except for Jesus was quoting the other things that you didn't read.

Matthew K 50:02

Yeah, yeah. But I mean, like, there's a lot of good people out there who espouse this and their answer to everything is, well, I judge what Jesus said. If Jesus said this, that's what I believe, right. I don't deal with all that messy stuff in the Old Testament. I don't deal with this other you know, what Jesus said thats it. So basically, you've gone from these people have gone from saying that the whole Bible is like a divine command theory. God says it, I have to believe it because he said it.

And they've kind of moved it now to a canon within the canon. Now it's Jesus's words and read, because some Bibles for those that don't know print the words in red of Jesus just in case somebody doesn’t know.

Seth Price 50:41

This is just a small aside as a joke. Do you think that Jesus’s a canon within the canon is better than Paul's canon within the canon because some churches only preach on Paul and none of the words in red except for Easter.

Matthew K 50:54

I think that everybody's canon within a cannon is usually constructed at best because of the context that they're in.

Seth Price 50:59

Fair enough.

Matthew K 51:01

I agree and I don't think there's a single cannon within the canon that can work universally, by virtue of the fact that it's a canon within the canon, right? The only canon that works universally, is the entire thing. Because you get to choose your canon within it. It's like it's within the nature of a cannon within a cannon to be limited in how good it is. It's just being useful for whatever context you need to limit it for.

But like the truth is, the only universal part is really the whole that you get to choose from. Because you get choice there's a lot of material there that you can hone for whatever context you're in. Yeah, that would be my answer there for that. But no, I mean, unfortunately, some people have sort of just assumed that well, and I mean, I can kind of understand why they would. Jesus is the incarnate, living image, self revelation of who God is. He's the image of the immortal. Okay, he comes to Earth. Here we go! Now we don't have to get it from Moses or from a prophet, we got God Himself incarnate on Earth.

All right, that sounds pretty legitimate. And so people think if Jesus said it, I believe it.

Now, aside from that, you still run into the issue of the fact that like different people remember Jesus's statements differently. And you have different versions of the same teachings, and they don't all agree. And avoiding that the truth of the matter is Jesus Himself is not depicted in the New Testament, as at all espousing this. And it kind of makes sense. If God does not change, then it makes sense that the image of God we see in the Hebrew Bible, especially in something like rejecting cursed images, and embracing positive probably is not going to change when God comes. And in fact, that's what we find.

There's a few stories in the new test. In which Jesus faces somebody and presents himself in a very unflattering way to them, in order to basically do the same thing as with Moses, to provoke them. So the story that I'll give an example of this is in the Gospel of Matthew, where I mean, it's in both Mark and Matthew, but it's the story of the Syrophoenician woman. And this is a story that troubles many Christians. And it's kind of frustrating to me that Christians have not picked up on this idea so that they understand what's really happening in the story, especially in Matthew's version for sure.

So what we have here in the Mark version of this story, you have a woman who comes and finds Jesus when he's trying to hide away from people and she says, Oh, please, Lord and she drops at his feet. You know, please, heal my daughter, who's who's, you know, going to die. And Jesus says well, look, here's the deal. Miracles are kind of a zero sum game. If I give it to you, I don't give it to the Israelites. And you see, the Israelites are children. And well, we Jews like to call you dogs. So understand what you're asking from me. You're asking me to give the miracle either to the dog or to the child. And now I mean, really, you're a mother, you understand! That doesn't make any sense. I can't do that. I can't not take care of my kids, and give it to the dog instead. I hope you understand I just can't help you out.

It's a logical argument that Jesus is presenting, a zero sum game I cannot give to you and to them. So then the woman comes back to Jesus and basically rebuts him. And it's amazing how many people who comment on the story literally do not notice that she is rebutting him. Martin Luther definitely saw that she was rebounding him he was like, darn this girl is smacking Jesus like, in fact, the way Martin Luther describes it is that she has taken Jesus under her grasp and yanked him. Like she has just grabbed that dude and said,

Seth Price 55:17

You will listen to me…

Matthew K 55:20

…literally! Martin Luther says

this is the beauty of the story that Christians are called to be like this woman and grab God by the neck and like not let them go.

And the reason why she couldn't do it is because she points out that Jesus is pretty much completely flawed in his logic. And she does this by giving another illustration using Jesus's illustration. Hey, guess what, when the kids eat, they're messy, and the food falls to the ground and the dogs can lick it up. So guess what, you're wrong. It's not a zero sum game. It turns out that actually, the dogs end up getting at least some part of the miracle.

So now Jesus in Mark's story turns to her and says for saying this, for this part. And what was that rebutting him saying no to him for this, you will have everything you want. The thing that was like the key to your success is not accepting what I Jesus have told you, congratulations.

Now in Matthew's version, it helps clear things up. Because in the Mark story, you're just like, okay, that's weird. Maybe if I know the story and Exodus and stuff, I can kind of hear the echo of what's going on. But Matthew clearly hears the echo. When he takes Mark's story, he says, ah, Mark, you didn't write it good enough. You didn't give enough hints that Jesus is toying with this woman. So I'm going to make it clear.

So in Matthew's version of the story, he actually has the woman not just come to the house, he has the disciples walking with Jesus and the woman is crying out after him. And Jesus is purposely ignoring her in the beginning. And the disciples recognize that something is wrong because although Jesus is ignoring her, he's not telling them to send her away. And they recognize, in the story of Matthew, that something is wrong here. Because if you didn't want her, he would have sent her away. But he's not talking to her. So this is just annoying to keep hearing her cry after us.

So they actually come to Jesus. And they say, hey, what is going on here? Why have you not sent her away and Jesus does not send her away, does not deal with it. So they go in the house, and the woman comes in. Now this part of the story is just like Mark, but at the end of the story when she rebuts him and gives her illustration. Jesus goes ahead and says, great is your faith like your faith? This is an example of your faith, not just for saying this, but like what you said is the definition Have faith. And because of it, you're you're going to have your daughter healed.

Seth Price 58:03

Hmm.

Matthew K 58:04

So faith in Mark and Matthew for the Syrophoenician woman is telling Jesus, No! You're wrong! And rooting it, in this case, in God's justice in morality in logic, and then saying, nope, what you've said doesn't make sense. And God goes, yep, you win. That's how you do it. Good job. That's faith. Hey, disciples, were you paying attention? This Gentile woman? This “dog” just told me No. Have you guys ever told me? No, no, you you reject my teachings all the time. But you don't ever tell me? No, you just go. Yes, sir. Yes, sir. She said, No, you should take pointers from her. That's what faith looks like.

Seth Price 58:49

I can't remember where I read it or heard it. It might have been my pastor. I can't remember. I don't even remember which gospel it was in. But someone had told me at one time, you know, everywhere that he's trying to show the disciples how to be…they always end up screwing it up. But it always ends up centering around a woman like you did it wrong. But you see her she did it right. And you in this other story, you did it wrong. She did it right. And you you did it wrong. See what she's doing. She did it right over and over. And it might be Luke, I can't remember where it was. And now I'm going to have to go back and search for my notes. I remember writing it down. But something you said that reminded me of that.

It also, in all of that, all I keep hearing is, you know, you know, my sheep know me and they hear my voice. Like my kids. They know my voice. And they know when I'm angry. And they know when I say something untruthful, even if I don't want them too. Because they know me. They've always known me.

You know, and that's an overgeneralized metaphor, but you know what I mean?

Matthew K 59:50

Oh, it's very true.

Seth Price 59:52

You build all of that in the first half of the book, and then you pivot into some things to say no to. So you like to say no to prejudice, say no to patriarchy. Say no to ahandful of other things. But there's a section in here that I want to ask you about. Oh, gosh, where did it go? It's in the saying no to homophobia.

Matthew K 1:00:12

Oh, wow, you're gonna go there. Okay.

Set Price 1:00:14

Yeah. Well, it's this section on David and Jonathan. And so can you break that apart a bit? And so what are you getting at there you say in here, this is how you start it, you know, with the increased attention to such an issue, as homosexuality that has garnered socially. And I added in the homosexuality part and equally growing attention has been given to people to the Biblical material, and its relevance to these issues. And so what does David and Jonathan have to do with homosexuality?

Matthew K 1:00:40

So yeah, it's interesting that for those who have researched this is familiar for those that have not ever researched, this will be surprising. And that is that in the Hebrew Bible, when it describes David and Jonathan's relationship, it describes it in terms that are usually reserved for romantic relationships between men and women. So, some examples I give, you have in 1 Samuel 18:1,

Jonathan loved him as his own soul.

And when David weeps over Jonathan's death, he states that,

your love to me was wonderful passing the love of women

2 Samuel 1:26.

And so, some scholars will make the suggestion that there is potentially a bisexual relationship occurring on David's end, because we know David liked women, but David has something going on with Jonathan here. So there is something that goes beyond what is a typically evangelical idea of what is acceptable romantic relationships and there's also other verses that give you a reasons for potentially thinking this, for example, the text reports that Jonathan and David kissed each other in 1 Samuel 20:41. And it reports that Jonathan strip naked for David to prove his loyalty in 1 Samuel 18:1-4, and Saul actually accuses his son Jonathan of shaming his mother's nakedness, which is kind of a statement that carries a sexual connotation.

So (if) people want to see that that's 1 Samuel 20:30. So when the text states that Jonathan took great delight, and David, which is 1 Samuel 19:1, it uses the Hebrew word that we use to describe Shechem’s sexual desire to marry Jacob's daughter, Dinah in Genesis 34. So there is sexually charged language going on here that leads some scholars to suggest that it would not be improbable that David and Jonathan had something going between them.

Now, here's the thing some approaches to this whole question really try to push this For you know for LGBTQ apologetics they really want this because of course I can understand it you know it would be great for them to be able to have a prominent character in the Bible, or characters in the Bible, that they can they can see and identify with and connect with on that level. For evangelical apologetics this is like it's crazy in their eyes! Like oh my goodness, this is nuts. You know, what have you done? This is this is baloney. You know, this is natural affections in the Middle East men kiss together and they really do. Actually when I was in the Middle East, I saw two men and suddenly on the street, go ahead and we're kissing and on the face and stuff and hugging each other. And some guy nearby me turned to me quickly thought that I was a dumb American and was like, No, no gay!!!!

I've heard like some angelical apologetics will be like, yeah, this is just what's going on with David and Jonathan. They're just much more open with men to men relationships, they're, you know, it's not sexual. Of course, that's ignoring the fact that there is sexually charged language use. But my point in that chapter is to kind of bypass both of these arguments and to say, look, here's the deal. Maybe it is just Middle Eastern, you know, men, bromance, right? That might just be it might just be a really good bromance, if that's the case okay. But here's the problem. Even if it turned out that this was a homoerotic relationship. What is the problem here that drives evangelicals to be disgusted by that idea?

And see like that's where you can really point out homophobia, right? This is not a question of saying, you know, you disagree with their actions, right? I mean, characters in the Bible kill lots of people all the time; if you think killing is wrong, yeah, that should disturb you, right? You should be disgusted that genocide and all these things, right? But then like somebody says, oh, it might have been that David was bisexual. Oh my god, this is horrible!

At that point, you have to say, why is that disgusting to you and the genocidal factor isn't? How come you know you're totally down for the idea that women just got raped and pillaged in this event over here? Yeah, well, that's just the man's world. He lives it right, but now suddenly bring in the relationship with Jonathan, potentially. And now like your whole view of David changes and your whole view of Jonathan. That's homophobia. That's where you are unable to accept that characters in the Bible have this specific experience, and you're going to now have your whole view of that…that's sinful.

It does not matter whether you are a conservative Christian thinks that homosexuality is wrong, it really doesn't matter. Because if you are disgusted by the idea that your favorite Bible character, or this Bible character might have had that issue, okay, and that this is potentially portrayed in a non negative, or at least a non judgmental way in the books of Samuel, if that is your biggest issue that is saying something deep about your own soul and your own homophobia that you have not dealt with. Because you shouldn't have those feelings and those reactions to that, and specifically your opinion of David or Jonathan should not change because of that. That is judging people based off their sexual orientation. That is homophobia.

Seth Price 1:06:58

Yeah. Is this view of Jonathan and David new like, does this have like, like a lot of views? Like they come in and out of the modern, I guess psyche, you know, when you start research, you're like, Oh, this is a new people been talking about this for 500 years, it's just we didn't really read about it. Like or is this something where it's like, yeah, you know, now that we know this, and we know this and we know this, or does it have any historical context going back through the centuries?

Matthew K 1:07:27

I cannot answer the question of whether it has a historical context. I can tell you that it's been pushed mainly now that there are, and is, a reason and an audience of people that this could really matter for, okay. Definitely drive scholarship to pay attention to issues that it might not have. It's possible that people have brought this up in the past, but again, in the past, there was not an environment that really was allowing for such a discussion to you know, occur in that way. But I would definitely say you should ask That question of a Bible scholar who is doing that work. Because they might know some really interesting stuff about it. I can't tell you a definitive answer on that.

Seth Price 1:08:09

I appreciate the honesty.

Matthew K 1:08:10

It definitely is most prominent now because of just the new expectations, the new desire, on the part of LGBTQ people to know what Biblical scholarship has to say that could affect their lives. It definitely has been something brought up again, it may very well be the case that again, you know, the conservatives are right, and isn't really, you know, a different sort of relationship between Jonathan and David. But even if it was, why the heck should that matter? Why the heck should that change anyone's view of those characters? Why should their sexual orientation make a darn difference in regards to who they are as people? That is the essence of homophobia, and that's what drives me so mad and crazy about when people are debating these things.

But of course, you know, I imagine you probably would want to also mention kind of the non literal way in which people are reading those texts, like in Leviticus that talk about, you know, the death penalty for being gay.

Seth Price 1:09:15

I'm a big fan of, and I'm sure you've seen it, maybe you haven't, and if you haven't seen it, I'll find it and I'll send it to you. There's like, it's like a Dear Abby kind of thing from a Canadian newspaper many, many, many years ago. Have you seen this? You know, I'm talking about I think so. It's like, you know, Hey, I heard your issues with homosexuality. So I just got a question. You know, 14-15 whatever questions that's my neighbor. He gets really angry. You know, when I'm out here on the day that I'm supposed to you know, butcher this cattle and he's really upset about the smell and you know, it says that I get to kill him. I'm just curious you know, if you think it's okay. And, you know, what's a good going rate, you know, for my oldest daughter, because, you know, times are tough and my wife won't stop mixing her garments, you know, with she's not doing it right and I just want to know if you think it's fine if I kill her? Because you know I just need to do it you know, I gotta be faithful here really gotta be faithful and I'm badly paraphrasing; it's very tongue in cheek also very funny. I'll see if I can find it I'll send it to you.

Seth Price 1:10:55

Do you have time for one or two more questions I've

Matthew K 1:10:58

Yeah!

Seth Price 1:10:59

I’ve well exceeded my hour that I promised you.

Unknown 1:10:59

No, I'm here for you.

Seth Price 1:11:01

Thank you. I'm so for fear of being heretical because I don't care. I'm gonna read you a part of a right how you open saying no to exclusivity, because when I read it, I literally highlighted it. And I stopped reading, because I was actually kind of afraid to go to the next page. Not because I was worried about what you had to say, mostly because I hadn't really phrased it in the way that you did. And I didn't know what my answer was for myself, if that makes sense. But I think that has to say more about how I view the end times and what the kingdom of heaven looks like and what hell looks like, as opposed to what Christianity is. But here's what you say

there are around 15 million Christians in America, and 25 million worldwide, who identify as evangelical among many widespread beliefs such Christians hold to is one that has a particularly caused unnecessary pain and division both in and outside of the church. What is this harmful doctrine? It is the teaching that being a Christian is the only way to find salvation. Or in other words, get to heaven.

And then you go on to say,

that idea of Christianity is exclusive, barring all other paths, is not new nor is it novel,

and then like to pivot there to the quote at the very beginning, where you just say,

I am the good shepherd. I know my own and my own know me. I have other sheep that are not of this fold.

And that would be Jesus.

I actually have yet to finish that chapter. And so in earnest, what are you getting out there? Because I would like to finish the chapter. But I'm still uncomfortable with answering those questions for myself. And so I'm curious, where are you going with that?

Matthew K 1:12:41

So one of the things that I really wanted to do in this chapter and I think you'll enjoy the chapter. I think it will surprise you in terms of not being…

Seth Price 1:12:55

I just skipped it intentionally, every time.

Matthew K 1:12:57

I think what you kind of probably have noticed in the book is that even on topics that have been done to death, even the homophobia chapter, I am a trying to give a perspective and approach to the issue that has not been beaten to death by other people. I'm trying to give something unique that will help people like yourself to look at an issue with completely new eyes, even if you've heard it 1000 times. Hopefully, like my version of it makes you go, “oh, wow, okay, there's something new here. Like I didn't see that aspect of it. That's interesting”. So in this chapter, what I try to deal with is looking at the entire Bible, from the beginning of the Hebrew Bible to the end of Revelation, examining how God is depicted in relationship to other nations, in terms of how he respects their religious identities, and as well as how revelation understands where the limits of salvation actually are.

So some of the things that are covered are for example, some extremely radical and really cool texts in the Hebrew Bible such as Malachi Chapter One where God tells the Israelites—they had just come back in Malachi from exile, they had rebuilt the temple—and God says, You know what you guys are worshipping so badly. You have so little of your heart in it. You know what, I wish that you would close up the temple, and just stop all your services and just not worship me anymore. Because it is just horrendous! And then he says the most one of the most radical things he says,

Every nation around you gives me perfect praise. They all praise my name and give perfect incense.

And it is just the most shocking text because it's basically saying all these other nations are somehow worshipping me correctly, and you don't and that my name is glorified. Even though obviously like, that means that like when someone's worshiping Marduk like if they have a good heart, they're worshiping Yahweh. It is this remarkable text, so remarkable, that actually translators change it if they're evangelical.

So if you will open up Malachi 1 and if you're not reading the NRSV, or a Jewish translation, if you're not reading a good, really solid Bible scholar translation, you are going to see translators, with their evangelical bias, change the text to “future“. So now it's God says all these nations “will“ give me perfect praise, they “will” eventually give me perfect incense, and there's naturally no justification for that in the Hebrew. That is just them adding that in and the King James Bible did that too. But at least in the King James, they put it in italics. So you knew that that was being added in. But you don't know that necessarily would be an NIV, you don't know that.

So you could Read the Bible in these translations and sometimes for the text that they change, you would have no idea that you were just reading one of the coolest passages because they changed it to something not cool. So like another great example is in Micah 4, where I talked about how Micah has this vision of the New Earth, where he says that all the nations with all their religions are going to come to the temple. And they're going to walk in and YAHWEH going to be in there and he's going to directly speak one on one with all these people. And he's going to teach them his ways is going to teach them how to turn their swords into plowshares his beautiful vision, and then they're going to all leave the temple. And Micah says this remarkable saying he says, well, every nation will continue to march to their God despite their interaction with Yahweh, they'll all call their god their specific name. We Israel, we will come continue to call God correctly as YAHWEH. And the reason it's okay is that all the other nations they'll still call their god whatever name they want, but their ways have been transformed by YAHWEH. So they are now worshipping their gods in the way that Yahweh wants to be worshipped. Even if they can't accept that it's Yahweh who's really their God. So Gods, okay, in Micah, like it's alright, you can keep calling me whatever you want to call me, as long as you can all figure out what my teaching is and start living the way I intended.

So in the Hebrew Bible, you have these examples of just remarkable texts that give you this portrait, a universal portrait of God, who's very particular YAHWEH, but has a universal aim and has a lot of grace towards other people in how they want to identify him as. When you come to Revelation right revelations a book that's just constantly graded as being something that's like a damns everybody you know, the world's going to hell in a handbasket (laughter from Seth). But actually, that's really, really not true for the book of Revelation in fact, the book actually has a number of passages that tell you that the majority of people end up getting saved. I'm not kidding, like there is a “reverse remnant” as some people have described it in Revelation not that there's a remnant, a small people who get saved, a reverse remnan. Like the majority end up getting saved and a small remnant ended up getting screwed over by Satan.

So you have visions over and over again, where you will be told that you know, there's a city of 7000 people, and there's a great earthquake that shakes the city and of course in Revelation, a city is usually representative of the world. So the city falls and a third die and two thirds repentant and are given salvation! And it is like wait a minute! What was the moral of that story? What's the moral of that vision? Two thirds of the world gets saved and one third ends up getting lost wait…that seems like I heard differently by the televangelists. He told me one third gets saved and the two thirds go to hell in a handbasket! So you see this again and again.

Revelation has this terribly violent imagery, you know, oh, look, there's all these locusts and they, these angels go out and slaughter, you know, a third of the earth. But what's amazing is like, how many angels it says go after a third of the Earth it's huge, that number. And the fact that that many angels can only, if you go with the imagery in Revelation, they can only kill that many people on earth. Right? It still means that the vast majority of the Earth has not been touched by this.

And you see this again again. So like, although, the violent imagery can starkly strike you, again and again, Revelation presents this portrait of nope, most people are doing good. Most people repent. Most people choose the right option. And then as you get towards the end of the book, things get even messier with that imagery. Because suddenly you're told, like, oh, there's this great battle. And you know, all the kings of the earth, go to war with the Lord and then they're killed and the birds are eating them and feasts of the gorge. Right. But what did it describe as what killed them? It says that, oh, there was a writer on the white horse. And you know, he was the word of God he had written on his thigh and he had a sword coming out of his mouth. Wait a minute! Te sword he kills people with his the sword of his mouth, but it's the sword that comes from the word of God. So wait, is this really just an allegorical representation of God's teachings putting people to death, right? But then if you're teaching put someone to death, that's kind of like baptism, because that's like you're putting to death the old ways, because there's a new way. And someone can go “wait wait…you're reading too much into that”. But guess what? The kings of the Earth are like the big baddies of the book of Revelation. They're terrible, terrible kings of the earth and the nations those are the two big groups, they're always in the wrong.

And so again, they're supposedly killed and eaten after God kills them with you know the word of Gods sword. Well, guess what happens? The New Earth is made we get the heavenly Jerusalem, and what does it tell us? It tells us and the kings of the earth and the nations will come into the New Jerusalem and their glory will fill it.

What! The! Freak! What's going on‽ They were dead. They've been a stable character in this book, and they just got wiped out and here they are, and their glory fills the people who are the enemy, and the whole book is now suddenly they're filling it? And then that's the kings of the earth, right?

But then you have another reference in the same chapter where it says, “Oh, yeah, and there's the tree of life, and its leaves are for the healing of the nations”. The nations, the other group that died, they're going to get healed through a tree, right! Like, there's, there's so many aspects to the text of Revelation. People have either unfortunately bought into the violent imagery and let that twist their view of God, or they just reject the book and say, lNope, it's just a bad vision”. The truth is, the book itself is chocked full of really complex imagery. It is not asking to be read as just a simple understanding.

Like in the Hell chapter, I talk about revelation how Revelation says that God throws hell into hell. Like that's one of the ideas and he throws Death and Hades into hell. Now, here's an interesting question. How can anybody end up being thrown into hell, if death and hell already got thrown in? Because in Revelation, Hell is not an eternal place it is a lake of fire that's built, it's literally made, at the time of judgment it starts, and then it ends because it gets wiped away with the new earth. So it's like a process here.

So once you get thrown in, except the only people who are told to burn forever and ever in Revelation is, Satan, the False Prophet, and the Beast, those are the three.

Seth Price 1:23:47

I want to clarify all of that. So you're saying all streams, same river, basically? Like all signs point to God, it doesn't matter the faith? I'm not necessarily disagreeing by the way.

Matthew K 1:24:02

Well no. I'm not exactly saying that, no. The reason why I'm not saying that exactly is, for instance, with Micah 4 his vision is not that all the religions on the earth are doing it, right. They're not. That's why they're having wars with each other. It's that YAHWEH is going to teach them all is okay. And they're going to change, right? It's not that they don't know anything. It's not like they've completely they obviously do know some things because Malachi can say that, you know, they're worshipping him perfectly. So clearly, they do know things that allow them to have a relationship with God and understand things. But at the same time, I think like Karl Barth would say, all religions are flawed, including Christianity. We're all screwed up. We're all in need of God to guide us.

So it's not like oh, you know, yeah, all paths will end up getting there as Karl Barth would probably be, you know, pointing out none of the paths are getting to Rome, including our own. You know, it's only by the grace of God that you know, Heaven is coming down for us, we're not going to get there on our own, we're going to just keep wandering.

But the interesting point of kind of like, taking that look in that chapter of all that the Bible has to say, is to understand that the vision it has for humanity is that we're all together in this like in the first chapter on doubt, right. I quote Paul, in 1 Corinthians 13, where what does he say about Christianity? You know,

for now, we see only in part, but then we'll see face to face

right. Most Christians would probably think that that was like, oh, a description of before Christianity. Right before Christianity we saw them in part in the Old Testament and then we got Jesus and now we see face to face. No, no, Paul says what? Faith in Jesus is an enigma. That's the word in Greek that gets translated sometimes “loosely” as like a glass darkly, the word is an enigma. And it works much better as an image for people who know that word. It's a perplexing, distorted image. That's what Jesus is, according to Paul.

And, you know, according to Paul, this distorted, perplexing image is wonderful because before Jesus, we were really in the dark. We had hopes and aspirations; we thought we were going in the right direction, but we didn't have anything concrete to kind of point us. And when we got Jesus, we got a good nudge in the right direction, bbut we didn't necessarily have something concrete.

And I think that like, this kind of comes down to the idea in the Gospel of John of the Holy Spirit. Which is, you know, Jesus saying to the disciples, I am not able to tell you things right now. I can't guide you into all truth right now. But don't worry, the Holy Spirit is going to do that the Holy Spirit is going to guide you into truth that I can't. And not only that, but you're going to do greater things than I'm currently doing. You're going to surpass the enigma, and continue to learn new truths that shed light.

Seth Price 1:27:16

I have 98 more questions, but we don't have 98 more hours, or time, we just don't we don't have more time. So I want to ask you this last question. I actually really want to ask you about why you don't address atheism, specifically, like just say no to all of it. I don't think that look. You can answer it if you want. If not, I'll ask you that larger question that I asked you at the very beginning that's entirely up to you.

Matthew K 1:27:46

I can definitely roll with it.

Seth Price 1:27:48

The question I actually wrote down, I only scripted three actual questions, the rest I have thematically what I wanted to talk about. But my question was, how do we reconcile your book with a view of an atheist? Like, why don't we just take it to its logical fruition? Which then made me question about there's people that call themselves like agnostic Christians. But that's a different thing than necessarily atheists, I think anyway, but how would you address your book or what what do you think you would say to someone in that mentality?

Matthew K 1:28:14

Well, okay, so this is where I get the plug in my sequel that I’m writing. I'm writing a second book, more academic that's called Fighting with God; A Theology of Confrontation.

Seth Price 1:28:27

How many pages if it's more academic? it's

Matthew K 1:28:30

It's already past the word count that this book was.

Seth Price 1:28:36

(Laughter from both)

And it's not lorem ipsum just for typing it out there. It's not just typesetted in there.

Matthew K 1:28:44

No.

So what I'm trying to do here is to take what I wrote here, and this book is very popular, practical, you know, lay introduction to this idea, and I'm just trying to build it into a much more rigorous systematic kind of theology. Like, let's look at this really nitty gritty, let's go into the every possible argument, you can think about this and what could go wrong. So hopefully, when this is finished, if somebody says, “Man, this makes a lot of sense from this book”, they'll read the other book, and they'll say, “Oh, I can take these ideas now and go head to head with the greatest apologetic, theologian, and I will be able to walk circles around them with these ideas”. That's what I'm trying to do there. But part of the project is dealing with atheism. Now, I didn't deal with atheism in this book, and you're actually the only person other than an atheist to ask me about this. So kudos to you that you did.

Seth Price 1:29:55

Okay.

Matthew K 1:29:56

The reason why was, again my goal in writing this book wasn't to try and deal with the question of whether you did or did not believe God, it was to kind of take at face value that in the Bible, all these characters do believe in God this is part of their religion, right? So if Israel, in its very name means those who fight God, if the whole religion of the Bible is built on this foundation of resisting God for the sake of God, then I figured, well, you can't say it's logical to take it to its conclusion that we just reject God altogether. Because the whole religion, apparently, is built on this premise of doing this fighting.

So this isn't something that like we're coming up with as progressive modernists who are like trying to understand Nietzsche so we're coming together to understand how we can reinterpret our Scriptures. No, this is an idea that's been in the Scriptures the whole time. We just have been ignoring it.

So when I wrote this book, I thought, okay, I'm going to just focus on that element. How do I just deal with the internal hermeneutics People who do believe in God and are reading Scripture, or even agnostics who want to understand whether or not Christianity has any truth claims to it. And I think that this book tries to kind of give some reasons to say, yeah, you you, there is another option.

Now, what do I think? Well, in the new book I'm writing and I kind of give a preview of it, what I'm trying to do is kind of, I'm doing a lot of philosophy in this, but definitely delving into some big names and trying to think very carefully about some aspects about this conversation. One of those aspects is this: I don't believe it is possible to be an atheist in the sense that new atheists claim that they think they're doing. So when Richard Dawkins will go ahead and say that you know, I am an atheist. I just do not believe that there are any gods. And I do not believe, and I am against all ideas of gods. And yeah, I don't think that's philosophically possible. Because the way that life and reality works is I can only reject the thing I see. I can't reject something I don't know that exists. So I have to imagine it. I have to conceptualize it. And unless I can do that, I cannot actually make a meaningful, philosophical, statement that says, I reject this.

So if I don't know what hate is, I can't say I reject hate. It's meaningless. I can say the words, but I don't know what hate is so I don't know what I'm rejecting. If I do know what hate is, right, then I must know what its opposite is. If I reject hate, then it means I know what trajectory goes the opposite direction. Because, again, this goes to the idea of implication everything we say imply something that we didn't say, if I say I like you, it means I don't not like you. This is the way language works. We don't think about it, but our brains always hear two things every time we speak.

So again, like we're very specific creatures, I believe Dawkins when he says, “I reject ‘this’ god, I reject this god”. But Dawkins wants to take it a step further and say, as atheist, I can say, I reject all possible gods. And I don't think there is such a possibility, you will always be limited to rejecting a specific god. And the reason you're rejecting that specific god is usually going to be or is often rooted, for some atheists, in moral arguments. You know, so when they say, this is not a God because he does this, this this. The implication of that is often well, so you were really saying that if this God wasn't those things, you wouldn't have that against it. So for some atheists, there's a book out currently that says…like, it's called The Seven Types of Atheism. So when I say that, I mean that, you know, I'm acknowledging that there are many different forms. There's no one atheist and they all fit into that category. Some are pure naturalists who their rejection of God is because they fundamentally believe in materialism, and they don't think that the idea of a spiritual realm can fit within that understanding of the world; and how metaphysics you know, there is no metaphysics it is just physics. That's a different kind of atheist, right? Their understanding is going to be rooted in science. But there are atheists whose views are fundamentally a protest against the images of the divine that they see.

Seth Price 1:34:53

When is this book out?

Matthew K 1:34:55

So I mean, if things go well, I'm hoping by the end of the year.

Seth Price 1:34:59

How many more words, pages do you need?

Matthew K 1:35:03

So it’s at about 110,000 words at the moment. And I think that it's still got probably another 30-40,000 more to go for some some aspects, there are a few chapters I still have at the end that I have to fill out. Yeah, I mean, essentially, you have to kind of look at the fact that there are atheists who are rejecting these images of God. And in that capacity I don't think that they can go beyond that they can't reject things they don't know. So in my opinion, like, you either are an atheist towards specific things, or you're agnostic towards all possibilities. I don't think you can apply atheism towards the possibilities you can only be agnostic. No idea. I haven't seen it. So how would I know?

I think like that's philosophically the truth of like where you need to be if you're atheist write the A in atheist in the Greek can mean “not” but it can also mean “against” it can mean to be against something and many atheists are using it in that sense, where they're like, well, I'm against this religion and here's my reasons. I think that in that respect, they are very much like a Jacob. They are very much like a Moses, they are very much like the Syrophoenician woman, they are seeing a problem with this image, whether it be logical, whether it be moral, and they're saying, “No, I reject this god, this is not who I would worship. This is not who I think makes sense as the creator, and I'm not going to deal with it“.

And in that capacity, there's a lot of resonance between those kinds of atheists and prophetic figures in the Bible. So I think that what Christians and I hope that book will kind of play a role in is Christians need to view atheist as helpful conversation partners, also as potential prophetic voices. To really help them realize like, the prophets could be rash, Isaiah would walk around naked, Ezekiel laid on his side for a year, you know, people do crazy things, okay, who believed in God, right! So if you have an atheist who's angry, and like, this is crap, and this image of God is horrible, right. That can still be a prophetic voice, regardless of what you like or don't like about the presentation of there's real substance to that content that they're pointing out, there's a real problem here. That's a prophetic voice, that just like Jacob rejecting a cursed image, and just like Moses saying, nope, this is evil it needs to be listened to and it can help guide Christians in terms of how they're thinking through these issues, I think.

Seth Price 1:37:51

I referenced it at the beginning so gave you a fair warning, which to be honest, is better than most people have gotten. The first handful of people I just sprung it on them. So this question is my favorite of the year so when you Matthew say, here's what God is, here's why it matters. Like when I say, the divine, or God, whatever word you want to use, what are you actually saying? Like, what is that for you?

Matthew K 1:38:14

God for me, is like, God is what is above what we use the words to describe God. God is a call for us. Like for me personally, God is the God that's spoken of in the Hebrew Bible and the New Testament. It's the God that Jesus Christ comes to show. But God cannot be really accurately confined to those descriptions. I can't just say, look at Jesus. Look at YAHWEH, right? Because what is YAHWEH? It's a continual struggle that Israel has to discover who he is.

And with Jesus, it's the Holy Spirit continuing to guide us into better and more truth. So when I say God, I'm referring to the God that Jesus came to reveal who YAHWEH claimed to be. And at the same time, I'm saying, the best images we have of that God are always an enigma. They're always in part. They're always, like Paul says, with a huge dose of humility. So the God that I'm looking for is both a God that is near and dear and personal, and at the same time, holy other very much something that I am just trying to get my head and grasp around.

Seth Price 1:39:27

Nice. I like it.

Where do people go when they they hear this and they're like, “Okay, this guy knows more things than than I do. And so I want to read more”. Where do they go to either grab your book, learn more about what you're doing, follow you on the places like where would you point people to?

Matthew K 1:39:45

Well, if they haven't been bored yet, (laughter) by going through this very long interview, then I suspect that they will be interested in something else. So that's a good sign that they made it this far.

Seth Price 1:40:02

(Laughter) if you are still here clap once. (More laughter)

Matthew K 1:40:03

They can go to the books website, www.sayingnotogod.com. There's links there to Amazon and Kobo and you know, the gamut of different booksellers pretty much any major place where books are sold the book should be available so they can go there. I also have an author website if they'd like to see different things, articles, etc. Other interviews have linked to this podcast again if they lose it. That's at www.Matthewjkorpman.com. So lots of good stuff there interviews, etc.

If they want to connect on social media, they can find me on Twitter @mkorpman. And they can find me on Facebook, I have a Facebook page Matthew J Korpman. I'm definitely open for community If people want to reach out, they want to ask questions. They want to be like, what is this? What is that? Yeah, I'm down for that. You you think there's somebody out there who should debate me or talk about this issue? I'm fine with having a conversation with anybody. And this is a major thing about me because of my academic training and like humility, about knowing what the limits of knowledge are. I am perfectly fine with somebody saying, Wait, you're wrong. You've got a you missed this. You got this argument bad. Wait, no, I don't agree with that. Great. Give me a good argument; give me a good logic shoot me down like the Syrophoenician woman shot Jesus down and I will be happy and I will change I will recant. I'm fine with that. If you haven't done that, don't expect me to drop everything I think just because you disagree.

Seth Price 1:41:50

Fair enough. Well, thank you again. I have enjoyed your time and I'm sure thank you to your wife as well for for letting me borrow you for y’all’s Valentine's Eve. So I appreciate you.

Matthew K 1:42:03

Thank you so much for having me on. It's been an honor and a really great interview and conversation.

Seth Price 1:42:18

I appreciate it.

I have been at a loss for almost a month on how to end this episode. I found it hard to wrap up all the stuff that we talked about. Matthew just brought so many different concepts and viewpoints that I'm just not really used to entertaining. His book does the same thing. It is 100%, but I just the concept of saying no to God, of recognizing what is the voice of God and just literally saying that doesn't sound like you is not something that I've really entertained a lot. And the way that we say no to oppression and say no to patriarchy, and say no to homosexuality, and say no to fundamentalism, say no to all these different things that don't really bear the image of God. I find that beautiful but really hard, really hard to do and really hard to really communicate well and explain to others. A very special thanks again to Salt of the sSound for the use of their music. If you haven't listened to their stuff you need to more music is coming. I promise I'm almost caught up on all the back catalogue of transcripts. I've already got quite a few things ready to rock and roll on that I just need to find the time to do it right. Be patient with me. But in the meantime, again, thank you to the Salt if the Sound.

I cannot wait for next week for the next episode and I hope that you're blessed.

Strange Negotiations with Brandon Vedder / Transcript

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Brandon V 0:00

You know, it's just like this incredible just like work of what it looks like for human to lose a world view in the moment and, you know, with the emotion and the smoke in the room that music can provide the context that music can provide, that can't be said in lyrics. And, you know, it just was so honest and so helpful. Feeling that, you know, I thought that and especially after reading it kind of in that two hour sit down with the book, you know, as kind of a, you know, documentary kind of format thing in a couple hours, you know, it's just like, this undeniable thing that, you know, there was there was something really helpful happening here. And this was, you know, pre-Trump, you know, pre-kind of the, you know, defined Yeah, like, like the American church hadn't defined itself as specifically as it had after the election, so it just, you know, you kind of knew that there was a lot of cancer in there. But you know, it wasn't obvious on a large scale.

Seth Price 1:21

Everybody, welcome back to the show. I'm excited that you're here. A little bit different type of topic today. So I spoke with Brandon Vedder. Now, Brandon is unlike most of the people that have on the show. He's not a theologians, not really a pastor, and he that he is a filmmaker. He's an award winning filmmaker. What he does is he kind of tours around with different types of people documenting a bit about what that life looks like. At the beginning, we talked about silence and the concept of silence, which really stands out in some places that I wasn't expecting. And then we also talk about idolatry. We talk about music Music, we talk about the church we talk about people leaving the church and the faith and some of those reasons. And we do it all through the lens of an artist called David Bazan, who is and was and now is again, the lead singer of Pedro the Lion.

And if that's an artist or a band that you're used to, I mean, you need to hit pause, go to the show notes, click play for a bit, listen to some of his music. I think it's really going to give context to what you're going to hear today. So I really hope that you like this. I greatly enjoyed talking to Brandon, let's do it.

Seth Price 2:53

Brandon Vedder Welcome to the podcast. excited to talk with you really actually excited. I don't know if it was you or Keith Giles, that gave me permission to watch the screener version of Strange Negotiations. And then it was definitely me that didn't watch it and try to contact you before it aired real time. So apologies for that.

Brandon V 3:15

No apologies needed.

Seth Price 3:16

Thank you for your generosity, or Keith’s I'm not sure whose generosity I really enjoyed it. So welcome to the show. Yeah, yeah.

Brandon V 3:23

Thanks for having me, stoked to be here.

Seth Price 3:26

So I always start with the same question because I like it. And it's a good way for me to kind of figure out what I'm allowed to ask you or not. So what would you want people to know about you like, what is kind of your story? And then we'll kind of dovetail that into, like, how you got in to doing documentaries, like why that matters. And why strange negotiations?

Brandon V 3:47

Yeah, you know, that's such an interesting question, because it's kind of like nondenominational in its approach, where it's usually like a professional question, you know, like, about, you know, as a filmmaker or whatever. So yeah, it kind of opens the scope up quite a bit more.

Seth Price 4:13

It's almost like hundreds of these.

Brandon V 4:16

Right. Yeah. You know, I think I'm really interested in trying to kind of unravel mysteries within myself and the things that I've kind of encountered in life and in the communities that I've been a part of, in a personal way, you know, in hopes that that's helpful for others, you know?

I was doing an interview for the last film. Actually, when I was in production on this film. I did this interview with this journalist who had went back and watched all my other films and noticed this movement towards spirituality in the films, you know, as because I started making concert films and you know, touring with rock and hip hop acts, and shooting concert films, and then kind of got more into social issues stuff. And then, you know, made a film about silence and humans relationship with sound you know, in a very, it's kind of, you know, more experimental walking through that to this film. I think that that's, you know, like we the things that translate the best of the things that you're really interested in and that you have a stake in and you personally have, you know, maybe some some demons to deal with. So, yeah, that's kind of that's been my approach just, you know, trying to figure out the things that that kind of turned me on and and go after those things in hopes that other people you know can be helped by them.

Seth Price 6:13

Would you call yourself religious you because you talked about you know filming and kind of searching for like I forget how you said it that's I'm badly doing this you know where you know there's something in the work that you're doing this kind of speaking to something that's going on like are you religious now or are you just really like music? How do you get there?

Brandon V 6:33

Yeah, you know, faith has always been this just the most interesting thing period to me. It's this kind of superpower you know like it is so uniquely human. It is the thing that sets us apart and it can be the best thing and the most beautiful expression of humanity, and it can also be the very, very worst.

It allows us to be our best (and) to be our worst. It allows us to imagine the most beautiful things and the most terrifying things and do those things. So, you know, to me like that’s storytelling. Yeah, you just there, you can't pull them apart. And so, you know, I've always just been so interested in kind of people's expressions of faith and if someone is willing to die for something, or someone's willing to give their life to the study of something like that feels worth it to me. To at least engage with a little bit and, you know, try to kind of understand.

But yeah, you know, in terms of the faith that we deal with in this film, kind of the American evangelical tradition. I wasn't, you know, like, grew up, you know, kind of church, Jason had a had a pretty. I was born in Chicago. And, you know, we ended up out in California after a while, but had kind of a pretty tumultuous upbringing. So it was more, you know, survival then, you know, like trying to get to church every week or whatever. And it wasn't until we kind of landed in this sleepy town in northern California. Later in high school that I got involved in, like a youth group and, you know, started to this version of the things started to be laid out in front of me in a way that I found pretty compelling.

And so that that started the journey and you know, it's definitely been a…Yeah, there's always there's always been things about this expression of it that has made me deeply uncomfortable and just doesn't seem like the point. It's a hard thing to just kind of whole hog be like yeah this is my tradition. This is how I view the world because it's not that simple but there's also so much about it that that I do see and you know it's been interesting with turn this film people you know asking just straight up and you know in front of a 300 person audience like what do you believe right now?

Seth Price 9:31

You personally?

Brandon V 9:33

Yeah at a q&a after the screening.

Seth Price 9:35

Oh, that's not fair. That's too many people there to have a good time. I mean, unless everybody knew going into it you most importantly, this is what we're going to talk about. That seems like an unfair question. I might would ask you that on this show. I'm not going to By the way, but I take that back. The last question that I asked, I'm asking everyone this year is gonna be like when you say the word God, what do you mean?

So you go ahead and get that in the back of your head. Yeah. So I have a question. What the heck is a concert film? Like? Is that the same thing as a documentary? Is that a music? Like what? What is it? I don't know what that means.

Brandon V 10:09

Yeah, you know, it's really just, you know, kind of like, what's that channel on TV that just plays concert films…

Seth Price 10:17

VH1?

Brandon V 10:19

No, it's like, what the heck is it called, but it's just a live. You know, it's just like a capture of a live show.

Seth Price 10:25

So like Coachella. But all day every day.

Brandon V 10:27

Yeah, yeah, totally. And so it's like, you know, I did one for Pearl Jam. And it's like, Pearl Jam live at the garden, you know? So it's like, f specific show that, you know, was special in some way. And, you know, we decided to release because of something.

Seth Price 10:47

That’s cool. I told Spotify to play me good music on the way home today from church actually. And that's what it played. I listened to Alive from Pearl Jam. I can't remember the name of that album. It's pink…is it 10 is that the name of that?

Brandon V 11:05

Oh, yeah, that's me first record.

Seth Price 11:07

Yeah. Oh man. I was like it literally started. I was like, I can't…and just cranked it because it's 70 here in Virginia today, I just rolled the windows down jammed like it was a summer, really into I forgot how good the song was. Anyway, I didn't mean to talk about Pearl Jam, but it's not often that that anyway, right. Yeah, it works. It works. Well. Spotify is learning me a bit too, too well. I have a question about silence. So I want to relate it back to why you think silence holds so much tension in the relationship, especially when we think about God. But prior to that, I just recently listened to a different podcast called 20,000 hertz. I don't know if you're familiar with that show or not. It's literally by a guy from America somewhere in America. His name is Dallas Willard, but I don't want to say he's from Dallas, because I'm sure he's not Dallas Taylor Dallas Willard. dollar. Yeah, any is he runs defacto sound I think is the name of his company which like does like music and stuff for movies and video games and…but in one of his first episodes is here's why the NBC chime works. And here's the story behind the NBC chime.

And apparently there's a fourth note that they play like when the President declares a national emergency like there's like a fourth, instead of boom, boom, boom…there's a fourth note, which basically means, like, get to the TV. World War four is happening. kind of thing.

Brandon V 12:33

Oh man, I love those old school broadcasts were like those little things.

Seth Price 12:39

He’s done so many different episodes. It's called 20,000 hertz I think it's the last thing that you can hear on the spectrum. There's one called 4‘33. So it's four minutes and 33 seconds. That's composed…Are you familiar at all with this song?

Brandon V 12:52

Yeah, John Cage is the composer. And, so the film In Pursuit of Silence we kind of you know, profile five or six different people's pursuit after silence

Seth Price 13:10

Was Cage in the film or Cage’s work?

Brandon V 13:12

Yeah, yeah. Well, you no, he's, he's, he's passed now but we his story and his kind of finding of silence because, you know you started off as this crazy ass noise musician, you know, just like this avante guard, you know…

Seth Price 13:33

programmed pianos that what was called something like that.

Brandon V 13:36

Yeah, just you know, like all these patch bays and all this crazy shit.

And he, you know, when he found silence, that was this really kind of specific era in his life. You know, and and everyone says that, that he kind of never stopped smiling after he found and forged a relationship with silence and kind of you know, the, the understanding that it's always there that it's, you know, this, this kind of beautiful bath, that that we get to enjoy. Regardless of whether we are cognizant of it or not, but just, you know, it was kind of like God for him. Where it's like, there is this this Omni presence of silence that, you know, we're breaking it, you know, hopefully only you know when it's important.

But yeah, so him and his journey toward silence. It started with him kind of stepping into this thing called an anechoic chamber, which just kills any sound reverberation and it's maddening. I didn't know actually that I had tinnitus into you know, which is crazy ringing in your ears from all the concert stuff until I went into an anechoic chamber and was like, “Oh, dude, so out loud”.

Yeah, so yeah, he was a big part of it, you know, there was we spent a lot of time with a monk, a Trappist monk in Iowa, and then a Buddhist monk in Japan. You know, a guy that it was his job for the National Park Service to preserve the natural quiet of the parks with kind of the power of the government behind him. In terms of just like, creating, you know, or maintaining what this piece of land always sounded like. Someone said, just like

Seth Price 15:38

So what is that just a perpetual guy that drives around saying “get off my lawn. Get out of here!”

Brandon V 15:44

Pretty much

Seth Price 15:46

(Laughter from both) Thats a great job “you get out of here, you’re too loud!” I want that job!

Brandon V 15:52

Oh, dude. It's amazing. Yeah, that was an incredible experience and just like, such a rad, nerdy thing to be able to kind of travel over and see these people that are so committed to this pursuit. Yeah, this kid walked across the United States over a year in silence. He was one of the guys in the film and kind of…

Seth Price 16:22

I’m gonna have to watch it. I was not like that other production company that you talked to where I watched everything else. I didn't do that. But that sounds. So when I listened to that was actually folding laundry or ironing clothes.

I'm that guy that like iron the shirts for the whole week because then I get like 10 more minutes of sleep time, if that makes any sense? And I had on like, a nice set of speakers on my on my ears. And, and at the end of that podcast episode, he's like, Alright, so we're going to do four minutes and 33 seconds, you're gonna listen to it in its entirety. But because we're so uncomfortable with silence, I'm going to tell you right now you're going to have two minutes and nine seconds of silence and then you become back on for a quick second. Now 30 more seconds. And he’d come back and, he's like, and this will be the last time you hear from me. We'll talk to you next week. Don't-Don't hit, don't hit stop finish with it. And I was really uncomfortable with it because I come down to the basement, the mess of a basement that you saw earlier. And, like I tried to do like the exam and and other things, but even down here in the hole, it's still not silent. You know what I mean? It's not silence.

Brandon V 17:25

Yeah, no, it's crazy. I mean, we we go further on that when we premiered the film at South by Southwest from your home state. And we got musicians to perform for 4’33 before every screening, so interesting because so we would have them, you know, do kind of like this palate cleansing piece of music, nothing lyrical or whatever, but just kind of like Yo, sit down, chill out, and then go into 4’33. You know, anywhere from You know, like a quartet to like this crazy ass rock band to this MC. And like, just, there's this…there's such a fascinating energy that happens in a room. You know, when you're silent for four minutes and 33 seconds, you know, it's like, because you get really uncomfortable. There's just tension. Yeah. And then you get over it and then you get uncomfortable again, and then you get angry.

And then you know, like, but it points back to you. Which is, you know, the thing that I think is so genius about it. And so genius about kind of, you know, at first I thought it was bullshit, like when I was just like this art school, blah, blah, blah, before I really knew much about John Cage. And then when I realized it, that you know, when or when we started doing it, I just realized this incredible power. And just the uniqueness of that moment where, literally, some people will never have the experience to be in community and silence That one their entire lives.

Seth Price 19:03

The most current film; I didn't realize how long we've been talking, but what that's talking about that but I've enjoyed it. So is it Strange Negotiations? And so it kind of follows what is it four years? Five years? 10 years? How many years? Were you following? Four years of the life?

Brandon V 19:17

Yeah, like three years, two and a half years. And it took about four years to make it all.

Seth Price 19:23

Yeah, so the life of Dave Bazan, which if people don't know that name, he is the, I guess the voice, of Pedro the Lion, which is a fantastic band, and many people know that band. I don't think as many people know, David, because you kind of check out when people stop singing things that you want to hear. Because you can do that you just turn the dial on the radio.

So what possesses a person, Brandon, to go you know what I want to do? I want to jump in this little car and just ride around with this guy. Like what possesses somebody to want it like why? Why David? Why?

Brandon V 20:01

Yeah, no, it's it's a really good question because it is, it's so hard to make. It's so hard to make an independent film, you know, something that, that people aren't clamoring for, you know, something that people aren't asking you to do that you just are kind of like through the sheer will of force, you're going to push into this world and talk people into the fact that they need to see this. Um, so yeah, like it, it was. Yeah, it's a hard decision because, you know, my other films, I've had more collaborators making the other films and they've taken, you know, three or four years each.

And so I can, you know, I knew what I was getting into to a certain extent, so I had to be really, really sure about it. And also just like, the the weight that it has on my family and finances, personal health and blah, blah, blah, but You know, I was finishing in pursuit of silence, and was kind of sensitive about what what was kind of next and where I was interested in going next.

We were living in LA at the time, and I had this shoot in Mexico. And so I just grabbed some podcasts, you know, earlier in the days of podcasts. And this guy, Pete Holmes, this comedian. And he had David on the podcast, and, I remember Pedro the Lion, you know, and I had, I had a couple of their records growing up high school and stuff, and then kind of lost track. And but I remember, you know, him singing these hymns. And I just, you know, I remember that there being this kind of like, really fascinating depth to what he was doing. You know, when I came across it in high school, because that's kind of when I started to have my own kind of understanding of the existential.

So it had a good connotation right away. And then, you know, they had this hour long conversation that Dave walked through this journey, and walked through this world view with this candor, and kind of a reverence, but but, you know, personally irreverent, systematically irreverent, maybe or politically irreverent,

Seth Price 22:27

Probably all the above.

Brandon V 22:29

Yeah, you know, in a way that I had just never heard before, you know, he tells the story of after he lost, you know, kind of officially, you know, let go of his faith. This, you know, these panic attacks that he would have at night, where he felt like God was coming to him and threatening his kids to eternal damnation. The stuff that people just don't you know, don't really talk about, you know, kind of like, but yeah, so anyway and then there was just this beautiful love for this community. It wasn't kind of like this, you know, Hitchens or Harris or you know, new atheists kind of like “you're an idiot if you believe you know, you're a lemming blah blah blah opiate for the masses”. It was very much like you know, he just embraced the tension of losing his worldview in a way that was crazy.

So anyway, super just kind of caught on fire by that thing, that conversation I went home actually and downloaded and put together all of his lyrics in just kind of like a homemade book on you know, eight and a half by 11 paper so I could read you know, in time this guy's life and you know, his artistic expression of this losing of worldview. Because it's all there, you know, from the beginning as a, you know, a guy that thought he was going to be a pastor, you know, to the end where, you know, he is probably closer to an atheist than he is now.

And so, you know, it's just like this incredible work of what it looks like for human to lose a worldview in the moment and, you know, with with the emotion and the smoke in the room that music can provide, the context that music can provide. That can't be said in lyrics. And, you know, it just was so honest and so helpful feeling that, you know, I thought that and especially after reading it kind of in that two hour sit down with the book, you know, as kind of a, you know, documentary kind of format thing in a couple hours.
You know, it's just like this undeniable thing that, you know, there was there was something really helpful happening here. And this was, you know, pre Trump, you know, pre kind of the, you know, defined. Yeah, like, like the American church hadn't defined itself as specifically, you know, as it had after the election. So it just, you know, you kind of knew that there was there was a lot of cancer in there, but you know, it wasn't it wasn't you know, obvious.

Seth Price 25:38

Thats the biggest understatement I've heard today. Kind of knew that there was a cancer. That's, that's a good way to put that I'm taking that I'm making it I'm not even gonna give you credit because nobody will know.

Brandon V 25:52

Man do it. That's that's a comment on your podcast, not on…laughter

Seth Price 25:58

Yeah, fair enough. So either way, I'll say I heard a guy say and I like it. That's what I'll say. Yeah.

Brandon V 26:04

Yeah. Yeah. So yeah, it was, you know, it was it that that kind of started this thing where it was like I think that there's, I think that there's a feature documentary version of this thing that's really helpful. That starts some conversations that I want to have. And I'd like to see other people having as well.

Seth Price 26:41

Just recipe questions for making a documentary. So I mean, just in recording the podcast like I thought about all the junk I'd have to carry around with me just to do this. I'd have to actually add another Mic like if it like literally, all the junk and so I thought to myself, as You are in, you're in people's houses. And if people don't understand what I'm about, then just go rent the movie because I'm going to talk like you've seen it. And if you haven't, that's your problem, and you should buy it or rent it, and then come back and finish the episode.

Because I have seen it, so we're gonna go with that. So you're in people's houses, like how do you do you have to get like expressed permission? Or is that just like everybody that bought a ticket tonight, by the way, I got a guy in the back, he's filming a thing. Just ignore him or in like, in the back of the car. Like I found myself. Like, I know that people don't talk to themselves the way that David was talking to himself in the car. Like when I talked to myself in the car, I don't speak in the second or third person like I just usually talk at the other people a like, like, logistically, how do you make that sausage like, like, you have to have waivers or like, all the things, how does that even work?

Brandon V 27:48

Totally. Well, I knew from the very beginning, approach wise that I didn't want to kind of rely on on more traditional documentary methods in terms of like sit down interviews and, you know, just, you know that I wanted to take a more narrative approach to it and more kind of in the moment fly on the wall Veritate approach. Where things are just unfolding in front of us because that's, that's really what was happening, you know, it was, it was really dangerous from the very beginning. Or was it was a fine balance, to make sure that it didn't feel prescriptive or suggestive in any kind of definite way. That the truth was, this is a dude that has embraced the tension of his life in many different ways.

Spirituality being one of them, this existence as a middle class musician in a dying kind of, you know, economy musically being one of them. You know, the negotiations between family and Baba blah, you know, all these things were being negotiated in the moment. And so it was really important to set myself up in a way to be able to just be sensitive and be interacting with those things and be able to fit through kind of any space.

And so, you know, the first tour that we did with the house shows, you know, and the house shows it very quickly, it became clear that this was the setting of the film. You know, this was his desert. He had kind of, he had, he was out in the desert trying to trying to find his way back and how shows were this desert. It was also an incredibly interesting environment where it's just like, you set up this pop up show and people come sit on your dirty carpet, or your Parents couches, with your memorabilia around and no one can be too cool in that setting. You’re peeing in someone else's toilet, you know, toothbrushes right there.

You know it's a really disarming kind of interesting thing. And Dave made the most of that in a way where he used that to help create this inclusive environment where people felt this Bible study-ish, you know, in the way that it goes down. And so, so yeah, on that first trip that we kind of did, actually, we we played a show in Lynchburg, Virginia, which is in the film.

Seth Price 30:42

So time-out. I was at that show. I'm not in your film way.

Brandon V 30:45

No way!

Seth Price 30:46

Yeah. So I went to liberty. When it popped up. I was like, that looks familiar. So I started scrolling back through Facebook. And I'm like, son of a!!!. Yeah, I was at the show. But again, I'm big fan of David and yes.

Brandon V 31:00

This goes into your question. Did you have any idea that I was shooting?

Seth Price 31:04

No, no, I don't remember that. But I'm always that guy that stands right next to the back door. Even now. So that I can just kind of leave without talking anybody at the end, whereas I don't really want too. Yeah. Which is weird considering I do this in my free time now. But there's a certain safety knowing that you're on the other side of the continent.

Brandon V 31:25

Well, but I think that that's an interesting thing, where it's like, and I think it answers your question to a certain extent; in a way in a way that's encouraging for me to hear is the idea was to be totally invisible in these things and even though there were three cameras going at the same time, and you know, I had a snake of XLR is going from them back to where I was recording it and a set of, you know, stereo mics in the background. The idea was that it does not change the audience experience whatsoever.

Seth Price 31:58

Well I think as well so I got used to at Liberty when they would bring bands, like filming was just a thing that bands did. So, like I think, I don't know what I remember thinking anything, but I know what I'm thinking now like, Oh yeah, they're filming. Okay, so is everybody else on their phones. You know.

Brandon V 32:17

Totally so totally. And that's kind of the nice thing about this era is like, no one has to know that it's anything more than just kind of personal archive. And so anyway on that first tour, which was in 2015, I actually had a another DP out with me a cinematographer, friend of mine. And it was incredible because we were able to really kind of strike the visual language of the film together. And it was so helpful to have him out there.

That was the last time I really had anyone else out. We shot for another two years. Because it's such a intimate thing, you know, like, everything in the film is so intimate in, in hotel rooms, in cars, you know, it's like, I'm always an arm's length away from Dave. And so I couldn't have a guy with a boom pole sitting over Dave. I had to figure out sound. The logistics of it was a nightmare—total nightmare; and, and it was like it kind of bonded Dave and I, and he's told me since in some of these q&a is after the screening that like that was kind of watching me lug in and out more gear than he had to every time kind of made him think that I was for real.

Seth Price 33:56

Did he offer to help?

Brandon V 34:00

No, which is good. That's the thing like he didn't ask me to make a film about him, it was very much like these two separate things happening and I wanted to keep myself separate from what he was doing. And he was varying levels of uncomfortable at what I was doing. So he wasn't really talking to the audience about what I was doing. I would get a hold of the person that had the house beforehand, and get their clearances and all that stuff. And it's easier to do groups. So you just, you know, you put a notice on the door as everyone walks in, and they're releasing their image at that point. When people would get into big conversations, you know, I would, I would have them sign a waiver afterwards. You know, kind of was a little bit more than just a general one.

And then the car stuff, you know, so it was between you know, podcasts and this kind of time in the car is what took the place of what usually would be like a sit down interview and the idea in the car which was also a nightmare because it's just the worst place, technically production wise, to do something like that you need pristine sound and picture and you're literally hurling through the world at 70 miles per hour changing you know, lighting and sound, you know, situations and, you know, but I a shitload of research beforehand and just found…I'm sorry, am I (allowed to say shit..)

Seth Price 35:45

You're good. I mean, we're 40 minutes in…but you're good. No, it's totally fine.

Brandon V 35:54

Okay. It's all been very tame thus far in terms of that.

Seth Price 35:59

You can say whatever you like.

Brandon V 36:02

So yeah, the idea there was, homeboy is in this driver's seat for longer than anywhere else he is in his life. This is his kind of homeostasis like, this is his thinking spot. This is, where he is most comfortable. And we would have these six, you know, 6-7-8 hour drives from show to show, and I knew that I didn't want to interview him.

I was very careful to not ask questions, because I didn't want answers in a specific tense. I didn't want an answer. It was just, it was starting conversation, because the idea was just to open the front of Bazan’s head and let the audience into this kind of process, the kind of work that he's doing out on the road.

And I had no idea if it was going to work. And I had no idea if it was going to be enough. But, you know, to the chagrin of some of the people kind of, on the outskirts of the film, I was pretty hard nosed about not doing interviews or doing interviews with anyone else from the band or his family, or, you know, it was a singular perspective film, for better for worse. That's just what it was.

Seth Price 37:27

Well, I liked that. So specifically, like, I would watch him talk with his kids, you kind of hear and talk with his wife. And like, there's just a brokenness in his voice that you also hear when he's singing. Like it just…it just made it. I mean, we've all been there—like I have to travel for work every once in a while or I mean, most of my family's in Texas like you know, there's just distance destroys things.

Brandon V 37:52

Well, and that's the thing where it's just like I'm I, I just have so much faith in humans as empathizers you know, and just emotionally intelligent people that can pick that shit up, you know that, that that there is so much nuance and…

Seth Price 38:11

I mean kids aren’t watching the movie, it should be adults.

Brandon V 38:15

Yeah. You know, it's, it's just in pauses in the conversation in you know, like, and and that's so much so much more of a complete and powerful telling of their relationship at that moment than it would be if I was interviewing his wife and like, how do you how's your guys's marriage? You know, like, it's all there in reality, and obviously, you know, it's not the full picture, but I think, you know, I think that they would agree that that you know, that I know that they agree that it's it's an accurate representation.

Seth Price 38:51

There's a question. So I wrote a few things that David said, and I'm curious, your opinion on that, because you don't really have an opinion in the film at least, not really. So there's two things that I wanted to ask you about so one of them David says towards it at that there's an attempt to sloganize the Christian culture. And then what does he say after that? Like apparently Yeah, he's like you know it's not a pruning issue it's a rip the whole tree down and burn it, most of Christianity is apparently cool with idolatry. But I'm curious your take on that, like when you hear David, or when someone says that to you, you know, “Brandon, stop sloganizing Christian culture and you kind of named it earlier, but I'd like you to drill to just drill there. What does that mean?

Brandon V 39:44

Yeah, you know, I think that we our brains and our, you know, our way of communication compartmentalizes and breaks things down in a way that sloganizes things and in a really helpful way, in terms of breaking down really complex ideas and can be in a really dangerous way as well. Where literally, the only important things are left out of these kind of axioms or retellings or… The point is lost very easily the nuance, you know, and that's the thing about the, the faith that Jesus Christ put forward, in my estimation is that it's just all in the nuance, you know, and it and it is so it's such a holistic kind of just approach, world view, that you know, like, it yet becomes really dangerous to sloganize, things into, you know, kind of market things.

But that's also human nature. So it's not this kind of like, crazy evil thing, I think that we in, in trying to understand things, we're, we're, you know, putting things in specific boxes and trying to break them down. When it comes to this question of idolatry, I really, really resonated with that, so he talks about that, because we watch, we watch him in real time, you know, and a factor of the film is that we're kind of traveling with Dave, as you know, the 2016 primaries are happening for the presidential election.

And all the way through the actual election and that was happening in real time. And we were, you know, really listening to that stuff on the radio. And the only way that I didn't, I thought that I could even mess with that is just like, if it was wholly personal if it was just, you know, like, it wasn't political, that it was about Dave's very personal experience with this thing.

And what that ended up being when Trump did get elected was this incredible feeling of, of, you know, like there's this cognitive dissonance there was this betrayal, because everything that he had been taught growing up by all of the people that taught him how to be a human was not being considered in one of these most important decisions in this American experiment.

And he was really hurt, you know, and he took it really personally. And it wasn't just like, You know, the republicans It was like, you know, the specific people in his mind that he felt really betrayed by. And so, you know, him characterizing that this kind of ability to vote against everything that that that you purportedly are about, for one or two issues as idolatry, I thought was was so fascinating. Because it's kind of turning this language of this culture back on itself in a really interesting way that hopefully people can understand and there is a check to it, where it's like, “oh, yeah”, like if we're willing to do whatever for to gain this specific thing. Then that's idolatry.

Seth Price 44:00

Right, that is what your worshipping.

Brandon V 44:01

Yeah, right, we are worshipping these things. And we think that we know better than the balance of whatever we believe in. And we're tipping the scales. And we're looking over things. And you know that's just not how balanced is talked about in the Bible.

So yeah, a long rambling way of saying I, you know, I thought it was helpful.

Seth Price 44:29

Yeah, there were, there's Gosh, I'm trying to read the lines 1,2,3 like…26 like things. So when I watch the screening, I started it on the, on the TV, because I'm pretty sure you email said, many people find something and they say, many people find it feel like open this up here and then play it. It just it works better on a bigger TV. But then I found myself needing to do other things. And so I pause it, fire up the laptop, move it to where I'm doing my thing and then carry it around the house with me.

And I just opened up a notepad and just kept typing into it. I resonated a lot with what with it with what David kept talking about. So I appreciate your ability to get him to be candid, yeah that’s the right word there.

So I two more questions for you. The first one is one that I alluded to a minute ago. So when you, Brandon, not Brandon's view of what David thinks, or your wife or your, whatever, when you say you, here's what God is, like, when I say the divine God, whatever you want to call it, use whatever metaphor you like, what do you actually mean? Like if you were trying to explain it to, I don't know, 10 year old or a 15/25 year old, whatever, doesn't matter.

Brandon V 45:42

Yeah, that's man, that's such a hard question. And I think, I'm so thankful that it gets to continue to evolve with us and that we can continue to be in process. So my answer to that today is so, so different than it would have been before this film or before I had, you know, my two girls or whatever and that's beginning to already answer the question is that kind of this unfolding version of what is possible in humanity and on this planet and, you know, in between each other. I think more recently, I have the kind of revelation of nature and self has weighed heavier to me than the revelation of Scripture.

And I've been in a process of kind of rebalancing these things. And that's the thing to me I think that it is…I believe I believe Jesus is who He said He was. I believe that; at risk of sounding super hippie and you know, that it is a balance you know that that's that's kind of what I think of when I think of it is just harmony and that expression through Jesus Christ and his his life here on earth. That expression through you know, all the revelations that we are surrounded by our gut, you know, all these things. But it comes back down to harmony and I think that love is possible in harmony. That's kind of the, the action version of God is love and the kind of passive version is this harmony.

Seth Price 48:12

Yeah. Love it. Love it. Thank you for that. I'm aware of how small, small that that question is so…

Brandon V 48:22

Well, it's good because people go wherever they go.

Seth Price 48:25

Yeah, I have yet to get the same answer yet. Yeah, there have been some answers that I'm like, I wasn't expecting that. That's beautiful. And other answers, you know, depend on the person. I like. Yeah, I like the way you said it. I kind of expected that. I won't tell them that. But other ones. I like that. I was, dude. I was actually taking notes or took notes. Yeah. Which actually with you, I did.

So the thing I wrote down was forging a relationship with silence. I'm gonna have to wrestle with that a bit. I like that a bit. But anyway, so, in closing, there's a lot in the film. And there's a lot that's hard to talk about in the film, because I find myself unable to voice some of my questions well. Partly because I see myself and I think a lot of people that watch the film are going to kind of relate to it and be like, I've been there, if I'm honest, I've been there. And if I'm honest, I'm still there. I fake it every time I go to church. Really, I'm really good at faking it because I know the language. So I can do that. So in closing, like, if there's something I didn't say, or something like, you know what, as you watch the film, here's what you need to hear. I wanted to give you like that last moment, like, Is there anything at all that you're like, yeah, I really would like to say this, and you don't have to if there's nothing.

Brandon V 49:46

No, I think that that's the goal, as a filmmaker and this kind of expression of art is that this thing can stand alone and that there there need no context or scaffolding that you need. That there's enough in there, and there's enough kind of threads of humanity, you know, that people can interact with, with something in a way that feels honest, even to the point where, you know, I hope, and was, you know, tried really hard to make a film that that was clear that you don't need to know who David Bazan is it any relationship with his music or anything like that, that this is the every man that just happens to be incredibly gifted at expressing himself as an orator and as a musician. And his life looks a lot like the way he talks so.

Seth Price 50:51

So where do people go so it's in iTunes, it's, it's probably at a website, I'm not sure where, like, where would you send people to, and then also your other films. I'm going to watch The one on silence, not today. It's late. Yeah.

Brandon V 51:04

For sure, yeah. I'm super interested to hear your thoughts on that. So yes, Stange Negotiations is on iTunes, it's on Amazon. It's on Vimeo. It's you know, pretty much wherever you you know, interact with stuff we haven't figured out the streaming thing yet you know, in terms of a Netflix or Hulu type thing, but for purchase and rental it's available on all those sites the the website is strangenegotiationsfilm.com. You know, all the socials are super easy to find. You know, and there's a lot of really interesting conversation around the film on those socials.

Yeah, and then you know, the past films, you know, in pursuit of sounds which which I made with Patrick Shin and the film before that The Source also with the Patrick Shin, they're both available on iTunes and yeah, I'm trying to think of the short films are on Vimeo. Yeah. And yeah, you know, don't let the internet guide Yeah. Just, I'm pretty it's all pretty easy to find.

Seth Price 52:22

Fair enough. Cool. Well Brandon, thank you. I've enjoyed it and thank you again for letting me watch the flick and and for your time tonight, I appreciate it.

Brandon V 52:31

I really appreciate you spending the time with it and shining light on it. You know, this may you know making art and trying to put it out into the world in this kind of independent way is is so difficult and I think now it's so much more helpful to be able to interact and engage with with a thinker like you with with a platform that you've curated with an audience. You know, rather than Facebook ads or you know, putting a snowboard up For some dumb thing that, you know, it's just like, there's so much noise out there that, you know, for you to, you know, engage in it thoughtfully and and have these questions and, you know, show your audience a bit of this. I'm super thankful for that.

Seth Price 53:15

That's my pleasure.

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Matthew Distefano is Devoted as F*ck / Transcript

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Matthew 0:00

I'm just saying like the term Christian has become so I don't wanna say watered down but it's become so meaningless like we can be just as victimizing and call ourselves Christian. And we think that when we, we take the communion, the bread and the wine, that somehow like this does, this has just like a salvific thing for me. I think it's about instead of having an altar of sacrifice, where we continually put each other on, or a cross, we come together at its table, and we eat together. And when we do that, we do it even with Judas, like we don't victimize. Like we refuse to enter into that rivalry that others are doing to us. It's less about, for me, the term Christian, and more about what does that mean? It means to follow the way of Christ. It means to be forgiving, offensively forgiving.

Seth Intro 1:16

Hey everybody how you doing? Welcome back to the show. I'm Seth, you're listening to the Can I Say This At Church podcast and I'm excited about that we're going to do it together.

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Every week, a few more people join in and it's man, it's really exciting. I'm, I love that community. I love the people there. And I'm so thankful for those of you that find value in the show, and help continue to be a part of it. So click that button. Let's do it together.

Today, what you'll hear slightly different conversation. So Matthew wrote a book, a devotional, as he goes through the year and to be honest, it's not something that I thought that I'd really see from Matthew, but I have enjoyed reading it. I've continued to read it this conversation because I am as busy as the next person. We recorded this like January like New Year's or maybe the day after New Year's or somewhere in there.

And so it's been like two months since I had this conversation. And as I listened back and edited it, I really liked where he's going with it and I have continued to read it every day because I don't do alot of devotionals but I really enjoyed this one.

So here's what you can expect. So we're going to talk a bit about Matthew, about how he sees God. And we're gonna talk about the concept of scapegoating and briefly touch on mimetic theory and the role of a prophet.

I mean really we cover a lot of ground. And so thank you for listening and let's roll the tape with Matthew.

Seth 3:41

Matthew Distefano, welcome to the Can I Say This At Church podcast! How are you doing man?

Matthew 3:46

I'm doing well. Thank you. Thank you for having me on. I'm excited.

Seth 3:50

Yeah. Are you really are you?

Matthew 3:53

No, I am. Yeah, this is as excited as I get like I'm pretty even keel like. You might not tell it in my face, but I I'm excited to talk with you.

Seth 4:01

I was accused of that the other day I, a friend of mine sent me a link to a Will Ferrell SNL. He gets like a monotone voice skit that I had never watched. And he's like, I swear, Seth, this is you. Because I just I usually am always the same tone. For the most part. I'm a louder tone or a lower tone. But I hardly ever break tone. And he's like, you're just ridiculous. But yes, I get that as well.

Matthew 4:25

That's okay. My best friend Mike who I do a podcast with. He's even like, he's like straight, just like that. Like it's pretty much baseline all the time. So it's all good news. I'm used to it. I'm that way myself. So yeah, it should be an exciting one folks!

Seth 4:44

Hold on to your seats, it’s gonna be a ringer!! But I find that you can get away with a lot more sarcasm and puns when you have a deadpan face because people don't know how to take it so they have to think about it. So and they have to pay attention, because it's not like they can read you. Well tell us about you; what makes you, you?

Matthew 5:05

Oh God, we're all, we're all so unique. We're all so much the same too. So that's an odd question. Like, of course I'm a product of my environment from my upbringing, my current cultural and religious or maybe more non religious context now these days. But yeah, I mean, what me specifically I, I mean for work, I do social work because I like helping people who are struggling. I think that's a challenge. I write books, do podcasts, I'm now a hip hop artists.

Seth 5:41

What?

Matthew 5:42

Yeah, I just played my first show as like a house party for New Years and went well, so Praise Jesus. I'm married, I got a daughter. Yeah, I mean, there's so many things I could say I didn't. You want me to go the mystical route I am. Divine, a divine incarnate being. I am the Christ as Jamal would say.

Seth 6:07

So I didn't know you did social work. What does that look like?

Matthew 6:12

Well, historically I did like eight years of group home. I worked in a juvenile hall first before that, and then I work in group homes now I'm running a Independent Living service program, or I'm co-running for folks with developmental disabilities like cerebral palsy, autism, brain trauma injuries, and just helping them cope with things and learn how to meander the world and get services and pay bills and cook and do all the things that a lot of people take for granted that others maybe struggle with little more. So we help.

Seth 6:52

So they're coming to you or you go to them or how does that work?

Matthew 6:57

Oh in California, we contract through a state agency, and then we l, I'm one of the guys, who runs assessments and sees if it's going to be a fit with our program. So the agency would get a referral from someone who's looking for services and then they third party contract to those who provide the services.

Seth 7:19

Hmm. I didn't even know that was the thing. I mean, it makes sense that it exists. I just never really thought about that…

Matthew 7:26

There's a lot of social work in California. There's a lot of those kind of things. I don't know how it is elsewhere. I've only lived out in California for one year my life so…

Seth 7:35

You just couldn't wait to get back?

Matthew 7:39

Well, that's a long and winding story. Yeah, my wife and I moved, we moved out to Rhode Island for a year and a half.

Seth 7:45

(Moves) the entire continent, and then came back a lot.

Matthew 7:51

Yeah, why I don't know. I like California. I don't like the prices. Everything's expensive as shit out here. But I do like it and this is where my family is.

Seth 7:59

Yeah. I live in California when I was growing up for a few years my dad went to Pacific Coast Baptist Bible College San Dimas maybe Asuza?

Matthew 8:09

Way down in Southern California, yeah, yeah.

Seth 8:13

And then yeah, my brother was born in in Las Cruces. I think is that a city that exists? I was like, six, five.

Matthew 8:19

Yeah, I think so. I think that's Southern California, too. I mean, I mean, it's it look at the state. It's huge. I'm eight hours from LA. And, yeah, when this comes out, I'll have already flown down and I'm flying down tomorrow. So I mean, it's a two hour drive. Luckily, I get to fly. But it's a big state. There's so many towns that never heard of.

Seth 8:36

Yeah. Well, I just remember going to Disneyland all the time.

Matthew 8:41

Yeah. Totally.

Seth 8:43

Yeah. So because you get to go. Not why I brought you on. So you wrote a book called Devoted as and how do you say it because with the asterik how do you actually say it?

Matthew 8:51

Uh, Fuck, is the pronunciation.

Seth 8:54

(Laughter) I didn't know if you said it differently with the Asterik!

Matthew 8:59

I don’t know why we did that. We just did that. I don't know why we did that I forget why we put the asterisks on the cover page and the title. In the book, it doesn't have the asterisk.

Seth 9:09

It does not. Um, so I wanted to talk about some of the themes in that book. And so what I did, because it's, you touch on a lot of different things. And so for those that don't have the book in front of them, it's like a I what would you call it a daily and annual and every day for the year, I don't know what the word is, where you…

Matthew 9:29

I mean, yeah, it's kind of a quasi devotional. It doesn't have like the Bible verse, and then the longer sort of explanation or how it can help you or during that day, but it's more of like a, someone wants told me, I don't know who, that I can say a lot in a short amount of space. So I took that and I kind of tried to say, I hope profound things, sometimes crass, sometimes offensive, but to get people to think and then you get all these lines to jot down your notes. So, it's the most…I mean, I've written five books, this one has the most blank spaces. The other ones have words like I told you before.

Seth 10:08

Well, I mean, this one was it's a different intention, which was my first question. So when I do know that you've written other books, you read a book named Heretic, there's a book that has the word blood in it, I think…

Matthew 10:20

From the blood of Abel.

Seth 10:22

Yeah, that’s it. So why pivot to a devotional book? Like what made you go you know what I should write this! I read through it, because I read the whole thing, because it doesn't take long to read it when most of its blank space although now and going back through because, you know, yesterday was January 1, so why not? It starts a January one let's let's make this happen. So I write I read yesterday's in a read two days, I'll I'll read it for the year. Why not? I think it's harder to write that blurb with nothing really conjoining it to say February 10. You know, like, at least in a book, you got like, here's my bones. Here's what I want to write. Here's what I want to say. And here's how I'm going to do it. So why would you pivot to this?

Matthew 11:01

I like irony I'd be like the last person to ever write a devotional. I've never read one

Seth 11:09

Well you’ve read this one. So I,

Matthew 11:11

So I…oh, yeah, I had to react, you have to read and reread, make sure you don't have typos. I'm sure there still are. But I just, I thought I had I had a lot of quotes that just were like, jotted down, and I thought, “oh, it'd be cool just to make like, a quote a day, and let people kick around the ideas that I'm putting in there”. I mean, it was nothing like profound or like some divine revelation or epiphany that I should do this. It just kind of popped in my head.

Like, you know, this won't take that long to do and maybe it'll be helpful for folks and it'll be fun to write and, and just compile sometimes you got, I've got like, all these journals in here that are like 10 of them, like all full of just stuff. Yeah, when you write a regular book, you got to put all those things together and there's got to be a story arc and you gotta have flow and all this, but this was more like, what am I gonna do with all this shit? Like, I don't want to lose it and sometimes it just you can't expand it to an article or an essay and it just kind of sits there. And so it's like, well, let's just have a bunch of things that just sit there that people can think about and if they don't like it. I took a few seconds to read and I can move on the next one.

Seth 12:21

I have a grandiose vision that I want to try to write a book one of these days. So I've started making notes in the note app on my phone just because I'm lazy and I don't usually have paper handy. I always got a pen, I don't usually have any paper, at least not something that I can't throw away. And as I scroll back through it every once in a while, I'm like, Oh, this was good. I don't even know what this says. I don't even know why I wrote this, this literally, and but I'm afraid to hit Delete because I don't write maybe one day it'll mean something. Again, it obviously meant something when I wrote it down. It means absolutely nothing at the moment.

So I want to jump around some of the thought processes, or some of the questions that I had, based on a few days throughout your book, and then we'll just go wherever it goes from there. Sure. You and I don't this is the only date that I didn't write a day. And so I'm gonna start with this question. You talk about breathing, but you also talk about Buddhism. And I feel like it's either September, October, it could be August. It's right there in those three months. I know it's before August 11. And after September 19.

So it's somewhere and you talk about Buddhism and breathing, and basically calming down but you use the word in the sentence of, you know, of the things that Buddhism has taught me, one of them is this, like breathing. And so I wanted to talk a bit about that, because I've never really heard you talk about Buddhism, like what is kind of your relationship to that practice?

Matthew 13:44

Well, other than just studying some of it for religious studies, interests a lot of Buddhist practitioners and I would call my relationship would be a very loose relationship. It's not a very tight one. But a lot of the practitioners, a lot of the Zen Buddhists, especially in the Mahayana tradition I think, and I'm sure in other traditions too, there is an emphasis on stillness and breathing, as simple as breathing in through the nose, holding your breath for a second and letting it out slowly. And how that helps you be present, and allow thoughts that might be in your head to just be there without being labeled. They're neither good or bad. They could be uncomfortable thoughts, or they could be comfortable thoughts, but they're not something you have to attach. You could just let that be there.

And I think maybe the universe is such that when those things happen, they're supposed to happen for some sort of reason. And it can help us I think, with, you know, accepting those thoughts that come in and just letting them be there and maybe we can learn something from that. I think we're too busy in the West, I think we're too focused on the past or the future, instead of actually being here now as I think it's Rob Bell’s book is called that Be Here Now. But Buddhism has helped me with that. I think you can get that from Christianity or other traditions. But for me, the way Buddhists have talked about it, I just, they've said it in such a way that helps.

Seth 15:22

One quick thing on Rob Bell. So you're the third interview that I've done today. Third person that has brought up Rob Bell, third different book, and I have yet to read any of those books. The only one I've ever read is Love Wins. And nobody really ever quotes that winner really talks about it. They talk about it, but not well from it. If that makes any sense. That's not it's a bad way. Yeah.

Matthew 15:42

Well, but most people don't. There's so many questions in there. Most people don't quote questions, right?

Seth 15:46

Yeah, I've got his what is the Bible book here? Which is another question which I have yet to crack the spine on. I've had it for two years. One of these days I got to it. I just whatever. I just haven't done it yet. Yeah. So You on January 6, talk about the book of Revelation. And I like what you say about it. Is it alright if I quote you on some of these? Yeah. So you say

without a doubt, the dumbest thing that church teaches is that the book of Revelation is a play by play of what is going to happen thousands of year in the future.

And so I agree, but I want to hear it from you. So what then is the book of Revelation? What am I supposed to do with it?

Matthew 16:27

Oh, that's a great chuck it out like the Eastern Orthodox do, no they don't chuck it out they just don't read from it. No, I'm kidding. I honestly, this is the weird thing is I grew up dispensationalists left behind end times, theology, rapture, all that all that BS. So most people would think, oh, Matt must not like the book of Revelation. He must have just checked that because it's terrifying. And for anyone who's lived in that sort of rapture mindset, a lot of our stories are the same, like pretty scared. Pretty scary things going to happen. Like we've all seen those crappy Christian video. Movies of what happens and don't not make age.

Seth 17:03

Don't do it. He was much better like Kirk Cameron's.

Matthew 17:06

I guess I couldn't make I tried to watch it. I thought it would be accidentally funny.

Seth 17:10

So it wasn't good. It wasn't good. I've watched about two thirds of it. Actually, Kurt Cameron’s was better. But I think this because I like him, you know, why not?

Matthew 17:18

Yeah. I remember why I watched the old one. Yeah, I watched maybe half of the new one. But anyway, my point is that I haven't checked it out because of that background. And I think it's important. I think it's an important book. I think first and foremost, it is written to the people of the time shocking, right? Like most everything in ancient texts, whether you date it before 70 ad or after I'm not really that concerned about it, because i think i think it's it's first and foremost historical But second, I think we can read it allegorical and say that. Yes. This is about Rome and the relationship of Empire. And the people and religion and how that all works, and the hell that is coming because of the way we treat each other and how we ruin our stuff. It's about that, but it's, it's about every time we do that every time we are Rome, this leads to that.

These black riders and all this imagery that we have is symbolic of our human systems and where they lead to. So if we're going to create an empire, it's going to lead to destruction and death and famine and war and poverty, and all the things that we see in our world, century in and century out, whether it's Rome or Greek before that, or Babylon, or Egypt, or Britain, or the US.

Now I'm going to get crucified because I'm not being a patriot. (laughter both) But this is the critique that the book has. It has a happy ending “her gates will never be shut”. There's a happy ending. But in we're in the midst of it, I think all the time, whenever we are Babylon, or Rome or the two cities diametrically opposed when we live, like Jesus, and of course that raises the question who is Jesus? We can live in the kingdom of God and we can have a peaceful existence or we can do what we've always done, which is have power over each other and we end in a lake of fire. Like literally right now, Syria, Iran, Iraq, the Middle East, Afghanistan, South America, like there are lakes of fire everywhere, and we keep burning each other and keep killing each other. And it never ends well.

Seth 19:48

I've said this in a different interview, and I'm sure I stole it from somebody. Maybe I stole it from you. Why not?

Matthew 19:57

Steal away!

Seth 19:58

Yeah. Well, I doubt that. I still just feel like trying to be funny. But no, yeah. So actually, I think it was Walter Bruggemann, but it doesn't matter. He basically said, you know, the Bible is always written to the oppressed, the poor, the weak, the marginalized, that are being oppressed by whatever the Empire happens to be, you know, Persia, Babylon doesn't really matter. And so if you live in the Empire, it's not written to you. Yeah, it's probably written about you. It's not written to you probably gonna need to settle down.

Matthew 20:31

And, and having a lot of prophetic tradition. You don't like what it's going to say? Yeah. Because the prophets don't critique the poor. You know what I mean?

Seth 20:41

You talk about the voice of the Prophet, I forget which day it is. It's not one of the ones I wrote down, but basically, that, you know, nobody likes the Prophet because nobody wants to hear anything that the prophets have to say, what do you think the role of a Prophet would be saying California or in Virginia or in Texas, so let's just pick I don't know, Wisconsin. Nobody's picked on Wisconsin…like, what should the role of a prophet be in the church today? It doesn't even have to be in America. Honestly, it doesn't matter. Like what what would the role of a prophet be?

Matthew 21:10

So not to not call yourself Prophet. Like, don't send me a Facebook request when your name is prophet x, y, z, whatever. Because that's, that's the first red flag.

Seth 21:20

You don't hit accept?

Matthew 21:23

Tpically not. I think to critique whatever your current context is, whatever your current leadership to critique those power structures that oppress others, the least of these maybe would be a simple or maybe an overly simple but you know what I mean, like the least of the people that people that are in prison, the people with disabilities, the blind, at you know, that's one listed that Jesus talks—about the LGBTQ community and to critique those who through their power and use of power in places of power and privilege oppress those who become the marginalized of our society. Whether it's state sponsored or whether it's church sponsored, often two sides of the same coin unfortunately.

Seth 22:39

So there's a part in here that you say

taking communion has little, if anything to do with being Christian,

which would be the first thing that people go, okay. I don't know what you're talking about here. Instead, you say

it's about rejecting our propensity toward creating victims.

I literally, hand wrote in question marks are like I don't…I’m not actually connecting with what you're saying there. So what do you mean, when you say that communion is rejecting our propensity towards creative victims? How is that? Are you using the word communion there in the same way that we would at church and it with as my body to take and eat?

Matthew 23:16

Yeah, I think well that's I think that's the symbolism of the story of communion we have. I come from a Girardian perspective, so I'm going to view it from an mimetic theory standpoint. So we have in our typical cultures, we have the creation of scapegoats by othering. And that's how we unify we, as a society if we can come together at the expense of another and we all agree on who that is. The plagues always get lifted, right?

So Oedipus, the Apollonian plague and Thebes gets lifted after Oedipus is expelled. We have all these stories. Pilot and Herod become friends after they were they were they weren't friends they become friends when they agree that Yeah, Jesus had to go.

I don't say that to say that if you're a Christian you can't take communion or nothing. No, no, I mean, I'm just saying like the term Christian has become so I don't I don't want to say watered down but it's become so meaningless. Like we can be just as victimizing and call ourselves Christian. And we think that when we take the communion, the bread and the wine, that somehow like this does, this has just like a salvific thing for me. Like but it's no, I think it's about instead of having an altar of sacrifice, where we continually put each other on, or a cross, we come together at its table, and we eat together.

And when we do that, we do it even with Judas, like we don't victimize. Like we refuse to enter into that rivalry that others are doing to us. It’s less about, for me the term Christian, and more about what does that mean? It means to follow the way of Christ. It means to be forgiving. Offensively forgiving. Like I'm not that way. I don't know. Who was it that said there's only one Christian and it was Jesus. Was it Kierkegaard, no it wasn’t Kierkegaard.

Seth 25:21

I don't know, but I like it.

Matthew 25:23

Yeah, no, it was…shit. I can't remember.

But anyway, I'm not that I rarely, like I still have the propensity to scapegoat others and gossip about others and build myself up at the expense of others, rather than being like, ridiculously forgiving and merciful and gracious. So that's that's all I mean by that, like when we when we follow Jesus, we don't create victims.

So hopefully actually the term Christian and the second part of that phrase, I said, that those are the same thing because I think that's more to me what Christianity means. I don't see it as some sort of like personal salvific thing that I now get to go to heaven when I die. I hardly think that's even what the New Testament is even talking about. I think it's about following a certain ethic. That's, that's more of my focus like it's an ethic rather than all these metaphysical claims.

Seth 26:20

I want to park it at mimetic theory, but I don't want to discuss it. So where would you send it because I really am not prepared to talk about mimetic theory. Um, but I feel like people listen to that will go, what, what the hell is my memetic theory? So right, what are just a handful of places that you would send people to to be like, yeah, that's not what we're talking about now, but it's something that you should dig into. Yeah, look up this look up this look up this just to get a quick Crash Course. If that makes any sense.

Matthew 26:47

Yeah, no, totally. Well, you should always read primary sources, right. So Rene Girard was a French anthropologist who developed a theory of behavior and culture and you said didn’t you want to get into it, but that's where Go. So you go to Rene Girard, you would read primary materials he's very difficult to read.

So I would start with I See Satan Fall Like Lightning. But honestly, like, if you just want an introduction I'd go to to Ravenfoundation.org. Because the way they, they have infographics, they have videos, they have blogs. It's a very easy to digest way of, you know, the way they put it is easily accessible for people. Yeah, that's right, I would send them in and, you know, always read primary sources because you want to get it from the horse's mouth.

Seth 27:33

Let me rephrase, I do want to discuss it, we just don't actually have the time to discuss it at least not this evening. Due to the time shift difference, we'll have to find a better time to begin to make that happen. So you talked about metaphysical like heaven and hell, and that possibly, that's not what the New Testament is talking about. Unless I'm misquoting you from a minute ago, but I feel like I'm not because you just said it.

Matthew 27:59

I don't think that's the primary focus by any means.

Seth 28:00

So then what is heaven? And what is hell? Like? How did those have any sway? Like what? You you actually talked about it at the beginning of the year somewhere in January, of you know, Heaven and Hell are experiences that are happening now. And I think that's close to what you said. It's probably it's marginally close. So what do you mean by that? Because for most people, Heaven is a place I'm going to, and Hell is a place I'm going to. And I don't actually agree with either of those. But I'm curious where you're coming out from that viewpoint.

Matthew 28:32

Yeah, well, I think Heaven and Hell or the kingdom of God, the kingdom of heaven, you could use those kind of interchangeably. I just think they're present realities, and they’re ways of being in the world now. And I think it works on multiple different levels. I think it has to do with internal peace, external peace, societal peace. All those kind of things are part of the kingdom of God or the kingdom of heaven. And hell the same thing. We can go through psychological hell, we can go through war, we can go through poverty, we can face trauma and that can be a “hel”l of sorts. If you want to get real technical Gehenna is hell. Gehenna has a notorious history in Judaism of being a place where they get burned after they get slaughtered by other empires. And that's where they literally go they go to hell and their bodies are burn and smoke rises up forever and ever and the worm dies not and it turns that lake I forget the Dead Sea is that what it is? It turns that into literally like a lake of fire creates brimstone and sulfur and all this kind of stuff. That's hell.

Why is it hell? Because Empire and Empire there's a good reason all empires leads to hell. And because of our power structures, which include Empire like the powers and principalities. We have hell all the time. Stalin's gulags are hell, Nazi camps are hell, Japanese internment camps are hell, so I can continue to be unpatriotic, the Trail of Tears, which is kind of a, that's not the right kind of title for something like that. That was horrific. That's hell. There's really fundamentally no difference, I think between that and Gehenna. Gehenna was just specific to Jewish tradition. So, these are present realities we can live in as a society as a person in our inner relational, you know, in our relationships.

Seth 30:44

Yeah. I want to give you one quick critique, I think you're using patriotism wrong. I think you're confusing patriotism with nationalism. It’s okay to not be nationalistic. Yeah, actually, it's probably healthy, as I believe a patriot would actually go up. Yeah, you can't do this. This is actually not what this country stands for. There are other countries that do stand for that, just not this not this one.

Matthew 31:09

Yes, I say firmly ,with my tongue firmly planted in cheek. But thank you for pointing that out. Because you're absolutely right I think.

Seth 31:16

Well, I just want to make sure that we're all in this together.

Matthew 31:21

Nothing wrong with that.

Seth 31:22

Um, I have two questions about two things that you said recently, I think on Facebook, and I don't have screenshots of either, so I'm probably gonna get them wrong. One was a critique of liberal fundamentalism, I believe you had talked about of, you know, there's fundamentalist on the right hand side, which let's just call that Jim Jeffries or Jerry Falwell, Jr. or whatever. What do you mean, I think it was you this was talking about, you know, liberal fundamentalism is exactly the same problem. Like, can you kind of what is that like liberal fundamentalism?

Matthew 31:54

Well, I don't know if I said it's exactly the same problem, but I think they look exact. They're very my mimetic. It seems like the reflection of one another. And what I mean is that I'll give you an example. Like I don't remember the exact point of discussion that I was having with someone, but I didn't fall in line. I'm very liberal. I'm very socially liberal. I didn't quite agree with something someone said and they called me Alt Right. And so it acts the same way as when I critique conservative religious fundamentalism, and I get called an apostate or a heretic.

We're just going to use this pejorative to demonize the other person and write them off because they're not exactly on our team. So for the right, it would be you know, if it's theological, it might be I don't agree with penal substitution atonement theory. “Oh, you're a heretic then”. Or I don't I don't affirm eternal torment I'm an unabashed Universalist. Oh my god here. heretic you're in a pause or I say, I don't even really know if I'm a Christian half the time. “Oh, you're an apostate”. You're you're not you're you're a hellbound. He's in a wolf in sheep's clothing. You get some people on the left, who will have the same tactic. And I'm not saying that they do as bad as stuff is some of the people on the right like, some of the stuff the right does is very gross in the way they treat other people.

But it's the same sort of tactic when you call me Alt Right, like you must be so far left. And even if you are I don't know how I'm Alt Right, because I'm very socially liberal. It just makes no sense. It's a pejorative, it's an attack. It's an ad hominem or something. But it kind of has the same energy. It's just using these demonizing pejoratives to other the person so that everything they say is now discredited and absurd. And I could be just a little off from you, let's say and some people will still use that; or if you said something to years ago and the they’ll say see how terrible of a person you are you hate gay people. And it's like no, I actually despise that. I said that I'm grossed out that I believe that and I don't believe that anymore. And some people will still quote unquote cancel you because you said it on Twitter or something. Like well wait a minute…if you're going to be not conservative fundamentalist, why is there no grace because that's, that's something they do. There's no grace for you. You go to hell forever if you don't believe like, so you get kicked out of our church. It's the same energy on the other side.

And I've just noticed that because I've seen it. It's like, I said, something that I critiqued Hillary Clinton one time, and I got called by some sort of, like, I'm just, I'm anti-woman, and I'm like, just hammering home the patriarchy. And I just thought that was weird. It's like, yeah, on the one hand, I'm sure I have blind spots. We all do, right? I'm sure we engage in racist things and we benefit from a racist structure. So in that way, are we racist? That could be a discussion? We might be in that way.

And in one way, yeah, I'm a male, I probably do things that hammer home to patriarchy, and we all have blind spots, but just to use those pejoratives because I critique someone who happens to be a woman because I didn't like her war voting record, which is always check Yes, check yes, check Yes. The two have nothing to do with the you know what I mean? Like, that's not because I'm patriarchal. Like, I think most men who have been in charge have a horrible war record, and they're probably worse than women who have ever had run stuff.

Seth 35:40

I don't know if you're like me, I see those Facebook memories pop up from a decade ago or whatever, because I'm not that old. But I'm old enough to remember when you had to go to the right college to get on Facebook. Like it had to come to your university, or you didn't get in you. So I hope maybe I'm all in you. Doesn't matter.

Matthew 35:57

Why I have only been on Facebook like five years.

Seth 36:00

Yeah, well then yeah, back in the day, it was like you had to have a.edu or dot.whatever, email address and it had to come to your university. And it was like University to University rollout. And it was literally only universe like you had you couldn't get on if you were just some high school kid.

And then eventually, you know they were like “hey we could sell ads everybody's welcome!” But, uh, but yeah, I'll see things from, you know, when I was 18-19. And I'm like, man, I can't believe I ever believe that. And part of me is tempted to delete them, just to delete them. But I haven't yet because they were true at the time. They're not true anymore. I'm really happy that they're no longer that I don't find that true at all. I used to. And yeah, so there is one other thing that you said recently that I literally went “Hmm”. And I thought about it for a while. I think the word you said was I think I'm at a point now that I'm post-Christian and you actually said something similar just a minute ago. What do you mean when you say that like what does that even mean?

Matthew 37:00

Well, I'm to the point where I don't, I don't think about it ever. I don't think well, what am I? Like what label best describes me? Like Christian just becomes one of those labels where it's like, I had to ask myself, does it matter if I'm a Christian? Like, what is this, this really calling myself matter at all? I mean, if I call myself a Christian, would I be able to talk to more people who are Christians? Not the way I talk! Not my personality, and I'm not gonna be talking to those folks anyway. And that's fine that I don't need to talk to everyone.

We don't have to all talk, right? There's a 7 billion of us like, certainly, we don't have to talk. And I just I just met Well, of course, I was a Christian, I would self identify as a Christian and I wouldn't say I'm not, but sometimes I just feel like that's just labeling myself or using a label to define myself is just something I no longer think about. I don't think I need to. I don't think I need to do anything to be saved ultimately. In one way, sure, you have to think a certain way for healing to take place and if salvation is kind of synonymous with healing or close enough, well, yeah, of course, our thought patterns can be salvific the things we believe can be salvific in one way, but ultimately, I don't think I have to be like, I'm not going to ask the question Oh, did you give your heart to the Lord and make Jesus as your personal Savior and other I don't like I don't think God and God's gonna be up there. And I have to answer it right otherwise, you know, I get zapped.

No, it's just it's become less of something that even takes up space in my head. Or any thoughts during the day Hmm, I don't know i i don't i don't want to sound like kind of pretentious been like “Oh, I should all labels!” That one's just personally not helpful.

Seth 39:01

Yeah, no, I'm fine with that. I also don't give the title much thought. But it is the easiest when people so actually, I had someone asked me at my job the other day, you know, what would you call yourself religiously? And I struggled, I was like, “Well, I mean, I definitely, definitely love Jesus”. But I'm also not this and not this and not this, and not this, and not this. So whatever those aren't, I'm the opposite of those. And I just looked, I was like, I don't know what the right label is. Yes, I'm just going to want to talk about Jesus.

Cool. Last question. And it's a question I'm going to try to ask everyone. And then just so that it kind of makes sense. I plan to talk with many, many different people this year that aren't Christian at all. And so I definitely want to ask them the question, but I don't want to just ask them the question because that would be, that would be wrong. So when I say hey, Matthew, tell me about when you say the word God, here's what you're actually intending to say like when you say here is who God is…this is what I want to say.

Matthew 40:08

Oh, wow. Small question.

Seth 40:10

It's tiny.

Matthew 40:11

Right. Yeah. Well, I think it's interesting because I think when most people say God or when everyone says God, it's a theology I think, like the letters G o d are not God's name, the letters God or not God, they're the kind of pointers like that point in the direction. So where am I pointing? I can I be cliche and say, 1 John 4:8 a shirt say God is God is love. I think that's a good pointer. I like the idea of how David Bentley Hart translates satchitananda, as being consciousness and bliss. So God is pure being this. God has been as such not a being but being God is pure consciousness and God is experienced as bliss. I like that such it and under i think is the Hindu understanding of maybe what they wouldn't call it God necessarily. They might I don't remember.

We're all kind of gods were lower case g gods in the I think in all of the what is it some sort of spider web? I don't know we were way out.

Seth 41:26

We were way out of my wheelhouse there.

Matthew 41:28

Oh, yeah, yea Indra’s web, web, I believe. We're all we're all connected like a spider web sort of deal. So that that's kind of what I would say I I it resonates in my bones. I can say theological things about God, or what God isn't. I think this sort of negative theology which is important. We always in the West talk about we have that whole like Westminster we have 1000 descriptors of God and God is Omni-everything in the East, I think they think things through a little more differently it's negative. God is not these things because I think that can help whittle down like they just it's helpful that's a good way i think it's it's an alternate way of thinking and I like that it's apophatic vs cataphatic knowledge if you want to get

Seth 42:17

So yeah, yeah well It reminds me of those Maxim's you know God is at least this but also is not this or however you want to put the maxims together.

Matthew 42:26

So love being consciousness and bliss I would say maybe are the four four words that I think point toward God.

Seth 42:36

Yeah, I like it. I like it. So far, like 10 episodes and none of those have been released actually yet. yet. No one is yet to give the same answer which I was actually worried everyone was just gonna give the same answer but it's been. It's actually been one of my favorite questions lately. Point people in the right spot. Where do they go to get ahold of you? Listen to your stuff, read your stuff. Do the things and I know you've got a Patreon where you'll you give people all of your books effectively for a certain amount of money, which is probably a good deal. I haven't done the math, but it probably is. Maybe I'm wrong on that.

Matthew 43:11

Well, yeah, where would you point people to? I've got like a million things going. So yeah, my websites allsetfree.com. And actually, I'm excited because I just started blogging again. It is going to be behind a paywall. So for $1 a month, you have to sign in with Patreon and go in there and get this for me dollar month at minimum, but what I'm doing is I'm taking the revised common lectionary, and I'm going through I started in advent. I'm giving thoughts and reflections on every Gospel passage from that week's lectionary. So I'm doing year a gospel passages all the way through, and then I'll do your be when we get there. And I'm doing that at allsetfree.com, so each week will be my thoughts and reflections on that week's Gospel reading heretic happy is a podcast I co host and the websites heretichappyhour.com It's of course wherever you wherever you listen to this lovely show you I'm sure can listen to us. Unless you're no Are we on Spotify? Yeah, I think we might be on Spotify…

Seth 44:12

Yeah, I am on Spotify. I'm yeah, so wherever you listening, I think I'm on Spotify. I don't know. I it's everywhere right and then that's how the internet works. I don't know.

Matthew 44:22

That's that thing, this whole thing that Al Gore invented so thank God. Yeah, and of course Facebook and I do some Twitter and Instagram but mainly Facebook if you actually want to talk to me. Yeah, perfect. If your profile name starts with evangelist or prophet, don't do it. I might not accept your request.

Seth 44:42

Maybe who knows…

Matthew 44:43

Maybe…oh and I have the bonfire sessions, which is another podcast that I do too. So you can find that on same platforms.

Seth 44:52

Matthew. Thank you for coming on. I enjoyed it.

Matthew 44:55

Yeah, thanks for having me, man. Loved it.

Seth Outro 45:13

I said this on Twitter the other day and I mean it 100% both for this episode and for the ones prior and the ones to come. I know how much of a time commitment it is to each of the guests to come on to the show and I'm very thankful for that and so I want to go on record and just say thank you so much for that literally not possible to do this without their voices and and really could do a lot of things with their time and I'm thankful they share it.

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